Chapter 4: What Went Wrong.
Blue woke up from her nightmare almost instantly. She checked her phone to see what time it was. It was two in the morning, which was the time she normally woke up from a bad dream, but something spooked her. It was August nineteenth. One week after the Intensity try-outs and the weekend before school started. She tried to remember the past week, but nothing came to mind.
Except Kenny.
She had a dream that Karen accidentally killed Kenny when she threw the rifle too high. But according to her phone, that would've been a week ago and it didn't feel like Kenny died.
She would've remembered it.
I do remember him and his sister both showing up to the Intensity Studio. What happend after that? Karen wanted to know how to throw a rifle and she got it down eventually, but how did I get home? Why can't I remember anything? Did Craig find out about Kenny going to the studio? Surely Bebe and Red told almost everything to everyone in South Park. Damn those gossiping witches.
Suddenly, Blue saw a figure on the floor next to her bed. She couldn't make it out, but the room reeked of cheap whiskey and Dente Ice gum. That damn smell always got to her.
"Craig, you okay hun?" She called quietly to him. She knew he wasn't sleeping; the guy snored so fucking loud that the walls would shake. Suddenly she was concerned. He was awake, but wasn't speaking a word to her. "Craig?"
"You spoke to Kenny out in Denver, didn't you?" Craig slurred so badly, Blue could barely make out what he was saying. "What?" She asked hesitantly. Shit, did he ask if I spoke to Kenny?
"He showed up there. His sister wanted to learn how to-" Craig clasped his hand over her mouth. All she had to do was yell, kick, or thrash. Everyone was home, this time she could be saved and not face Craig's wrath.
Only Craig thought ahead.
Craig grabbed her pillow and held it over her face. Blue was helpless now. She clawed, kicked, and tried so hard to scream. Catching her breath was no use as was trying to escape in her own home. "You love making me angry, don't you?" Craig slurred. "You whore! I know you slept with him! You love fucking with my mind! My heart! I gave it to you, and this is how you treat me?" Craig punched her in the stomach knocking the wind out of her.
His voice was only audible for her as she struggled to stay conscious. The last thing Blue remembers before she passed out was Craig's cold words. "You bitch I'm going to tear your body up so bad. You better pray I don't kill you."
So she prayed.
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Its a strange thing, being suffocated into a murky unconsciousness. You wouldn't really expect to have a dream at all. Just blankness. But no, there he was. The little boy from her past.
Light brown hair and hazel eyes. What was his name? Blue couldn't really remember much about the boy for some reason, only that she found herself thinking of him when she needed someone the most. The kindness he gave her so freely.
Then suddenly, the boy started to change. It seemed as though he was getting older, but no, that wasn't the case. He was morphing into a completely different person now. His har became lighter, his eyes were blue now. It was Kenny's face she found comfort in now.
Everything seemed perfect in this dream. Mainly because now, reality was worse than her dreams.
When Blue woke up the following morning she felt disgusted and too sore to move. Craig was no where to be seen, but it was obvious what he had done. Red and white fluids caked her naked body, and her most precious gift was stolen from her. Never once had Craig been so cruel; never once did he try to hurt her. All of it changed because of Kenny, so why didn't she want to blame him for Craig's actions?
"Its my fault," she cried. "Its my fault I'm so freaking weak!" For once, crying felt good. It wasn't a soft cry either, but a big full out ugly sob. She felt alone, just like she has since she came to South Park. "Its not Kenny's fault. I can't blame him, only myself!"
Hayden crashed through her door. "What's wrong?" He asked, then he realized the condition his sister was in. She was naked, bruised, had fresh pink scars from where she had cut, and her body covered in fluids.
Hatred. Anger. Guilt.
Those were the only emotions that flashed through her older brother's green eyes. She could see everything, every intention, every thought, every damn thing that he wanted to do to the person who harmed his baby sister. "Who the fuck did this to you? Was it that fucking McCormick kid? I swear I'm going to tear his cunt filled body in half!"
