Consequences of the Past Chapter 4, a rookie blue fanfic

Chapter 4

Whilst everyone at the station went back to what they were doing before all the commotion Andy was with Traci driving to her dad's.

She knocked on the door and ended up knocking it down only to find her dad passed out on the couch still half holding the nearly empty bottle of scotch.

Andy wiped the tears from her face without realising.

Traci helped her clean up her dad without talking. Andy didn't want to wait for her dad to wake up so the left and just went to the Penny.

Traci had called Frank and gotten them the rest of the day off and the others shift was almost over. Andy had already had four shots by the time the officers started to arrive at the Bar. Traci watched over her friend loyally.

She knew her friend was in a fragile state. She couldn't rely on anyone to stay so she rarely opened up.

Traci was surprised that they were such great friends after everything that had happened in Andy's past but she always tried her hardest to be there for Andy.

Sam walked into the bar and spotted Andy sitting at the bar with Traci. He and Jerry walked over just as Andy was ordering her next drink.

Jerry and Traci went off to a table nearby so Traci could keep an eye on Andy but have her own privacy as well. Sam and Andy just sat at the Bar not talking.

Sam could see the barriers that were holding back Andy's tears breaking. Andy finally felt drunk enough to look up. What she saw standing in the doorway was the last thing she wanted right now.

Both her parents were there, her dad looking irritated and slightly hung over; her mom had obviously gone to his apartment and demanded that he take her to Andy.

She let her head bang against the bar top. Sam would've laughed in another situation.

It was karaoke night at the Penny and the machine was free, Sam saw the decision flash in her eyes as she stood up and walked over to the mike.

The officers started to crowd round, they had heard her earlier but now she had the full backing tracks they wanted to hear her again.

Andy's parents could be seen in the crowd along with the rookies. Sam stood with Jerry, Oliver, Noelle and Frank near the rookies.

The TO's raised their eyebrows at Sam but he just shook his head.

Andy was flicking through the tracks when a bitter smile formed on her face and she hit select and held the microphone to her mouth.

Her voice was thick from the amount she had had to drink but not slurred. It showed the emotion even more:

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Andy's eyes swept over the crowd to her parents. This song highlighted how she felt about her past and how she wanted nothing like it for her future.

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

Traci knew that the main reason for Andy's approach to things was because of what her mom had done. She felt angry that Andy's mom felt she could just waltz back into Andy's arms and then act upset when Andy didn't welcome her.

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Sam thought back to earlier that day. Andy held a tough front rarely letting anyone break down her barriers. Her theory was that if you don't let anyone near enough to hurt you, they won't.

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Andy had watched her dad waste away ever since her mom had left. He relied on Andy for everything but never saw how much the whole situation had actually affected her.

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

When the song finished pretty much everyone in the bar was stunned. Andy wasn't known to be an angry person, far from it, she was always the loving caring one. Andy looked uncomfortable for a moment but then stepped down from the platform and walked through the crowd as it parted like the red sea.

She grabbed her coat and walked out of the bar. Everyone stood motionless except Sam who went after her.

He didn't have to look far; she was sitting on the hood of his truck humming to herself.

"Need a ride?"

Andy just nodded as he helped her down and held the passenger door open for her.

Sam knew that her parents would go looking for her at her apartment so he drove back to his house.

There was silence in the car and Sam looked over to her about to ask her what happened but saw that she had fallen asleep with her head resting on the window.

He smiled sadly to himself as he opened the door carefully and lifted her out.

He put her on the bed in the guest room and took her shoes off carefully tucking her under the covers and kissing her softly on the forehead.

Sam walked into his own room and got ready for bed himself. He didn't know what was going on with Andy and her family but he was going to do his best to be there for her every step of the way.

Sam fell asleep thinking about the song she had sung back at the Penny. He knew she hated her parents for what they had done to her but he couldn't help but wonder when she sang bout 'not letting anyone else in' – was she talking about him?