Do I want Friendship or Do I Want You're Love?
Chapter Four: Memories
"Hello?" My phone was going off at four in the morning and I had no idea who it was. It was a number that couldn't be displayed.
"Night, is this a bad time?" I was surprised L, I mean Lawliet, would be calling me at this time.
"What is it L? And no it's not a bad time. I wasn't sleeping tonight."
"You don't sleep then?"
"Not really."
"What do you mean?"
"I sleep once in a while, but for the most part, I don't."
"I see," he murmured, then began speaking again. "Anyway, I just wanted to make sure you remembered that I told you to come over tomorrow at about seven A.M."
"I do remember," I mumbled, blushing.
"Is something wrong?"
"N-no!" He was silent for a moment.
"Alright then. It seems like there is though.""It's nothing," I quickly said and I imagined him nodding.
"Alright. I'll talk to you in three hours then."
"Yeah. Bye.""Bye." He hung up and I looked at the phone.
"I miss you, Lawliet," I murmured and the sobs that had been held back shook my shoulders as I tried to suppress any sobs that might come out. It didn't work though because no sooner did a knock come to my door. "Y-yes," I stammered in a whisper, wiping away my tears.
"Night, what's wrong?" I was glad it was only Light. I opened my door and saw his startled expression when the light touched my face. "Night-" I hugged close to him at once when he came into my room and I felt myself losing everything at once. I cried and felt Light sitting down on my bed. I curled up against his chest as I continued to cry even more and no soon after that, did my parents come in.
"Night?" Sachiko was the first to come over and I fell into her arms also. Light rubbed my back as my mother stroked my hair and I felt myself losing even more. I didn't know what was wrong with me. I didn't hear what Sachiko said as she put me back on Light's lap and I heard her leave the room. I started hiccupping during it as I continued to cry and I finally tried to get a hold of myself.
"Night, what's wrong?" Light murmured and I looked up at him through my tears. "Did someone do something to you? Do you want me to take care of them?"
"W-what?! No! What are you saying?" I saw the stunned expression on his face when I had pulled away. "No one did anything to me. I just miss my old friend."
"Mom's downstairs making you some hot chocolate if you want any." I hesitated to nod and left Light. Once I was downstairs, I sat down and started drinking the hot chocolate, deep in thought.
"Night, is there anything we can do for you?" Sachiko asked as she cleaned up the hot chocolate mess.
"No, I just need to stop thinking about my best friend from long ago."
"From your old orphanage?"
"Yeah," I answered weakly and looked at the cup again, studying my reflection in the cup and the name above my head.
"Do you want to speak to her there?"
"Maybe my old nanny," I murmured and then I remembered I had her number. "I'll call my nanny later. She'll be glad to talk to me." Sachiko nodded and I got back upstairs, looking for the paper my nanny had given me before I had left. I found it in an old box of papers and trinkets and I found a trinket Lawliet had given me. I sighed and put it away before I could start crying again and pulled out the worn paper. When I put the number in my cell phone, I hesitated to call, but pressed the green button and put the receiver to my ear. There were a couple rings before there was an answer.
A hesitant "Hello" came out and I recognized the voice almost instantly.
"Hello, Ms. Twilight," I said politely.
"Who is this?"
"Night-"
"Night, as in Nightana?" I nodded before answer.
"Yeah it is."
"I haven't heard from you since you left." I smiled sadly.
"I was afraid if I started talking with a few of my old pals it would bring up some bad memories and I'd be sad again."
"I can understand that."
"Anyway, the reason I was calling is I had met Ryuzaki-"
"You mean L?"
"Yeah, but I'm not supposed to call him that since I'm helping on a case. You know about Kira, right?"
"Yes, the mysterious killer from Japan. You're working on that case?"
"With Ryuzaki. I met him and well I lost my mind tonight and woke up my mother and father.""And so you decided to call me. I'm glad you did." I could hear how glad she was that I called her.
"What should I do? Ryuzaki doesn't know that I'm who I was and the only way I know is that weird thing I told you about."
"That you can see someone's name by looking at them. Yes, and you saw his name too. I'm sorry to hear that, Nightana. You don't mind me calling you that, right?"
