Chapter 4 'Sick of It'
"I can say what I want to him! I'm higher than him so that's it!" Lord Darighon, Solia's father, barked at Inutaisho.
He growled and stood up getting a little peeved at the bastard. "That doesn't matter! He is my son and if you want to keep this treaty pure with how it started with and on going then you will not do that again! And you will not strike my wife again or anyone else here in my castle!"
Darighon grinded his teeth together and glanced at Solia that was seating next to Inutaisho with her head down. "I will do as I please to my daughter! And if you or myself does break the treaty then she will come back to me!"
"That is too late! If she had not been married and we had broken it then she would go back to you but she has already married me so you can't do shit about it!" He yelled back at him and walked in front of his desk facing the lord.
"I can do what I want! Do you want to know something?" He eyed him and narrowed his eyes a little to intensify what he was going to say. "I saw your son staring at Solia like he wanted her then he talked to her afterward!"
"Well, do think that everyone was getting drunk so he could of acted not like his usual self! I know you know that since you did drink a lot of saki that night also."
He blinked then growled as a reply of 'that it was impossible that he could have done that.'
Solia opened her mouth and growled. "Shutup father. Just shutup and leave me alone! You think that things happen the way that you want to see them. Sesshomaru and I were just talking about something as innocent as a pup could!" Her bangs were over her eyes.
Darighon growled for her disrespect and was walking over to her when Inutaisho stopped him with a push. "Leave. Leave here now."
"Please my lord, don't let him. I want to tell him something that even he doesn't know about. But if you don't mind my lord, can you leave so I can tell him?" She asked politely.
Inutaisho arched an eyebrow then nodded kissing her forehead walking out.
She stared at her hands and growled again. "No one ever told you but I've been training for the war. I was planning on sneaking into the ranks dressed as a man so that I could see my love. He knew I wanted to do that because I told him but he didn't want me to get hurt. He loved me and treated me like no one else has. He said that after the war was done and when he was a much higher rank then he would ask if he could marry me? I told him that would be impossible because you would never allow it. Only royalty marries royalty and when he would have asked you then you would have killed him right there. I know this because of all the others that have come to ask for their marriage to me."
She paused and looked at him not afraid to say what she needed to. "You know the last ranks that left from the castle to guard us? Well he was in those ranks and I went to see him as a slave. Hai, I was actually dressed as one of those women."
He growled was growling deep now but held himself in his spot from hurting her to hear the rest. Even though he thought that the rest would drive him to kill her.
Solia stood and walked over to him looking him in the eyes. "He took me. I let him because I loved him as what he was, not what he could have given me."
Darighon's eyes widened and held his hand up to slap her and she stopped him holding his wrist. "You little whore!"
She grinned. "The only reason you didn't smell any man on me when I came back was because I some perfume that could hide my scent and HIS." She held his wrist tighter. "I have his child now and you can't smell it because I hide the scent. I learned this from my training. How to change my scent to anything I want to." Her hand went to her stomach and a laugh escaped her lips because the look on his face.
"Bitch!" He grabbed her throat with his other hand growling loud. "I'll kill you!"
Solia let his wrist go and grabbed the other one and dug her nails into it piercing all the way through and dropped back on her feet. He was snarling very mad and held his damaged arm. She seeing that he wouldn't attack but stand there, took him by the throat instead and picked him off his feet. "You never thought that I would be this powerful didn't you? You never thought that I could learn and train as hard as a man does. I was surprised at first then settled down knowing that I could beat my own father. I was hungry for more power, or more than you yourself had from what I heard."
He winced. "Why have you suddenly… wanted to do this? Why are… you so intent on becoming… more powerful than me?"
"Heh… why do you think? I was getting sick of you commanding me and ordering me to do everything that you thought was right. I got tired of you saying over and over again that I killed mother." She growled and squeezed harder making him whimper. "Why would I want to kill mother?"
The door opened a little and then there was a scream. Inutaisho ran in and froze when he saw Solia holding Darighon in the air. "What are you doing?" He ran over and grabbed her hand. "Let him go."
Solia looked at him and blinked. "Why should I after all he has done to me? I've gone through more pain than he can imagine."
