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Flashback

How the hell did we get here?

Sasuke couldn't help but wonder in shock and awe how far him and that jackass Kaname had come. They went from hating each other (with a strange, compelling attraction), to becoming ridiculously close (still having the unbearable attraction).

After that first day, Sasuke found himself going back to Kougami's in search of new books and in secret hope of seeing Kaname again. To his luck, he did. From what he originally planned of proving his superior knowledge of the book while simultaneously telling him off, he ended up staying two hours discussing the novel to such a deep extent with the man that he had to admit he had met his match.

Kaname's insight was incredible. Although he looked like a good for nothing punk, in reality he was an Einstein underneath. He revealed the most subtle notions, easily explained the most complex concepts, and turned intricate details into meaningful yet simple words. He could explain an author's concept and motive in such a concise manner, yet had the ability to extrapolate and discuss the same novel to earth's end. He was truly a master of literature, and Sasuke couldn't help but to adore and admire it.

That's why today, like for the past month, they sat together and hung out, discussing the latest music, trends, novels, and lessons of life. It didn't matter if it was in the bookstore, the park, or under the bridge. The discussion was always enthralling, shiver-worthy, and exhilarating—like a drug Sasuke couldn't shake.

Today's discussion was taking place in the park under their tree, the largest Sakura tree in the area. They were sitting side by side, cuddling, facing towards each other. Kagame's hand was resting on Sasuke's hip, occasionally kneading the skin there. Sasuke twirled the fabric of his friend's shirt between his fingers as they talked.

"No way, you cannot call Vivian an unsung hero! She was a crack whore, who after jail went on a killing spree of men she seduced, from pimps—who albeit deserved it—to innocents she deceived by pretending to be a normal girl." Sasuke vigoriously shook his head in response to Kaname's claim of Vivan's heroism. They were debating characters in their latest read crime novel.

"Its not a matter of what she did, but rather the underlying feelings and circumstances. Look at it from this perspective; Vivian went into prostitution because she had no other way to live. Orphaned at eight years old, abused in foster care, and homeless for ten years, she has felt true destitution. She faced a life without basic comforts like food, running water, and warmth that we abuse and ungraciously take advantage of every day. When she met the officer at the corner, she felt she would finally be free. The law would save her from her miserable existence. She did not expect to be arrested for prostitution, especially in her circumstances of being forced into the profession."

"…Go on…" Sasuke couldn't resist from staring at Kaname's expression; a look that to those who did not know him appeared to be peaceful, but was in reality contemplative as he looked off into the distance, eyes glazed, eyebrows furrowed.

"She found out that day that the law does not protect people. The law is meant to maintain order, give retribution to those due, and hope to act as deterrence for unacceptable behavior. Even police officers and detectives still must act within the realm of the law or else face prosecution from the law itself. This fact of life not only rattled her core, but nearly destroyed the life within her. She thought "if the law cannot protect me from evil, and can only punish those after the evil is done, what is this life I am living?" Shutting his eyes he continued "Yet she persevered. Her actions were completely wrong, and her motives were cruel, unusual and biased. In the beginning she only attacked men who were pimps and thugs. Then she let the darkness of her tainted mind consume her. She felt all men deserved to suffer the same as her, because of her history, and lost complete respect for the law. That we all know is wrong. Yet the heroism within her is the fire that kept her burning. She did not allow life to bring her down. She attempted to right the wrong, yet didn't know how. She tried to use what life threw at her to re-motivate her. The author tried to show that even in someone like Vivian, there is a soul trying to find her way in life, trying to live, yet still hasn't found the correct way how. It is up to us to understand the difference between right and wrong within ourselves, whether it has been recognized by the law. That was what the author meant to show through her character."

"...Shit…" Once again, Kaname found a way to baffle Sasuke by taking such a miniscule character and seeing them for what they really were. When Sasuke's eyes met his companion's, he looked away with light blush on his cheeks.

"Or the concept could be not to become a crack whore or else your life will just suck balls. Literally."

Sasuke chuckled. It would be classic of Kaname that after such a long, deep speech he'd lighten the mood with humor. Checking his watch he found to his dismay that it was past five and he actually needed to get home to study.

"Hey I gotta get going. I actually have work due tomorrow and there's no way in hell we're staying here till nine like last night!"

