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BPOV
I'm not sure how it happened, but before I knew it days passed. Then they turned into weeks, it went so fast.
Emmett had brought the car, the car I thought would be expensive but I really didn't know seeing as I refused to know how much it cost him. He was happy about his purchase and drove it around everywhere; soon he knew all the streets and suburbs around us like the back of his hand. I still had no idea how to get the milk bar down the road without getting lost.
Apart from that, he had been alright with everyday life. I could still tell he missed Rose, and that he was upset about being so far away from her, though he never did try to get in contact with her.
I, on the other hand brought a new nokia E63. I would ponder day in and day out about whether or not I should send Edward a text message. I felt like if I did I would screw up everything he had built up, if he had even built anything up. Which I hoped he had, I couldn't bear the thought of him being miserable. Then, after I couldn't send the text message I debated on whether I should maybe write him a letter... Or even jump on the internet and send an email or hope he was on msn or AIM. But then I was stuck with the fact of what to write, or what I would say 'Hey Edward, how have you been since I left and moved half way around the world? Not wallowing in your bedroom I hope. By the way, I miss you so much and love you more and more each day, even though I can't hear your voice or touch you.' Yeah, I didn't think that would be too appropriate.
Aside from my confusion on what to do, I had made some friends. Well, I made friends with Jakes friends anyway. One of which I had become really close with over the last few days. Her name is Chelsea, around my age but a few months older. She reminds me so much of Alice. When I first met Chelsea she came dancing over to me and jumped into my arms, enveloping me in a hug and making us both fall to the ground. She loves shopping, just like Alice though she isn't all that interested in dressing me up like Alice was. Which I was glad about. It sort of filled that void for me, the one that was left when I left Alice, not that Chelsea would or could ever replace Alice, because trust me, it is impossible to replace her and I wouldn't dream of doing that to her anyway. I love Alice like a sister, and I love Chelsea as a friend, there's a difference.
Chelsea was pretty with her short sandy blonde hair that finished at her shoulders and her hazel eyes. She was slender, but sort of straight up and down. No real curves to her figure, guys still loved her though. She was easy to get along with. She went with the flow all the time and was so free.
Danny was another friend I had made, he was nice and down to earth but out going at the same time. He always makes me laugh. He and Jake usually have me rolling around on the ground in hysterics.
Then we have Kara, she was gorgeous, and really nice. She had dark brown hair that flowed down to her waist, it was naturally straight... Her eyes were a forest green colour, she has an oval shaped face and she is skinny with boobs. I was jealous to say the least. She had nothing on Rose, but she was still beautiful. For some reason she seemed to really connect with Emmett, he confided in her and she listened to him without judgement. She understood what he was going through, even though she hadn't been through it herself.
Jake and I had become close to, he was like a brother to me. He was always there for me when I cried, he stayed up with me until I fell asleep when I didn't want to be alone, he would sit on my bean bag in the corner of my room and read a book or magazine. Just knowing he was there made me felt more comfortable. Emmett had also warmed up to Jake once he realized he wasn't a threat to me, or him for that matter.
And now, here we are. All piled into my room laying on my bed in a big mess. I was stuck in between Jake and Danny, Chelsea had her head rested in my lap, and Emmett was lying across my bed next to Kara as we all watched without a paddle, natures calling.
"You know" I said as I shoved a chip in my mouth "I don't get this" I frowned watching the movie; it was the part where they are going down the river... with paddles. Confusing. Right?
"What don't you get?" Danny asked as he poked me in the ribs. Making me jump.
"Well" I continued, sliding closer to Jake, further away from Danny so he would stop poking me "It's called without a paddle right?" I asked, Danny nodded "Then why are they going down the river with paddles? Doesn't it sort of defeat the purpose of calling the movie without a paddle?" I watched as Danny pursed his lips, Jake and everyone else were snickering, making me feel like an idiot... though I didn't see what was so funny about that.
"What?" I asked confused
"Nothing Bells" Danny laughed as he patted my head. I'm not a dog I felt like yelling at him.