"No, just don't ever address me as Nightana to my parents. They don't know about that."
"I know they don't." She was silent for a moment. "Nightana, you see, I'm getting a two week vacation from the Wammy House of my own choice of destination. Do you want me to come to Japan to see you?"
"Would you?! That would be amazing, Ms. Twilight!" Then I realized how selfish I must sound. "Did you want to go anywhere else though?""No, to be completely honest, I was planning on skipping it, but if I saw you, I would go. I'll talk to Roger about it tonight."
"I forgot, it's the afternoon over where you are, right?"
"Yeah. What time is it over there?"
"About four thirty in the morning."
"Did you not sleep tonight?"
"No, I did last night. I sleep once a month."
"I know that, child. You're not much of a child anymore anyway, are you? You're eighteen right?"
"I will be in a couple of days."
"I'll be over there for your birthday. I'll call tomorrow and tell you what I learn, okay?"
"Yeah.""Good bye."
"Bye." When I hung up the phone, I felt good, but also bad. I hadn't talked about what I had wanted to. And I'd have to talk to Lawliet about keeping my phone on so I could talk to Ms. Twilight whenever she called. I bit my lip as I tried to decide to try calling Lawliet. He had given me a special number I could use if I needed to talk to him. I put his number away, along with Ms. Twilight's, and turned around in my spiny chair for the rest of the time. At six o'clock, I got in the shower again and put on my outfit I had had on when I got hit by that car. I pulled my hair into two high pigtails like usual and went downstairs. No one else was awake, except for Soichiro. "Morning father," I greeted as I got a cup of hot chocolate ready.
"I see you're already up. I was going to get you."
"I wasn't actually asleep."
"Couldn't get back to sleep?"
"Yeah," I lied. "When are we leaving?"
"As soon as you eat breakfast."
"Okay," I sighed and got some donuts with sprinkles and white frosting (that I had made). I got in the passenger seat of the car and started eating while I drank the hot chocolate. I smiled as I waited to get to Lawliet's home and hurried to get into the hotel. It was getting cold. I followed him upstairs and found none of the other detectives were here.
"Ryuzaki, can I keep my phone on today?" He looked at me with his panda like eyes.
"Why do you need to?"
"I have an expected call today. I don't know when, but at some point-" I stopped as I felt my phone start to vibrate. It was Ms. Twilight! "Actually, she's calling right now. I'll be back in a minute."
"Nightana! Guess what?"
"What, Ms. Twilight?"
"I'm going to be in Japan in a couple of hours."
"Are you really?!"
"Yes, I am. Can you pick me up?"
"I could talk to my father about it. How about I call you back in a minute after I talk to my father?"
"Okay, I'll be waiting." I hung up and reentered the room.
"Father, can we pick up a friend at the airport in a couple of hours."
"A friend?" Soichiro asked and I nodded.
"The person I told you about last night? She's already on her way here."
"Alright, Night," he sighed. "I wish you would've talked to me about this earlier though."
"I didn't know she was coming until now." He nodded and I went to leave again.
"Night, why don't you just talk in here?" L asked and I stopped in my tracks to turn around.
"I don't like talking on the phone in front of a bunch of people," I said slowly.
"Or do you just not want us to overhear what you have to say?" I glared at the ground, wishing horribly to have my best friend back.
"I wouldn't tell anything, Ryuzaki," I said through clenched teeth, looking up at him. "And I'm going to guess you're not going to believe me." He studied me for such a long time I wondered if he was debating whether or not to trust me when he said.
"I trust you so go on ahead." I smiled at him gratefully and called Ms. Twilight.
"It'll be fine for you to stay with us. My father said it would be, Ms. Twilight."
"I'm glad," she said, clearly happy. "I should be there in about two or three hours."
"Okay, I'll see you then."
"Bye Nightana."
"Bye Ms. Twilight." I hung up the phone and closed my eyes for a moment, sighing and leaning back against the wall. For a moment, I imagined myself in the Wammy House.
~Start of Flashback~
"Ryu-kun, look! Look at all the snow!" He looked up from the work he was doing and sighed.
"Nightana, I'm busy right now. I need to finish my homework."