Kaname just grinned. "Hey it's not my fault! You were convinced of proving to me that Shattered Glass was a way better band than Running on Ice. Which is a better use of your time than doing your calculus homework."

"You're just saying that because you're in college and you can bullshit you work and procrastinate because you have all your classes between 10 and 2." Sasuke drawled, unimpressed.

"What can I say, it's the good life." Now a smirk was plastered on his face.

"Well fuck you! It's bad enough that you drew a dick on my calc homework that said "get some bitch". Now that bitch of a teacher hates me even more." Sasuke yelled, his eye twitching in irritation yet a smirk creeping on his face due to amusement.

"Hahaha she saw that?! She deserves it. You told me she's been awful to you since day one because she was jealous of your family."

"Well I didn't make it any better by what I said today."

"..what did you say?"

"When she started going off on me I told her the energy she put into shrieking like a deranged banshee would be better spent in learning math to the point that she could actually teach another human being at an acceptable level, not the mediocrity she was passing off as teaching now. Or better yet, that she could use the energy she uses to bitch, to lose weight so that someone might actually find her remotely attractive and save her from her lonely misery. Then I gave her the finger and walked out again as the bell rang."

Staring at each other for five seconds, both busted out laughing picturing Sasuke's calc teacher's face: red, ballooned, bursting at the seams while her short and pudgy body quaked and jiggled with anger.

After laughing for what seemed like years both got up and were making their way back.

Looking down at his feet, unusually shy and blushing Kaname asked "before you go I was wondering if you'd want to come with me this Friday to Late Night at Kingley's. There having a mixture of poetry and music. I thought that we could check it out together, and then I'd show you a surprise."

Sasuke turned surprised. He wasn't sure if this was another friendly get together or a date, but either way he didn't mind, actually hoping for the latter.

"Sure. Just don't let it be shitty." And with a smirk, walked away.

Sasuke POV

"Fuck!" Rugged man was working wonders with his tongue on his cock. Having not received a blow job in years, this to Sasuke felt pretty damn good. Pushing the man's head further on him, Sasuke leaned against his apartment wall, heaving, huffing, and moaning.

"God, right there! Like that, suck harder. More!" Sasuke groaned out into pleasure. Unlike most believed, he was quite vocal in bed. The man was swirling his tongue and humming, creating unbearable pleasure as he took Sasuke as deep as he could—the man was very well endowed.

Just when he was about to come, Sasuke pulled the man's head off his cock with a rough pop. Tugging the man up to eye-level with him, Sasuke mashed their lips together in a fast, furious kiss. Sasuke completely dominated the man, pulling, biting, and sucking the man's lips, his tongue completely invading the other man's mouth. They were wrapped around each other, both naked moaning messes. The battle for dominance was over, for now.

Pulling their heads apart, yet tongues still battling in an open mouth kiss, Sasuke grabbed the other man and started pumping him with rough tugs, smearing the heavy pre-cum all over the reddened tip.

"Shit, more, please more." The man begged.

"You want more?" Sasuke questioned. He loved watching the man roughly nod his head. Letting his sadistic side out, he stopped pumping, held the man at his base to prevent him from coming and forced him to look him in the eye. "You're gonna have to beg for it. Really beg and show me how much a bitch you are for my cock."

Groaning the man licked his lips and continued. "I want you. I want your big, fat, juicy cock pounding me into the wall, stretching my dirty little asshole, making me scream. I want you tearing up my inside, marking me with your cum all over, fucking me so hard I feel like I'm going to break."

At that moment, Sasuke let out an animalistic growl, slammed the man into the wall, and told the man one command while positioning his fingers at his face. "Suck."

The man did as his commanded, his cock leaking, showing he liked to be manhandled in such a way, turning Sasuke on further. He began prepping the man, moving his fingers at a brutal pace that had the man in a sloppy, pitiful mess, begging for release, and then a slow pace; purposely missing his prostrate with each thrust.

"You want all three of my fingers you cock-slut? You want them all, filling you, twisting around inside you." Sasuke taunted.

"Yes! Please, anything. Fill my hole!"

Shoving all three fingers in, his long fingers started a deep, harsh pace. The other man was mewling. Pressed up against the wall, fingers scratching it looking for anything to anchor to, his face turned to the side. Growing impatient Sasuke pulled out his fingers and without warning slammed in all his nine inches into the man, slamming the man further into the wall.

