A/N

Sorry for the long update. I was really trapped in my school work and programs within school. (Sigh) Well, this chapter is made out of terrible writing skills and confusing plot so bare with me. I made this chapter base on Kira's POV so you would know. This chapter may not answer certain questions and whatever happen in this chapter will conclude the rest of te story. Actually, I still don't know the ending. (-.-) Well, hope you can understand and please read and review. :)

Chapter 4: Confusions

A day just past and everything seems peculiar for some reason. It's been a week since I left my homeland to travel across sea for a peace arrangement with the Minerva; but, it seems like I'm uncomfortable about it. I have travel throughout the sea several times and fought countless battles. Now, I'm here to take part in a peace arrangement, then why do I feel strange and insecure? It's been bugging me every night since I met that red- haired woman. I think her name was Fllay and she is one of those women who offered us some help in the ship. What's with her anyway? Why do I feel this uneasiness in her presence? Besides from this feeling, I felt something much worst than my intuition. I don't want to know this feeling coz it might confuse me more.

"Oh…My king!" A feminine voice interrupted my thoughts. "I'm sorry…for interrupting you my king." She apologized meekly and frowned.

The feminine voice belonged to Fllay, who coincidentally the one I'm thinking about. I erase my suspicions and gave her a meek smile. "Ah…It's nothing. I just came here to gaze the blue sea and to fix my thoughts." I explained nonchalantly.

It's been a while since I last see her but there is neither day nor night I couldn't have remember her. I don't know why but it seems that she is the cause of my insanity. Yes, she's beautiful but why do dream about her?

"I see…" She smiled back at me and took a glance at the sea. "The sea is really peaceful isn't?" She asked to start a conversation with me.

"Yes, it is." I answered. "And I do hope this trip of ours will be successful and peaceful." I added.

"I know it will…" She looked at me with her innocent eyes that made me admire it. "I believe that this trip will be successful because of your perseverance in making it happen." She commented and smiled gleefully at me.

I was praised by many and why should I be flattered by her comment. I feel uneasy all of a sudden. This woman in front of me is not different from others who praise me; but why do I feel pressured in her presence. I hate this feeling. This feeling of uneasiness but the question is why? She is quite a mystery since I first saw her. Yes, I have to say that I was attracted with her but it doesn't mean I love her. I'm confused in my feelings. I feel like I'm betraying Lacus unconsciously. I loved Lacus but this woman is making me insane. I just met her last week and this is the impact of her presence. Maybe I am absurd in falling for her easily. I'm going nuts already. I needed to escape this pressure she is giving me or I may not control myself anymore.

"Is there something wrong?" She asked upon noticing that I'm quite bothered with my thoughts.

"I...I need to go…" I excuse myself like we were not in the middle of a conversation. Though, it was kind of a lame excuse; I couldn't think of anything to escape the tension she's giving me.

I rushed to my room and tried to strengthen my thoughts or merely to trance about it. I sat on my bed and begin spacing out.

I'm confused and beginning to think that I'm being controlled. I just left my wife for this journey and now I'm here having uncontrollable desire over a woman who I barely know. It is kind of crazy and I'm beginning to think that I'm a person with mental problems. Why do I need to fantasize about her when I know I'm deeply in love with my wife?

My moment of trance was again been disrupted when I heard someone knocking at my door.

"Sire? Are you there?" The knocker asked.

Upon hearing the familiar voice, I concluded that it was Ahmed.

"Yes I'm here." I answered while trying to restrain myself. "And you may come in." I added.

He opened the door and greeted me. "Good morning sire." He stood beside the door.

"So what seems to be the problem. " I asked knowingly. They only consult me if there is a battle, commotion and if it is about our plans.

"The captain said that we should disembark in the nearest island immediately." Nervousness is obviously seen in his face. Who wouldn't be? It was quite ridiculous to change plans in the middle of a journey. Maybe he knew I would not accept such thing that made him struggle on reporting me the sudden change of plans by the captain.

"Why so? It's just a week since we left?" I asked confused of the captain's suggestion or I may say plan.

"He said that the weather will not be good in two days so we needed to stop at the nearest island." He explained the captain's view.

"I really don't understand on why we should stop because of a bad weather but if that is what he feels we should do it then, although, it will cause a delay in our meeting with Minerva."

He was quite relieved that I agreed easily but because of my sense of curiousness I decided to talk with the captain myself. I just agreed with him to ease Ahmed's nervousness but I didn't say I woudn't consult the captain about it.

After talking with Ahmed, I proceeded to the captain and clarify things. We have a little debate about his plans but he was able to convince me. I really don't know why we should rest for two days because of the weather but why should I also be bothered? Oh well, there is no use thinking about it.

