Chapter 4 -

Jo and Sam walked down the corridor away from the bridal suite. Jo was furious, Erin was being foolish, living her school girl crush all over again and Jo would be left to pick up the pieces, again. Dean was bad for her, she knew it, Erin knew it, for gods sake Dean knew it! Yet both Erin and Dean both persisted on being together.

It was true they were in love to the biggest degree but it would never and could never work between them, plus Justin was a great guy, treated Erin like a queen he didn't deserve this. "It's a bad idea to leave them two alone" Jo told Sam as they reached the elevator

"There both adults" Sam told her pressing the button for the lift. "And I don't get why your so against them?"

"I'm not against them" she sighed "I'm against the heart ache he brings her. you weren't the one picking up the pieces last time, I was and it was horrible to see her go through it, I wont see her go through it again"

"Their in love"

"He's in love when he feels like it and now he knows she'll be lost to him forever he wants her, he'll change his mind again in a week"

Sam shook his head "no he won't, your wrong. He's really in love with her; I've never seen him like this before."

Erin laid her head on Dean's bare chest, both of them were out of breath and breathing heavily "damn we're good at that" Dean sighed running a finger up and down her back.

"I love you" she told him turning her head to look at him to show the tears that were streaming down her face.

"I love you to" he replied leaning down to kiss her forehead. "What's wrong? Why are you crying?"

Erin got out of the bed and Dean admired her naked ass as she walked to the end of the bed and picked up her knickers. Dean watched her walk to her dress that lay in a heap on the floor where she had stepped out of it and pull it up her body once again. "I love you Dean I really do but I can't do this. I can't be with you I'm sorry" Erin told him through tears.

"What?" Dean asked getting out of the bed "I don't understand, we just…"

"I know, I know" Erin sobbed harder. "I'm sorry Dean but I don't want the hunting life anymore, I want a house, kids, a dog you can't give me that. Justin can, Justin's a stable relationship and that's what I need, what I want…"

Dean had heard enough "so this was what? A goodbye? One last screw before you settle down?"

"I don't know, I don't know what it was" Erin slumped in to the chair by the dresser, sobbing, her body vibrating with the sobs, her dress still undone gaping at the front, her hair was messy and out of place, her make up was running down her cheeks "I'm so sorry, I'm sorry" she put her face in her hands and cried, hard. Dean dressed angrily mumbling about something she couldn't hear over her own cries.

Dean pulled on his t-shirt after fastening his belt and looked over at Erin, why was he angry? He had put her in this situation, he had started all of this, what did he expect? Did he really think she'd run off to hunt with him instead of having a normal, quiet, fun life with someone else? He walked slowly to her and knelt down in front of her.

Dean took her hands from her face and held them in his own "I'm sorry to" he spoke softly, and tears filled his own eyes. "I'm sorry I didn't try to make this right sooner"

"Maybe in another a life?"

"You can bet your ass on it" he stood up straight and wiped the tears from his eyes, it had been an emotional couple of weeks. "Now come on, you need to get ready and I need to find my ass a suit"

Erin stood up confused; Dean motioned for her to turn around so he could zip up her dress "what are you talking about?"

"You need someone to give you away right, can't have you walking down the isle alone"

Erin smiled at him, she had asked John to give her away, he was the next best thing to her own father. John had agreed and had even been for suit fittings. She walked to the large wardrobe and pulled out a smart black suit with a white shirt and tie "I asked your dad to give me away"

"Lucky we wear the same size" Dean told her taking the suit from her and going in to the bathroom.

Erin waited from him to close the door then rushed to her cell phone, she couldn't write the text message fast enough:

Jo, need your help to get ready. Hurry back here. Dean is giving me away. X

Erin stood in the middle of the room and surveyed it, the chair by the small table had been knocked over, Dean's jacket still lay in a clump on the floor, the glass she had been holding was on the floor and the whiskey had left a stain on the crème carpet, the bed sheets were all over the place.

How was she going to explain the messed up hair, the make up smeared down her face? The state of the room? Jo would know what had gone on straight away. What had happened? She had slept with her ex boyfriend, the guy she was still in love with, mere hours before she was to be married. What kind of a person did that? Tears threatened to fall again but she wouldn't let them she had to get focused she had to get ready to get married.

Dean stood over the sink water dripping from his face; he starred hard at himself in the mirror. What the hell was he thinking? I'll give her away, yeah right, way to stick the knife in. asshole. The whole situation was so messed up, but what could he do about it but accept it? He had tried to change her mind, tried to make her see he wouldn't hurt her again but it was no good, her mind was made up, she wanted stability, normal, Dean could give her neither.

Dean couldn't fathom that this was going to be the last time he touch her, felt her skin on his own, kissed her, he didn't want it to be. This wasn't fair. Why did he always have to make the sacrifices for other people? He stayed with his father when Sam ran off to college, he dumped Erin when his father asked him to for the sake of hunting the demon, he was sacrificing his happiness now by letting Erin marry another guy when he knew he could have her if he really fought for her but here he was being a pussy and giving her away.

