Finding a way Chapter 4, a glee fanfic

Chapter 4

The girl's night was great, Finn left not long after we ate the pizza. Mercedes, Tina, Brittany, Kurt and I watched movies well into the night. It was only after crying our way through the Notebook that we decided to call it a night. We all slept around the living room. Mercedes and I crashed out on the floor while Tina and Brittany sqeezed onto the lounge leaving Kurt on the recliner.

The next day we were woken up to the smell of bacon and eggs. We all walked into the kitchen to find my mother was the reason for the delicious smell. She was still in her work uniform, so I new she had not been home for very long. She smiled at us as we sat down at the table. She placed the food in front of us and we began eating.

"Morning kids" she smiled, "I thought you might like some breakfast"

"Thanks Mrs. Johnson, this is great" Mercedes thanked my mum.

"My pleasure kids" she smiled again before heading upstairs.

Everyone went home around lunch time, my mum had gone to bed and they didn't want to wake her. I spent the rest of the afternoon cleaning up our mess in the lounge room and finishing off my home work for the week. The girls offered to help me, but I assured them I could handle it.

The rest of my weekend shot by so fast, it was beginning to feel like it never happened and before I knew it, it was Monday morning and I was up getting ready for school again.

I sighed into the mirror as I brushed the knots out of my hair. I eventually gave up and pulled my hair up into a pony tail. Once I was satisfied I grabbed my bag and walked out the door locking it behind me.

I walked into the choir room and sat down on one of the chairs at the back and waited for everyone to come in. it wasn't long before the room was filled up with the glee kids. I watched as Rachel and Finn waited at the front of the room for everyone to enter.

"Ok well now that Valentines Day is over I can proudly say that the kissing booth brought in $350 to the glee club" Finn stated happily.

"Well that great Finn that will pay for half the ticket to nationals" Mr. Shue smiled taking the money from Finn.

Finn took his seat nest to Artie while Rachel stayed standing. She did her usual Rachel speech and then began singing, only this time I found myself singing along.

Do you ever feel like a plastic bag,
drifting through the wind
wanting to start again?
Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
like a house of cards,
one blow from caving in?

Do you ever feel already buried deep?
6 feet under screams but no one seems to hear a thing
Do you know that there's still a chance for you
'Cause there's a spark in you

You just gotta ignite, the light, and let it shine
Just own the night like the 4th of July

'Cause baby you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh"
You're gonna leave 'em all in awe, awe, awe

You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow

Maybe your reason why all the doors are closed
So you could open one that leads you to the perfect road
Like a lightning bolt, your heart will glow
And when it's time, you'll know

You just gotta ignite, the light, and let it shine
Just own the night like the 4th of July

'Cause baby you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, Oh, Oh"
You're gonna leave 'em all in awe, awe, awe

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through-ough-ough

'Cause baby you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go "Oh, Oh, Oh"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, Oh, Oh"
You're gonna leave 'em all in awe, awe, awe

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon

We all joined in with Rachel, if felt like she really let down her walls in this song. It was really not like Rachel, and I actually liked this Rachel.

I assumed this was the close off of Mr. Shue and his love song week, but in bringing that into reality the low that comes after Valentines Day.

By the end of the day the usual glee couples were, well I guess the word lacking seems to fit in well. There was none of the usual spark between them. I'm pretty sure earlier I saw Tina choosing to play angry birds over Mike chang and his abs. I could tell this week was going to be interesting.

Things were still very awkward. Sam and Quinn still hadn't officially broken up and that seems to make Santana bitchier and Finn more persistent. I still hadn't spoken to Quinn about the incident, I guess I was just waiting for her to come to me; it wasn't exactly my business to pry.

I didn't have to wait long. As I walked out of the choir room to my locker at the end of the day, Quinn pulled me aside.

"Do you think we could talk?" she asked.

"Sure, where do you wanna go?" I asked.

"Library?" she suggested and I nodded.

