Disclaimer- I have never owned twilight except the books.

Hey!

A new chapter in just under a day! Amazing…..well at least to me it is. When I woke up this morning I felt like writing another chapter for my story, even though it was only the previous night that I had updated, but since I had the craving, I had to do it, and so, here it is…..

One more thing…read the author's note at the end. It is important.

Now go on and read…

"mooooommmm…."I whined, "how much more time will it take?"

"Stop whining, Bella." My mom, Renée replied, while driving her car, a mini SUV", we will get there when we get there."

"But you can at least give me a time estimate, I have been sitting in this car for the past two hours and my legs are starting to kill me now!"I started whining again. I wasn't really all that uncomfortable; I just had a crazy feeling to irritate my dear mother. So here I was. I knew that my whining annoyed the crap out of her.

"If you don't stop whining this second, Bella, I swear that I'll take a U-turn and head back home." She threatened me and though I knew she would never do that, I quit being a baby and turned up the volume of the radio.

"Oh I like this song. Don't change it. "My mom told me as the song "love story" by Taylor story came on.

"moooom, come on you have got to have a better taste in music than that!"I tried to reason out with her. This was a crappy love song and it's not that I didn't like mushy songs I just really wanted to hear something with a good rap and beat. RIGHT NOW.

"Bella! I always let you have your way with me over the radio, don't I? Can't you just listen to me this time, once?" she asked with those puppy dog eyes that she knew I couldn't resist. Seriously, my mom acted like a FREAKING child sometimes!

"I hate you" I huffed and pouted as I sat with my hands crossed in front of me.

And then it happened.

As my mom was looking sideways at me, she unconsciously changed lanes. She didn't see the big truck that was coming right at u at a very fast speed.

"MOM! LOOK AHEAD!" I shouted and motioned forwards towards the on-coming truck.

She turned her head quickly and I saw horror cross her eyes. She immediately maneuvered the car towards the left hand side so that the full force of the truck hit her. As the impact of the truck touched the car, the air bags came out and covered both of us.

I felt the car stumbling and rolling on the highway and hit my head on the roof the car a number of times. And after a few seconds it came to a stop. The air bag was still tightly wrapped around my body and I tried calling out to my mom but my voice came out muffled.

I felt something wet and sticky dripping down my forehead. I got my hands free somehow and touched my fore head to see blood on my fingers.

I suddenly started feeling very nauseas. And suddenly I felt the air bag loosen around me and got myself free.

"MOM?" Are you alright?" I yelled.

But I didn't get a response, no reply, no answer, nothing.

And then I saw her, lying there drenched with blood on the driver's seat of the car. She was just laying there, no movement, not even the slightest indication of breathing.

I started sobbing, already realizing the outcome of this situation. I turned my head away from hers and tried to open the door so that I could let myself out.

I started breathing heavily and felt claustrophobic.

I wanted get out but the damn door wouldn't open! After a few moments, I stopped trying and looked back at the crippled body of my mom.

I just looked at her and cried.

I heard someone call my name, but I didn't care because my mom was dead in front of me. I didn't care about anything else in the rest of the world.

MY world had just come crashing down.

I felt myself shaking uncontrollably and thought that somehow the car had started moving by itself when I suddenly sat up and opened my eyes.

I sat up and saw a whole new and different scenario in front of me. I was in my dorm room.

I was having a dream…

I realized and started crying again. But this time, more loudly.

Alice was beside me and I realized that she was the one who was shaking me and calling out my name.

"Bella! What happened, sweetie? You were just having a nightmare. Snap out of it, Bella. Please." She tried to sooth me with her words but I wasn't soothed in any way, instead I started sobbing more than before because what she said was true.

I had a nightmare.

A nightmare which I had been having since the past 5 years.

When Alice realized that I was in a very bad shape she just sat down on my bed and put her arms around me and pulled me into her embrace.

She just held me, saying nothing and I kept on crying till my eyes were finally raw and dry.

I sniffled and sat up.

Alice just looked at me. After a while she said tentatively, "Bella? Are you alright. I mean, you know you can trust me. If you want to talk about anything-"

"I know Alice and trust me I'm going to be fine. You don't have to worry."I said and saw her face fall a little.

"It's not that I don't trust you, Alice." I hurriedly said trying to make her see my point, "Believe me; and I know that it's just been a day but I have started to think of you as my sister. Literally. But you have to understand that I'm not ready to talk about it right now. Please Alice, I'll tell you about it when I'm ready."

"Sure, Bella. I just want you to know that I'm always gonna be here and you can talk to me right about anything and everything." She smiled at me.