Jo knocked on the door hurriedly as Erin finished making the bed; she walked to the door checking the room looked untouched; maybe it looked a little to tidy. Erin opened the door and Jo accessed her make up smeared face and shook her head, it was written all over her "I don't need to hear it" Erin assured her as Sam and Jo entered the room.

"Where is he?" Sam asked

"Getting ready in the bathroom"

"Oh he's gone shy all of a sudden huh?" Jo asked "being naked in front of you twice in one day to much?"

"What?" Sam asked walking to the bathroom door; obviously he hadn't figured it out.

"nothing, she's being sarcastic" Erin warned looking at Jo "please just help me do my make up" Jo shook her head and walked to the dressing table to Erin's make up.

Erin stood outside the closed church doors, Jo a few feet in front of her beside Sam, who had managed to buy a suit from the nearest clothes shop. Justin's two young nieces were in front of Jo and Sam holding their bouquet of flowers, Dean stood beside Erin, her arm entwined with his.

"Are you sure you wanna do this?" Erin asked Dean quietly

"Are you?" he asked looking at her pleading with her through his eyes "is this really what you want cause this is your last chance to walk away from this."

Erin sighed "Dean I…"

Dean interrupted "sorry…I just want you to be happy and if this is what it's going to take then so be it"

Erin smiled sweetly at him, she knew it was a load of bullshit and Dean knew she knew it, but neither said anything. "Thank you" she didn't mean thank you for being sweet or wanting her to be happy, or for even giving her away, she was thanking him for not making this harder for her when she knew he could if he wanted to.

The doors to the church opened and the wedding march began, this was it, time to get married.

They all began to walk down the isle, Sam kept messing up his steps but Jo put him back in to place whilst laughing at him.

Dean was surprisingly very good at the walk at such short notice "have you been practising this walk?" Erin asked him through a smile

"I've always imagined me standing down there watching you walk towards me" he spoke subtly as to not draw attention to them. "wearing a beautiful white dress, smiling that huge gorgeous smile…both of us happy knowing this was the first day of the rest of our lives together, just me and you forever…guess that ideas out the window" Erin kept the smile plastered on her face but it was hard to not break down and cry at Dean's words.

They reached Justin and Dean passed her arm from his own to Justin and then walked down a few rows of pews and took a seat at the end of a row. Sam followed and sat beside him as they watched the ceremony.

Dean didn't even get 15 minutes in to the ceremony before he had to leave. He had thought watching her get married would make him realise that whatever they had and could have had was gone, gone forever and he had no choice but to accept that fact but he felt like shit. The one person he had ever completely loved with every inch of his body, mind and soul.

It was too much for him, he had to get out of their before they recited their vows and it was made official, he had to leave. Sam followed quietly behind his brother, careful not to disturb the other guests.

Sam quietly closed the church doors and then looked around for his brother, Dean was leaning against the Impala, his arms folded, starring at the sky, a look of disappointment and anger etched all over his face.

Sam leant beside him "at least you tried dude, if we hadn't have come you'd have been asking yourself what if for the rest of your life"

"Maybe, but if we hadn't have come I wouldn't have felt like a complete asshole for ruining her wedding day"

"You didn't completely ruin it Dean, you gave her away, and she was made up about that"

"yeah but now she's gotta live with the fact of knowing she cheated the morning of her wedding" Dean explained opening the car door, he wanted to put some miles between himself and Erin "I put her in wrong position she'll never forgive me for that"

"You slept with her?" Sam asked astonished

"wake up college boy!" Dean told him closing the car door. Sam raced around the car to the passenger seat to ask what his brother was thinking to sleep with Erin today of all days?

6 weeks later…

Dean walked cautiously in to the Roadhouse, he hadn't seen Jo or Ellen since Mr H. H. Holmes had taken Jo hostage and tried to kill her, it was understandable that Ellen was angry and after finding out what had happened to her father Jo wasn't in the best of moods with the Winchester brothers either. So Dean was a little paranoid, if not worried, that Jo and Ellen were luring the brothers to the Roadhouse to kill them.

Ellen had called Dean a little over 5 hours ago she had asked that he and Sam go immediately to the Roadhouse she had a job for them, something they would want to take. She didn't want to discuss it over the phone.

"Dean there isn't a trap waiting to chop off your head" Sam told his brother following him in to the roadhouse "stop being so stupid"

"I'm being careful, who would blame either of them for wanting us dead?" Dean whispered.

"Ellen, Jo" Sam called not seeing them in the bar

"Yeah right, scream at the angry women who know how to use a gun! Real smart college boy" Sam laughed at his fearful brother, the infamous ladies man, Dean Winchester, scared of Jo and Ellen, it was hilarious.

Jo raced towards them from the further end of the bar, Ellen was close behind, a look of worry and fear on both their faces clear as glass. "Have you heard from her?" Jo spat out quickly.

