It's about over. One more part and if everything goes right, I'll have it up soon.
So, who saw this ending coming? lol

Loveless Love
Chapter 4

Axel had sent me word that he needed to know what our next move was. With Vexen gone, by his own hand, Larxene by Sora's, and Lexaeus by Riku's, that only left two members to deal with. I wait for him on one of the many balconies overlooking the deserted city below, which reeks of darkness and emptiness. A portal opens to my left and out walks Axel. "You weren't seen by anyone correct?"

He nods, "So what do we do about Marluxia and Zexion?"

"Try to get rid of Marluxia yourself if you can. If not, let Sora deal with him." For more than the third time today, I find myself looking up at Kingdom Hearts and instantly thinking of Xemnas. "Zexion knows too much for his own good. He'll undoubtedly spill it all to Xemnas the second he can. Kill him. I don't care how."

I look out of the corner of my eye, as he lowers his to the ground, something clearly stopping him from leaving and doing what I've demanded. Raising his head, he masks it and walks by me, a portal opening farther away. I turn, our shoulders brushing as I walk away as well. "Do this for your friend...Lea."

A few days passed, not long before Xemnas sent Dusks out to inspect Castle Oblivion. When they returned bearing the news that no one had survived, I was shocked, but then again, Axel was a pawn. Lea was my friend and Lea had died for all I needed to know. It's how things work. Number XIII, Roxas, had taken the news harder than I had thought. It seems my old friend and him had feelings for each other, when they aren't supposed to.

Yet, just as I was passing by the other rooms to go meet Xemnas, I heard his deep voice, accompanied by the cocky one I know all to well. Eavesdropping has never been a hobby, but hearing Axel blabber on about the activities that went on at Castle Oblivion and how he was able to get away, I can't help but feel that he would gladly rat me out. Standing outside the cracked door, I realize that my plan is slowly crumbling the longer that Axel is in the picture.

If I have to get rid of everyone, I will.

I quietly hurry to where I usually meet with Xemnas and wait. Better to be there early than late and have to explain myself. In not time at all, he appears, the emotionless mask still intact on his tan face. Those cool amber orbs don't so much as glance at me, as he strides close to the edge. Anxious to get the hell away from this man, I press into a conversation, so that I can rush out of it. "Did you get the full report for Castle Oblivion?"

"Yes...Axel told me everything."

"Is there anything I can do or do you want me to leave you?" I ask, hoping for the latter.

Xemnas turned around, his solid footsteps resounding off the floor, as he approaches me. The nerves inside of me seem to explode, all going off at once as I take a step back. Xemnas' arm shoots out, fingers curling around my wrist. At his touch, the beast inside of me slams into the mental bars I had put up. I instinctively try to pull my arm away, knowing that, that particular action wasn't the one I should have used, for my leg gets tangled with his as he tries to keep me in place.

The next thing I know, the navy sky rotates and silver sways in and out of my vision. I inhale sharply, the dull pain shooting through my head being all that registers. Lying on my back, I stare up at the dark sky stretched out, my brain slowly trying to place what had just happened. The extra weight on top of me makes my breathes skip as he lifts his head up, hands planted firmly at either side above my shoulders.

As I look up into his amber eyes, I find an emotion, one I can't recall ever feeling. Silver tresses fall from behind his ears, just grazing my face. Not thinking, I pull my arm up, my gloved fingers ghosting over his jaw, the lightest of touches. Slightly dulled eyes close and in response I close mine, caught up in whatever has grabbed a hold of us. Soft lips touch mine and I find my arms reaching up to wrap around his neck.

Just as quick as the moment had built up, it shattered.

Xemnas rises away from me, my arms landing at my side. Propping myself up on my elbows, I watch as the seemingly stoic man opens a portal, a light tint of pink on his tan cheeks. Sighing, I bring my fingertips up to my lips, not sure what had just happened. I push myself up to my feet as well, summoning a Dark Corridor of my own. I step into the darkness, wanting to get away from this area lest Xemnas returns. Yet, as I do, the feel of his lips lingers in my mind, making my face warm.

After that incident, Xemnas had yet to look at me. Sure, the looks that told me to get moving onto what he had said to do, or to go away...but not a look that resembled that of what he had shown me that day. Week after week drug by and I clung to my work, trying not to stay in his presence for too long. Slowly, as well as without my knowing, my hate had been dwindling down, replaced by a growing...affection?

Axel tried to approach me once or twice, wondering if our plan to take Xemnas out was till going. Each time I blew him off, leaving with the excuse that I had other things to attend to. Roxas had deserted the Organization not to long after that and Axel ceased to have anything to do with me. I suppose he blamed me.

Soon after that, not even a week, Axel reported he'd found Roxas and had failed to eliminate him. After that, he slowly began to disappear, rarely showing up until he didn't even return to this world. I tried discussing that with Xemnas, but he only told me that things were still going according to plan.

I trusted him, even while the hate and distrust still lingered. It wasn't until Sora was at our doorstep, did I realize that he had greatly miscalculated. I was supposed to have a trick up my sleeve, a back up plan to take Xemnas down and secure Kingdom Hearts before the Keyblader could lift a finger.

So why am I walking through a Corridor of Darkness to my training space? Oh right, because the heart I don't have can't help but make me want to do everything Xemnas says. I hate it and love it at the same time. Emotions...sometimes I don't even want them back.

I stand facing Kingdom Hearts, the landing giving me a perfect view of the collected hearts. I had stalled earlier, hoping Xemnas would tell me to stay and we could defeat the heroes together and take Kingdom Hearts for ourselves. Wishful thinking. Too bad I have never been one to use it.

The footfalls of of several people reach my ears and I keep my passionless mask in place. Turning, I see the whole gang standing there, their faces brimming with a passion I could never compete with. Sora and the King's lackeys step forward, a barrier keeping Sora's friends out of the battle. I grip the handle of my claymore, a feeling of hopelessness clawing at me, but I push it away. Just as Xemnas had told me, I release the monstrous strength inside of me, sealing my fate as well.

I should have taken some form of action. I've always plotted and kept my thoughts inward, only expressing when the need calls. But I was wrong. Hate wasn't what kept me close to that man. No. It was something more and being the cold hearted person he is, I'll probably never get a hint that he had cared. Maybe...it's better that an atrocious Nobody as myself, never know the feeling of a heart again.