Hey there guys. Sorry it took me so insanely long to get another chapter up. I'm slow and lame I know. But I hope you enjoy this, it's not my best because I'm at school and I was rushing but I do hope it's satisfying. Also near the end, Microsoft Word decided to be all 'Hey, I hate you so I'm going to mess up your paragraph spacing' and well, I tried everything to fix it, but I suck. So ignore that little weird mess up at the end. I'll stop talking now. Enjoy!

Ps. I don't own Katniss, Finnick, etc. I only write about them in some crazy alternate universes...Don't sue me.

Katniss stared at the bland door for what seemed like hours after Finnick had disappeared out it. Her mind was empty of thoughts, mainly because she was unsure of what had just occurred. Was Finnick telling her to try to fight for Peeta? Or was there a completely different meaning behind what he had spoken?

Did she want to fight for Peeta? Was this what she wanted in all honesty? To put her family in the line of danger once more to fight to bring someone back that could already be so far gone? The answer to those questions weren't easy to say.

Because part of her did…

But another part of her wanted someone else - and that someone else was not Gale.

With her knees to her chest, her arms wrapped around them giving her a secure feeling, Katniss took a few deep breaths. There were so many decisions she needed to make, but actually deciding was the electric fence that stood before her. Anywhere she tried to jump over would end up in zapping her, causing her pain no matter what way she tried to select.

In the end, someone would get hurt and she was positive it wasn't going to be someone in the male gender.

The gray eyes were still locked on the door when it opened, revealing the familiar eyes of Gale Hawthorne. She didn't want to see him, she wanted to be alone, but when her mouth opened, only a raspy sound came out.

"You are wanted in command." He spoke; his voice was strong and confident. Katniss could use some confidence right now, but all she had was a heart that was shattering minute by minute and a district that needed her but she didn't feel she could help.

"Well you can tell them I'm not interested. I can't be who they want me to be, I can't be their mockingjay, they need to find someone else." She meant for her voice to be strong, but instead it came out like one of the small kitten mews that Buttercup would give to Prim when he wanted to seem innocent. Katniss wasn't innocent though, she was pathetic, a sad excuse for a person.

Gale's eyes narrowed at her, not giving her any sympathy. "If you don't come, I've been ordered to drag you, which I'd prefer not to do if you don't mind." He gave her a shrug and stuck out his hand. "Come on, everyone is waiting, it won't take too long."

She looked at his hand with weary eyes.

This felt like a trap for one of the animals she use to hunt in the woods of District 12, she never did like being the prey, she'd rather the predator and here in District 13, that part of her was gone, she couldn't be herself. Especially not locked underground like she was, she needed to breathe and fresh air wasn't permitted.

With a sigh she took his hand, the rough skin felt somewhat soothing as helped her up and Katniss found herself staring at Gale as they walked. er Her

He still looked like the same boy she first met in the woods, but more defined and older. It made her miss the old days, before Prim got reaped and she took her sister's place. It made her wish thing were as they had once been before. They weren't though and she choked back a small sob.

In the command room, people were seated around a large circular table. She noticed Finnick sitting in one of the mesh chairs, but she ignored him, keeping her eyes away from those brilliant green ones.

She was barely paying attention when someone began to speak. When she glanced up in the direction the voice was coming from she looked right back down. She didn't want to sit here and listen to President Coin, she didn't want to sit here and be in this room, and she surely didn't want to be the mockingjay.

"We all know that in order to further launch our attack on the Capitol and bring them down, we need someone to be the face of the rebellion." Katniss could feel the eyes on her as Coin continued. "We need a Mockingjay, someone who is ready to stand and show the District and the Capitol that it's time for a change. That's why we are all here today, because we need to make sure that the person we need to do this, will stand up and finally become what she was destined to be."

Coin had come to a stop and she could feel the woman's cold eyes on her. Katniss looked up and met Coin's look with full force. "And I don't step up?" Katniss spoke, her mouth set in a firm line.

"You will step up. You don't have much of a choice in the matter. Either you start now and this war ends sooner with fewer casualties or you can prolong this and more people will die."

This is where Katniss didn't know what to say next. Her decision affected lives…it affected Peeta's life and her own. It affected her family's life and Gale's and his family.

She looked at the faces around her, her eyes straying a few seconds longer on Finnick's. He would never be happy again if she didn't step up. He would never have Annie back if she didn't. She couldn't do that to him.

"I want to think about it. That's all I have further to say about this." She spoke.

It was hours later when she ran into Finnick again.

They didn't talk at first, instead choosing silence.

It was comforting though, they didn't need to talk to say something. Both of them understood.

She did decide to speak after a half hour went by, her dark orbs staring at his bright ones.

"I'm going to choose to be the mockingjay, Finnick." She whispered, her hands folding in her lap.

They were sitting together in her bunker, her mother and sister were still busy with their chores.

"Is that what you are sure you want?" He whispered back, his hot breath hit her face and she felt her heart

jump.

She didn't say anything at first, not quite sure what to speak. Somehow he knew what she wanted though

and his hand came to rest upon hers.

It took the brunette a minute to realize they were kissing, but his lips were nice against hers and she had

been craving intimacy like this. She had only ever kissed one person and now that the one person may

possibly be gone forever she couldn't bare to think about it. Instead she let herself get wrapped up in

Finnick.

Pulling away she looked at him carefully, the words forming in her head. "I'm not sure what I want."

Yeah...I got a little carried away and I probably don't make any sense at all. o. Anyways, review and tell me if you hated it or if you have any suggestions. I had to get them out of the supply closet...I hope choosing the bedroom wasn't too bad. :| I'll try to get the next chap up soon though. But yeah...review and I'll love you forever and give you a special treat. [hehehe] - my evil laugh