"Who?" Sam asked stopping his tracks knowing instantly something was seriously wrong

"Erin" Jo said frustrated as if the answer was so obvious and Sam was just being dumb to annoy her.

"What's going on? What's happened to Erin?" Dean asked losing his fear of Ellen and Jo but finding a new fear for Erin.

"This is your fault…"Jo began angrily "if you'd have just left her alone, kept it in your pants…"

"JO" Ellen shouted to quieten her daughter "this isn't the time!" Jo shook her head and sat down on the nearest bar stool to her, Ellen began to explain "Erin didn't marry Justin, she lasted about ten minutes after you left. She took off, we've had a couple calls from her just to say she's ok and she needs some time away, wouldn't tell us where she is…" Ellen sighed "she called last night to say she was going to see Justin, she owed him an explanation…just before I called you Ash got a lead on your yellow eyed demon tracker thing, its in the town Erin lives with Justin" Ellen explained, Dean didn't need to hear anymore, he turned on his heels and ran out of the bar to his car, Sam, Jo and Ellen followed.

"We've tried calling her but we're not getting any answer, we've left messages, tried the house phone nothing" Jo explained watching Dean open the door to the Impala.

"We're already 5 hours behind you should have been on your way by now" Dean said trying to hide his anger and fear.

"Its less than two hours away Dean, we'll make it" Ellen told him opening her car door

"And if we're already to late?" Jo asked, Dean starred at her before getting in to the car, it wasn't worth thinking about.

"Nothing" Sam sighed flipping his phone down for the hundredth time

"She didn't answer the first million times so I'm real surprised she didn't answer the millionth and one time!"

"You know she's going to be fine, she's probably just talking with Justin and she doesn't want to be interrupted" Sam tried to assure his brother but Sam knew Dean wouldn't be anywhere near to ok until he saw Erin with his own to eyes. "They'll have a lot to talk about"

"Jo's right, if I'd just left her alone, just let her get married, she'd be on her honeymoon right now, sunning it up in Mexico"

"This isn't your fault Dean, don't do this"

ignoring his brother Dean continued "she'd be having lazy days, late nights, sun, sea, sand, if only I'd listened to you Sammy, she'd be in Mexico perfectly fine… if Ash is right and the demon's there we both know what we're going to find"

Ellen had taken over Dean to lead the way as they got closer to Erin's house, Dean knew the town she lived in but not where her actual house was. As they got to the house Dean noticed Erin's deep purple Impala parked on the drive way, the house looked normal, no sign of violence or demon activity, maybe they were all going to pile on to the porch and make complete idiots of themselves when they all fumbled over their words as to why they had all shown up.

Dean stopped the car on the street behind Ellen's and they all slowly exited their cars. "Looks normal" Ellen announced

"don't judge a book by its cover" Sam told her as himself and Dean went to the trunk to get weapons, it didn't look like they would need them but it was better to not need them and have them then need them and not have them.

Dean led the way to the front porch and as he stepped up he immediately noticed the door stood slightly ajar, something was wrong.

Dean stepped over the threshold cautiously the gun out in front of him sweeping it left from right covering the hall way that accommodated the stairs and had two doors leading off from it, one in to the living room and the other to the kitchen, Sam crouched lower than him covering his brother from anything he might not have seen "ERIN" Dean called out, nothing, silence answered him. Nothing seemed out of place; no furniture was knocked over, no sign of a struggle. "Erin" Dean called again

Ellen and Jo entered the house, Dean motioned for them to go to the other ground floor rooms as he began to climb the stairs Sam following close behind.

Dean didn't like this one bit, the door was open, Erin was to security conscious even being out of the hunting business he knew she took extra precautions just because she was done hunting the supernatural didn't mean the supernatural were done hunting her, so she wouldn't leave the door open, not unless something was wrong.

Dean slowly walked up the stairs the gun out in front of him watching for anything that might need shooting "Erin" Dean said softly not expecting to get an answer come on Erin, answer me please. He begged silently. "Erin" Dean called a little quieter this time, still not expecting an answer but felt better for calling her name. he climbed slowly up the stairs, figuring out what door would lead to what room, come on Erin, please just answer, give me a little sign your in here. Dean pleaded.

Sam followed his brother, not being able to imagine what was going through his head, he didn't want Dean to go through what he had with Jess, Sam had hardly survived it, Dean was strong but he was different when it came to Erin. Sam wasn't sure what Dean would do if she was… no it didn't bare thinking about.

Dean reached the top of the stairs and instantly noticed the door to the room at the end of the hall had its door open; Dean could see a double bed the sheets ruffled up. He wasn't worried that he would catch Erin and Justin having sex, he knew if that was the case Erin would have replied to his calls but she hadn't.

Dean went straight to the open door ignoring the closed ones, he rushed in to the room and before Sam could follow he saw Dean lower his gun and put it in the back of his jeans, he'd found Erin.

Author Note: Hi all sorry it has taken a while to update but been working on this and making sure i really like it before i post it.

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SJ