This is my fourth chapter sorry been slow on uploading but i know have all the time in the world for twelve weeks and i shal be writing lots!

This chapter is for BackwardsMuffin! because she is worthy of my shout outs after being such a pleasure to talk to :D

please enjoy!

Disclaimer: I do not own Glee!

Kurt had been trying to ring and text Rachel ever since she ran out the house, he couldn't get hold of her, and he didn't even know if she got home ok. He tried chasing her to let him give her a lift home but she was a surprisingly fast runner. He went home and lied on his bed going through in his head working out what had happened. He text Mercedes telling her what happened and asking her to check on Rachel but he told her not to mention that she knew about the kiss. He soon drifted off to sleep, but even in his dreams the kiss replayed over and over. He got himself sorted for school quickly then drove straight there, he was so happy it was glee first and Rachel never missed glee so he would definitely see her. Mercedes was already in the room when he got there they where instantly engrossed in conversation, "did you get hold of her? Is she ok? Is she coming in today? Are we still friends?" he was speaking really fast but soon stopped when he saw Mercedes face, "Kurt! I am one person less of the Spanish inquisition" she winked at him to let him know she was being playful. She spoke again "Kurt she's pretty pissed, to be honest with you mainly I don't know why I mean it's pretty obvious your gay just look at you" she looked him up and down when saying it rolling her eyes, "hey" Kurt said trying to act hurt but he knew it was true. "She is just going to need time, then everything will be fine and you'll be back to watching musicals in no time!" Kurt love how reassuring Mercedes was and new she was right, to his surprise Rachel wasn't in glee club, he knew she would be avoiding him but he had to find her so at lunch he planned to search the school for Rachel, oh he found her alright but he wished he never found her!

She was stood near the boys locker room with the one person she knew would upset Kurt if he saw her flirting with him, Blaine. Mercedes came along behind him and all he heard was "Oh, Hell no!" Kurt hid behind the door as he watched Mercedes approach Rachel, he saw them arguing, he couldn't believe his two best friends arguing because of him, no scratch that because of a stupid kiss. Then he couldn't believe his eyes Rachel walked of arm linked with Blaine's. He drove home and went straight to his room he snapped at his Dad, Carole and Finn and all they were trying to do was see if he was ok but he just needed to be alone with his anger so he could calm down in his own time!

The next day at school it was all anyone was talking about Blaine Anderson and Rachel Berry an item, it broke kurts heart hearing about them only Rachel and Mercedes knew about his incidents with Blaine and Rachel goes and does this, admittedly he hurt her but surely she would realise the mistake she made it was so obvious he was gay like Mercedes had said and he thought of all people Rachel would be the one to understand. How wrong you could be about a person.

Glee club was tense everyone sensed the friction between the trio even Brad the pianist knew something was up. There was not much laughter in glee today and it was an environment everyone wanted to leave, everyone was relieved when it was over and all went their separate ways at lunch. Kurt and Mercedes where talking during and they decided he had to confront Rachel and they had to sort out their differences. So after Spanish he walked up to Rachel by her locker she saw him approaching her but looked straight through him, he walked up beside her stopped and coughed, "Rachel I understand what you are feeling but please we are best friends nothing should tear us apart, I mean really Blaine! You've seen what he's done to me Rachel. Why can't we just forget what's happed" she looked at him in disgust, then started smiling, just as he was about to smile back he was thrown into the lockers. He thought Rachel was going to stick up for him but she started laughing grabbed Blaine's hand and they walked off down the hall together, Kurt's life felt as though it was crumbling around him.

A couple weeks went by and Kurt had given up on Rachel, she obviously wasn't the special friend he thought she was, it broke his heart but at least he still had Mercedes it was better than being all alone. He walked around the school his shoulders slumped, the spring in his step he used to have had gone, his confidence knocked and every corner he turned he checked first before walking down it, this situation was so wrong, aren't you supposed to feel safest in your school? Kurt's dad knew something was up but when he asked, Kurt just said he had fallen out with Rachel, but was working his hardest to patch things up. Kurt hadn't slept properly in ages and the lack of sleep was starting to catch up with him, he was just about to drift off to sleep when his phone started bleeping, he went to the bathroom to answer it, "Hello" he spoke warily into the phone. Then a small voice replied back to him, "Kurt, its Rachel, please don't hang up just listen to me for a second" she stopped talking obviously to see if she heard the dial tone in case he had hung up, Kurt thought to himself. She carried on" Kurt I'm so sorry I have been such a bitch to you, I don't know what happened I was mortified after kissing you, I just don't know what came over me, listen Kurt I'm ringing to apologise for my behaviour these past weeks" Kurt didn't know what to say he was grateful she was speaking and apologising to him but he had one word to say to her, "Blaine?" she paused before answering "Kurt I've just finished with him I've realised how stupid I've been, then I told him I didn't want to be with him and he kicked me out of his house and I don't know where I am, Kurt I'm lost, I'm so scared and I'm so sorry." He could hear her sobs down the phone; he did his best to calm her down. "Just tell me what you can see and ill come find you", he pulled on his skinny jeans and a hoodie and grabbed his car keys then went looking for Rachel. He found her after half an hours searching; she got in the car and looked rather embarrassed. "I'm so sorry Kurt I don't know what came over me I guess I just wanted someone to love me and I thought we are close we would make a good couple, I knew you were gay I just didn't want to believe your just so perfect." She sniffed as she spoke to Kurt, "Rach it's because I'm practically a girl" they both cracked up it felt like old times again even if it was half two in the morning.

Kurt drove Rachel to her house and went in together, they layed on Rachel's bed together just cuddling, "Kurt I just wanted to be loved, I see all these perfects couple and think, I want that, when I kissed Blaine it felt so distant like he was thinking of someone else kissing him not me" Kurt stayed silent then he pulled Rachel closer to him and whispered in her ear, "people do love you Rachel, me Mercedes, and I'm pretty sure Finn has a soft spot for you." He could feel her cheeks getting hot through is top so he knew she was blushing. Then she sat bolt upright as she took Kurt's appearance in properly for the first time, "oh my god Kurt, you are in a hoodie, you slob" she punched him playfully, Kurt turned to her pouting, "this is what you have turned me into, I hope your happy with yourself" he winked at her then they snuggled up together again and soon they both fell asleep. Kurt woke up early so he could go home and get ready for school.

He picked Rachel up on the way to school then went to get Mercedes, there was both shock and relief on her face, and Rachel explained everything and apologized to Mercedes, continuously. They had glee practise first thing and they strolled in together arms linked. Mr Schue turned around and joyfully shouted, "ahh the three musketeers back together again" everyone clapped and as they were sitting down out of the corner of his eye Kurt saw the flirtatious smile Rachel gave Finn.