We walked to the library in silence and made ourselves comfortable in one of the study rooms. I waited for Quinn to talk first but I got the impression that wasn't going to happen.

"So what's up? I started.

"I just wanted you to know that what happened with me and Finn wasn't planned or anything" she began.

"Ok" I wasn't sure where she was going with this.

"I didn't mean to lie to you or anyone for that matter and I really don't know how I feel about Finn at the moment" she sighed.

"I guess I'll tell you the same thing that I told him, you never truly forget your first love" that's what my mum always told me.

"Please don't get me wrong I love Sam, or at least I thought I did, after all this I just don't know about anything anymore" Quinn placed her head in her hands.

"Its something that you have to work out yourself, before someone else gets hurt"

Quinn drove me home after our talk. It was a silent drive; we didn't even try to make small talk. Quinn just needed to figure out her head.

Mum was at work as usual when I got home. I got started on my homework and got most of it done before going to bed. I didn't bother making dinner, I just wasn't hungry.

Tuesday came along and on the board in the choir room was the word anthem. I took the empty seat between Sam and Brittany, and I was surprised to see Quinn sitting on the other side of Sam. I figured they must have been talking. Mr. Shue waited for us all to settle before beginning.

"Ok who can tell me what an anthem is?" he asked.

"That's easy, it's the bottom of an ants pants" Brittany exclaimed proudly.

"So close" Mr. Shue went on to explain about anthems.

There was a snort from the back of the room, it had gone unnoticed that Coach Sylvester was sitting in on our glee session. Mr. Shue explained that coach Sylvester was going to be with us in glee for the rest of the week. Which of coursed earned a few groans.

When Mr. Shue finished talking Sam stood up and walked to the front of the room. He wasn't dressed in his usual letterman jacket, it had been replaced with a purple hoodie and his blonde hair brushed forward. It was like he was channeling Justin Beiber and it was a little weird.

"Ok so things have been a little weird the last couple of days, so I'm trying out something new" he smiled at everyone, "I give you the Justin Beiber experience"

Ohh wooaah [x3]

You know you love me, I know you care
Just shout whenever, and I'll be there
You are my love, you are my heart
And we will never ever ever be apart

Are we an item? Girl, quit playing
we're just friends, what are you saying?
Say there's another and look right in my eyes
my first love broke my heart for the first time
and I was like...

Baby, baby, baby oooh
Like baby, baby, baby nooo
Like baby, baby, baby oooh
I thought you'd always be mine (mine)

Oh, for you I would have done whatever
And I just can't believe we ain't together
And I wanna play it cool, but I'm losin' you
I'll buy you anything, I'll buy you any ring
And I'm in pieces, baby fix me
And just shake me 'til you wake me from this bad dream
I'm going down, down, down, down
And I just can't believe my first love won't be around

And I'm like
Baby, baby, baby oooh
Like baby, baby, baby nooo
Like baby, baby, baby oooh
I thought you'd always be mine (mine)

Baby, baby, baby oooh
Like baby, baby, baby nooo
Like baby, baby, baby oooh
I thought you'd always be mine (mine)

I couldn't help but giggle a little at Sam's awkward dance moves, but I had to give him credit he really nailed his Beiber impression to the t.

The Glee girls were almost going gaga for Sam as he sang and while Finn seemed a little disturbed by the song choice, Artie, Puck and Mike seemed to have little gears turning in their heads.

The bell went after Sam finished his song signaling classes were soon to begin. I walked with him to my locker as we both had biology first up and I kind of wanted to see how he was doing.

"So interesting choice of outfit' I noted as we got to the lockers.

"Yeah I used to think Beiber was for losers till I realized how much influence he actually has" he smiled.

"What ever tickles you're fancy" I laughed and he laughed along too.

He might have been laughing on the outside but I could tell that's not what he was feeling on the inside. The light that was usually in his eyes when he smiled just wasn't there.

"How are things with Quinn?" I asked not avoiding the subject any more.