I glared at him then pushed him as hard as I could "Be nice" I hissed, trying to hold myself up so I didn't fall of the edge of the bed with him.
Sometimes, I would feel bad for being happy... It felt wrong to be this happy after only a few weeks of being away from Edward, Alice, Rose and Jasper, like I was going behind their backs or something. It felt good to laugh, but every time I did I would think your laughing and having fun without Edward or Alice... Then I would stop. I tried so hard not to think of it like that.
I missed them all, especially Edward. I just wanted to touch him; a photo wasn't enough for me. Just by looking at it made me think was it real? Or all in my mind though the answer was right in front of me in the photo it all seemed like some distant dream... a story I made up in my mind. I have forgotten what it's like to touch him... what his hair feels like.... what his voice sounds like, and it all scares me to death that something that was so important, such a big part of me felt so lost and fake.
"You know" Emmett said as he leaned on his side to face me "Sometimes I swear you were supposed to be born blonde" He laughed
"Be nice" Kara scolded him, whacking him across the head. Something Rose would have done
"Yeah Emmett, be nice" I mimicked Kara, and then pocked my tongue out at Emmett. As I did this, I thought about what Rose or Alice would say, Gee Bella, that's something Emmett would do.
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The next morning, after another restful night's sleep, I got up out of bed and made my way over to my computer. I thought more about sending an email to Edward; it seemed the most logical way to contact him... It was basically free after all. Plus, I couldn't not contact him; I had to at least try.
I drummed my fingers impatiently on my desk as I waited for my computer to start up. Soulfully looking at the photo of me and Edward at the zoo. "That was a fun day" I sighed as I picked up the photo and remember what that stupid elephant did to me, and Edward's musical laughter filling my ears.
Once my computer was all loaded up I opened my email and clicked 'new'. Then I sat there, staring at the screen. This was going to be the hard part, what would I say? Can I tell him that I miss him? And if I don't, what will he think of that?
I bit my lip as started to write
Dear Edward,
That's as far as I got before getting stuck again. I watched the curser blink profusely on the screen as it waited for me to type some more.
"Arrgghh" I groaned, banging my head on the keyboard "Why is this so god damn hard?" I said to myself. Great Bella, now you're going crazy.
After causing myself a bit of brain damage I stood up out of my seat and started pacing around the room. My hand clenched into a fist around the necklace Edward had given me, I never took it off. Once I did and I felt even more lost then I already do... Almost naked.
I threw my head back and stared up at the white ceiling and chewed on my lip... I don't really know what I expected to find on the roof, but it seemed to hold my gaze for quite some time.
After deciding that I shouldn't waste my time on thinking about what to write and that I should just say what I want to say I sat back down and glared at the screen as if it were my enemy.
My fingers found the keys and I started typing out all my thoughts onto the screen.
It wasn't a long email... and I think I read it about four times over before deciding that it was ok to send. When it came to clicking the send button I paused, the mouse sitting over the button. Just click it Bella... Click it
I bounced in my seat, causing my hair to fall in my face as I stared at the send button. It's just a button... PRESS IT
I closed my eyes and held my breath as I clicked the button. Oh shit... I just sent the email... Breathe Bella I reminded myself when I started choking. I forgot that I was holding my breath.
Email Sent I read on the screen. What if he doesn't read it? What if he hates me for sending him an email when I specifically told him he needed to move on with his life? God... I'm such a horrible, selfish person.
EPOV
Alice, Rose and I ended up at a nearby cafe just down the road.
We use to come here allot... With Bella and Emmett. So, looking around and remembering the fun times we had here was almost like a knife through my heart. Why did we come here?
Once we spotted Jasper, who was sitting in one of the booths looking rather occupied as he gazed at one of the pictures on the wall, we went over and joined him.
"Hey Jazz" Alice beamed. It was good seeing her a little happier, free. More like herself.
"Hey you" He smirked pulling her into his arms. He looked at me as if to say this isn't the Alice I know. I almost felt like laughing, I knew what he was referring to. The sweats and t-shirt, I would have to agree, it's not Alice at all. And if you knew her you could defiantly tell something was wrong.