"Hai, but killing your father won't do anything. Please let him go Solia." He paused to think of a reason that he should be let go then looked her in the eyes. "He is the lord of the Southern Lands and if he dies then your family and others will be fighting over whom will be the next emperor. That will have your people go into poverty again. Do you want that to happen to them?"
Solia closed her eyes then shook her head. "The people are the most important to me. They go through much more than the royals." She let her grip loosen and dropped him. "I'm sorry my lord. I just lost it." She bowed. "Please, can I be dismissed?"
Inutaisho sighed heavily looking at the other lord and nodded to her. "Hai, but we will talk later."
She bowed again and walked out. She looked at her hand and licked the blood off. Others around her gave her odd looks but didn't say anything not wanting to get evolved with anything. "I lost it. How can I do that? I've never done that before. Maybe…" She looked down at her stomach and touched it. "Maybe, I'll ask the healer."
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Inutaisho helped Lord Darighon up and let him sit down. "What happened? How could she become so, so violent? I haven't seen her like that." He looked at him but he couldn't blame her that much for wanting to kill him.
"I think it has to do with a few reasons." He held his wrist still to stop the bleeding then looked up to Inutaisho. "Because of me and because…she is… with pup."
"What?" Inutaisho asked thinking that he didn't hear correctly.
"She's with pup."
"But…" He was lost. He didn't do anything that dealt with having a woman come with a pup.
"It is not yours. It is someone else's. She said it herself."
"Who's could it be?"
"Someone from my palace before you came."
"How could I not smell it then?"
Darighon sighed and growled. "She hid it. She hid it well from our noses."
Inutaisho closed his eyes becoming frustrated all of a sudden and plopped down in a seat. 'What can I do about this?'
The other Southern Lord looked at him and seeing the tenseness, he dismissed himself.
'Damn, what can I do? I don't want to have her dead then the war will come again. And if I kill the pup then she'll be miserable. If the father is the one she loves.' He rubbed his temples. 'I seems now all this treaty has done is bring trouble. Not as much as war does, but still a lot of trouble.'
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Solia sat in her room, her head on the low table thinking to herself. She just had realized, with a scary fear, that if she told her father them he wold have told Inutaisho. She was now worried and thinking what would do with her and the unborn pup. Her hand slowly made its way back to her stomach and closed her eyes. "I don't want to loose this one. He's dead and this is all I have left of him."
"My lady?" Came Yuniko's fear filled voice as she stepped into the room. Her eyes were wide as she stared at her and it looked like they were about to burst with tears. "I-I heard from… Why didn't… Why didn't you say…. anything to me…about it?" She walked over to her slowly and fell onto her knees beside her.
Solia sat up, her face unmoved by what she said. "What have you heard?" She asked, setting her gently on top of Yuniko's.
"You… You are with pup. But its not Lord Inutaisho's."
She lowered her eyes from her back to the table and nodded. "I am…a month and a half now. I haven't told anyone. Everyone in the castle now knows about it don't they?" She looked back to her.
She nodded and bit her lower lip as she sniffled whipping her eyes. "My friend. You must have loved him hadn't you?"
Solia smiled and hugged her tightly. "He was the first one I ever loved and the first one I wanted to die for. But I found out that he died in the battle when Lord Inutaisho attacked my palace grounds." She sniffled herself as her eyes started to weld up tears. "I pray that my husband understands. He is very kind and… I just pray that he let's me keep me child." Her grip on Yuniko tightened as she started to cry herself and Yuniko soon did also. They held each other in the other's arms crying for the other person and themselves for their own reasons.
It hurt bad for both of them as old hurtful and horror like memories came back to each other. The more that came, the more they each cried.
But to Solia it felt good to cry. She never had cried, only when she was a young pup, when her lover died, and now. It felt so good to let all her sadness, and fear for others and herself out; even anger was in her tears that poured down her now wet, red stained face. Her anger was of questioning herself of why she had to meet the man at her castle and fall in love, and why he had to die before his promise to her of marrying her, when he was an approval to her father.
Solia and Yuniko cried for what seems like hours and finally they had gotten so tired that they each fell asleep in each other's arms.
