Chapter 4! Ok so you guys better thank me; I am posting this and chapter five isn't even close to being done yet! I normally wouldn't do that. However, I really love this chapter:) This chapter is where I bring in Elizabeth, sorry for any Elizabeth fans out there... oh who am I kidding? I am definitely not sorry. LOL I really hate her:) Anyway, back to the story; thank you guys for all the reviews!
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Ok well onto chapter 4 of Fireworks! :D Enjoy!
Meanwhile; Jason stood at the bridge that once brought him clarity. Now, all he felt was anger – and pain. The anger was rooted with McBain. He wanted to rip the cop to shreds for ever putting his hands on his wife. The pain however, was a cause from Sam. Only Sam had ever been able to hurt him. Sure he had been hurt before by others, but he only ever had that gut-wrenching feeling that he had now when it concerned Sam. She was everything to him. She was the one who could make him smile and laugh. Most would say that he was a humorless person with no emotions; but with Sam, it just came naturally. He stood by the rail of the bridge looking out over the water below. He was so lost in his thoughts that he didn't hear the car pull up.
"Jason?" Jason was pulled out of his thoughts at the sound of his name. For a second he hoped it was Sam; but he knew her voice anywhere, and that wasn't it. He didn't turn around right away. He knew that voice and honestly he just didn't want to talk to her tonight.
"Jason?" Elizabeth called again. Elizabeth had come up to the bridge to get a toy the Cameron had left here when she brought him up and that's when she saw her old lover standing alone by the railing. "Jason, what are you doing up here tonight?"
Jason turned to look at the woman he once thought he loved. He honestly wasn't sure why he ever thought he was in love with her. Of course, he would never regret that night they had together almost six years ago – it had brought them their son. Jake – a pain pierced Jason's heart when he thought about his little boy that he never got to know; and now never will. He loved Elizabeth, sure; but it was more of the love you hold for the person who is the mother of your child. Definitely not the love you hold for someone you are in love with; no, that feeling was reserved for only one person in Jason's life – Sam.
"Hi Elizabeth." Jason spoke softly. "Why are you up here tonight Jason? I figured you'd be with Sam watching the fireworks." Jason didn't like the bite in Elizabeth's voice when she said Sam's name. He knew the two would never be best friends – he honestly wasn't sure he wanted them to be – but he didn't like judgment in Elizabeth's voice when she spoke of Sam.
"Sam asked for space; so that is exactly what I am giving her." Jason spoke calmly. He chose to leave the part out that Sam actually wasn't alone right now. He was still angry and hurt over that fact and really he didn't see how it was anyone else's business.
Elizabeth just looked at Jason. She could see he was holding something back; she just couldn't figure out what. That was the thing about her ex; he was always hiding his emotions. It drove the hell out of Elizabeth how he was always so reserved. He never seemed to be able to fully open up; not even when they were together those couple years back. Elizabeth just sighed, knowing Jason wasn't going to give up any more information.
"What are you doing here Elizabeth? Why aren't you with Cam and Aiden tonight?" Jason asked with honest curiosity. He definitely wasn't judging; but it always seemed that lately when he saw Elizabeth her sons were nowhere in sight. "Oh um yeah, I dropped Cameron and Aiden off at Gramms. Cameron can't find one of his toy trucks and he had it when we were up here early today so I told him I would come look for it." Jason just nodded. Elizabeth felt the need to keep talking since obviously Jason wasn't going to – "what was his problem with talking anyway?" she wondered.
"Yeah I brought them up here because Cam was missing Jake today. It's always hardest on the holiday's you know." Elizabeth figured he might open up a little more if she mentioned Jake. Jason just looked at her with sad eyes, however.
"Yeah, I guess that makes sense." He paused before he continued, "So I guess you probably need to get back to them." Jason wasn't trying to be rude; he just really wanted to be alone. He wasn't one for company on a normal night and tonight he really didn't want to do small talk. Elizabeth could see he was trying to get rid of her; she didn't know why but that unsettled her a little bit.
"Oh, they are fine. They are with my Gramms. I can stay and keep you company for a little bit. I don't mind at all." "I do." Jason thought. "It's fine Elizabeth; I was actually just about to leave." Jason really didn't want to go back to the empty penthouse; but he also really didn't want to stand here talking to her. He figured he would just go take a ride. That usually helped clear his mind.
