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"& it really doesn't matter if we don't eat."

"Are you okay?" Tawni looked up from the magazine in her lap as Sonny walked out of the bathroom, Tawni bit down on her lower lip as she took in her friend's appearance – she was extremely pale and her eyes were bright red. Sonny slowly nodded, sitting down on the chair when a dizzy spell hit her.

Tawni had never hated herself more when she saw Sonny then, thinking that maybe she shouldn't have shown her. She should have known how fragile the girl was at the moment, and she had only made it worse.

"I am so sorry." Tawni muttered, watching as Sonny's head shot up, looking at Tawni confused,

"What for?"

"For showing you how to do that, it was wrong of me."

"No.. it's fine. You couldn't say no, could you? I would have asked again and again, or I would have found out myself." Sonny shrugged it off and smiled,

"Anyway we are empty now, and that's a good thing, right?"

"Yeah, I love this feeling. How do you feel?" Sonny grinned, a little sparkle returning to her eyes as she looked up, she grabbed a magazine that was sitting next to her and stared at the woman on the front cover for a while,

"I feel... amazing. When did you learn to do that?"

"I don't know really. About three months ago, maybe more."

"Why?" Tawni sighed, laying down, looking up at the white ceiling as she thought for a moment,

"I couldn't stand the fact that I had gained weight, and you understand the pressure.. when you see yourself in a magazine and you only have to look at the person on the next page and know that you don't look like them. I just want to be thin, but no matter how hard I try, I can never go one day without food. This is the only way that worked for me."

"Oh." Was all Sonny could say, not tearing her eyes away from the page she was looking at,

"Have you ever gone a day without food?"

"When I have been ill, but never on purpose."

"Yeah same." Tawni muttered, shaking her head as she thought about her own lack of control,

"I think I could though, maybe one day I will." Sonny sighed, her fingers danced along the perfect body of a girl in the magazine, constantly comparing herself. Smiling at the thought of her being that girl one day,

"We should go to bed." Tawni finally said,

"Sure, what time do you want to get up?" Tawni looked down again, not sure if Sonny would want to get up on the morning run or not,

"Six."

"Why so early? Rehearsal doesn't start till eight."

"I go for a run, when you run before eating anything it burns fat instead of calories. I find it better."

"Oh sounds cool! Can I come with you?" Tawni looked at her for a moment, she didn't sound like the Sonny she had known for so long now, she seemed shy and uncertain of herself. She wondered if this actually was all to do with her dad or if there was something else going on?

"Sure you can. It would be great to have someone who understands come with me." She grinned and Sonny lightly smiled back before standing up and stretching,

"I am not a morning person though." She muttered, following Tawni up the stairs slowly as they both yawned,

"Don't worry. I will make sure you get up, just think about the weight loss." Tawni winked and laughed,

"True." Sonny sighed,

"Is this all really just because of your dad?" She nodded and then looked away,

"I just... I used to think that I was one of those girls who would never even care about weight. I didn't think I had a problem with it but as soon as I saw him with his perfect life and family.. I don't know, I guess if you mix it with living in Hollywood." She took a deep breath, closing her eyes to think for a moment as they finally got upstairs and into the bedroom,

"I don't know.. something clicked I guess and I can't take it anymore. I want him to love me, I want to be part of his family, I want to be perfect. I want my dad to look me in the eye and tell me why he left me behind for so long. I mean it's obvious that I have never been the perfect daughter he has now. Why he even wants me over there for the week is beyond me. I just can't help but think, and I know this sounds stupid, but I really can't help but think that if I was thin, maybe if I was good in school and other stuff.. then he would love me." She shook her head, laughing a little at herself, Tawni watched as Sonny wiped away the tears that fell down her face before burying her face into her pillow.

"I don't think it's stupid at all. It makes sense."

"Really?" She could hear Sonny mumble through the pillow, she smiled a little and nodded,

"Yeah, I understand what you are going through and it may not be for the same reasons but we can help each other through this. We can lose the weight we need to and then everything will be okay." Tawni whispered,

"Yeah."

"What's your goal weight?"

"My goal weight?" Sonny finally looked up, confusion evident on her face,

"Yeah, mine is one hundred pounds."

"Oh... I don't know. Just about underweight I guess. Maybe ninety-eight,"

"Yeah double figures is good. I am so long off, do you know how much you weigh now?" Sonny nodded, playing with her hair as her face flushed red,

"One hundred and thirty two." She muttered, refusing to meet Tawni's eyes,

"I weigh one hundred and thirty eight."

"Yeah but you're a lot taller than I am." Sonny shrugged,

"Not by much."

"Still taller than me though."

"I guess, Sonny we can do this. It's going to be easy because we have each other, and we are always going to have each other." Sonny grinned, nodding as she thought about it,

"It's going to be amazing. Thank you Tawni."

"Night." Tawni finally muttered, turning off the lamp,

"Goodnight." Sonny turned to the other side, and Tawni could swear she heard a small sob come from the girl. She sighed and then closed her eyes, thinking about Sonny. She just wanted to be loved by the one man who was supposed to protect her and be with her no matter what.

She smiled as she thought about the new bond the two friends had made for themselves – it was good, neither of them were going to judge the other, it would be amazing. Everything was going to be better for both of them. She thought about how great she would look when she was thin, and the good friends they would both become along the way. She had a good feeling about all of this, everything had fallen into place and she would start to lose weight faster than ever before and then they would both be happy.

Wouldn't they?

A/N: Please review, it's depressing that I have like hardly any... I have worked hard on this story and it's like, nobody cares :(

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