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He opened his golden orbed eyes and grumbled under his breath as he winced at the light. He turned his head and winced as he did so as an ache came again to his neck. His head was pounding again and he felt like he was having another hangover again. But he knew it wasn't an hangover, and was now questioning himself what happened to make his head hurt so badly.
As he thought more about it the more his head hurt but he tried as best he could to ignore it. He wanted to know what happened and it seemed that he knew but it was all blurry. 'Damn this. All I know is that I was talking to Solia and then her father came in.' He opened his eyes as the memory of his yelling came back to him but there was no scene to come with it.
"I'll kill him if I hadn't already. And she should have not let him yell at her that way or injure like that." He said as he thought of the wound that her father had inflicted on her. He blinked at what he was saying and growled. "Why am I worried about her. I don't even like her."
'Liar.' Said a small voice inside his head and he growled louder as he tried to push it back deep inside of himself again. It resisted though and held on to the outside to say what it wanted. 'You just won't admit that you want her. You have to admit that she is beautiful. And if you actually have paid attention to her after her father hit her then you have seen how strong she was. That was a serious wound that he did and she just acted like it was a small smack, instead of a gash on her cheek.' It recalled to him.
Sesshomaru opened his mouth to have some excuse or something, but then he thought about what his own subconscious had said, something that he usually didn't mind when he pondered about things. "You are right for once. A normal female would have screamed in agony. I wonder how could she withstand a blow like that?"
'You are an idiot if you don't see it already. She must have been trained to endure and be immune to pain like that.' It gave a small snicker as it mentally hit him.
"I see. But a woman wouldn't train. Men do that."
'She must have had a reason to do it. You know that females are keen to what they set their eyes on. If they desire it then they will take it. Your own mother was the exact same way.' It gave an inward smirk and a evil laugh. 'Heh, why don't you go and ask her yourself?'
"Why should I? I don't want to get involved into anything else." He sighed heavily as he sat up holding his pounding head and groaned as he held himself up with his other arm. "I already know that father is going to be mad at me since I didn't do shit about what her father did to her. Plus I attacked him, almost killing him."
'But you have to admit that it felt soooo good to let out all that anger and finally be able to not have that cold mask on. Even though it was replaced by your fury.'
"I guess it-" Sesshomaru stopped when he heard the door slid open and he suddenly realized that he was in the healer's quarters. His subconscious disappeared back into the depths of his mind.
She looked at him and smiled as she went over to him, her deep blue eyes watching him enjoyingly. "Are you talking to yourself again my lord? You did it quite frequently while you were unconscious. For some reason you kept saying the Lady Solia's name." She grinned staring down at him then walked over to a low shelf gathering a few choice bottles of remedies.
Sesshomaru gawked at what she said then realized what he was doing and closed his mouth before she saw.
"Lady Solia was varely injured when I saw her, and I've heard that you witnessed it but didn't do anything. Why didn't you my lord?" She asked him and she knelt beside him asking him to turn his back to her.
He did as she asked and closed his eyes as soon as he didn't face her. "I was mad at her. We had a talk and she said things that were of no business to her." He said coolly.
She removed the top of his kimono and grabbed a bottle, spreading salve across his back after making sure that his beautiful silver hair was out of the way.
He growled at himself inwardly as what the healing woman had said a few moments ago. 'I have to remember to go ask the woman why she didn't do anything and how she could bear pain like that.' He thought and was glad that his subconscious was hidden inside of him for now.
The healer sighed and stood up. "Now, my lord. Please try to control your anger. You know that I am still busy with healing the many youkai soldiers that the war has brought. I can't afford anymore distractions from my healing the really injured ones for something as simple as yours. Though I don't mean to be rude Lord Sesshomaru but I am being truthful. Now pardon me and let me go for the others." She stood and walked back over to the shelf putting the bottles back in their place.
Sesshomaru nodded and thanked her as he dismissed her. She smiled and bowed exiting. He slid his top back on and stood adjusting it and the rest of his clothes. He would visit Solia and do as his subconscious wanted and what just now wanted. He was most curious, for once after a long time.
He exited the room to the hall and placed his cold mask back on before walking down the hallway.