Chapter 4. Connections.
You have a wound. Not one that is manifested physically but one that people can sense all the same.
No one knows what it's like to live with this thing inside you. No one can relate and so you are forced to indulge their questions and misunderstanding. To them your situation is equivalent to losing sight or hearing; a sense that is necessary to live but certainly something that once taken from you, you can learn to adapt without.
You don't tell them that they are wrong, this is different. This is like living without breath in your lungs; like having the capacity to breathe but not finding air surrounding you. The absence of the force within you is not a stagnant thing. It is a living hole that used to be full of life and now is an empty abscess. The Force is inextricably tied to all Jedi and without it, you are a husk.
You're not sure how anyone else has survived this separation. You certainly have no idea how you have survived. The idea of restoring what is lost is all that is driving you to complete this crazy quest to find the remaining Jedi Masters. They have to return the Force to you. They have to.
If history has proved anything, it's that they were wrong.
On Telos, Chodo Habat claims he can help "heal" you though he has never faced an "injury" like yours before. He explains that the Force is alive in the web of connections associated with life.
In healing a planet, it is a matter of connections. As plants feed animals, and animal populations thrive and grow, life connects and expands, the living web of the Force. I have walked in the growing restoration zones and felt the fullness of life, and perhaps that connection will help make you whole again.
His understanding of the Force is profoundly fresh to you. You now know that the life you've lived these past few years has been the direct opposite of what you've needed. Instead of forming connections you've shunned the world and its people. You've avoided life and therefore you've avoided the Force.
Suddenly this quest you're on seems to take on a different purpose. You're not just on this mission to restore your connection to the Force, you're on this mission to live; to fully experience the connections of life.
In the past few days, you've already come farther than you had in the past two years. You have two new companions and while they are completely opposite in personality, each one of them complements some part of who you are.
Each one of them is part of the Force.