Instead of taking his hint, Elizabeth just walked up next to Jason and put her hand on his arm. "Damn. He definitely still has amazing muscles." She noted to herself. She didn't know she still had this attraction to Jason. "But we did share a child together. We will always have a connection – a connection that obviously him and Sam will never have." Elizabeth wasn't sure where that thought came from. She knew it was wrong to think like that; "but then again, it is the truth."
Jason looked down at Elizabeth's hand rubbing up and down his right arm; it felt wrong. "Jason. Look at me." Elizabeth pleaded. Jason looked up at her eyes. He saw what she was thinking. She started to lean in and Jason knew what she was about to do. "Elizabeth, no." He gently pushed her back from him and took a step back herself. "Sam. I am married to Sam and I love her." He told her with sincerity.
Elizabeth huffed. "Sam? Really Jason?" She asked with honesty. "It's obvious you and Sam are over. I am sorry Jason. I know you obviously care about her but it's clear she doesn't want to be with you anymore." Jason just looked at her with shock in his eyes. He couldn't believe she was this offended by his rejection. "She didn't honestly think I would kiss her, did she?" Jason thought. "Elizabeth, I didn't mean to offend you; but I love Sam. She is my wife, that hasn't changed."
"Jason she may still be your wife, but I doubt for long." Elizabeth spoke exasperated. "Obviously Sam will never stop blaming you for her son's death; even though it was much more her fault then yours." Elizabeth knew she overstepped the moment she saw Jason's face react to her words. She meant what she said, but knew she shouldn't have said it aloud. It was evident that Jason didn't agree with her.
"Our son's death was nowhere near Sam's fault!" Jason spoke clearly and harshly. He couldn't believe anyone would try and blame Sam for what had happened to their baby boy. "Come on Jason! She took her newborn son out into the middle of a storm at night. No decent mother would do that." Elizabeth spoke honestly with annoyance dripping off every word. She couldn't believe Jason was still defending Sam's actions and taking blame for the death of Sam's son. She stopped for a second when she realized the words Jason spoke. "Why did you say 'our son'?" Elizabeth asked with curiosity. "He wasn't your son. He was Franco's."
That sent Jason over the edge. He spoke with malice in his voice when he answered her question, "That baby boy was my son Elizabeth. I don't care what any damn test says. I was stupid when I thought I wouldn't be able to love him because of what Franco had done to Sam. That baby boy was a part of Sam; therefore he was perfect in every sense of the word. When I held him and looked at him, I knew I would have loved him with my whole heart. My only regret is how long it took me to come to the realization. I was stupid to ever think I couldn't love any child of Sam's; no matter how it was conceived." Jason spoke with blunt honesty.
Elizabeth was shocked; and it was apparent across her face. The last time she had talked to Jason, he had mentioned how Sam wanted him to promise her that he could love her child and he had said he wasn't sure he could. She wondered what had changed his mind. She definitely would not have brought up the subject if she knew how he felt now.
Jason wanted to leave but Elizabeth just kept talking. "Jason, I am sorry, I didn't realize you felt that way; I wouldn't have said anything if I knew your mind had changed. However, that baby's death was not your fault and I wish you would stop blaming yourself." "Sam shouldn't be blaming you either." Elizabeth whispered to herself.
Jason heard her last comment and clenched his fist. He was really getting tired of her blaming Sam. It was uncalled for and completely unjust. "Elizabeth, I appreciate you trying to be here for me but I think it would be best if you go now." Jason told her honestly.
Elizabeth looked at him with a mixture of hurt and shock in her eyes. "Jason…" She wasn't sure what to say. Elizabeth wasn't used to being dismissed; especially by Jason. "Jason, I didn't mean to speak badly of Sam." She looked at Jason's face and saw he wasn't backing down.
"Fine, I'll leave." Just before Elizabeth turned to leave, her emotions got the better of her, "But, maybe you should start thinking of this as a blessing. I mean, raising the child of the psycho that tortured you; that would not have been good for you Jason." Elizabeth was turning to leave when she and Jason heard someone yell.
"You self-righteous bitch!"
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P.S. I loved writing that last line! Is it Sam? If so, how much did she hear? Guess you will have to wait to find out. I will try and write chapter 5 and 6 as quick as possible to I can update again soon. Might be a couple days, sorry. But please, as always, review! I tend to update faster when I have more reviews;)