"A little weird I guess she told me that she was choking on a piece of gum and Finn was helping her" he explained.

I was a little shocked that Quinn would think Sam to be that gullible. I thought surely he wouldn't believe such a story. I figured he just didn't want to believe that his girlfriend had cheated on him with his friend.

"I see" was all I could really manage with out getting too angry.

I was really starting to like Sam; I guessed he really did love Quinn.

"I'm still not so sure what I'm going to do" he sighed.

"Well you just gotta do what makes your heart happy" I shrugged.

I closed my locker and the two of us walked to biology. We talked about the new batman movie that was coming out excitedly. We were both certain that it was going to be an epic movie.

We took our seats towards the back of the room and continued our discussion.

"We should totally go to the midnight screening when it comes out" I suggested.

"Yeah that would be awesome" he agreed smiling.

"We could invite the other glee kids or we could go just us" I suggested nervously, "if you want that is"

I wasn't sure what processed me to ask such a thing, but I was practically dying inside while I waited for him to answer. I was pretty sure the blush on my cheeks was obvious as well.

"You know what, just we actually sounds great" he grinned down at me.

"Cool well we shall confirm dates when the movie is closer to being released"

I tried to stay as clam as possible on the outside but really I was absolutely wrapped with his answer. I knew I probably shouldn't be after all he was still technically my friend's boyfriend, but I really couldn't help myself.

The rest of the day went my rather smoothly I guess. There was still a lot of tension and awkwardness between the glee club and having coach Sylvester there wasn't helping one bit.

To be honest I was actually happy to go home. Mum had the night off so we sat up and watched terrible reality TV and laughed at the people who thought they were cool. I really did miss spending time with my mum.

"So how is school?" she asked during one of the ads.

"It's actually not too bad" I told her.

"Well I'm really happy to hear that "she smiled, "so when are you inviting the kids over again?"

"I'm not sure actually we haven't really talked about it" I replied.

"Well they are always welcome over"

We both went to bed not long after that. I went to bed with no idea of what the next day would bring, but I had a feeling it was going to be interesting. Boy was I right.

As usual I was one of the first to arrive in the choir room. I was talking to Tina about what my mum and I had talked about the night before when they entered.

Sam was dressed in a Beiber get up similar to the one he had worn the day before only this time Puck, Artie and Mike were also dressed like Beiber. I snorted and laughed out loud at their attempt to give Puck the Beiber hair do, it was just plain funny.

"What's this?" asked Mercedes.

"We are the new and improved Justin Beiber Experience" Sam announced.

"We have a song we would like to sing" announced Artie.

"Its not really an anthem, but anything Beiber does is gold" Puck explained.

Before we knew it we found ourselves in the auditorium and the Justin Beiber Experience had taken the stage.

For you I'd write a symphony,
I'd tell the violin,
It's time to sink or swim,
Watch them play for ya,
For you I'd be, (whoa oh)
Running a thousand miles,
Just to get to where you are.

Step to the beat of my heart,
I don't need a whole lot,
But for you I admit I,
I'd rather give you the world,
Or we can share mine,
I know I won't be the first one,
giving you all this attention,
Baby listen,
I just need somebody to love,
I don't need too much, just somebody to love,
Somebody to love.
I don't need nothing else,
I promise girl I swear,
I just need somebody to love.
I need somebody, I need somebody,
I need somebody, I need somebody

Every day,
I bring the sun around,
I sweep away the clouds,
Smile for me.
I would take,
every second, every single time,
spend it like my last dime.

Step to the beat of my heart,
I don't need a whole lot,
But for you I admit I,
I'd rather give you the world,
Or we can share mine,
I know I won't be the first one,
Givin' you all this attention,
Baby listen,
I just need somebody to love,
I don't need too much, just somebody to love,
Somebody to love.
I don't need nothing else,
I promise girl I swear,
I just need somebody to love.
I need somebody, I need somebody,
I need somebody, I need somebody
somebody to love.
I need somebody, I need somebody,
I need somebody, I need somebody
I just need somebody to love.

