--4 Months later--

I am currently sharing a room with some girl. I have completely forgotten her name. So i even care? No, I am in my own little world right now. It is 2 am on a Saturday i think. Anyways, i am sitting on the bed re-reading the postcards and letters that i have recieved from Jeff, Chris and ,one that i will NOT read, John. Each one from Chris said 'I'm Sorry, but you needed this.' it always started the same.

'Hopey,
I'm sorry, but you needed this. I know that by the time that you are clean for good you will look back on this and thank me.
Sweetie I love you and don't want anything bad to happen to you. Anyways I talked to your doctor and he said that once he thinks that you are clean and want relasp that you can come back on the road. Isn't that great? Well I miss you.
Chris.'

That is the first one that i got on the third day. Mostly all of them said the same thing. But like i said the one that i refuse to read or even open is from John. Why the hell should i read about him anyways. I don't fucking care about him. The one card that i was intrested in was the one that i had gotten today.

'How is my little Jericho today? You know honey that one of these days that i was going to come and surprise you. Well that just so happens to be on Monday. And i will not be coming empty handed. I have a present for you. I am pretty sure that this will solve all of your current problems. Well have fun with that room mate of yours and once you get back we will go out for your favotrite ice cream...Peanut butter and Strawberry with honey, whip cream and pecans. See you Monday sweetie.
Jeff'

Only two days until i get to see Jeff and i get a surprise. That always makes me smile.

--Monday--

"I AM GOING TO FUCKING KILL YOU!" I screamed. How dare Jeff bring him here?

"Scar, listen, he is the reason that you started using again and Chris, Matt and myself decided that if you talked to John then you will get better sooner."

"How about just the opposite. How do you know that i want just grab the nearest drug or pill and down it. And it would all be because of your stupidity by bringing the asshole here."

"Whatever Scarlet you are going to talk to him and sort this shit out."

"Like hell i am. I avoided his..." I got cut off by John speaking up.

"Scar, i know that all of this is my fault to start off with but you were the one that had the needle and the weed in your hands. So acutally this is all your damn fault. If you didn't want to be a prisoner within this hell hole then you should of done it right the first time. Don't you think?" John said getting anrgry. He pushed his chair back and shot up out of it and walked to the exit door.

"Fuck, don't listen to him. He's just pissed because you haven't written to him."

"Like i fucking care." I said doing the exact same thing that John had done moments ago but instead of going to the exit i went back to my room.

I am beyond pissed off. What fucking nerve does the almighty JOHN CENA have in telling me how to off myself. He is a total jackass and a jerk. Forget his damn self. As of right now i don't even want to see Jeff or hell i don't even want to see Chris.

I wondered the halls until i found myself outside of my doctors door. I knocked three times and waited. He opened the door with a smile on his face. I guess that he knew that i would showe up.

"Well Ms. Warren i can't say that i am suprised to see you. What brings you here?"

"I want to get the hell out of here for one." I replied sitting down on the chair that i have so rightfully declared as my own.

"And what pray tell is your other reason for being here?" Dr. Anderson asked.

"I'm avoiding the reason why I'm here."

"Ah, so John's here?"

"How did..." I trial off.

"Rachel says you sleep talk and that it most of what you say in your sleep."

"What do i say?" I asked getting more interested in the conversation as it passes.

"Well for one you say, and i quote, 'Why John, why would you choice her over me. Am i not good enough for you.' you see Scarlet you have been hurt inside and to help heel yourslef you have to talk to the problem face-to-face. So in order to get over the addiction that you have, you are going to have to talk to him."

"No i don't." I said looking down. I knew that i dreamed about John i just didn't know that i spoke it out loud.

"I'll call Amy to see if Jeff and John are still here." Dr. Anderson picked up the phone and a few minutes later he stood up. He put the phone back and walked around his desk. "You are going to go back down to the visiting area and talk to John."

"And why's that?" I asked getting defensive.

"If you don't talk to him now you are only going to be staying here longer and until you talk to him i will not release you from this facility."

"You have to make everything difficult don't you?"

"It's what i'm getting paid for."

I rolled my eyes before standing up. I walked out the door and slowly made my way back to the visiting area. I walked in the door and made my way over to where Jeff and John were.

"Might as well get this crap over with." I said slupping down in to the chair in front of John but beside Jeff.

"Come on be nice." Jeff said.

