A/N: Hey guys swlfangirl here.. thank all you guys for the reviews... tons of luv to my new internet wife LovelyFangirls.. and I hope this makes it better Impala67.. I still have some loose ends to tie up.. sorry if you were expecting it done now but .hey I'm saving it for later lol .. You're awesome thanks for always being so generous with your time! L-Lover61.. wow just thanks for all the awesomeness.. Every Chapter! You rock! and as always DogLady.1 I couldn't ask for a better fan! Thank you so much guys...

Okay with that out of the way I need to say a couple more things.. Cas is gonna be a little ..*alot* OOC in this.. but it's mostly because for the story I've kind of made his innocence and curiosity and confusion like a mask he can wear.. he can pick it up or put it down and be real.. I hope this doesn't confuse everyone.. also as far as timing goes in this I've not really set it specifically but let's just say Heaven's open.. God's back or something.. and No Gadreel riding Sammy.. IF there are any more questions feel free to ask in a review or pm me if you'd like .. Remember as a Guest.. I can't send the information back to you .. so... yeah! lol Okay here we go.. I hope you enjoy it!

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Dean stared in shock, he didn't even get to see Sam or ask any questions about what their life together was like. All he had was a bunch of information (he didn't even know if his Cas would understand), and the promise that he'd always regret it if he didn't make a move.

"I need a drink."

Castiel was disappointed. He wasn't sure what to expect, but he certainly didn't think that alcohol would be the first thing Dean wanted. He nearly left in fear of what was to come. But he knew that their bond was unbreakable, even if Dean refused to accept it was more than friendship. So he sat there while the hunter pounded back two shots of dark liquor at the bar.

Castiel's head was tilted down and the smug smile he'd been wearing earlier completely faded, as Dean made his way back to their table. There was an ache in Dean's heart when he saw him like that.

"Come on Angel, Let's go."

He looked up and Dean would have swore the light was playing tricks on him. Surely those were not tears brimming in his eyes.

Cas followed Dean outside and the hunter gently slid a hand to up to press against the small in his back. He found comfort in the gentle touch even if it was temporary, he would cherish it. They walked the four blocks to the motel neither saying a word.

When the door closed Dean sighed doing his best to find the right words and knowing he'd fail miserably. He shook his head as he sat down on the bed and patted the space beside him. When Cas took the seat he noticed exactly how different his Cas was from the one he'd been talking to earlier. His was sitting straight and stiff barely pushing against the mattress. The other seemed to feel more at ease and comfortable with his surroundings. He smiled hoping one day his Cas would be that relaxed beside him. Definitely not AS relaxed as Zachariah's version though.. that dude was nothing like the angel he fell in love with.

"Okay So I suck at this stuff, you know me .. you know that about me.. But I'm here .. with you and I'm going to do the best I can to say the things you need to know." Dean stopped to smile as he thought about how much Cas 2.0 had seemed more like himself than his own Cas.

"First, I should apologize for the way I've been acting for the last two weeks, it was uncalled for. I was really confused and scared.. I guess.. after we..well you know. I know it doesn't make sense I've stared Death in the face, LITERALLY and pissed him off. But, one hour spent with you can evoke fear in me like I've never felt. Fear of accepting this, fear of others both accepting and not accepting this, fear of losing this, fear of screwing it up, and several other things I can't even name. Because I can't have anything good in my life, I've tried.. it's not worked out well for any of them and ..with Lisa.. I really tried, I mean I put myself out there.. I loved that woman, and I loved Ben too. And by doing that they became a target. I'm not even sure erasing their memories has saved them from any of it. Sometimes ,I think I had you do that more for me than for her and Ben..Because I couldn't handle the calls saying they were in danger.. what if I couldn't get there in time.. what if another person died just because they cared about me..I thought it broke something inside of me. I'm not sure it hasn't, even that pain and hurt feels numb now."

Dean stopped talking when he felt the soft fingertips brushing against his. The angel was doing everything he could to comfort him.