"Thank you Alice." I said with true smile lighting up my face.

"For what?" she asked.

"For just….being there." I said, I couldn't think of anything else and she seemed to understand it.

She just smiled and got up from my bed.

"So what are you planning on doing now?" she asked as she went to get her mobile to see the time, "its just 6:00, but if you don't want to sleep then I'm okay with that."

"Actually," I said getting up from my bed and going towards the closet, "I was thinking of going for a run around the campus, I just want to clear my head and I can't find anything else to do other than that at this hour." I took out my running shoes and some track pants.

I went to the bathroom and changed my clothes, came out to see Alice standing and waiting for me.

"You are sure, right Bella? I mean I know you will be alright but if you want some company, I can come with you or you can stay here and we can do something else to take your mind off of current things." She said looking at me with worried eyes.

I went and hugged her.

"I'm going to FINE, Alice. I told you not to worry." I pulled back and went towards my bedside table to take my I-pod from it. "Now bye. I'll see you later." I said over my shoulder as I headed out.

"Bye Bella" I heard her say just before I closed the door.

As I walked through the deserted hallways, I put on the ear buds and set the I-pod on shuffle.

When I reached the basement I started running. I didn't run regularly, I did it when I wanted to clear my head and wanted to make sense of things and ironically it was every day. Ever since my mom…died…it's been really hard for me. There are certain things that you can only talk to your mother about. And that too, during your teen years, your life gets really messy if you don't have someone to talk to. But me? Yeah, I admit I'm a very unique case. I never had anyone to pour out my feelings to. My best friend was a BOY, and you can't talk to a boy about everything. And my dad? Well let's just say that it gets awkward if you have a decent girly conversation with your father.

As I neared the cafeteria we went to yesterday I turned left and started running on the trail that was covered the whole campus.

Why did I have the nightmare today?

I normally had the dream when I was feeling isolated or lonely, but today, rather yesterday, I had the best day of my life. I mean, I came to Dartmouth for god's sake. I finally accomplished my dream and moreover I made a great friend here.

Then why today of all days?

And why did it have to be in front of Alice?

I didn't want anyone to know the inner Bella who was very vulnerable and felt weak without the support of her mother. Who was shy and quiet and didn't want to make any friends in order to reject the pain that will come once they go away.

I didn't want anyone to know how much weak I was. I had built up this strong façade on the outside to keep anyone from coming too close. And I wanted it to stay that way.

It was better that I didn't have friends than to make friends and then watch them turn their backs at you once they see the real you.

It was better to stay alone than to feel the pain of betrayal.

And in case you are wondering, Emmet is different. He is practically my brother and I have known him my whole life.

He was there with me when I saw my mother's body getting zipped up, being taken to the hospital morgue in the ambulance.

He was there with me and cried with me for my loss during my mother's funeral.

It's been 5 years since that day.

And still, the nightmares just keep coming in.

I just wanted them to stop. I had lived through the live telecast once; I didn't want the replay of the scenes again and again everyday!

I realized then that my lungs and legs were on fire from running continuously for so long. I looked down at my watch to see that it had been 45 minutes since I started running.

I sat at a nearby bench and took in the nearby surroundings.

I was in front of the football ground and around the whole campus I saw a few people running about.

Once I had my breathing under control, I stood up and slowly walked towards my dorm building.

But as I neared the building I saw a pair of legs block me. I looked up to see Edward standing in front of me with that stupid smirk on his face.

"Hey Bella, I didn't know you ran. It's a surprise to find you up so early, actually." He said with that a smirk still in its place.

"Yeah, Edward, I run, now will you please get out of my way so that I can go up to my room?" I asked annoyed.

"Sure Bella but I wanted to ask- "he started to say but was cut off by the blaring ring tone of his mobile.

"Hey, Edward Mason here." he said and winked at me. I made a disgusted face and tried to walk around him while he talked on the phone. But unfortunately, he just stepped in front of me and blocked me again. I tried it couple more times, but his long legs were always faster than mine, and he stepped in before I could take a step forwards.

"Sure, Jessica. I would love to go out on dinner with you tonight. I'll pick you up at eight." He said and hanged up. He looked at me and wiggled his eyebrows at me as if to ask me if I was jealous or not.

"So, you got a date for tonight. Great! Have fun, now will you get out of my way!" I nearly growled at him. He opened his mouth once more to ask something but again he was cut off from the ring-tone of his mobile. He checked the number first and sighed.

He put the phone close to his ear and said.

"Hello, Tanya. How are you?"