And you can have it all,
Anything you want,
I can bring; give you the finer things, yeah
But what I really want,
I can't find cause,
Money can't find me,
Somebody to love (oh, oh)
Find me somebody to love (whoah ohh)

I need somebody to love,
I don't need too much, just somebody to love,
Somebody to love.
I don't need nothing else,
I promise girl I swear,
I just need somebody to love.
I need somebody, I need somebody,
I need somebody, I need somebody
somebody to love.
I need somebody, I need somebody,
I need somebody, I need somebody
I just need somebody to love.

I need somebody, I need somebody,
I need somebody, I need somebody
I need somebody to love.
To love, to love.
Is she out there? [x3]
I just need somebody to love.

The boys danced the same awkward dancing that Sam had done the day before, but this time they were more coordinated than he had been.

The girls screamed as they sang and danced, I just stood back and smiled. Finn still didn't look pleased at all. I sat down next to him and turned to speak.

"He Finn" I smiled.

"Hey Amy" he sighed.

"What's on your mind?" I asked curiously.

"Well I just don't get it, yesterday the guys said Beiber was lame and yet today they think he is a legend"

"Honestly I think it's just a faze" I told him.

"You're probably right"

I watched as he stared intently at Quinn as she watched and cheered for Sam and the other glee guys.

"Have you talked to her?" I asked.

"I've tried but she keeps telling me she has to decide" he replied not taking his eyes off Quinn.

I just nodded. The boys finished off their number and we all clapped and cheered. Mike helped Artie down and the two of them were swamped by there girlfriends. Puck walked over to Rachel and Mercedes, both girls gushing over his performance.

Quinn was speaking with Sam, smiling brightly. I could feel a hint of jealousy rising up underneath my skin, but I pushed it back down again.

Quinn smiled gain before walking over to me. We went to leave when I noticed Santana whispering something in Sam's ear and strutting away. I guessed she wasn't finished ruining everyone's lives yet. One could only imagine what she was secretly planning and we all knew it was never going to be any good.

When Thursday came and things were still the same I figured Santana had just been messing around and things might actually go back to being remotely normal. How wrong I was.

Coach Sylvester and tricked Mercedes and Rachel into having a diva off, which backfired on her and kind of brought the two girls closer as friends. I was a little disturbed at the lengths she would go to when trying to sabotage the Glee club.

So when we all got together and sang to a My Chemical Romance Anthem with Coach Sylvester which she suggested mind you, I was a little shocked to say the least. She even started us off.

Sing it out
Boy, you got to see what tomorrow brings
Sing it out
Girl, you've got to be what tomorrow needs
For every time that they want to count you out
Use your voice every single time you open up your mouth

Sing it for the boys
Sing it for the girls
Every time that you lose it sing it for the world
Sing it from the heart
Sing it till you're nuts
Sing it out for the ones that'll hate your guts
Sing it for the deaf
Sing it for the blind
Sing about everyone that you left behind
Sing it for the world
Sing it for the world

Sing it out, boy they're gonna sell what tomorrow means
Sing it out, girl before they gonna kill what tomorrow brings
You've got to make a choice
If the music drowns you out
And raise your voice
Every single time they try and shut your mouth

Cleaned up, corporation progress
Dying in the process
Children that can talk about it,
living on the railways
People moving sideways
Sell it till your last days
Buy yourself a motivation
Generation Nothing,
Nothing but a dead scene
Product of white dream
I am not the singer that you wanted
But a dancer
I refuse to answer
Talk about the passer
Ruling for the ones who want to get away

Keep running!

We've got to see what tomorrow brings
Sing it for the world
Sing it for the world
Girl you got to be what tomorrow needs
Sing it for the world
Sing it for the world

It was actually kind of fun singing and running and dancing around the stage until we realized that she had pushed the director of Vocal adrenaline, one of our major competition at regional's down the stairs to get his job. She really did have it in for Mr. Shue.

