Paige Pov
"Hey babe I'm just leaving the store I'll be home soon" I said while filling up the truck with the bags. I took Emily's truck to work today figuring it'll be easier since I had to pick up some things afterwards.
"Okay babe I took most things out of the closet I'm pretty sure this is everything" Emily replied
"Alright once I'm home I'll just take a quick shower and we'll be out I'm pulling out now I got to go" I said starting up the truck
"See you when you get home love you" Emily said
"Love you too" I said exiting out the parking lot.
I was nervous for this weekend I've never spent the entire day just me and Emily. Either one of us was usually at work or doing something usually throughout the day I'd just go out take a ride go to the bar and just isolate myself and Emily go out with some friends or go to the gym. I figure this trip will help us become a little closer . This time I can't just go off and leave Emily alone if something happens with me. There will be no wondering off no isolation just me and her. I was nervous but I had to do it. I just arrived home and I sat in the truck for a bit trying to get the nerves out of my head. I saw Emily outside trying take as many bags out of the apartment she seemed to be struggling at that I laughed she always tried out doing herself I might as well help her getting it all in the truck.
"Hey baby" Emily said when I came up next to her
"Hey honey you need help?" I laughed trying to take some the chairs she was dragging
"No no just get the other stuff there in the living room floor" she responded.
I just stared at Emily amused really at her struggling. She had now dropped one of the chairs and now kicking towards the truck all while barefoot
"Well go Paige! The faster we put everything away the faster you take a shower and the faster we'll be out of here" she said starting to get annoyed while trying to get a grip on the other chair and trying not to drop the little table in the other.
I laughed and shook my head and went to get the rest of the things I came back out with Emily suit case
"Em you know we're going camping miles away from people right you could be naked out there and no one will know" I said picking it up to throw in the back seat.
"Jeez what the hell you carrying rocks in there?" I questioned her
"haha go take your shower before the sun goes down" she dismissed
With that I headed inside stripped out of my uniform and hopped in the shower. When i got out and threw some clothes in my old military bookbag. I threw on a long sleeve with cargo pants put on my boots and grabbed my jacket. And headed to the truck Emily followed suit and was right beside me buckling up.
"Oh by the way here" I said grabbing a bag from the back and giving it to Emily
"Ohh another gift" she smiled before opening it her smile went away once she saw what it was I laughed and started up the truck to get out of here
"They're not supposed to be cute Em." I said
"Oh no they're cute" she tried spinning them shoes around to get a better look
"Em they're just some boots so your nice shoes won't get dirty they're your new camping boots and those are thermal socks for your feet since you're feet always get so cold trust me you'll see when sleep time comes"
"Okay well thank you " she thanked kissing my cheek
"Why don't you put on some music" I said passing her the aux chord
"Okay" she smiled and the car filled up with Beyonce
"Oh I packed us some food to eat so we won't have to get everything out when we're there since it'll be late"
And she took out some burritos
"Oh thanks Em" I said grabbing the burrito
"Mmm that's really good" I looked at her taking a bite and steering with one hand. I took my eyes off the road for a second to look at her and she had some hot sauce all on the side of her lip
"Hey keep your eyes on the road" she pushed
"Okay then " I laughed and gave her a napkin I had in my hand
It didn't take too long to get to our destination.
I started on putting up the tent and starting the fire using the car headlights to give a little light.
It's really pretty out I heard Emily say beside me.
"Yea I liking coming to this spot" I said grabbing the chairs and putting them by the fire.
"Here" I said opening up a beer and passing her one
"You sit relax enjoy the view while I finish setting up the tent"
"Don't mind if I do" she said popping open here beer and relaxing
I grabbed the extra blanket and pillows Emily brought and threw them all inside the tent it was stuffed but it'll at least make the floor more comfortable.
I finished up and joined Emily on the chair and opening a beer for myself.
And sat down in the chair next to her.
"How was your day?" I asked
"It was good, I been looking forward to this all day to be out here with you" she said grabbing my hand and she came up and kissed my forehead I looked up at her and kissed her lips and she sat back down and smiled at me taking a sip of her drink
I took a sip of my drink looked out into the trees to gather my thoughts for a second. Letting the reality sit that Emily was out here with me it felt strange if I was being honest
"What is it?" She asked
"Nothing I'm glad you're here" I said grabbing her hand smiled at her and looked backed into the trees and took another drink enjoying the scenery.
