The Twilight Saga is owned by Stephanie Meyer, I own nothing but my imagination and a need to bitch slap Jacob for giving me a headache.

Chapter 4

Jacob's POV

Every one leaves.

The nausea was paralysing, the acidic bilious acid in my stomach was creeping up my oesophagus, burning as it moved, pushed from below by the gigantic frantic bats that were trapped in my stomach. My heart was beating wildly since the phone call from the Pixie twenty four hours ago. I haven't slept or eaten since, so I was running on adrenaline and caffeine. Six years, she has been gone for six whole years. Now, after all my searching I'm a few hours away from my heart. How shall I explain myself? How can I tell her everything that has happened since she left? Will she believe me? Will she accept me back? It was thought that no wolf could fight the imprint, not surprisingly my Leah has proved them all wrong. This made me proud, she was so strong, but also extremely sad that she could separate from me like that. She refused to stay here watching the second man she loved be with another. Only she was wrong, I was a foolish seventeen year old who didn't know what the hell love really was. I so badly wanted to make Bella better, to fix her like a car when she was broken by that stupid leech, I willed myself to be in love with her. I was good at fixing things, all my life I tried to make things better. When Mom and Dad argued I tried to stop Mom crying by being her little soldier. When Mom died I tried to help Dad as much as I could to make him feel better, I took sole responsibility for his care when we realised he wouldn't be able to walk again. I also tried to help Rachel and Rebecca as much as an eight year old could, I didn't want them to leave, but they did. I prayed every day that they would return.

It was all in vain.

Oh, Rachel did visit twice in four years. Unfortunately for her, on her second visit she met Paul and he imprinted. So, she returned to La Push. Not for me or dad, for her soul mate. All the women I loved left me, at one time or another, Mom, Rachel, Becca, Bells, and then finally Leah.

Bella was the first to leave. She left when I was six. She did come back eventually, only to leave me again. When I look at my life I realise that the only female who was constant throughout my childhood and adolescence was Leah. She was a bit older, which made me consider her more Rachel and Rebecca's friend than mine. After Bells moved away with her Mom when I was little, it was Leah that was there to hug me when I cried. She held my hand at my mom's funeral. The twins were wrapped up in themselves, Dad was been held up by Charlie and Harry. Renee wouldn't let Bella come home for the funeral. I was alone, standing by the graveside, watching as a big brown box carrying my Mom was placed in the big, black, plot. Leah walked up behind me and wrapped her hand around mine telling me it will be okay, it would be hard, but I would be okay. I tried to believe her.

It was Leah who brought me home and cleaned my cuts when I was beaten up in school. Crazy to think anyone could bully me now, but I was a sad lonely kid for a while who was fair game to the school ass holes. I also think Leah was responsible for the bullies losing all their clothes when they were in the gym showers the next day. Even back then she showed ferocious loyalty to those she cared about.

She was there for me throughout the whole Bella drama. She helped me see Bella when everyone else pointedly refused. She held my hand when Bella knocked me back again. She patched me up after the new born battle and sure as hell made me breath again, after the invitation to Bella's wedding nearly killed me. Those three days in Canada where the most memorable days of my life and a stupid knee jerk reaction took it all away.

Typical me, embracing the person who seemed in need, rather than the person I needed. Now after all these years how do I explain it to her? How do I explain that the love I thought I had for Bella was not romantic love at all, but the need to fix her and stop her from doing something really stupid by joining the undead? Bella was a link to my past, to when my Mom and sisters were still here, when I had someone taking care of me for a change. I thought if I could keep Bella alive and safe then my life would be like it was before. It has taken me a long time to realise you can't go backwards. You can only go forward. I plan on doing that with my mate. I will accept any condition she imposes. It will be hard but I will move away from the tribe and live wherever she wants.

It's funny, in a way, I spent years looking for her, but I never prepared what I would say if I ever found her. What words would work? I wish Bella was sitting here on this stupid small airplane. She could help me think of what to say. Instead, I have Paul's narky head beside me. Paul, yet again is putting his nose in my business. When he discovered we were going to find Leah, he insisted he was coming with us. This time he said he was coming to help me, but we all knew he was there to support Leah. The bond between those two always confused me, until Paul came clean to me one night. He had fallen in love with Leah before he imprinted on Rachel. Who knew? The man whore of La Push, clicked with the prickly female shifter. He watched her and he knew she loved me so he never acted on his feelings. He felt that she was fucked over by one wolf already, in the form of our ex alpha, so he refused to cause her any more pain by attempting a relationship, knowing the likelihood that he would also imprint and leave her.

