Stay with me
Baby stay with me, tonight
Don't leave me alone
She shows me everything she used to know
Picture frames and country roads
Where the days were long and the world was small

Oh she stood by as it fell apart
Separate rooms and broken hearts
But I won't be the one to let you go

-Kiss Me Slowly, Parachute

Ring…Ring…Ring… "Hello?" answered the voice on the other end sleepily.

"Good morning sleeping beauty, I apologize for waking you," I greeted. You'd think that the boy would be up by one in the afternoon. "Happy Birthday!" I said. It'd been a few days since I'd seen Jake and I had only had one short phone call with him in that time. I was dying to see him, and give him the present.

"Thanks Bella. I was gonna call you when I woke up to see if you wanted to come over today, or if you wanted me to come to your house," he said with a yawn.

"Well it depends. Are you doing anything with your dad today?" I asked.

"Nah, I don't think so- at least not until tonight."

"Do you want to come to my house then? Charlie's out fishing with Harry and he'll probably be gone for most of the day." Jake and I weren't having sex, we'd been dating for almost a year but I wasn't comfortable with it yet and he wasn't looking to push me into anything. Regardless, it was still nice to have alone time with him.

"Okay, that sounds good. I'll be there in thirty then."

"Kay! Later Tater!" I said, to which Jake just laughed.

"Bye Bella," he said with a click.

Usually, I didn't put myself together much when I was with Jake. I didn't look like a total slob, but at the same time I didn't worry about looks. That obviously wasn't the reason he'd started dating me. Today was his birthday though, and I felt like I was obligated to look my best. I'd already straightened my hair into a silky chestnut waterfall and put on vanilla perfume, his favorite. I'd watched some makeup tutorials on youtube earlier today, so I was fairly sure I could manage some eyeliner. I lined the top and bottom lash lines with black, making my eyes look huge. I added a shimmery golden shadow and the blackest mascara I could find at the drugstore. I didn't need any blush, since I almost always had a pink flush. All in all, the girl in the mirror looking back at me was different. She was pretty, maybe even beautiful. Even my pale skin and light dusting of freckles seemed luminous.

I was awoken from admiring my reflection by a knock on the door, which was strange for Jake. I walked down the stairs to open the door, but he was already lounging on the couch, the picture of ease. His black t-shirt clung perfectly to every plane and curve on his torso, and his dark jeans fit him quite nicely. His hair was tousled, but tamer than I had last seen it. He was so cute; I sometimes didn't understand how he was with me. He turned his head and saw me, and for a moment his eyes got huge. It was probably because of my snugly fitted v-neck t-shirt and the jean miniskirt that kept riding up my legs precariously.

"You look…" he started, seemingly unable to finish his sentence. By the grin on his face, it was a good thing.

"You too," I replied with a giggle. I sat beside him and leaned in for a quick peck on the lips and a big hug. "Happy birthday," I murmured, my head still against his chest. I could feel his warmth on me, warmer than usual. The heat from him sank into my bones, tightened my muscles. Butterflies fluttered against the walls of my stomach. "I got you a present." I pulled back and smiled.

"Bells, you didn't have to! It's not like we have money to throw around," he said disapprovingly.

"That's the thing. They woman at the store gave me a huge discount…" I said quietly.

Jake sighed. "Well thanks."

"You haven't even seen it yet. I'll go get it." I leaped up and ran up the stairs, and retrieved it from my drawer. It was a perfect gift, but I started to worry that he wouldn't like it.

"Here you go," I said, handing him the little black velvet box. He opened the lid slowly, almost carefully, and his jaw dropped when he saw the contents.

"Shit Bella! This looks expensive as hell. But it's really nice. And we can match," he laughed. I smiled, mostly because I could tell by his big brown eyes that he really did like it. I took the box and took out the heart, showing him the back. His smile grew bigger. I put the half that said Bella around his neck, and he did the same to me with the other half.

He pulled me in close, kissing me deeply. My hands found there way to his hair and I pulled him even closer, wrapping my body around his as much as I could. Heat coursed through my veins, and everywhere that he touched left a trail of fire. I had never kissed him like this before. The kiss was loving, passionate, but there was something behind it, something wild. Not that I minded that part. His hands found their way under my shirt, and mine his. I touched each curve of his chiseled stomach, the hard plane of his back. Every time he touched me, I wanted more. Soon, we found our shirts were completely gone, my bra found it's way to the floor too. The kiss got deeper and deeper, the fire grew stronger and stronger. I grabbed his belt loops and started trying to unzip his pants. I didn't know what had come over me, or how my outlook had changed so quickly, but I wanted him. Every bit of him.

"Bella, are you sure?" he asked, his voice breathless, but I could see in his eyes he wanted this just as badly as I did. I nodded.

"I love you Jacob Black," I said with conviction. He answered with a sweeter kiss than the last. Our pants came off, and soon we lost track of time.

"Good night," I whispered to him. I didn't want to see him go, but I knew that Billy would be wondering where he was soon and Charlie would be home in an hour.

"Good night, Bella," Jacob whispered back. He kissed me one last time, forcefully. It brought up the same feelings as before, so I was glad that he broke away, breathing heavily. He turned and I watched as he got to his truck, and until he drove away. I shut the door when he was out of sight.

I didn't regret my decision to have sex with Jacob. If anything, it had brought me closer to him. Losing him would be impossible for me. I was reassured though, knowing that we had forever and always.

Charlie got home, and I told him I had went over to Jake's for a few hours. We had a conversation about his fishing day, but it was short since neither of us were big talkers.

That night, as I laid in bed, I realized what had been behind the kiss. Desperation and fear. I spent the night tossing and turning, not finding sleep until the sky was a light gray.

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