Sasuke fucked all his boiling frustration and anger from over the years into this man. His hips moving like lightening, creating a deep, hard, and dead-on thrust. His one hand jerking the man's cock, the other on his hips giving him leverage. The said man was plastered against the wall, and was jutting his ass out to meet Sasuke's thrusts. Thuds against the wall as the other man was repeatedly thrusted into could be heard throughout the apartment (and probably the building), along with their moans, sighs, and groans.

"Ahhhh. Bend your ass more, lift it up, suck in my dick like the slut you are. Mmmm fuck." Sasuke was close to relief, the coiling tension in his loins growing. His groans were deep and velvety, creating tingling sensation in the other man's balls showing he had to come.

"Fuck, fuck, you're so deep. You're cock, mm, feels, ah, so fucking good. I love it." Sasuke bit sharply down at the junction between the man's neck and collarbone. He began biting and sucking everywhere, leaving darkened hickies as prove of their escapade. After a particularly hard thrust on the man's prostate, and a hard suck, rugged man let loose.

The man then groaned and released all over the wall. Feeling walls clench around him, Sasuke released deep within the condom. Both men were huffing and puffing messes, sliding down the wall on to the ground.

Catching his breath, rugged man turned with a mischievous glint in his eyes and said my turn. He turned, pushed Sasuke on the ground and began all over again—except this time he would top. They began kissing again while rugged man prepped Sasuke, turning him into a mewling, slutty mess. Breaking this kiss, Sasuke got on all fours and spread his legs. "Come over here and fuck me like you mean it. I want it so hard and deep I can barely walk tomorrow. I want you to fill my ass up with your cock, and give it to me like a dirty whore."

The man crawled up to Sasuke, and slammed all the way in, beginning another brutal tempo like Sasuke had done before to him. "You like this huh. Look how wet your asshole is. Tell me how much of a slut you are, how much you love getting fucked deep like this."

Sasuke arched his back, his ass meeting every thrust, his body beginning to quake. "Fuuuuccck, ah I love getting cock so deep in my ass. I want more, deeper. Break me. I need your cock all the way inside me, filling me up till you're cum runs down out of my ass!" Clenching his walls more as his orgasm approached he continued. "Shit! I need more, fuck so much more. Let that thick cock stretch me till I can't stretch anymore. I feel so full, ah."

The man sped up twice as fast, giving all he could give. "Fuck! Like that, ohh so good. So goood." Sasuke yelled as he came, his voice having rose an octave and now hoarse.

"God your ass is soo good." The man groaned. "So fucking good."

Yet even as he was filled, Sasuke knew that no matter what he did, no matter who he fucked or got fucked by it would never be enough. He'd wake up alone feeling cheap, empty, and lonely…

Naruto POV

I was beyond enraged when I saw Sasuke leave the bar with that guy.

How could he do that? Didn't he understand how much I cared? How long I loved him only to have my chances ruined by one choice, one mistake?

But it was that same mistake that tore him from me, and that same mistake that ultimately left us where we are now: me alone, depressed, and hurt, and Sasuke angry, bitter, hollow, and empty.

I decided that night that it would be the last time I'd allow fear to hold me. I wouldn't allow his iciness and cruelty to deter me from establishing a role in his life again.

That's why I ended up entering Chiya's café; it's the café I've noticed that he always stops by in the morning to get coffee. If I tried to confront him on his way to the office, it would either end up like our first encounter or he'd simply walk away. He couldn't do too much of either in a café without creating a scene and he hates creating a scene.

I saw him, sitting by the corner next to the window, slowly sipping his coffee while staring off into space, probably thinking too much like he always does.

I quickly make my way over to him, and sit down, effectively startling him out of his reverie as his head turned towards me, an eyebrow rose in surprise at first, and then pulled together as his face morphed into a sneer. He always could make the nastiest of looks.

"Hey Sasuke. How's your morning been?" I try to start out nice and casual, but then the bastard had to reply—

"How the fuck does my morning seem to have been?" he snarled. "It was actually semi-decent till your atrocity of a person came over and sat down in front of me. If you planned on ruining my day, mission accomplished dimwit."

…ok…wow that was completely fucking uncalled for?! I know I told myself to stay calm, but I couldn't keep it in with him being such an ass especially after I noticed all the hickies and bite marks littering the parts of his neck and chest I could see. Jealousy and fury quickly arose out of me.