After reaching the nearest island, we disembarked from Eternal. My luggages are being carried by Ahmed, who represented himself for doing it. Maybe he was a little bit bothered of our little conversation a while ago.

Upon stepping on their land, I felt the warm breeze of the sea and its coolness. The island wasn't bad. Actually it was rather astonishing and relaxing. The scenery there was different in Plants in many ways. Plants was more livelier because of its cheerful environment and this place is relaxing because of its natural beauty. The island was covered with coconut trees and if you go further you'll see the forest in the middle.

We were greeted by natives that seem to be thoughtful that they welcomed us with glee. They helped us with our things and even offer us a feast and a place to stay.

"Wow! This place is wonderful!" Ahmed remarked with astonishment.

I have to agree with him. This place is surely remarkable, for its simplicity yet beautiful natural environment. The breeze of the seashore together with the freshness of the forest is sure compatible. "Indeed, it is sure a fine place to live." I remarked.

They guided us through the island to there little village with in the forest. While walking I saw Fllay together with the other woman walking on the other side. The other women were at glee but it seems like Fllay was rather melancholy. Not noticing, I merely gaze at her sad face that she was able to notice it. She looked at my side but I quickly turned around. Even though, I wasn't able to meet with her eyes, I know for sure that those eyes of her are sore from sadness.

Upon arrival at their place, the village chief welcomed us heartwarmingly and offered us a feast. I have a little talk with him about our journey and the battles we have fought.

"I never knew exploring the world could be that interesting." He said with great excitement to hear more.

It is only natural for them to be excited in these things, for they not travel through sea and instead stay in their island to protect it. They simply treasure their land because their lives depend on its surroundings.

"Well, it is sure enlightening to discover new lands and all but there is also danger that awaits you during those times."

When the captain comes in, our little conversation became a politics discussion. Although, I am a king I don't feel oblige to talk with such things so I took my exit in their little chat.

Somehow I feel regretful in what I have done this morning. I feel the guilt in my spine as I remember leaving Fllay with unanswered thoughts. Although I knew we hadn't talk that much I still feel that I have hurt her feelings in some way. Well, obviously I did but why? That's the second time we have talked and we nevertheless know each other but why do I care so much. "Sigh"

"Maybe I should take walk…"

Walking unconsciously, I found myself in near the seashore. By the stroke of the sea and moist of the night's breeze I was calmed instantly. I walked further and found a woman standing alone near the sea.

I walked closer to see the lone woman and took a glance on her face and into my astonishment it was Fllay. "Fllay?" I muttered softly.

Fllay turned around and she was obviously surprise of my appearance in the calm sea. "My king?" She looked at me questionably. "I…I am sorry…" She was about to leave when I unconsciously grabbed her hand.

"Ah wait…we need to talk…" I looked at her eyes truthfully to erase any form of insecurity.

She stopped and frowned.

"I am sorry on what I have done a while ago…" I was expecting some words from her but she didn't spoke a word so I continued. "I was really um…not feeling well a while ago so I ah…gotta go…" Lying is not my specialty but again I pulled a lame excuse twice this day.

At first, she looked at me disbelievingly that made me feel a little insecure but after a while she just laughed that made me quite confused and bothered.

"Wha-what?" I looked at her with amazement.

She just continues to laugh and I just continue to stare at her cheerfulness. While walking towards the village, she was kind of gloomy and now she is laughing out loud. She really amazed me this time. "Why are you laughing?" I said sarcastically.

She wiped the tars from her eyes out of joy and halted her giggle. "It's just that you are so predictable."

Her words seem weird for some reason that questions started to crowd my mind. "predictable?" I eyed her questionably.

"My king, though I don't know much about you and we only have talked twice excluding this one; I know to differentiate lies from truths." She looked at me and smirked playfully

I was out of words. She surely knows what she's saying and again I am amaze by her knowledge. "Then you know?"

"Yes, I know…" She smiled at me with assurance. "My king, please don't be troubled by my presence." I added.

"I'm really sorry that I have troubled you…."

"No my king, you haven't. Actually, I'm impressed by your thoughtfulness." She complimented and gave me a smile. "Besides my king, I have no right to feel angry at you."

"Because I'm a king?" I don't want to know that people respect me because of my authority.

"No. It is because…you're a hero for everyone…" She paused and looked at me dearly with her innocent eyes. "Especially for me…"

I was struck by what she had said and I can't say a thing. I just looked at her eyes that night while the sea splashes water on the sands.

A/N

Thats the 4th chapter and hopefully you could understand the story in this chapter. I'm really sorry that this chapter rather um...sx; but please spare me.TT I'll do better next time I hope? Well, thank you for reading and please wait for the next chapter. I'll try to update as fast as I can. :)