It explained Paul's animosity towards me in the beginning, and the hatred he held for Bella. Because of my stupid teenage emotions most of my brothers were feeling resentful towards her back then, but Paul was vicious in his hatred. He believed that her wavering between Edward and me was causing Leah distress. They all came to learn that Bella was right all along about my teenage emotions. She had never led me on; it was my wishful thinking that made them think she was playing with me. The two times that we were physically close were all on me. The first time I kissed her I didn't take her feeling into account. I took advantage of her as she had no way of fighting me off. The fact that she hurt herself trying to prevent my advances, should have been reason enough to accept she didn't care for me that way. Not forgetting my pathetic attempt at emotional blackmail. That day up in the mountain, before the battle I made her breakdown and kiss me as I had threatened to end it all. I was so young then, I thought I knew everything, I thought I could make her love me. I was right about one thing though, Edward was not her soulmate… but neither was I. The pack quickly realised this, and all their bad feelings towards her were mostly unwarranted. They still couldn't understand her love for the Cullen's, but they quickly forgave her that when they realised who's true mate she really was.

Many previously unknown facts were revealed the day I held Bella's bleeding body in my arms. However, Bella's pain was not going to convince Leah how much I love and need her. I would love if she comes back to La Push with me but I would be just as happy to live anywhere she wants.

Thankfully, we were nearly there as the seatbelt light came on and the pilot announced our descent. This was my first time on a plane and I thought I would be terrified. However I was more concerned about Leah than considering I was miles above the earth in a tin box, being held up by a drop of jet fuel and an idiot pilot. I sat quietly as I felt the plane tilt for descent; I could smell fear from many of the passengers, my brothers in particular. I don't really think wolves were meant to fly. We had no control, it was against our nature, not forgetting we were stuck here for hours. Seth was practically vibrating and Paul had a quiet growl of nerves going on. I wish I had asked Embry to put an Alpha order on them; all we needed was these two idiots to phase on a plane, I just shivered at the thought. Thankfully the Sparkles booked us Business Class so at least we fitted in our seats…just about. Looking at the small space the economy passengers were squeezed into make my wolf whimper.

The plane finally dropped from the sky and did an emergency handbrake stop, well that's what it felt like, my stomach was still up in the clouds and I think I had a bruise on my forehead from hitting the seat in front when we came to a sudden stop. I could hear Paul mutter that he was gonna swim home to Washington there was no way in hell he was getting back on one of those stupid tin cans. I couldn't help but chuckle, Paul really was a grumpy old git.

We got through customs quickly enough and were met in the arrivals hall by two drivers holding up the name Clearwater on a card. Typical, the Cullen's think of everything. Sue had received a package at SeaTac courtesy of Alice with hotel details, courtesy cars etc, all I was interested in was Leah's address but Sue wouldn't give it to me. She told me I could see Leah after she met her. She refused to miss out on a visit with her long lost daughter. Her exact words were "I will see my daughter before you have the opportunity to fuck this up and she disappears again." I was suitably chastised. I had never in my 22 years heard Sue curse.

I sat in the back of the tinted black car behind the driver beside Paul, looking out on the city lights and the rain splashing down the windows as we drove. This place appeared as wet as home, but it sure smelt funny, I picked out the smell of bovine and forest but a different type of forest that I was used too. I could see us passing industrial areas then five minutes later I was looking at weird looking black and white cows and then more buildings. There seems to be such a mix of countryside and urbanization. But what concerned me was there was no area for cover, so how did the non-domesticated animals get around? Would we be able to phase? Would we be fighting off predators? Not that there was really any natural animal out there that could beat us but we didn't want to be leaving carcasses of animals around that could cause investigations.

While I was lost in thought I heard Seth starting to chat to the driver. "So, how far away are we from the hotel?"

"Just about 30 more minutes depending on traffic." He responded primly.

"Is it nice?" Seth asked obviously stuck at what to say.

"I believe so sir. I have never stayed myself." He replied not taking his eyes from the windscreen.

"What type of wildlife do you get around her? Any Bear, wolf?" Seth asked.

I was disturbed by a chuckle. "Sorry, but if you are hunters you will be disappointed, all you will find here is deer, badger, fox, goat and birds."

"Oh, no we are not hunters, it is against our laws to hunt wolves as they are considered sacred to our tribe." Seth said sadly.

I just couldn't believe these people would exterminate a whole species of animal for money. Well, yeah I suppose I could but damn, that's just horrible.

I noticed the scenery had changed again we now were driving through forest. I started to feel more relaxed it felt more like home, the trees smelt different but more relaxing than weird looking cows. "Is there much forest here?"

Our driver looked out the window. "Not that much here, this is quite a small wood, you need to go up the mountains for the forest. They are quite extensive but we had years of deforestation that basically removed most of our forest a few hundred years ago."