"You know for someone who just got laid, you're being pretty bitchy this morning. There's no need for the asshole behavior especially when I was trying to talk to you." I retorted back.

Something flashed before his eyes, too fast for me to tell. It almost looked like his was pained by my words as his eyes had softened. Then they hardened into black rocks as he obviously pushed aside those feelings

"Fuck you! I did not ask for you in my life, nor do I want you in my life. I made it quite damn clear last time I would rather never see you again. So don't fucking reprimand me when you bring your dumbass over to me and attempt to make a conversation I already said I never want to have with you. Just fuck off and leave me the hell alone!" Huffing in frustration he began gathering up his items and was about to leave until I grabbed his wrist. I couldn't let myself get side tracked by his words again or else I could never get anywhere with him. I knew he was hurt as bad as I was, and basically was protecting himself the only way he knew how.

"Let go of me." He repeated very slowly, deep, and cold. He face was showing the most loath any human being could show for another. I couldn't repress the shiver I felt, but my resolve could not waver.

"Sasuke" I murmured softly. His stone face faltered for a second at the softness of my voice.

"I'm not here to fight you, to be a nuisance, or a hindrance to your life. I really honestly do care about you or else I would have been long gone before. I know you are hurting—

"How? How the hell do you know how I'm hurting! You don't even know what's like—

Frustrated at this point I lost my composure "I know what its like Sasuke! To lose someone who means the world to you. Someone who left a hole in you that can't be filled. Someone who you depended on like the air you breathe! I know Sasuke because I lost you! That day seven years ago I lost my best friend, the most important person in the world to me! I lost you and that is the biggest regret of my life! Every day I look at our picture and remember you, every day I think about you to the point of tears, every morning my heart clenches and aches thinking about you, where you are, if you're okay, what could have been! I know Sasuke!"

I was breathing so hard at that point I didn't even realize it. All I could do was look at him: the reason for my sorrow yet joy, the reason for my pain and love. His face was unreadable, but no longer threatening. His eyes had warmed from a black to a dark gray, and his face had lost some of its tension. I took this as a sign to go on.

"I realize the gravity of what happened and I know I can't ever ask you to forget it. It would be beyond stupid, foolish, and naïve. What happened is a part of all of us now whether we like it or not, have accepted it or not." I looked down at my thumbs, twiddling them. "Over the years we've both avoided each other especially in times of need out of spitefulness, anger, stubbornness, and fear. Sasuke, right now I just want to try to get your forgiveness. I know you rarely forgive, but please allow me to try."

I heard a dark chuckle and expecting a vindictive face, I was mortified to see a broken face upon a man I knew as so strong. It shattered my core into pieces as my heart broke seeing so much pain upon a face I so loved.

"What do you want from me Naruto? To absolve you? To say its okay, I forgive you and pretend we are the same people from ten years ago. Well fine Naruto, you're absolved! But I have no intentions of creating a farce of a relationship with you, especially when you decided years ago that I was no longer a priority in your life."

The only way then for Sasuke to understand my true feelings was to go back to how we did years ago. To look at him with everything I had, pouring my whole soul into my eyes and trying while looking into his midnight ones that I was not looking to free myself of a guilty conscience.

"Sasuke you probably don't believe me, but I wouldn't use you to satisfy my desire for my conscience. You are one of the few people I have loved in this world. Letting you go is like death itself. I learned that hard over these seven years, and I can tell you've felt the same about me too. You still wear that necklace of mine I gave you even after all these years. Please I'm begging you. Let me help start us anew. Create a new chapter in our lives; together. Not because I want to forget about what happened, but because I care so much about you that I can't let you go. If you refuse me today I'll come every day for the rest of your life and plea the same plea on ears that have long since gone death."

He stared at me, long, hard, and unyielding. He stared calculating my honesty, analyzing my intentions, and guessing if he could allow himself to be put as such a risk. I hoped the answer was in my favor.

He stood up, collected his bags and began to walk away.

It's over.

I failed.

Just about when I was about to feel waterworks—which would have been embarrassing in such a public place—I heard him say,

"Meet me at the park, between Asbury and Styer street, six p.m. If you're late one minute I will write-up a restraining order against you so you could never bug me again with your insufferable existence. So be punctual, I don't like to waste my time or energy."

…I couldn't help but smile to myself in anticipation of ahead our meeting ahead…

He's finally giving me a chance; this time I won't blow it.

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