I just watched his face with an annoyed look on my face. I couldn't do anything else! He would just block me and prevent me from going until and unless he had said what he wanted to say to me.

I saw his eyes widen in excitement.

"Sure Tanya, I will meet you at the gates at 7:30 tonight. Who else is coming, by the way?" he asked. He paused to listen what Tanya had to say before replying.

"Oh. That's great! We are going to have some serious fun today. See you later."He said and hung up.

I started to say something but he pointed his finger at me telling me to be quite. I huffed and looked away.

"Hey Jessica. " I heard him say into the pone, "sorry, but I won't be able to come by tonight, I'm just feeling really sick and I don't think I'm feeling well enough to go on a date. And if I do come, I will just make you sick and I really don't want that, so you understand, right?" he then fake coughed to make his lie more authentic and my eyes widened in surprise.

He was lying and turning down this girl- who had asked on a date with him FIRST- because he wanted to go on a date with someone else whom he knew he was going to have fun with?

That is just disgusting!

He finally hung up and put his phone into his pocket.

"Sorry, now as I was saying, do you want to go out with me? Tonight? Tomorrow night? Whenever actually."

I felt my blood boiling beneath my skin. Just look at his guts!

He had just made plans for dinner with a girl right in front of me and even canceled one of them by lying to the poor girl(whatever her name was…)and that too in front of me and now he was asking ME to out on a DATE with HIM!

"I have never ever known a more filthy person than you, Edward." I started and I saw his eyes first widen in surprise and then narrow in anger, "who the hell do you think you are, huh? Just because you know that you are unbelievably gorgeous doesn't mean that you can use it to your advantage and use women like a piece of trash. Grow up, Edward and then maybe if you will ask me out, I'll think about it. But before that day, don't ever think that you will have a chance with me."

By the time I was finished with my little speech, Edward was beyond fuming. His hands were clutched into fists at his sides.

"Who the hell do YOU think you are? You are a freshman here, miss. Bella Swan, so if you know what is good for you, you had better think twice before opening your mouth. Just because YOU don't want to have some fun, doesn't mean that everybody else here has to become like you." He finished and quickly made his way towards the boy's dorms.

I didn't feel sorry to yell at him like that, rather, I was feeling relieved after letting the frustration out.

I went up to my room and opened the door to find that Alice had resumed her sleeping from this earlier this morning. I tip-toed across the room and slowly opened the door of the bathroom to avoid waking Alice. I went inside and stripped my clothes off. I opened the tap for a hot shower and after making sure that the water was not too hot, I went inside and scrubbed every part of my body with my loofah and washed my hair with my strawberry scented shampoo.

Once I was done, I grabbed a towel and wrapped it around me. I opened the bathroom door to find that Alice was awake.

"hey, so you are finally awake." I said putting a fake smile on my face. I hoped that she didn't catch that.

And fortunately, she didn't.

"yeah", she chuckled and made her towards the bathroom, "so how long since you returned back from your run?" she asked.

"umm, I don't know, about 25minutes, I think." I said looking up at the clock in the room.

"oh..okay, then. I'm going to go freshen up, have a shower and get ready. It would take me about 45 minutes, so don't go anywhere because once I'm out we are going for breakfast." She said and went inside.

I just nodded my head and looked around the room to find something to do till Alice came out. I decided to take my favorite book, Pride and Prejudice, and read it. I found the book stashed with the rest of my school books and made myself comfortable on the couch and before I knew I was fast asleep.

"BELLA!" somebody was shaking me and shouting in my ear too loudly and it was really bothering me. I tried to swat the hand away that was gripping my shoulder. But that only angered the pixie as then she started to hit me with a cushion.

"OKAY! I'M UP, I'M UP!" I yelled.

I opened my eyes and found the evil pixie laughing.

"Now, if you are done sleeping, can we go have some breakfast? Its 9:00 already and I'm starving!" she said and grabbed her purse.

"Well, for your kind information I wasn't done sleeping. It was you who ruined it by waking me up." I grumbled and grabbed my purse and mobile before going out and locking the door.

A/N- Okay, now I hope that you liked the chapter even though I feel like I could have done better, I decided to just post it. I wanted to make the chapter longer, but then I decided to just leave it here.

Before finishing up, I want to give one news to you people and that is; I won't be able to update for the next 2 weeks as my exams just finished and I'm having my holidays and I'm going on a vacation with my family. I'll be coming back on 16th September and after that my school's starting on 18th so ill not be able to update very frequently after that but I will try to post a chapter on 17th. And I said I will TRY.

So that's it. I hope that you liked the chapter and even if you hated it, review.

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