Rose and I were seated opposite them; I picked up the menu and glanced at what they had on it.
"What do you want?" I asked the girls as I skimmed through each dish.
"I want…. I want a…. a…" Alice said as she peered into her own menu while tapping her chin thoughtfully.
"Make up your mind" Jasper laughed
"I want a chicken wrap with a side of chips and a coke" She said with a smile
"And you Rose?" I asked
"I'll just have a salad sandwich and a bottle of water"
"Alright, I'll be back in a minute" I told them
Jasper got up and walked with me over to the line at the counter.
"How have you been?" He asked, shuffling his feet as If he didn't know what else to say.
"Fine" I shrugged
"I know you haven't been fine Edward, but I'll leave it…" He trailed off.
"Thanks" I mumbled
"Thank you for getting Alice out of the house" He said
"She's the one who came over to my house. I just dragged her out the front door" I shrugged
"Still, thank you" He grinned
I gave him a slight nod then turned my attention to the lady behind the counter and gave her our order.
I sat back down at the table, next to Rose, opposite Alice and Jasper as we waited for our food to come. The cafe was filled with people talking amongst themselves, laughing and joking around. That use to be us
"Do you think we will hear from them?" Alice asked as she played with the sugar sashays that were in the middle of the table.
Rose's head snapped up to look at Alice "I don't know" She sighed "I hope we do…" She trailed off, her eyes glazing over slightly.
I hoped we did too. Even if it was something small I wouldn't care. I just needed to know that she made it to Australia alright, how she was going and if she was ok.
Once the food came we all dug in. Rose was practically inhaling her food. Poor girl must have been hungry. I wish she didn't do that to herself... I understand why she did though.
"Edward mother fucking Cullen" I heard an all too familiar voice call.
I looked up and saw Joey and Dean walking over to me "See, I told you it was him" Joey said, elbowing Dean in the ribs.
"Hey guys" I said Please go away I silently begged I'm not in the mood for your shit
"Fuck! Dude, what the hell happened to you?" Dean asked, his forehead creasing as he frowned at me
"What?" I asked nonchalantly, as if I had no idea what he was talking about
"You look like shit" Joey laughed
"Yeah man, like you haven't slept in a week" Dean said If only you knew I thought.
"Shit happens" I shrugged as I took a bite of my burger. Not something I really want to talk about
"Where's that sexy ass girlfriend of yours?" Joey asked as he looked around our table and then the rest of the cafe.
"Gone" I said simply
"You mean you fucked her off?" He laughed "Good on ya. Who needs bitches like that anyway?"
"Ass hole" Alice muttered under her breath
"I didn't fuck her off Joey and she isn't a bitch. She moved, to Australia"
I can't believe I use to be friends with this dick.
"Why the hell did she move to Australia?" Dean asked shock evident in his voice.
"Her parents moved, so she went with them" I sighed
"Why didn't she stay?" He asked
Dean was always so much more placid then Joey. Joey could be a real fuck nut, didn't really give a shit about anyone but himself.
"Because she couldn't be that far away from her parents" I replied.
"So she didn't give a shit about you?" Joey cut in, his voice sounding slightly amused
"IT ISN'T LIKE THAT" Alice yelled at him, she stood up and slammed her hands down on the table
"WOAH Calm down pretty girl" He chuckled holding his hands in the air
"Dick head" She spat at him as she took her seat again
Jasper was glaring at Joey as he pulled Alice in tightly by his side.
"I think you should leave" I told him, trying to remain as calm as possible.
"What's up your ass man? You use to be different... you changed" He hissed
"It happens when you grow up, now fuck off"
He scoffed and walked away from our table, over to a bunch of plastic looking girls.
"Sorry about him" Dean said with a small smile "I'll catch ya 'round Edward" He said, clapping me on the back
"Yeah see ya"
"What an ass" Alice hissed under her breath "And you use to be friends with him" She scoffed
I couldn't say anything guilty as charged I thought to myself.