"Come on! Let's play for a few minutes. Then we can come back in, get some hot chocolate, and then I'll help you finish it! You seem to be quite slow today." He stared at me for some time.
"Nightana, I can do these problems without any help, but I was trying to make it more of a challenge for myself."
"Then you can teach me this new method and we can both do your work after we go outside. I've never seen this much snow before. Please!" L looked at me for a little while longer.
"Fine," he finally sighed, setting down his pencil and getting up.
"YAYS!" I rushed around to get my snow pants, gloves, hat, and shoes and jacket on while L stayed calm as he did all of his things. The last thing I did before going outside was to pull my hair out of its pigtails and brush it out. I turned to L and smiled. "Do I look okay?" He nodded and turned away.
"Come on." I took his hand after he said that and pulled him outside.
~End of Flashback~
"Night?" I looked over at the voice startled and saw Matsuda standing next to me.
"Oh! Matsuda!" I hugged him and then pulled him inside the room. "Father, Matsuda's here and OMG! It's snowing!" I ran over to the window, very surprised. I had never seen it snow like it was on Japan today. "Can I go outside? Please, Ryu-kun!" I looked at L's panda eyes. "Please!" He sighed.
"Later, Nighta-Night. Not now." My eyes widened."What were you going to call me Law-Ryuzaki?" We were both looking at each other now.
"Nothing." He turned away and walked to where he would sit. I glared off in his direction. He knew I was Nightana, but he wouldn't admit it and of course I wasn't admitting I knew he was Lawliet.
"The rest of you can come in." I looked over at Mogi, Aizawa, and Ukita as they walked in.
"Oh, father," I whispered so no one else would hear, "Ms. Twilight said she'd be here in two or three hours. She said she would call when she was."
"Make sure to ask Ryuzaki whether it's alright or not to keep your phone on." I nodded and walked over to L."Ryuzaki, may I keep my phone on for when my guest gets to the airport? She said she'd call in two or three hours."
"If you can give me the number, I want to make sure it's who you're expecting." I hesitated, then wrote the number down.
"You can check the number before I answer it," I murmured, sitting down next to him. He went into some details about everything on the Kira case and then he got a call on his cell phone.
"Hello?" L was silent for a moment. "Come on right up." He closed his phone. "Watari's on his way up here. He'll be here in a moment." I looked over at the door eagerly when it opened and I saw him.
"Hello, gentlemen and Night. I am Watari."
"Wait, so you're Watari?" Matsuda asked and Watari nodded. "Why aren't you in your usual outfit?"
"If I was, it would be announcing to the whole world that Ryuzaki's here and that I am Watari. In fact, just my being here proves to you that Ryuzaki trusts you."
"Now that you do mention it, I do feel kind of honored," Matsuda continued, laughing half-heartedly. I smiled and then saw the brief case in Watari's hand.
"Ryuzaki, I brought the stuff you requested." I looked at Ryuzaki, a little confused.
"Thank you. Please pass them out." I saw L look at me again and then I saw the police badges Watari gave everyone except me.
"Night, I was wondering if you had a certain name for yourself since you aren't really a police officer," L said when he saw my confused look.
"Can I be Y?" I asked as I looked at him for an extra second. "It's just you called me that the first time we met and I wouldn't mind keeping it."
"Okay, Night. Well, that'll be your title, but I would like you to call yourself Nightana to people who ask about your name."
"Nightana?" I knew there was a spark of horror on my face. "Night is a good enough name, wouldn't you say?"
"Isn't it your real name?"
"But I don't know my real birth name or anything," I lied, "And Night is only a fluke kind of thing," I added in a whisper.
"It shouldn't be a problem calling yourself Nightana though, would it?" I finally gave up.
"No, it wouldn't, I guess." Before I could say anymore, my phone started vibrating. I looked at the number and then handed it to L. He nodded and let me out without a word. "Hello, Ms. Twilight," I answered.
"Hello, Nightana. I'm going to be here in twenty minutes."
"It's been that long already?"
"Yes."
"I'll tell my father and I'll have him pick you up. I think Ryuzaki will want me to stay here."
