4

Luzifer finished his pizzas fast once them arrived and soon got a call from the government, asking him to come immediately for emergency.

It was a normal daily basis for Luzifer, his work time was never regular, sometimes a whole night, sometimes weeks and sometimes he had a month off. Gilen was also like that when Germany was born until WW2 ended and he passed all his works to Luzifer, the younger one just done well on it as he did before.

He turned off the TV and stared into the air absentmindedly, unlike Gilbert, who always full with energy and always find things to do to entertain himself, Gilen has a lack on emotions and get bored on things quickly. He usually slept or paint paintings to kill time. You only need to think nothing and focus on the colors and lines and shapes when you are painting. It was Friedrich who insisted on him and Gilbert learning either art or music, so he chose art while Gilbert chose another.

Yeah, maybe he should grab some paints and paint something before he kill himself out of boredom—

Then a knock stopped him from doing that.

It was Ludwig came to visit.

They lived separately after the wall being tore down. That day Gilbert rushed into the side of West Germany and Luzifer just stepped into East Germany silently and stood in front of him. It was some unspoken rules again, after that day Gilbert just lived in west with Ludwig and Luzifer with him in east.

Ludwig would visit them once in a while, though. Gilbert doesn't like Ludwig visiting them, but he never try to stop Ludwig from visiting them, as according to Ludwig. Gilen just shrugged at that, he doesn't really care about Ludwig visiting or what Gilbert think of it. Luzifer once said that he was like some old man waiting to die everyday, not caring about anything and he didn't denied that.

"Luzifer just gone to work, you want something to drink?" Gilen let Ludwig in and the younger nation just politely rejected the offer, saying that he needed to drive home afterwards.

Thus he just went back to sat on the sofa and patted the empty space beside him to imply Ludwig to sit. There was a hesitate and anxious expression on the younger nation's face. Something had happened, Gilen thought. Ludwig took off his coat and scarf and hung them on the clothes stand beside the door, then he came to sit beside Gilen.

"What happened?" Gilen asked in a tender tone, it made him unease to speak like this, but he just can't say"Spit it out you nerd" or "Say it out brat" like he speaks to Luzifer. Ludwig just don't deserve to be treated like that.

"Gilbert was bitten by my dog,"wow that was nice, good doggy, "It was a week ago, but the wound doesn't heal." Gilen frozen from hearing that.

FUCKING GILBERT.

"He didn't try to hide it from you?" Gilen just burst out before he can stop himself. Fucking idiot Gilbert, did his skills of acting normal really rotten? Goddamn it Gilbert you stupid—

"He did, and done it well." Ludwig was surprised at his reaction, but continue to answer his question,"If I didn't have the thought to check the wound again yesterday, I wouldn't find out till my death."

Gilen cursed, then cleared his throat awkwardly,"So you come to—"

"Make sure you are okay."

Gilen stared at Ludwig's sky blue eyes, not sure what to say. Gilbert could disappear in any second, but Ludwig decided to come to check on him. They were never close. Sometimes he would caught Ludwig looking at him after he spoke to their leaders or when they walked past each other in the hallway. But Ludwig only looked, with curious, hesitation and uncertainty. And even if Ludwig wanna to talk to him, he would just hurry away and pretending he was busy.

It was not like he dislikes Ludwig, but the child just have a lightness inside as Gilbert that made him avoided naturally. He was never used to communicate with someone that obviously didn't live in the dark side of the world. The light side of the world just seems so unreal to Gilen. That probably why he only paint something light on the paintings. Leave the dark to the real world and have only the light in the frictional paintings.

"Well, thanks for your concern, but you can just make a phone call to check on me. It's not necessary to come here." Gilen looked away and said flatly,"You should stay with Gilbert. Nothing happened to me yet, the shadow always last a little bit longer than the light. It's how it works. Oh and please don't tell Luzifer about it….OUCH WHAT 'D HECK!"

Suddenly Ludwig just grabbed his wrists fiercely and pulled him back to pinned him on the wall. His head hit hard on the wall. Then he tried to yanked his hands free but failed on the attempt.

"AND WHY THE FUCK IS THAT YOU TWO JUST WOULD NOT TELL!"

He was shocked at Ludwig 's sudden anger and found these pure blue eyes filled with pain and hurt. Oh no, this is not good. Totally disastrous. Gilbert, why would you just let your younger brother check your wound again?

"…Well we, we just don't,"Gilen spoke reluctantly, "Nobody ever tells others they are gonna disappear, so we just don't."

"Ludwig, I think it's like…humans, yeah, humans, they all knew that their grandparents might die in anytime, but they just live normally, continue their daily basis until the moment of death comes. Their grandparents also won't say something like'I think I might die within years or couple months'. I am not good at explaining things, do you get what I am saying?"

It was probably the first time in his life that he spoke so many words. He already felt tired about that. But Ludwig didn't respond, only looked at him with complex expression that he can't read clearly.

There was an utter silence between the two for minutes. Then Gilen yanked his hands free when he felt that Ludwig's grab came lose, but the younger one didn't move his body away from him at all.

"Didn't Gilbert explain or tell you anything about it?" Gilen probably gonna kick Gilbert's ass if that dumbass didn't, leaving this all-messed-up Ludwig for him to deal.

"He did," Ludwig paused for a while before continuing, "He told me things about Brandenburg and my other older siblings, said that we used to have a big family until they decided to be united…and started disappearing one by one."

"And?"

"He said it's their wish to have me born, and they all understand and accept the fact that it means most of them are going to disappear, then be reborn as me together. They live as long as I live."

That was completely Gilbert style. "What's the problem then?"

Gilen frowned, it sounds good enough for him to comfort Ludwig.

"It just…you are like them." Ludwig said with sadness filling up his eyes, "The older sibling that devoted for my existence so much, but I never really get to know."

Gilen was stunned.

This was way too much.

Stop that.

TBC

Notes:

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