"Shit, I'm doing it again.. I'm supposed to be confessing my undying love for you and I start by talking about my ex.. this is like some horrible example of a bad first date in a chick flick movie. Listen Cas, you're great.. you mean more to me than anyone, maybe even more than Sam. I know I'll probably sound like a selfish bastard for saying this, but with you I don't have to be anything other than me. It's not his fault, but with Sam I'm always the big brother, the protector, the willing to do anything guy just so he doesn't feel an ounce of pain more than he needs to. It's in my DNA.. or something .. It's just who I am to him. I wouldn't change anything, even now.. even knowing all of it good and bad I could not do anything differently. With you though, Cas.. I just.. I need to be me.. and you get that.. and Nobody has ever done that. No matter how much the alcohol, the women, or my fake plastered smile can hide...you always seem to get past it all anyway. Just..I love you Cas. I know I'll probably not say it enough, or do enough, I'll never deserve you, but I've said it now.. I don't want you to ever think it was any other way."

Castiel's smile would have lit up the state if his grace was showing. He couldn't imagine anything better than this, right here.. this experience with his love, his soul mate..He would never be happier than he was in this moment!

"I love you too Dean, I think the way you said it was perfect... well up until you said you don't deserve me, but we'll work on that. I'll help you love yourself Dean Winchester, you are the most deserving soul I have ever seen. You have made me a very happy angel."

Dean smiled, now timidly as if he were scared. His hand rubbed against the back of his neck in curiosity.

"So what now? I mean should we tell Sam, or ..well what are we? I haven't even properly kissed.. I just don't know what to call you. I mean I call you Cas obviously, but I mean besides that.. I've never really done this sorta thing before.. is it boyfriend? Or is it partner? Or are we not there yet? I'm so conf..."

Dean was cut off abruptly with soft lips on his own and he surrendered to the beauty and passion behind them. Slowly he pushed against them and deepened the kiss gradually. Castiel's mouth was first to open and Dean couldn't resist. He sucked the angel's lower lip in his mouth and moaned at the delicious taste.

Dean's hands moved to wrap around Cas' waist and Castiel pushed harder against him as he closed his hands around the hunter's neck. Tongues slowly dancing in their mouths as the passion grew deeper. They broke apart both panting.

"Wow."

Castiel smiled. It made him happy to see how Dean was always slightly surprised at his ability to please him.

"Yes, Wow.. now as for the other things.. none of that matters Dean.. I don't care for labels or terms, as long as you know that you are mine and you belong only to me for as long as we agree to be together. I want no more of this popping inside every female, just to prove your masculinity. Are we clear?"

"Yeah Cas, no more lonely ladies.. just one request.. on my part."

"What do you want Dean?"

"I want you to stay.. I mean if you need to fly back up there for business or whatever that's fine.. but I want you beside me unless it's absolutely necessary that you be elsewhere."

"You have my word."

"And thus, it is written the Angel Castiel is whipped!"

"Well Dean, I didn't know you were ready to explore that far yet but if that's what you wish..."

Dean's face goes red with embarrassment, not expecting anything like that to leave the angel's innocent mouth. Then it might have gotten a shade darker, as he realized his angel's mouth isn't really all that innocent anymore.

That's when Cas barks out a laugh he's never heard before.

"You should see your face!"

The angel continues to laugh as Dean tackles him to the bed.

"Alright, now your'e just asking for it!"

"Well I'd beg if I thought it would get you to put it in any faster."

"Oh my God where did you get that Dirty Mouth."

"I've spent years with you Dean Winchester. Do you really think I've learned nothing?"

"That's fucking hot.. corrupting an angel is apparently one of my kinks."

Castiel snapped his fingers and immediately they were naked.

"Well then, you should probably get started.. I have a lot to learn."

Dean smiled as he raked his hands over the taught muscled skin.. This was going to be the best night of his angel's life or he'd die trying.