Blue didn't give Hayden enough time to leave her room. All she really wanted was comfort and her big brother's love. She leaped towards him, even with the state her body was in. "Don't go. Don't leave me alone again!" She sobbed as she hugged her brother tightly. "I don't know who did it," she lied. "Don't tell mom or dad. Please Hayden, I'm trusting you with everything I have. I don't want to go back to that god forsaken place ever again! All they're going to do is medicate me and make me a zombie again!"
Blue was brutally bullied by kids at school when she was younger. When she was thirteen, she tried to take her life by cutting herself. Hayden was the one that found her, gave his blood after her losing so much, supported her when her parents sent her away. Blue was dead when she was in that place, Yellowstone Resort for the Mentally Unstable. Hayden kept a close eye on her when she came back home.
"Mom and dad won't accept this and you know it. They'll just send me away," she hiccupped as she began to calm down. They both knew how right Blue was. Their parents never dealt with problems, just tried to erase them. "Clean up, I'm going to take you to Hell's Pass."
"I-I can't move. It hurts too much, are mom and dad home?" She asked.
"Nope. They had to go get some stuff for school," He sighed. "Let me carry you. Just, uh, lemme start the bath and get something to wrap around you." Hayden headed out her room and left Blue alone.
Blue struggled to move, but it just hurt so bad. She saw her phone blinking on the floor next to her. "Shit," she cursed. There's no way she was going to talk to Craig right now, not after what he did. It was absolutely unforgivable. She examined her body and noticed how careful Craig was to not leave any noticeable bruises on her body.
Craig knew exactly how to cover his tracks.
"Hayden!" Blue cried. She felt absolutely sick, like she was about to throw up. Her brother rushed through the door and kneeled down next to her. Worst move ever. She hurled whatever was left in her stomach all over her brother and passed out again.
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"Kenny wake up! Time for school!" Karen yelled.
Joy, I made it back in my new body for the first day of school. Could things get anymore fucked up for me? Well, I actually feel good about this school year. Its junior year and I might try harder.
Kenny was actually surprised by his thoughts. Never once has he tried for anything in his life. He passed with a 3.0 GPA though, (mainly because he always passed his tests but not do shit for homework.) So what was up with this new attitude? Then he remembered his conversation with Blue right before he died.
"My Blue," he smiled.
That's right. I might have a chance with her. It may be slimmer than Wendy, but fuck, I'm going to take that chance.
Kenny laughed at his joke he made about his chances as he headed toward the kitchen. "Your in a good mood Kenny," Karen called. He just kissed his sister on the cheek in response. Karen was surprised by this action for it being the first day of school. "Okay, spill. Your never in this good of a mood."
"Where's mom?" Kenny asked, obviously avoiding the question. "She took an early shif at the Olive Garden, Kevin is with his girl, and dad's in jail as usual, now spill." Karen gave him a look saying she wasn't going to drop it. "I think I might actually have a chance with Blue."
"Blue Cole?" Karen asked. "Really? You still want her after Craig accused you of raping her?" Normally after Kenny returned to a new body, no one remembers any scars, bruises, or broken bones. Kenny was thankful for that part, but still doesn't know why he has that curse to come back to life.
For once it was nice to be alive.
"Come on, its time for school," Karen laughed. "And honestly, I'd actually love to have her part of the family."
Karen and Kenny walked together. (Karen was so smart that they moved her up to be a freshman. Atleast one McCormick had their head right.) The only good thing about being in a small town was that you could walk everywhere without going to far. Everyone was less than a mile away, so hanging out or sneaking over to people's houses was always a peice of cake.
"I'll see you after school Kenny!" Karen called out as she went to her first period.
Kenny walked to his locker to leave all his junk in there. It was the same one he had the year before; it was just the way he left it: surprisingly clean and tidy. It was the only thing in his life he could keep organized so he took advantage of it.
