Chapter 4

A/N- Hey everyone thank you so much for R&R it means so much to me I'm so sorry I haven't updated in a while I've been busy with life and planning a wedding while my marine fiancé is deployed we were finally able to set a date. Enough excuses so I know everyone wants me to skip ahead to Tris' choosing ceremony but I'm not doing that until next chapter sorry if that disappoints you but I wanted to right her training with her mom and set up for the choosing ceremony and her seeing Tobias. Now I have a question that requires you're opinion should I make Tris and Tobias recognize each other right away or should I make one recognize the other but the other have doubts. Personally I want them to know each other off the bat however my beta wants for Tobias to recognize Tris because of her pearl but Tris not recognize Tobias until training starts. So what do you think? Either PM or review to let me know now onto the story shall we.

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I wake up the next morning felling completely exhausted I barely slept between the crying and the nightmares about Tobias, how am I going to bare the next two years with very little sleep and sore eyes from crying constantly. That's when I remember my conversation with my mother, I hurry up and get dressed making sure to hide my pearl. I head downstairs and notice my father and brother have already left for their jobs aka volunteering with the new initiates. I go looking for my mother and I find her in the kitchen making tea.

"Good morning mom"

"Good morning Beatrice, did you sleep well?"

"No I didn't but I'm guessing you already knew that. Mom I wanted to know if you really meant what you said last night."

"Yes I suspected, and to answer your question yes I meant every word it's going to take about a week to get everything and we will set it up in the basement that way we don't alert the neighbors"

"Thank you mom for doing this I know it is selfish and I'm supposed to be selfless but I miss him so much and even if I did all the volunteer work in the world it's not going to help the giant hole in my heart that is there when I can't see him or touch him. He's been my best friend since we were both very small and my boyfriend for the last year; we've seen each other almost every day since. I think training for dauntless might increase my chances of succeeding and distract me from the pain."

My mom walks over to me and wraps me in one of her rare hugs while she hugs me "Beatrice it is both selfish and selfless at the same time. Selfish because you could be helping others with your new free time and instead you're thinking about your heart. However it's selfless because the benefits of your training will help Tobias in the long run if something were to happen to you during initiation it would kill Tobias that boy loves you more than anything on this planet. That is why we're going to train and prepare that way you will be able to live a happy life with the boy you love but if your father asks you aren't doing this for Tobias because I really don't want to have the conversation that you're too young for a boyfriend."

We both laugh at her last statement and hug for a minute more before she lets me go and I answer her

"Thank you and I love you mom"

"You're welcome and I love you too Beatrice"

-One Week Later-

I get home around 2pm after working at the sorting center to find my mom waiting for me in the family room knitting a sweater for the factionless.

"Mom I'm home, do you need help with anything?" I ask hoping that she says no so I can take a nap before dinner since I'm still not sleeping well.

"Oh Beatrice thank god you're home before your father and brother. I have something to show you" she smiles and gets up from her knitting she grabs my hand and leads me to the basement. When we get to the door she flips the light switch and it's the most amazing thing I've seen in a while. In the right corner is a target for what looks like knife throwing and in the left corner is another target for shooting practice I'm guessing because of the gun that's sitting on a table and in the middle of the room is a mat and of to the side by the stairs is a punching bag. It's an amazing place filled with tools that will help make me dauntless.

I head down the stairs and look around for a minute before turning to my mother who is smiling wide and I say "When do we start?"

She laughs and says "we start tonight, in your room you will find some workout clothes I'm going to warn you that they reveal a lot of skin that you aren't used to showing but I think you might want to get used to it because if not the dauntless compound is going to be a huge culture shock. Meet me down here at 10pm we will train for two hours to start with and the depending on our schedule and progress we may add more time."

I nod at her letting her know I understand then say "Thank you mom I can't wait to start. I'm going to take a small nap before I start dinner is that alright?"

"Beatrice I think that is a great idea I will wake you in two hours"

Before I head upstairs I hug her and thank her again. When I get up to my room I go look at the clothes she gave me I find five pairs of shorts, three tank tops, two t-shirts, and five sports bras, along with a pair of combat boots and everything is black I can't help thinking "how in the hell did she get all of this"

After my nap I go down stairs and start dinner chicken breast, sweet potatoes and parsnips, and peas plain and simple. As I'm waiting for dinner to finish in the oven my father and brother come home my mother sends my brother to shower while my mom asks to speak to dad uh oh this can't be good. She takes him into the family room in minutes my parents are yelling at each other. After 10 minutes of yelling back and forth my father walks into the kitchen red faced with the vein in his neck standing out but even though his face look angry his eyes look sad.

"Beatrice your mother told me what you have planned, is it true that in two years you plan on transferring to dauntless even if your aptitude test says a different faction?" he calms down after asking me however I think that the calmness is going to end when I answer him. I look over his shoulder and see my mother she nods at me to answer him.

"Yes father I do plan on transferring to dauntless. I'm sorry if that hurts you and makes you feel betrayed but we all know that I don't belong in abnegation I'm not selfless enough like Caleb and mom and even you. In Dauntless I'll get to be myself I'll be free to live the life I want to become the person I've always wanted to be. Both you and mom left your families to transfer to abnegation imagine how your families felt when you left without telling them at least now you know what I'm going to do and you can help me succeed because let's face it if I don't do something the chances of me passing initiation are slim to none. I know this goes against everything you believe in but please daddy let mom teach me how to be free and brave." I look at him pleading with my eyes as a single tear rolls down my face.

He looks at mom and then at me he steps forward and hugs me then kisses the top of my head and says "Okay."