Alison Dilaurentis moved her hand down teasing with her fingertips the brunette's heated thigh. Once again she kissed the outer side of the girl's wrist and then found a way to her neck. She was driving Emily to madness and it was the thing with which she had no desire to stop. With her other hand she grabbed the brunette's one and squeezed pulling them up. She was now sitting on her lap and wrapping the girl's waist with her own legs. Hands of the blonde went up and drowning in Em's thick hair, they stopped at the back of her neck. Alison looked deeply into her dark eyes and closed the distance between them leaning into the kiss. She felt the soft warmth of the girl's lips and her heart started to beat so fast that for a second she thought that it pops out of her chest. She pressed their bodies tighter and deepened the kiss.

She enjoyed every second of it as if she was a little kid that just got a new toy. She was waiting for this moment for so long that it seems an eternity for her. So now she was not going to rush. She was going to take things slower but it didn't mean that she intended to stop. She was going to tease Emily so much that the girl won't be able to think about anything else than the blonde. Now, one of her hands moved down touching the brunette's bare belly. Every, even the slightest touch from Alison ignited her to red. The girl chewed her lip and began to kiss her even harder. She wanted to take control and be the dominant one but Ali was bringing up her weakest side. Not that it bother her anyway. She felt like never before. She wasn't able to give so much passion anyone except Alison. Every single minute with the blonde consumed her whole.

They were like unity, not able to be separate. She stopped the kiss now and moved her lips to Ali's neck. Her hands landed on the girl's hips and teased her heated skin. She felt like Alison sank hers in her brown hair. She leaned forward making them both lay again but this time she was on top. She made a girl a few hickeys and looked into her eyes. She smiled and pressed their lips together. They kissed gently with peace. But with every second hastened. She felt like Ali goes with hand through her back to her bra. The girl's fingertips tickled her skin and as soon as Alison revealed her bare breasts, she rolled them both and she was at the bottom again. She deepened the kiss and now their tongues fought with each other like crazy.

She wanted to go further but deep down something was blocking her. She was not able to give herself to Ali completely until she do something about what she dreaming to do for a really long time. She stopped the kiss. She was breathing deeply now and not taking her eyes from the sight of Alison. She grabbed the girl's heated cheek and ran after it with her thumb.

"What?" Ali asked being cute as always, she was still smiling. She has never been so happy and there was no thing in the world which could possibly change it a little bit.

Emily sighed. Her heart was beating incredibly fast. Her thoughts were focused around three words. Eight letters that she wanted to express more than anything. She closed her eyes for a millisecond. It's now or never, she decided.

"I love you"

Emily Fields jumped out of the bed in the middle of the night. She was all flooded with sweat and breathing hard. She was incredibly tired and disoriented. This dream exhausted her to the limit. It was incredibly realistic and the girl needed a minute to realize that it actually never happened. It was strange for her to just think about it. She knew that the dreams are result of unconsciousness and everything what is going on in them is either desired or the most afraid of. She was not sure which of these options checked in with her. She simply had no idea. And honestly she didn't want to have.

Her own feelings caused her questioning most of her life and she really didn't enjoy it at all. She didn't even want to think about it right now, she already spent too much time doing that. Too long she was this torn girl who didn't know what she wants. Now she couldn't be one. Never again. She has been through enough to let herself for any hesitation. She changed, she changed a lot. Sure, she had some feelings for Alison, no doubt about it. She didn't understand them fully though and right now it seemed more like a habit then a need to be with the blonde girl. That's why she was going to ignore this disturbing dream. Thinking about it would not work out so well, especially now when she and Paige got back together. She couldn't lose her again. The girl was bringing to Emily's life so much positive energy and ordinary joy. With A being still in the picture Em needed a stability. With Paige she felt safe. And in her situation it really meant a lot. Safety and commonness were the things that she need. No unnecessary drama and constantly being lied to. She could definitely do without it.

She turned on her left side and closed eyes. She wanted to fall asleep again to not look like a zombie in the morning. She tried to calm down her breathing and not to think about anything. She know what is going to happen today and she wanted to deal with it as soon as it possible.

On the one hand, she will finally have her date with Paige today. She will be smiling and enjoying the moment. She will be saying how much she missed the girl and knowing life she probably will be hearing the same thing. She didn't mind as she loved Paige's voice which could calm her down even without trying. She was like Emily's own yoga session. Always available and always helpful.