After school, Quinn, Brittany and I were walking to our lockers after glee that afternoon. We were going to head over to Quinn's to do some homework and needed to grab our things before we left.

We noticed Sam putting his things in his locker, so Quinn walked over to talk to him. I tried not to make out that I was listening by focusing intently on the contents of my locker.

"Hey, so I'm really excited about spending time with my boyfriend tomorrow" I could hear the smile in Quinn's voice.

That was until Sam slammed his locker and turned to her.

"We're not doing anything tomorrow and I'm not your boyfriend" he said harshly.

"What? Why?" Quinn asked confused.

"Because you can't look me in the eye and tell me you don't have feelings for Finn" she stated.

"But I want to be with you Sam" she pleaded.

"Too bad, sorry" he went on to say something in Navi and then muttered something like "Santana said I'm not allowed to speak that anymore.

"Since when are you doing what Santana says?" Quinn demanded

"Since we started going out" he replied and with that he walked away.

Brittany and I walked over to Quinn. Brit put her arm around her to comfort her, but she just shrugged it off.

"Umm can we reschedule this study date I'm not feeling well" Quinn muttered.

"Sure" we replied and she walked away.

I looked up at Brit and sighed before chasing after Sam. I caught up to him just as he got to his car.

"Sam wait up!" I called out.

He stopped and turned, looking a little relieved when he saw it was just me.

"Hey Amy, everything ok?" he asked.

"What just happened back there?" I puffed.

"Well honestly it was something I should have done days ago"

"Ok but what is this about Santana?" I questioned.

"If you must know new girl, thems fishy lips are now mine" Santana declared from behind me.

She walked over to Sam and wrapped her arm around his shoulder like he was her property and glared wickedly down at me like I was beneath her.

"You got a problem with that? Or you just jealous" she smirked.

I shook my head; this was low even for her. I looked over at Sam a little disappointed.

"I'm happy if you're happy Sam" I paused to give Santana my best evil look, "but you could do a lot better"

I didn't wait for her snarky comment back, I just walked home. The afternoon was a blur and I was happy when it was finally late enough for me to just go to bed.

I woke up thanking the stars that it was Friday. I was so ready for this week to be over. I walked into the choir room only to find Santana sitting on Sam's lap with her face glued to his.

The Jealosy began to show its ugly head again. I ignored it the best I could and sat down next to Finn and Mercedes.

"ok when did that happen?" Mercedes asked.

"yesterday sometime" Tina assumed.

"yeah, so his last girlfriend cheated on him, doesn't mean he has to lower his standards" I shrugged and smirked as I could feel Santanas glares hit me in the back.

Mr Shue called us all to attention as he sat down at the piano in front of the class. He explained about Coach Sylvesters scheme, but still seemed pleased to have an anthem to add to out regionals set list.

I noticed Rachel getting a little edgy a couple of seats in front of me. She stood up and looked at Mr Shue.

"not that im not a fan of My Chemical Romance or anything, but I don't think that this song is going to do" she stated.

"your only saying that because its not a song only your can sing" Mercedes countered.

There were quite a few nods from people agreeing with Mercedes, but I actually wanted to hear what Rachel had to say.

"no its just, we need a song that is amazing and I just don't think that it is going to cut it against the warblers or vocal adrenaline" she continued.

"well Rachel what do you propose we do?" Mr Shue asked.

"I think we need to write our own songs" she explaimed.

It wasn't such a bad idea after all even if it did come from Rachel. I could see Quinn nodding in agreement but we seemed to be the only two that were. So Mr Shue put it to a vote.

Rachel, Quinn and Myself all voted for original songs, while all the others voted for My Chem. I was a little disappointed to say the least, but something told me that this wasn't going to stop Rachel. I think it was the look of determination in her eyes that we so often saw when she wanted her own way.

We could all tell that this wasn't the end of Rachels original song idea, we hadn't heard the last of it.