Well at least we knew we had somewhere to go for a run. Before I could think of anything else to ask we pulled into a long regal looking driveway directing towards the grandest hotel I have ever seen. It was huge and I swear all I could smell was money. I looked around and realised that the hotel was tucked into a golf course. Hell we sure are going to stick out like sore thumbs here. Is there a dress code for getting into hotels? Well it looks like we are going to find out. I got out of the car and grabbed my pathetic bag from the boot. I continued to sniff the air, hoping to get Leah's scent so that I could run to her. Knowing she was close had my wolf trying to crawl out of my skin. I heard Sue arrange with her driver to wait for her that she would be back after she checked into the hotel and got rid of her bags.

My heart leapt, we were going to see Leah soon, there was no way I was waiting any longer, I would follow Sue by foot if I had to. We went into the grandiose foyer and walked up to the reception desk, I honestly have no idea what transpired, all I remember was Paul taking my passport off me and giving it to the girl at reception. We then trailed over to a huge gold gilded lift. I was humming with excitement and dread. A young family got into the elevator with us. Damn! I just thought looking at the parents and the two kids. What if Leah had moved on, what if she really had fought the imprint and won…..Maybe coming over here now will ruin her life for her. Blast what will I do? Maybe I shouldn't be here. I didn't know what to do, I felt trapped, this elevator was two friggen small for all these people and I really, really needed to get out of here. I craved a shower and then I must see Leah, touch her, smell her, taste her. Ahhh shit, why is it getting worse now? Is it because she is close? Or am I just working myself into a state. I was turning into a teenage girl. I can imagine Paul suggesting I get a training bra.

Eventually we got to our room, this was also bedazzled by pixie Cullen as it was a suite with four bedrooms, four bathrooms and a living room bigger than my whole house with a 50inch flat screen TV, and from what I could see we had a huge roof terrace. Charlie just stood in the door way opening and closing his mouth. Paul called dibs on the bedroom that had the Jacuzzi. I blocked out what he and Rachel could have gotten up to if she had been able to come. Sue just rushed into a room and was obviously taking a shower. Knowing she was doing that gave me a couple of minutes to have one also. I grabbed my bags and ran into the nearest bathroom turning on the gold gilded taps of the biggest shower I have ever seen. I didn't have time to enjoy the fantastic jets of warm water bubbling down on me; I just shampooed and soaped up before quickly rinsing. I dried myself quickly and threw on a new pair of jeans and a T-shirt and ran out to the living room with my sneakers ready for Sue when she came out of her room. I only had a couple of minutes to wait. Her eyes met mine as she was walking out the door, before I could say a word she handed me a phone. I took it in confusion and put it to my ear.

"Hello" I whisper unsure who it could be.

"Jacob Black you will wait until Sue visits Leah before going to see her." The Alpha timbre of Embry's voice nearly had me on my knees. I began to shake with anger, how DARE he prevent me from being with my MATE. It's okay for him, he already has his happy ever after. What business is it of his? I could feel the alpha wolf in me begin to roar. Paul could see this and pushed me out onto the roof terrace away from Sue and Charlie. Luckily there were no other rooms this high so we had some privacy. I stood shaking with my fists tight and my eyes closed. I could feel the hairs all over my body standing on end. I felt like they were all keeping me away from my mate. It was me that ran around the whole of America and Canada looking for her, not them; it was me who lost my heart six years ago, not them. Why did I let them come with me? It was for me that Bella called the Cullen's, not Sue. I understand that she is her mother and she misses her, but can she honestly tell me her life has altered much in the last six years with Leah gone…NO! It is me who has had to suffer the desolation and the loss of not having a heart. Leah was MINE and I was going to find her now and when I got back to La Push there was going to be changes. Big Changes.

I pushed past Paul and Seth and ran through the suite. Forgoing the elevator I sprinted to the stairwell and ran down the seven flights of stairs. I could hear Paul and Seth following but chose to ignore them. When I got to the lobby I slowed down a little so I didn't run into any stupid tourists as there was a bus load that had just arrived. I ran down the long prestigious driveway and stopped at the gates. I had to decide which direction to go, left or right, it helped that it was so early in the morning, so there were not that many people about confusing scents. I sniffed and could faintly trace Sue so I ran that way. I was conscious of being followed by my brothers but they would not stop me. Hell a whole coven of vampires wouldn't be able to stop me now. I was searching for her for years but now, NOW, they were trying to keep us apart and my wolf was not accepting that…I was the true Alpha and no mother, or brother was stopping me today. She was MINE!

