A/N:

This is the chapter that more of the drama starts! I really hope you guys like this!

I woke up in my bed alone, expecting for Damon to still be there.

Confused, I sat up and put my hair in a ponytail and got out of bed before showering and getting dressed and walking downstairs to the kitchen.

"You guys know where Damon went?" I asked Rebekah and Stefan as I poured myself a glass of orange juice.

"He told us to tell you that he got called into work early." Rebekah told me.

"Oh, alright." I said as I sat down.

Stefan smirked. "So what happened last night?"

"That is none of your business." I replied, blushing.

Stefan held his hands up in defense. "Just curious. When he came downstairs this morning he was acting like he got laid." He said. "And besides, he told us to tell you where he was. Normal Damon would never do that."

"Yeah, but in love Damon would whether he got laid or not." Rebekah said as she sat down at the table.

"So did you two talk?" Rebekah asked me.

I shook my head.

"'Lena!" She scolded, running her hands over her face.

"What?" I asked, confused.

"Just yesterday you said that you still didn't trust him enough to be in a relationship with him, yet you sleep with him?" She said.

"It's not like I was just doing it because I wanted to, I actually do love him!" I defended.

"'Lena, I think I have to agree with Rebekah here. What if he thinks that you're in a relationship now?" Stefan said.

I sighed. "Maybe we are." I replied. "I love him, and there is no way of knowing that he won't do it again, but if he does then that's my fault, not his, because I trusted him in the first place."

"I really hope you know what you're doing here, Elena." Rebekah said.

"Since when did you become my mother?" I joked.

"Since you started staying at my house." She called back as walked out of the room.

Stefan and I laughed a bit. "You know she's just trying to look out for you, right?" Stefan asked.

"I find that hilarious considering I'm four years older than her." I replied.

"She doesn't want you to get hurt again." He said.

"And you don't?" I asked teasingly.

"Course I do, but I also don't want to see my brother get hurt again, either." He told me.

"If I remember correctly, he cheated on me." I said.

He stayed quiet for a moment and then looked at me again. "He lost you, Elena. That hurt him."

"That was his fault-"

"Whether it was his fault or not, it hurt him." He interrupted me.

"Okay." I replied quietly before going back up to my guest room.

I sat down on the bed and sobbed.

Whether I chose to stay with Damon or leave him, I would hurt him either way. And hurting him was the last thing I wanted to do.

I laid back on the bed and stared at the ceiling. 'My life is way too complicated.' I thought.

'If I break up with Damon, then it'll break him. But if I stay with him and I don't trust him, that'll break him eventually, too…'

I wanted to trust him so bad, but I couldn't bring myself to. I guess I could've forced myself to be with him anyways, but then I wouldn't be happy.

Suddenly my phone started ringing, causing me to jump.

I sat up and wiped my eyes before picking it up.

"Hello?" I answered it.

"Elena!" I heard Caroline and Bonnie, my best friends who lived in LA, say.

"Hey!" I said.

"What are you doing today?" I heard Caroline ask.

I sighed. "Nothing. Why?"

"You should come meet up with us! You've been in LA for four days and you still haven't come to see your best friends!" Bonnie said.

"Sorry…I've just been going through some stuff right now. I've been busy." I told them.

"Well you better get your butt over to the Caribou on 74th if you want to keep your best friends!" Caroline threatened jokingly.

"I'll be there soon." I laughed.

"Later!" They both yelled before hanging up.

I walked downstairs to see Rebekah and Stefan in the living room with Alexis. I grabbed my purse and my sunglasses that were on a table near the entry.

"I'm going to Caribou with Caroline and Bonnie. I'll be back later." I told them before leaving.

A little while later I pulled up to the café and saw Bonne and Caroline waiting outside for me.

I jumped out of my car and hugged them.

"Hi!" I said.

"Girl, it has been way too long! We've been BFF's since middle school and you just expect for you moving across the country and not coming back for three years okay? Shame on you!" Bonnie scolded jokingly.

"Oh come on you guys, you know I had to move." I told them.

"You could've just stayed here and avoided Damon." Caroline said.

"Care, I needed to leave. I needed to get out of here and start living a life without Damon in it. And I did." I replied.

"And what about now? You're staying with Stefan and Rebekah, and Damon lives with them." Bonnie asked.

"I actually had no idea that he was living with them. I assumed that he was still living in our old apartment." I said as we walked into the café.

"So how has that been going?" Bonnie asked.

"I'll tell you after we order." I told them before we ordered.

When we finally got to a table with our drinks, I could see that they were going crazy wanting to ask me.

"Okay…So a few days ago when I got here, I found out that Damon was staying there and I freaked out at Rebekah for not telling me. Later that night, I was sitting on their porch when Damon came out and we talked about some stuff. He told me he was sorry and that he was still in love with me, I told him I loved him, too, and then I thought that it would sort of end there." I said.

"Did it?" Caroline asked.

I smirked and shook my head. "The next day we got stuck in the house alone together and we ended up talking about life and stuff after I got a call from my agent about me getting this role in a movie. We ended up kissing." I said, causing Caroline and Bonnie to smirk and glance at each other.

"I'm not done." I started. "So then yesterday Damon came to my room and we talked and ended up kissing again. And that's where it got more complicated."

"What happened?" Bonnie asked.

"I'm getting there." I told her. "I realized what was happening: I was starting a relationship with him."

"And you don't want that?" Bonnie asked.

"I don't know…" I said. "But anyway, Rebekah and Stefan saw us kissing later that day, and Rebekah talked to me about it, but that just got me more stressed out." I sighed. "And me and him ended up sleeping together…which makes this way more complicated than it was before." I finished.

Caroline and Bonnie glanced at each other. "I'm having trouble seeing what the problem is here." Caroline said.

"I just don't know if I can trust him enough to be with him." I answered. "I love him, I really do, but I'm terrified that he's gonna cheat on me again. And no matter what I do, I'll hurt him somehow, and that's the last thing I want to do."

Bonnie gave me a sympathetic look. "'Lena, maybe you should just talk to Damon about all of this."

I thought for a bit before nodding in reply and taking a sip of my coffee drink.

A/N:

Okay, so this will be part one of chapter four. Part two will hopefully be written and posted sometime tomorrow.