"Hey Kenny," a familiar voice called out. Kenny turned to see a short brown haired kid with a stupid smirk. "Hey Clyde." He looked over Clyde's shoulder and saw Butters and Stan, all three wearing their letter man's jackets. "Hey guys," Kenny nodded towards them.
Before either of them could respond Clyde started talking. "So I heard you had a splendid summer, eh Kenny? How much tang did you get?"
"Who the fuck says tang anymore?" Stan called out.,
"Apparently he does," Butters laughed.
The bell rang before the conversation could fully start. Each boy looked at each other. "What do you guys have?" Asked Kenny, "Because I have Honors Chemistry." The three boys stared at Kenny in disbelief. Was it that hard to believe that Kenny was actually smart? Either way Clyde, Butters, and Stan headed off in the opposite direction.
Kenny took his sweet time, wanting to be late so he could get the seat in the front. (Nerdy yes, but he didn't give a flying fuck. It was worth it sometimes because he hated how noisy the back of the room got.) Mr. Macky called his name as Kenny casually walked in the room. "God dammit Kenny, mmkay? Now you see, being late on the first day is bad, mmkay? Now, you can have a seat on the open chair right there, mmkay?"
Kenny saw the table for four in the front. He was relieved when he saw Kyle and noticed that Blue was going to sit right next to him, but then he saw Craig. Blue and Kyle had always look so dressed and proper for school while Craig looked like he didn't give two shits about how he looked. Craig seemed to notice that Kenny was thinking about him because he glared at Kenny. Now he knew this day was going to take a turn for the worse. At least he can look forward to sitting next to Blue from now on. This will probably be the best thing Kenny could've hoped for.
Kenny was ready to make this work
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Blue's day started off bad when she saw that she had her first period with Craig. Now, she has to suffer through it with Kenny being around. All she could do was look down now because she could feel Craig's stare piercing through her. Was he watching Kenny too? Maybe even Kyle? How was she going to escape this fate? She saw Craig's bad side, but will it get worse that what she's already experienced? She prayed to god that it won't happen.
Mr. Macky was dragging on so everyone started to make conversation, except for our table until Kyle finally spoke. "So, Blue, how was your summer?" Kyle asked with such a sweet smile. He grew into green eyes and red hair, and his body made him look almost like a model.
It was actually surprising Kyle was straight. He always kept himself looking good and clean, his grades were even perfect.
Blue didn't know what to say, so she faked it. "It was good! I tried out for Intensity with Bebe and Red." She said a little too confident. Wrong move, Craig already looked pissed. "Yeah, and we had some fun too, didn't we Blue?" Craig was glaring at both Kenny and Kyle as he waited for Blue's response.
Blue avoided his eyes. What had she said wrong? "Y-yes hun. It was... it was..." she couldn't find the proper words. "Unbelievable.." Perfect. Everything that happened with Craig in such a short time really was unbelievable.
"That's good," said Kenny. "Except for Craig starting drama." Blue's eyes went wide as a shiver ran down her body. Was Kenny trying to start something with Craig? Was he crazy?
"Yeah, you trying to rape my girlfriend? Your pathetic you poor piece of shit. Anyways, you making this worse for her." A threat. Kenny talking makes Craig come up with new threats for me. "Are you saying you beat your girlfriend?" Kenny dared to say audible for the class to hear. The whole room went silent as all eyes were on Craig. Blue was staring into the nothingness on the table.
Kenny had noticed the threat and called Craig out on it. "Well, Tucker?"
"Of course not dumbshit. I meant you making a scene. Stop embarrassing my girl you fuckwad." Blue looked at Craig and felt disgusted by him calling her his. Those words said she was a possession and not a person. Her stomach heaved and she knew it wasn't going to look good. "! I need to go to the-" Blue gagged loudly. pointed toward the door and she fled to the restroom to throw up.
Blue didn't want to go to any of her for the rest classes that day. She couldn't stomach it.
