As I raced back to the house I found myself growing weaker. Oh no. I thought are vampires suppose to feel like this? Edward noticed that I began to fall behind and scooped me up and threw me into my familiar place on his back. It wasn't long before we were back in the living room of our new home.

My new family had uprooted there entire life to move us to Alaska all because of me, to be honest I felt guilty but they did their best to calm my nerves. They even had the new house decorated much like the old one so it still felt like "home" They've treated be so well, while all I've ever been was a burden.

Edward laid me down upon the couch. A look of worry clearly shown across his face. "Bella what's wrong" I heard his words as his face swam in and out of focus.

I mumbled incoherently. His gentle hands were upon my face, his face so close our noses nearly touching. "Bella please tell me what is wrong, Alice said you would be all right, I believed her please Bella please speak to me."

The only word that managed to escape my lips was "sleep". But I was a vampire and as a vampire I could not sleep. The exhaustion washed over me but no sleep came as a relief, I merely sank deeper and deeper, into the sleepless dark pit. Far off I could still hear Edward's frantic voice, "Bella please come back to me Bella!Somebody help me!"

Something cold was pressed to my lips. A fowl taste flooded into my mouth. "Swollow it Bella please" Edward pleaded.I did as my lover instructed. It wasn't as bad as the blood had tasted it had sort of an earthy taste to it. I took another sip and my vision began to return, I found myself in Edward's bed. "Bella can you hear me?" It was Carlisle voice.

I managed a weak mmmh.

" I think she's going to be all right now." Said Carlisle.

Edward pulled me so close to his body, and spoke with such relief. "Oh thank god Bella you're all right, I was so scared, I didn't know what I would do if I had lost you, thoughts of Italy even crossed my mind."

My eyes snapped open at these words. "Edward no! Don't ever say such words." As a flood of pain rushed through my entire body reminding me of the time I had jumped. Oh please Edward I'm sorry I didn't mean to scare you. I'm so sorry.I don't even know what happened"

"Bella don't be stupid, how can you be sorry, none of this is your fault." You were weakened by the lack of nutrients in your system. It wasn't your fault you haven't eaten in five days." He tried to convince me

"but only if I had done what you had told me and drank, then this would never have never happened, and I would have never hurt you so. All I ever do is hurt you, I thought that would have changed when I turned, but I'm still hurting you now. I'm so sorry." The guilt was eating away at me

"My dear sweet Bella none of that matters now. All that matters to me is that your all right. And I have Carlisle to thank for that. If it wasn't for him concocting this nutrition shake I may have lost you... For real this time. I heard the words catch in his throat as he spoke the last words.

I buried my face into his perfect stone chest. I wept tearless sobs, "Edward, Edward please forgive me."

His fingers wove into my hair, as he gently kissed the top of my head. "Bella I could never be angry with you, it's just that... you scared me. I guess I still have to protect you even if you are a vampire now"

Carlisle cleared his throat to remind us of his presence. " Bella I think you should drink the rest of this." He handed me a glass of muddy green liquid. I gulped it down quickly to try and avoid the taste, but found that after awhile it wasn't as hard anymore to keep down. Granted it wasn't very good but at least it beat drinking blood. "Sorry about the taste. I was in a hurry to get it mixed together. I never thought you would crash so fast. I will take more time to tweak the mixture and maybe add flavoring to it. I assume this is going to become you main food source if you can't tolerate animal blood.I'm sorry but there's no way we can allow you to drink human 'll just have to wait it out and see if this waited until he was certain I had regained all my strength before leaving. "Well I'll leave you two alone, and get to making your next meal," said Carlisle as he walked out the door quietly closing it behind him.