I was glad she was here just nervous how it'll all play out. I finished up my beer before I psyched myself out and got up to get another
"You want another beer Em?" I asked while getting myself one
"Yea I'll take one." she replied
We sat there in silence with the occasional smiles having a couple drinks enjoying the fire and the scenery. The weather outside was perfect it was hot and it wasn't freezing
" I'm happy you invited me out here with you today I was really surprised though " Emily started bringing me out of my thoughts
I finished up my drink and got up to get another couple beers so we won't have to be getting up and down I opened up the next one and took a couple sips
I felt her eyes on me with every move I made
"What made you change your mind?" she questioned when I didn't respond to her last statement
I cleared my throat and looked at her.
"I figured it was time you know for me to bring you out."
I took another drink feeling my heartbeat increase
"It's not fair for me to leave you sleeping home alone every weekend"
" I.. " she started before I interrupted knowing what she was going to say
"I know you have Hannah.. but Hannah has her family Em it's not the same"
She nodded at that knowing it was true she looked down now taking a sip of her own drink
"Everyone is at home with their families and I'm putting space between us it ain't fair to you" I said looking at her eyes so she can see how sincere I was
"It was really hard in the beginning" Emily admitted "I didn't think too much because at least you were home every other day"
"I don't like when I don't know where you are Paige at least when you're here I know where you are" she said sadly
"I'm sorry Em that won't ever happen again not anymore, okay." and she nodded I could really tell what she was thinking but I can tell she didn't fully believe it and I felt like I needed to say a little more
"You know when you left me to be with your mom I thought good that way you don't have to see this monster I am there are day where I'm not recognizable I feel like I don't know like I'm stuck in this other place" I looked down at the dirt when Emily came to look at me I couldn't really handle her glare at moment but I continued
"When you came back I knew I had to figure out something because as much as you deserve I can't ever leave you Em never. So I I knew I had to figure out something that's why I started taking these trips more often I could just hold it together for a week then come out here and leave it out here" I said gesturing around
"I just don't want you to leave me Emily" I said bringing my drink to my lips my heart was rapidly beating this is the most honest I ever been with Emily most open I had been with her with this situation we been going through for a long time now. I was scared
Emily grabbed my drink and set it down in my chairs holder and grabbed both my hands now leaning towards me from her chair and bringing my hands to her lap she smiled for second before she got serious and looked down to play with my hands.
"When my father died i was a mess I treated you so bad Paige I'd put you down anytime I had the chance to speak with you and I'd break it off every other month and you stayed" she said looking up now
"There was one day I was serious I couldn't keep doing this to you so I told you I met someone else so you'd get that I was done completely and you said "good luck to her that you now had friends all around the world in high places"
"It'd be a shame if they found narcotics in her possession that could put her away for life " I continued when I remembered
"And I couldn't stop laughing at how crazy you can be" She laughed a little
"For a long time I cried every day and anytime you had the chance you made me laugh. Do you know how hard it was to even smile during that time Paige?" Emily now had a few tears running down her face I rubbed her the tears away as she continued
"I will never leave you Paige I don't care what it is you think I'll be scared of seeing but I'm not as soft as you think" I pulled Emily up so can come sit with me I knew how hard it was for her to even mention her father. I rubbed her back and kissed her head as she cried into my shoulder.
A while passed as I kept rubbing her back it was quite the fire crackling and Emily's tears had subsided. She and sat up and kissed me so hard I almost felt the chair tilt back a little " I love you Paige" she said staring deep into my eyes her eyes sore from crying
"I love you more" I kissed her back just as hard she kissed me
She grabbed the back of my head and deepened the kiss. I held her tight by the waist so she wouldn't fall back and deepened the kiss until we had to come up for some air
"So what do you think want to make this a little a tradition for us?" I asked smiling up at her
"Yes I like being anywhere with you but one condition"
I nodded for her to continue
"We have to go back and get some better looking boots."
"As soon as we get back" I smiled up at her