She didn't dare try to go home. Blue didn't know if her parents were home, and it they were, she didn't want them to pry on asking her why she wasn't at school. Blue waitws in the fourth story abandoned restroom alone until the lunch bell rang.
She was in the stall when she heard him come in.
"I know your in here, Blue." He called as he went through all the stalls until he reached hers and opened it.
"Don't hurt me," Blue cried.
"So I was right. Craig is abusing you," Kenny sighed softly. Blue just stared at him with her wide blue eyes, feeling like a child. What could she say to Kenny to make him believe every lie she was trying to come up with to protect Craig? Wait, why would she protect Craig after him raping her? "I already know, so don't try and lie to me."
"He.. He loves me," I started to say, but not even I believed it. Kenny just sighed and looked at me with a sad face. He looked like he was about to cry for me. Me, of all people, me. "Kenny, don't worry about me. Why the sudden interest? You never looked at me until now, so why? And... how the heck did you find me?"
He didn't answer right away, Blue could see he was trying to find the right words. Words that wouldn't scare her off, words that wouldn't upset or anger her. Words that could tell her everything was going to be alright even though he could see that she wasn't going to accept those words right away. Kenny had nothing to say.
So instead, he just hugged Blue tightly.
It was pure, gentle, and warm. They both felt how the hug made them feel more than any person in the time before this moment. Even before Craig's disgusting actions, she had never felt something so loving or pure. So why did it feel so wrong? "Let me try something," he whispered softly.
Kenny grabbed his parka from his back pack and laid it on the cleanest area of the he could find. "Come here, please?"
Blue went to him without hesitation. She sat next to him as he was trying to figure out if it was a good idea or not. They sat in silence for a good ten minutes, just waiting for someone to say something.
"I did like it," Blue blushed. It was true, she didn't admit it until now but didn't want to say it out loud to Kenny. She thought he'd try something wrong; things that he had done to all the girls of his past.
But Blue's mouth had a mind of its own. Never once did she deny it, nor did she admit it. Blue was just confused by it all; mentally, emotionally, and even physically. It took a lot of work to show no emotions from the fear, guilt, and sadness she felt from Craig. Kenny was the only one she couldn't fool. Kenny was the only one who saw what she really was.
Scared, lost, but had a little bit of will to try and fight.
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I couldn't really understand why I was so surprised by this confession. Maybe because she said it word by word, or the fact that she tried to defend Craig earlier. Either way, all I wanted to do was hold her and tell her I was going to save her from him. Blue only has one life; I can die and return in a new body.
I'd save her a million times over, even if it meant dying. I think I love her but I can't be completely sure. Is it pure infatuation or could this really be something more?
"Why do you make me feel safe?" She asked. "Its like those stupid love stories where the characters fall for each other so damn easily." Kenny agreed that it was strange he felt like this for someone.
Now the next thing took Kenny completely off guard.
"Kiss me.." Blue whispered. "Please K-" Kenny didn't need to be asked twice. He cupped her face and kissed her so tenderly. Her skin was so soft and warm and she tasted like berries and cream. Such an uncommon taste for him, but one he will cherish.
Blue's kiss was like a drug to Kenny. He kept wanting another and another; soon his tongue explored her mouth as she moaned. That noise. That fucking amazing noise made Kenny's dick twitch, but he wouldn't dare touch her without permission. For once, his respect for Blue was stronger than his own need for want.
Kenny straddled over Blue as their kissing got deeper and more intimate. Unknowingly, Kenny started rubbing his hand on her thigh and made Blue tremble. Something told him to stop.
"What's wrong...?" Kenny asked breathlessly. He looked into her eyes and she trembled again. "I-I'm just... sore." She replied.
Sore?
"From what?" He asked a bit more concerned. Blue tried to pull him back in for another kiss, but he was more concered on why she was sore.