But she still couldn't forget the dream. She tried and nothing. She didn't know how she will be able to look at Alison without thinking about it. Without thinking how much reality could be possibly different from her imagination, and like she won't get a chance to check it out. The other night when Em sleepover at Ali's, they kisses. But the fact is that it wasn't even a bit close to her dream. And that was the reason which made it even more confusing. Being with Paige and having this kind of thoughts. It did not seemed right, not from the start. But Emily didn't want it and she couldn't help it. The only solution she could think about was ignoring the things that she had no effect on. And that was her relationship with Alison.

Finally, as she succeeded in trying to fall asleep she slept like a little baby. She was barely able to wake up. As if her bed didn't want to release her from its arms. She took a quick shower , got dressed and headed to the car. She drove to school, parked and went outside.

Not even a second passed when someone grabbed her hand, pulling the girl with itself. Now she was able that the person was Alison. They didn't speak, they didn't even look at each other as usual. They were just walking. Or Ali was walking leaving Em no choice but to follow her. They missed a few guys going up the stairs and as soon as they were inside they found a way to the restroom. The blond let go of Emily's hand and made sure that no one else is here, that they are completely alone. She still didn't say anything, she just stood in front of brunette looking in her eyes.

Emily could bet that she knew about what will be the conversation which was just about to happen. She only wished she had more time to mentally prepare as she knew it would happen sooner or later. She looked into eyes of Alison and tried to understand what she sees in them. She was not sure but it was between pain or disappointment. Something like that anyway.

"Ali" Em began slowly and desperately needing to break the silence down. She wanted to get closer to the girl but she realized that if she keep the distance between them she will be more convincing and she cared about it a lot. "What is it?"

Alison continued to stare at the brunette. She was getting even more restless. She didn't know, she really didn't know what the hell she was doing. Or what she was about to say. With Emily around she was losing control, over her body and thoughts. She shook her head and lowered it down. She stared at the floor and the silence was getting even more and more unbearable.

"I just… I just can't believe it" she said, still looking down. She had slightly broken voice and Emily could say that probably the eyes full of tears. She didn't know what to expect. Not when it was about Ali. "You got back to her?!" She dared to look into Emily's eyes as her voice now expressed regret and she was almost screaming. "After all of this?" She added. She still could not calm down, she tried though. Looking at the brunette who just turn her head sighing obviously didn't help.

"Ali…" Em said softly. She had to look away from the blonde, she was not able to look at her now. She wanted to dry herself and she dreamed about having this all behind her to lock herself up somewhere and let emotions out.

"Ali what? Em you know you're making a mistake but you make it anyway."

"I'm not making any mistake."

"Oh really? So you don't have any feelings for me? So the other night was nothing for you? You just used me like I used to do with you?" With these word Alison took a step forward and got closer to the girl. She could read her like a book. Emily could lie as much as she wanted to but she knew the truth. She was not blind, she saw how her presence affects the brunette. The closer she was the more Emily wanted her.

"Ali… that night… it shouldn't have happen like this" she said with pain. She tried to stay still and not give up. Alison already broke her heart once. "I… I love Paige okay? And if you've really changed, as you said, you have to let me go, let me be happy."

"I can't Em, I can't lose you"

"You won't" brunette said. She went to Alison as she noticed another tear hurting the blonde's cheek. She grabbed her chin and forced to look into her eyes. She smiled gently "Look, I'll always be there for you. Nothing can change that. Just not like this"

Alison was too depressed to say anything or react somehow. She just got Emily back. She just got her life back, and with all this shit brunette was the one for who she had a strength to get out of the bed every day. She felt Emily's hand wiping another tear from her already wet cheek and she still couldn't believe. She wasn't able to believe with everything what was happening. She looked at the girl frightened. She didn't know on what she can let herself now. Their relationship have never been purely friendly, they always had a thing for each other. She hugged the girl slowly afraid of being pushed away. She was relieved when it didn't happen and instead Emily reciprocate the gesture. They stood there for a couple of seconds and then brunette smiled slightly and left Alison completely alone.

Although she tried. With all her heart. Ali for even a second didn't leave the brunette's mind. Ironically, right now she was sitting with her current girlfriend which she completely ignored because she focused only on her first love. At the state in which she left her this morning in the restroom. It hurt, to see her like this. She felt as she had a dagger in her heart and couldn't remove it. However, she had to be strong, she simply had to. She knew it going to be even harder than before because Alison probably won't give up. No chance for that.

