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Chapter 4

You calm the storms and you give me rest
You hold me in your hands
You won't let me fall
You steal my heart and you take my breath away
Would you take me in, take me deeper now
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this

Inspite his date, the night seemed to move extremely slowly for Chuck. There she was, with him. It hurt every time, seeing them together.

I hope he knows how lucky he is he thought for himself. He would do anything to trade places with him.

Even though it hurt he couldn't seem to take his eyes off her. With all these people around he could just see her and nobody else. She was stunningly beautiful, as always,but she lookeddifferent. Sad he thought and it hurt him. He hated seeing her sad. Was it possible she was upset that he brought a date?

No he shouldn't be stupid. She was the one who didn't want to be with him, why would she be jealous? This wasn't one of their games, that time had passed. Besides he already lost the game. And it hurt like hell.

Blair made her best to act as normal as possible. Even though she felt like something was screaming inside her. She had never felt so alone in a room full of people. Most of all she wanted to go home and shut the door behind her and act like nothing exists. But this was life, and she couldn't flee.

She made sure she avoided Chuck and his date. Because her heart was dangerously close to crumbling every time she saw them.

It was when she overheard someone mention Chuck and his new girlfriend and how perfect they looked together, that she lost it. She just couldn't stand it. It tortured her so much too even think about it, but seeing them, hearing people referring to them as a couple, it killed her.

She tried to breathe while heading for an exit; she needed to get out of there before she lost it completely.

He saw her when she made her exit. Almost running, looking anything but calm and happy, Chuck instantly felt worried about her. He wanted her to be happy. That was all he ever wanted. He loved her smile and he loved to hear her laugh.

"Will you excuse me for a minute" He said to his date and went after her trough the door.

"Blair!" He called after her.

She froze when she heard him. Slowly she turned around and walked back to him.

"What's wrong?"

Her heart skipped a bit when she heard the concern in his voice.

"Do you still love me?"

He looked at her for a moment as if he didn't understand. Then he sighed.

"What different does it make Blair?"

"I just have to know. Do you still love me or not?"

She hated how frightened she sounded but she didn't like the look in his eyes at all when he met her gaze.

"I don't see how it matters. You left me. You chose someone else."

Before he looked away from her she saw the sadness in his eyes. She felt his pain and it tortured her.

"And now you're asking me if I still love you. When I know it's not gonna change anything."

He sounded angry and a bit resentful.

"I know I promised I wouldn't do this to you." Blair swept a tear away. "But I just have to know."

"Do you still love me?" He looked straight at her with an intense gaze. The question had just slipped. He hadn't meant to ask her that. But he couldn't help to feel hopeful. Maybe it wasn't over for her. It sure wasn't over for him. It could never be over.

"Chuck it's not that easy."

"It comes down to whether or not you love me. That's all, that's it. The rest is just details."

He took a step closer to her, standing so close she could hear him breathing. She inhaled his scent, he smelled familiar and comfortable. God she missed him.

Blair swallowed and looked away; she had to work her hardest not to throw herself over him.

Chuck put his hand on her cheek and forced her to meet his eyes.

"Look deep down into the soul I know you have and tell me if you still love me."

She felt her heart beat faster, adrenaline pumping trough her veins, and she knew he was right, the rest is just details.

"I have to go and do something."

And she left him without an answer.

She found Louis in the middle of a discussion with some man she never seen before.

"Blair" Louis said. "There you are."

"I have to talk to you"

"What is it?" Louis looked straight at her with a bit of curiosity mixed with impatience in his voice. "I was in the middle of something."

"Not here. Follow me." Blair pulled him into a nearby hallway. She hated herself for doing this here. But she had to. She couldn't wait one more minute to remove the leash she felt she had around her neck.

"Louis I can't do this anymore."

"What do you mean Blair?"

"I can't fool myself, or you, anymore. It's not fair." With tears in her eyes she pulled the ring from her finger. "I'm so sorry Louis but I can't marry you."

"What?"

She understood the surprise in his voice. Dropping this like a bomb on him, here, without any warning. She felt terrible.

"You can't be serious?" Louis raised his voice. She couldn't mistake the anger in his voice. "Is this about him? You told me that was over!"

"Louis, you and I went through something terrible together, we lost our child. I lost myself the same moment. But I want to find that person again."

"So this is about your miscarriage?" He almost screamed now and looked straight at her with furious eyes.

"It was a mistake to ignore it, pretend nothing had happened. I should have let myself grieve. Instead it's hunting me down now, I have had nightmares about it almost every night lately and I think about it a lot. It must be hard for you too."

"It's not" Louis looked so coldly at her that her body shivered.

"Why so insensitive?" Blair asked with a bit of anger rising in her voice. "All of a sudden you don't care that you lost your child?"

Louis suddenly seemed a bit edgy and uncomfortable.

"You didn't lose my child Blair."

Blair felt the air being sucked out of the room.

"I don't understand" Blair said even though her face expression and her fragile voice revealed that she already knew. Her brain worked hard to push away what her heart screamed.

"You think I didn't know what you were up to? I knew everything you did, every step you took!" Louis sounded furious. "That's why I made sure to get the result before anyone else did. As I thought the test result didn't match with my DNA."

"No" Blair pleaded with an almost audible voice. "You're lying to hurt me." She shut her eyes and tried to hold back her tears. Tried her hardest to close her eyes to the truth.

"I'm sorry Blair" Louis said with a slack of sympathy and regret in his voice.

She stoodin shock, tears streamingdown her face.Shewas beyond tears, as realization hit her.