"Yes, I would expect that from our detective." I smiled.
"I'll go tell both of them then."
(Soichiro's Pov)
"Mr. Yagami, will you be able to bring me Night's papers when you come back from picking up her friend?" I looked over at L.
"Why do you need to see them?"
"I just want to. I have my reasons." I nodded and then the door opened again.
"Father, she's here. Can you pick her up, please? And Ryu-kun, do you think she could help us? She loves detective work." I was very surprised by her question.
"That's fine," L answered her and I could see a gleam in her eyes that had never been there before. Never had it been there at our normal household. What was going through her head?
"Night, I'll go get her-" She cut me off.
"I should go with," she argued, "if that's alright, Ryu-kun," she added. He nodded without a word and she smiled even more. "Thank you. Come on, father, let's go get her."
(My/Night's Pov)
"Father, why are we stopping by our house?"
"I just have to pick something up real quick. I'll be right back and then we'll be going." I hesitated to nod and waited until he came back with an envelope.
"What's that?" I asked, curiously.
"Nothing." He continued to ignore the question as he drove to the nearest airport. I walked in excitedly and looked around. It was too crowded to make out anyone in particular so I called her.
"Ms. Twilight, where are you?" I asked.
"I'm by the doors." I looked back behind me and glanced around by the doors. I caught sight of her then.
"Ms. Twilight!" I had hung up the phone and hugged her at the doors. Soichiro followed behind me.
"Nighta-Night, you seem well," she praised when I let go and I smiled.
"Ryu-kun said you could work with us. Come on, father will take us back now."
(L's Pov)
"Thank you, Mr. Yagami." I took the envelope from his hand and hesitated to open it up. I didn't really want to know who she was. I didn't want it to be my old friend.
"Why do you need to see this, Ryuzaki?" he asked.
"I just want to confirm something." I opened up the envelope and looked at the paper. "Mr. Yagami, do you know who Ms. Twilight is?"
"No, only that I picked her up. She's trying to get Night inside right now." I nodded and looked a little more closely at the paper. It didn't say what orphanage she was from, but it said Midnight Twilight had been her nanny. It also said she had originally came from the U.S., about the place the Wammy House had been at. And where Watari, B, and I had found her. Nightana.
For a moment, all I could think about was the way she was and then I shook my head. "Ryuzaki?"
"Tell Nightana she needs to get in here."
"Alright." I sat down to let everything sink in and looked at the original picture she had come with. She had definitely changed from her original self. She was definitely taller with her hair longer and a more beautiful color. You could now see the blue only I had originally seen in her eyes and her hair had a bluer shine to it now.
I closed my eyes, trying to control my mind for one moment, but I found it almost impossible. Just the way she moved, almost made me want her more than anything. To just feel her soft hands again in mine and to- "Ryu-kun, what's wrong?" My eyes opened the instant I heard her voice and I saw her looking at me, a little worried.
"Is this who you were bringing?" I asked, hiding everything from a moment ago.
(Later that night/Night's Pov)
"Is everything alright between you and Ryuzaki?" I looked at Ms. Twilight and was shocked by her question.
"Sure."
"No, it doesn't seem like it." I rolled my eyes.
"It's nothing that can't be solved."
"Are you sure? Maybe we should have a meeting between you two-" I cut her off.
"That's for like when I was six at the Wammy House! Come on, neither of us are kids anymore."
"He's twenty-four and you're eighteen. Both of you are still young and maybe both of you need it." I shook my head and glanced up at the window I knew L was in.
"Neither of us need it. I just need a time alone with him," I whispered, clutching the dog tag and I felt tears falling down my face.
"Night, come here." I let her hug me and I tried to grab hold of myself almost instantly.
"I don't know if I can ever tell him," I mumbled. "I don't think I can ever tell him how I feel. How much I love him." I felt Ms. Twilight jerk back and saw the look she gave me.
"Why hadn't you told me this? This is different then just friends missing each other."
"How is it different? I've always felt this way." She opened her mouth to speak again, but then shut it again.
"Never mind. Come on, I'll take you out to eat." I took her hand and glanced up one more time at the window and saw L looking out, but not at anything. He was looking at me.