"Em?" Paige said laughing softly.

"Hm?" The girl replied pensive. She shook her head slightly and freed her hand from the Paige's. She grabbed a cup lying next to her and took a sip of coffee to revive herself a bit.

"You're cute when you totally not listening to me"

"Thanks" Emily said sarcastically as her date didn't stop smiling. She missed that smile, she missed both of them together. "You were saying…?"

"Some stuff about swim team. But it's not important right now. What is on your mind?" She added with a slightly worried look.

"Alison" Em replied insecure fearing the reaction of Paige. She didn't want to lie her. If this relationship was about to survive , they had to be completely honest with each other.

"Oh, so you are thinking about the girl you were in live with for a couple of years on our date?" Paige joked. She knew that the blonde needed all support she could get from her friends. She also knew that she has no feelings for Emily and has nothing to worry about. She trusted her girlfriend. She had no reason to stop. "Just kidding. What's up with her?

"I don't know, and that worries me. She doesn't trust us, well she doesn't trust the girls. Sometimes she says something to me but I really don't know enough to help her somehow. New A or old A, we still can deal with it."

"I can tell you what I know, okay? But not here, if you don't mind."

"My house?" Em asked and got up from her seat at the same time. She grabbed Paige's hand and together they went outside. They walked slowly and during the road said few words. None of them didn't bother silence. They had staff to take care of and now mutual closeness counted. They didn't need to talk about anything for hours. They needed each other.

They sat on the bed in Emily's room. They were completely alone so they could talk. Em looked at her girlfriend not letting go of her hand. She waited for the girl to open up and share what she knows. She was afraid of what she can hear but she had to help Ali. For all cost.

"Okay, so I told you that Lucas and Melissa are part of Mona's gang..." she started quietly and Emily nodded her head. "Melissa has a bigger part of all of this. I think Mona is scared of her, she doesn't do anything that she wouldn't accept."

"So again it all comes down to her" Em rolled her eyes. She could not believe it. They suspected Spencer's sister so many times. And it turns out they were right all along. That's way Ali was spying in Hastings's backyard. Because she know more of this, obviously.

"Mona brought us all together because she's afraid of another terror attack from Alison. And at first I thought, Melissa is a grown up women, why should she care about bunch of high school kids trying to get revenge on one girl in their age. But now I begin to think that it is really her gang and Mona is just protecting her." Paige continued her story and Emily started to connect more fact with each other.

"So you're saying that Melissa controls them but with Mona's hands?" She asked really confused. And even if it all made sense, it still seemed surreal.

"It seems like it." Paige said. She saw how her girl took it all. She placed her hand on Emily's cheek and looked her deeply in the eyes. "Look, if you want, I can try to find out more"

"No, you've got too much to lose. I don't want you to get hurt."

"If you change your mind, you know where to find me, but right now I should be get going" Paige got up from bed and looked around the room. Not much change since she stopped being a regular visitor here.

"I will walk you" Emily stood in front of her girlfriend and had her cell in left hand. The screen wasn't blocked and Paige could easily see three missed calls. All from Alison.

They left room, and went downstairs to the porch outside the house. It was a bit cold and Emily started to shake a little. She looked at Paige and got closer to her. Her gaze constantly change place where it focused. It flew between the girl's lips and her eyes. She got even more close and was able to feel Paige's breath on her cheeks. She broke the distance between them by pressing their lips together. She felt the heat which she wasn't able to feel for a while. She placed her hands in Paige's long hair and allowed herself to enjoy the moment. She needed this. Detachment from her reality. Moment of everyday life. Last days were not too sunny, the Sky was covered with dark clouds. But she realized, that's why she was living. To enjoy with little things. With a bit of happiness deal with her problems.

The kiss wasn't too long, it wasn't too passionate either. Paige pulled away from Emily. She said goodbye and went home. Em just stood in the same place. Just now she realized the shit in what she put herself. She liked the kiss. Really. It was like no other. But on the other hand, no kiss is like other one. It wouldn't be possible. As much as she longed Paige and was totally convinced that she has feeling for her, she couldn't stop thinking about Alison's lips. And she really wasn't glad about it.

Hey guys! Thanks for reading this as I know it's still has some mistakes. Don't forget to tell me what you think so I could make myself better.