Joey could be a good bloke, when he wanted to be. It was only when it came to woman that he really changed his attitude and became an ass hole.
Dean on the other hand didn't care so much. He was a nice guy, why he hung around with Joey is beyond me. Joey's attitude is the reason I stopped hanging around them, I caught onto too much of the bullshit that came out of his mouth and the way he acted, it sort of rubbed off on me.
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I got home about two hours later. Opening the front door I heard my parents talking, I peaked around the corner into the kitchen to see a man I didn't recognize sitting at the table with my parents, there was a whole heap of folders on the kitchen bench and the guy was dressed in a suit and tie. What the fuck? I thought to myself.
Needing to get a better look at who this guy was I walked around the corner and headed towards them. My mother's eyes grew wide when she saw me and she nudged my father, who looked down the second he noticed me coming. Something is weird... something is going on.
I kept my eyes on the folders and books on the bench as I walked closer. The words on the cover becoming more clear to me. When I reached the table, I frowned, looking at the folder that was staring back at me. You have got to be shitting me
"What's this?" I asked as I looked up at my mum "What are you doing?" I almost yelled
"We have to do it" My mother said
I looked at her dumbfounded that she could actually even do this.
I removed my eyes from the folder lying before and looked up at my parents, then to the guy who looked awfully uncomfortable while twiddling his thumbs "Why do you have to do it?" I spat
"They asked us too" My dad said
I couldn't even begin to fathom what they were saying, so I just shook my head and bolted up the stairs. Their selling the house? Meaning someone is going to move next door... I felt as if they were now getting replaced.
I grabbed my packet of smokes, shoving one in my mouth before I put the pack in my pocket. Then I walked outside and lit the smoke, blowing out a big blue cloud as I stared over at Bella's old room. One more time wouldn't hurt right? I thought to myself.
Holding the cigarette in my mouth, my eyes squinted so I didn't get smoke in them I picked up the ladder and lay it across the two balconies.
I climbed up on the ladder, feeling wobbly like it was the first time I had done this. I made sure I kept my eyes locked on her bedroom door as I crawled my way across.
When I finally reached the other side, landing on the ground with a loud 'thud' I brushed off my jeans and tried pulling on the sliding door knowing full well that it would be locked. I managed to get a gap between the door and the wall to a point where I could see the lock slightly. I fumbled around in my pocket for a moment until I finally managed to get a hole of my keys.
I shoved one of my keys into the gap, it was only just long enough to touch the metal latch and I tried to hook the key under it hoping it would catch and lift.
After about half an hour of grunting and cracking it I finally got it to lift and unlock.
"Yes!" I whispered to myself as I opened the door.
I stepped inside, Bella's scent hitting me like a ton of bricks making me feel woozy and weak again.
I inhaled, long and hard. I didn't realize how much I missed the smell of her until now. If only I could hold her and feel her close to me.
I sighed and leant against the wall her bed use to be, sliding down to the ground, my knees bent and I rested my elbows on them putting my head in my hands still breathing in heavily.
I couldn't understand how my parents could sell Bella's house. Even if her parents asked them too. The house getting sold means someone will move in... And I didn't want any other neighbour apart from her.
I pushed my hair back and closed my eyes, enjoying the silence as her scent floated around me.
"EDWARD" I heard someone call. I shot up of the ground and ran over to the glass door. Rose was standing on the balcony, her face stained red.
"Everything alright?" I asked as I walked out. This is what me and Bella use to do
"Why are you over there?" She asked
I shrugged "I just... they are selling the house" I said quietly
"Selling it?" She asked confused "As in... someone else will live there?"
I nodded my head slowly
"Wha-....how....why.... NO!" She growled, she grabbed onto the ends of her messy hair and tugged tightly on it, screwing her face up with sadness "How can they do that?" She asked
"I don't know" I sighed "It's fucked. It's just going to make it that more real"
She looked at me sadly, and then suddenly her face brightened up with a half smile "I have an idea" She said, looking hopeful "Come over here and talk to me" She said, then disappeared inside
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