Little by little I woke up, feeling something on my head. It was... Warm? I was still too sleepy to open my eyes and check. Besides, it felt nice, so why should I?
Even so, it was unusual. First, I was sitting on the floor, not in my bed. Second, I was still wearing yesterday's clothes. Third, I could hear someone's breathing very well.
With a slight groan I opened my eyes and blinked a few times to shake away the sleepiness. I turned around to check what was on my head and met a pair of amber eyes, piercing through me. I could only stare at them for a while, my gaze slowly traveling down to a pair of soft, pink lips now curled into a slight smile.
"Sorry, Aominecchi~ I woke you up?" Oh, that's right… Kise was at my place now. Every single thing from yesterday rushed into my mind and I closed my eyes just make sure I could keep them in bay.
"It's okay. More important, what time is it?" I covered a yawn and stretched slightly, deciding it was best if I didn't mention what happened before.
"It's almost nine in the morning~ I woke up a bit earlier…" His voice became quieter at the end of his sentence, I noticed him slightly biting his lip. He was lying, that's for sure.
"I see. You hungry?" The blonde blinked a few times and flashed me a bright smile before answering with a nod. I unconsciously glanced over at his wrist… I forgot to do something about the bleeding. A sigh escaped my lips and I reached out to take his hand into mine.
"Come with me. I'll… Help you." I wasn't sure what was I supposed to say. I felt his hand tremble when I touched him, but he still smiled at me. I knew that fake smile too well.
Slowly he got out of bed, lightly tugging his arm towards himself, motioning for me to release it. I did as he asked, his soft skin soon left mine, his slender fingers slightly ran across my hand. I turned my head away and started walking towards the bathroom, hearing the soft steps of Kise right behind me.
The door opened with one touch and I entered the same bathroom he cut himself in yesterday. Isn't this ironic?
He lowered his head a bit, his bangs now covering his eyes. I felt the same pain in my chest – the same I felt when I found him, when he told me about everything. I had to gently pull him towards the sink while he trembled in fear, shivered because of my touch.
I turned away from his face and reached out to grab his hand, pulling it towards the sink. His breathing hitched when I accidentally brushed my fingers across his injured wrist, he bit his lip to hold in a yelp of pain.
A frown made its way to my face and I turned on the water, pulling Kise's hand under it. I knew I was way too rough, but I couldn't help myself. His whole wrist was covered with clotted blood, and washing it off was not going to be easy.
His whole body was shaking as I started to wash the blood off, trying to make it as gentle as I could. With his other hand Kise grabbed onto my shirt, burying his face into my neck. My breathing hitched slightly – he was too close.
I continued on washing his hand, careful so it wouldn't start bleeding again, focusing my attention to anything else but his body pressed up against mine.
After a few minutes, once I was sure the blood was washed off, I turned the water off and gently dried his arm, my shirt slightly damp where his face was. That crybaby…
With one hand I opened a cabinet above the sink to take out some bandages. Slowly I started wrapping them around his wrist, still being careful like he was made of porcelain. His pale skin was almost of the same color as the bandage…
After I finished with the bandages I opened my mouth to say something, but I just couldn't. I could still feel Kise's tears, and knowing that I caused them made me feel like someone shot an arrow right through my heart. Slowly I pulled his arm from my shirt and lifted up his chin a little to make him look at me. His teary eyes were not something I wanted to see.
Or knew how to deal with.
A sigh escaped my lips and I brushed the tears away, looking straight into them.
"Ryouta, can you stop crying for once?.." My question sounded so weak. I guess I was feeling even weaker. Seeing his lower lip trembling didn't help, too.
"S-Sorry, Aominecchi…" His words were only a quiet whisper and he looked away, biting his lip. His hands were trembling and he shivered at every single touch.
I sighed and pulled away a few steps. I couldn't understand him anymore. Just like when I woke up alone… He didn't call or text me back then. He just left.
Right now I felt even more confused. Was he sad or angry? Did he want for me to leave him alone or did he want for me to stay?
Kise lifted his eyes up and in a few seconds I felt him wrapping his hands around my neck, burying his head into my chest. I was barely able to keep my balance, and I was ready to yell at him for doing that, until I once again felt warm tears on my chest.
With one hand I hugged him by waist, the other on his hair, stroking them lightly. Did he have any idea what he was doing to me right now? I didn't want any weak hopes he would respond to my feelings, yet I couldn't push him away. At least we could stay as friends…
He didn't pull away even after a few minutes; he was clinging onto me like I could save his life. I could only keep on stroking his hair, not sure about what else should I do. I was never one to know what to do in these situations!
I needed Satsuki with me now, but in the same time I didn't want for her to be here. I wanted for someone to tell me what was I supposed to do now, but I also wanted to decide it myself.
But was I really able to deal with Kise when he was like this? A sigh escaped my mouth and I tried to push him away a bit, only resulting in him clinging onto me harder. I groaned and lifted my eyes up to the ceiling.
"Ryouta, can you let go? I have to make breakfast…" Why were these words the only ones I was able to say? There were so many possibilities, so many other options… I really am stupid.
Even though, the blonde shook his head, still trembling.
"I-I don't want to…" Were his quietly whispered words. How was I supposed to respond to this? Should I just stand here, letting him cry, or should I do something else?
With a quiet sigh I slowly took him into my arms, while he didn't let go of my neck, his face still buried into my neck.
"Idiot, I know you're hungry. I won't go anywhere, but if you want, you can just sit in the kitchen while I make everything." After my words he mumbled something into my chest, just a little bit too quietly for me to hear. I decided to just shrug it off and started walking towards the kitchen, holding him tightly in my hands.
He mumbled something again, but I still couldn't make out what was it.
"Ryouta, if you have something to say, speak louder.. I can't hear you!" I groaned out, finally feeling him pulling away from my chest, looking at me with red, puffy eyes.
"Aominecchi… I… I can still feel him i-inside me…" His breathing hitched and he teared up again, his lower lip trembling.
"I would rather have you erase that f-feeling.. I would rather have you instead of that g-guy…" Kise muttered, making me freeze. Was he serious?..
I stopped with him still in my arms, looking at the model with disbelief. Did I really hear that right?
"Don't look at me like that!.." His voice, shaking and unsure. He was still gripping onto my shirt, lifting his eyes up again to meet with mine.
What the hell was I supposed to now?
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