Desperation is a funny thing. Kenny was desperate to look for a solution to get Blue to talk to him but nothing came. Then he came up with something so incredibly stupid, effective, and risky. Kenny unzipped his pants and positioned himself between Blue's legs. He hadn't pulled himself out but she couldn't see that. Blue's eyes were shut so tight as she whimpered to herself. Was she praying? "Your not a virgin anymore, are you." He stated.
"How would you treat me if I was with you?" Blue blurted out.
"Give you more than this," Kenny answered almost instantly. "I'd give you a future, a home, a life. I'd never raise my voice at you or ever strike you like that bastard does."
"I thought you'd try to kill him if I told you what he did.." Blue seemed confused by Kenny's emotions. He was so tender and gentle instead of being angry and questioning.
"I didn't want to scare you away. Most girls get mad at their friends for trying to help them."
"Your not a friend anymore," Blue blushed. "Your more than that."
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Blue was happy that Kenny had found her today because it gave her strength. The only thing she kept debating was if Kenny was going to be good for her or not. What did he literally have to offer her? Was he going to treat her with the kind of respect he promised and was he going to be there for her? Blue hated how everything seemed like a gushy love story where they both live happily-ever-after because she knows real life isn't going to be that way ever in her life.
Maybe I'm over thinking it.
Blue was listening to the music on her smart phone. Most of the songs were somewhat depressing and angry, but they made her feel good. Its why she loved the band Blue October, The Smiths, and System of the Down. It helped her concentrate and that was what she really needed right now for her plan to work. She sent her text to Craig for him to come over almost thirty minutes ago. It was odd that it was taking him so long considering he lived down the street from her.
Craig popped through her window almost right on cue wearing a smile. Blue stared back at the note and taped it on her wall. "What's that babe?" Craig asked. He leaned against her back and kissed the back of her neck. "Its for Hayden," she replied. Blue felt extremely nauseas with Craig making any kind of contact with her. She got out of his reach and looked and him, finding the right words to say.
"What did you want to talk about?" Craig asked as he tried to hug her. Blue pushed him away forcefully. "How could you touch me after hurting me so bad?" She asked.
"I didn't mean to! I was drunk babe, and if it wasn't for you talking to that fucker in the first place-" he tried to defend himself but Blue cut him off.
"I want to break up." Blue said straight forward. "I'm sick of you. That... thing you did to me was disgusting and I won't forgive you for that."
"Babe, I'm sorry. I don't remember that night at all! I was drunk and I was angry.." Craig cried, "Please babe, I love you so much! I can't lose you!"
Craig pulled her toward him and tried to kiss her forcefully. "Your disgusting." Blue said coldly. Craig looked at her confused. "I'm disgusting? All I want is to just fucking love you! Why won't you love me back?" He asked. "I hear all these rumors about you fucking every guy at school. Why are you the one with a problem?"
"What are you talking about? Stop making excuses you sick fuck! There's no good excuse for what you did." Blue yelled.
All Craig started to feel was anger and frustration. She braced herself as Craig drew his hand to slap her.
"You enjoyed me fucking you!" Craig yelled as his hand drew back into a fist. "You pleaded for more, hell, you even fucking squirted all over me! And you call me disgusting?" He kept hitting harder and harder. Soon, Blue could feel warm blood running over her eyes as Craig began to cry and hit her harder. "All I did was fucking love you! Its all your fucking fault you stupid cunt!"
Blue tried to sheild herself as best as she could but Craig was tough. He fought his dad growing up because he got in trouble in school all the time. Every inch of her body screamed in pain as Craig hit her.
Out of nowhere, she heard her brother's voice. "Tucker? I'm gonna kick your fucking ass! Get your fucking hands off my sister!" He yelled.
Soon, Hayden will find the letter telling him of what went wrong and soon I'll find out if I survived the trauma Craig inflicted on me.
After all, it was my fault.
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So, I got really sick and slept a total of 92 hours in the past week because I've been hurling my guts out and sweating my sickness off while testing =.= so not cool. Anyways, I hope you enjoy this chapter!