"Fine, I can't leave unless i talk to you anyways." I said staring at John.

"Listen, Scarlet, I know that what i did to you wasn't right. I do love you and i wish that i could go back and not be with Liz. I love you not her."

"Why did you do it?"

"I'm stupid that's why. In all honesty i have no clue why i did it." He answered shaking his head.

"Can you at least tell me when it started?"

"Let's see it started about two months before you found out. I went this club in Mississippi. I got drunk but what i didn't realize at the time was that Liz was in the same club. Somehow we ended up together." He stopped talking and looked down.

"That wasn't the only time was it?"

"No," He said lowly. "The second time was after i got back home with you. Two days after i got home, you went shopping, Liz came over and we left for her house. That was the night that i told you i was with Dan and i wasn't."

"Any other times?" This was getting harder as time went on. I guess it's a good thing that Jeff is sitting here holding my hand. I honestly don't know what i would do with out him or Chris.

"Two weeks after that time..." i cut him off.

"Can you spare my the details and just give me the basic information."

"Alright, Two weeks after that, her house. Then again at a house show in New York."

"Is that why you didn't want me to come on the road with you?"

"No, I didn't want you to come on the road with me becuase it isn't safe."

"Oh really?" I was getting slightly pissed now. "After the time that i was on the road with Chris, i was safe. Sure i scored some weed and what not but other than that i was safe."

"Did you know that she was a drug user before, John?" Jeff asked for the first time since i came back.

"No, i didn't even know that she knew any of the other guys."

"I'm sitting right here."

"Fine, then tell me, how many of the other guys have you screwed?"

"So out of line." Jeff said.

"To be honest, one, but you already knew that Super Cena."

"To hell i do. Hell, for all i know while you were on the road with Chris you could have been with; Jeff, Matt, Phil, Chris, Randy..." I cut him off right there.

"I'm not the one that cheats John. I'll leave that to you." I said standing up. "And for all of those that you have named well let's just say that you want have to worry about guessing as to who i'm in bed with." I turned on my heels and walked straight to the door. "I'll see you later Jeff."

"Sure." i heard him grumble.

I walked straight to my room and laid on my bed.

"Fuck!"

"I told you not to piss her off."

"Yeah, i know but some how i can't keep my damn mouth shut."

"You know that i'm going to have go call Chris now."

"Shit, I'm totally dead."

"You think, you pissed off a mentally unstable girl who's in rehab. John it isn't hard to get drugs in rehab."

With that i walked away from John and outside to call Chris. He wouldn't like this one bit. He went along with me bringing Cena here but he told me that i would have to clear the air later. Why don't i ever listen to him?

"Hey, Let me guess, the doctor forced her to talk to Cena and she blew up at him?" Well that's easy.

"Yeah,"

"Well go clean it up. I'm not there so you are going to have to. If one hair is out of place when i get down there in two days i'm coming after You, Not Cena."

"You have made that perfectly clear Chris."

"Good, and tell Hope that i love her."

"Will do." i said hanging up the phone.

"So you need to see Scarlet?" Dr. Anderson asked me.

"You know me Doc." I repiled with a smirk.

"Well follow me. Even though visitors are suppose to stay in the visiting area you know this place like the back of your hand."

"Sad but true." I nodded as i followed him down the hallway.

"Here you are. Don't do anything out of the ordinary Jeffery."

"Promise."

I walked into Scar's room to find her face down on the bed. I knocked on the door and heard her let out a groan. I smiled as i made my way over to her bed and sat down near her feet.

"I love you." I said out loud, making her jump off the bed and stare at me.

"What?"

"That's what Chris wanted me to tell you, I love you. I think he meant for me to tell you that he loved you."

"Dork."

"Got it."

"Got What?"

"Got you to smile."

"Weirdo."

"Addict,"

"You to."

"Jericho Jr."

"Skittle Rat."

"Sting ray."

"Rainbow."

"Ring Rat."

"Freak."

"Alright, i think this little love fest is over." Dr. Anderson said from the door.

"But i was winning." Scarlet whined.

"Keep telling yourself that." I said kissing her on the forehead. "Chris will be here in two days."

"Thanks." she smiled at me as i walked out the door.

Until next time.

I am sorry that i haven't updated any of my stories. I have been busy with school work and that is getting a little hard to handle. You know, paper here, test there. Study every night, i am trying to update my stories. So stick with me.

Mandy