I ran for a couple of miles down the dark country road, luckily there were no people around to see me move faster than your average 6ft7 American. I start to slow when I saw the lights of what must be a small town. I was sniffing the air hoping to pick up a scent that would lead me to my heart. I have loved and longed for this woman for so long but now that my wolf has chosen not to kneel before man, or wolf, I could sense her. I knew she was close. I could feel it in my heart and soul. I pounded down the street sniffing as I went. There were a few sleepy souls walking down the street and cars were beginning to drive past. I had no watch with me but I believe it was nearly seven am. Nobody paid me much attention they all looked like they needed their first shot of caffeine before they could even see.

Suddenly a beautiful fragrance wafted towards me. It was the scent of the forest surrounding La Push, it smelt of home. I began walking quicker; it was coming from the other end of the town. I hurried past the sleepwalking clueless humans, to get closer to my mate. I quickly reach the source of the smell. A small little unmanned train station stood at the edge of the town, and I could tell that she had been here in the last twenty four hours. I walked up and down trying to judge what direction she went, there were so many other smells and it had been raining. Eventually I walked across the road to see if I could pick out her beautiful fragrance from there. I hit the jackpot, I could even tell what direction she went.

My heart was pounding, my palms were sweaty and by the way the members of the public jumped out of my way, I was grinding my teeth with my jaw tightly clenched in the attempt to hold my shit together, so I wouldn't just phase and run towards my mate. I knew I was close, so so close. I followed the trail up a small little road that was barely wide enough for a car, eventually reaching a small two storey house with a small red car in the driveway. I breathed in deeply letting her scent surround me, waft over me, calm me, I could nearly taste her. I tried to hold my wolf back but he quickly sensed my brothers coming up the small road behind me. My wolf felt the threat that they would try to prevent me seeing my Mate. With that fear in mind he roared in anger, Alpha wolf was in charge again, he strode angrily towards the door and instead of knocking he shoved the door open breaking the lock.

I entered the house and followed the scent barging into a big spacious kitchen. I first made eye contact with Sue and my wolf growled, she had prevented me seeing my mate, she would not be tolerated. I turned and focused in on the tall dark beauty before me. My wolf signed "Leah." She opened her mouth to speak but before she had the opportunity to stutter a sound I strode towards her and picked her up, throwing her over my shoulder and charging out the back door. I ran towards the woods at the end of her garden, dodging around obstacles. I could hear her screaming every curse under the sun and feel her fists slamming into my back but she must have stopped phasing because she didn't inflict as much damage as would be expected from a she-wolf. The ground was beginning to rise; we were making our way up the mountains my senses telling me we were getting further and further away from civilisation and that my brothers had given up trying to follow me. I slowed my pace and stopped when we got to a small glade that had a clear stream trickling through.

I placed Leah on her feet and stepped back looking at her carefully. I could see the anger beginning to take shape in her face, she was pissed, and before she could attack I pushed her against a tree and grabbed bother of her arms bending down and pressing tightly against her, feeling her softness surround me. I lifter her arms up and held her wrists together with one hand. I placed my palm against her cheek, I move in closely until we are practically eye to eye. She is breathing shallowly, her breath hitching, her heart was pounding loudly; I could feel it beating against her breast bone. Her eyes were ebony orbs of molten fire, the she wolf was about to come out to play, but my wolf was not in a tolerant mood. He could smell her arousal, she still wanted me and my wolf howled in ecstasy, he had his mate in his arms and she wanted to be there. Nothing and no one else mattered, but we could not lose her again. There was no way he could live without our mate now, not now that he has accepted what he was. There was only one way he could ensure he would always know where to find her. The human in me tried to fight the wolf but the wolf's will was too strong, he grabbed the collar of her t-shirt and ripped it off her shoulder, pressing his nose into her neck, he was angry that she didn't smell of him anymore, she had been away too long. He licked her neck from her ear down to the junction between her neck and shoulder, he nibbled gently sensing the hot spot, he purred with the strong scent of want coming from his Mate. Without hesitation he kissed her shoulder and then opened his mouth wide and bit down hard until he tasted blood.

A/N, okay before you begin throwing stuff at me this is not the end. It was meant to be, I even got a lovely banner make by LaPushStartlight of Printing paws to post with this chapter. I was so sure it would be all over, but unfortunately Jake just wouldn't shut up, and droned on and on until I considered shoving him off the airplane. I deleted loads of his girly whining, sent it to Ren who convinced me (without difficulty) of deleting more of it. It's not the chapter I had planned but unfortunately it is part of the story. So I promise some more sexy sweaty time next chapter, in Leah's point of view cause Jake is the girl in this relationship. Thank the Spirits for Alpha Jake or it may have ended with them all doing embroidery or something.