Beep, beep, beep, beep.
Damn alarm clock. I didn't even set it last night. I put my hands to y eyes and rub away the crud. I have woken up with such a weird feeling, the inside of my legs are tingling and the pit of my stomach is doing something odd. It actually feels like arousal…but why? Then I remember my dream…"damn it Bella!" I can't help but think about it though.
It was Edward and myself, but it didn't start out as Edward, no! It was my Jake and I. We were back in my room in Forks, with the crocking chair in the corner of the room, the lace curtains, the light blue walls. I didn't have a top on and Jake was looking at me with lust filled eyes. He walked over to me and started to play with my hair, running it through his fingers over and over, smelling it. He leaned in, kissing my head, then my neck, and then my breasts. Gliding his hand down my body to my clitoris, smiling at the fact of how wet I truly was. Looking down I could see his erect penis though his jeans, licking his lips he pulled off what was left of my cloths, spread my legs and went down on me. I was breathing so heavily from pleasure. This is why I am mad at myself this morning, I moaned out Edward's name in the heat of the moment. When the head emerged from my legs it was no longer Jake but Edward and he had that oh so famous smirk on his face, kissing me and then whispering in my ear,
"I'm glad you liked it."
Why Bella? Why do you torture yourself?
Then I hear something come from the kitchen to wake me out of my… Edward filled type dreams. I walk into kitchen to see Edward sitting on a stool and Alice cooking. Why does he always have to be here when I think of him sexually?
"Did you have a good sleep?"
Who said that?
"Huh? What?"
Alice laughs.
"Not a morning person? I asked did you have a good sleep?"
I can't stop looking at Edward, did he look better then he did yesterday? I could tell you, my dream did him no justice. A good nights sleep is an understatement.
"Uh, yeah you could say that."
Edward notices I'm looking at him. He stares back at me for a minute and then smiles a oh so perfect crooked smile then with his velvet voice he says to me,
"Why don't you come and sit beside me." Tapping the stool next to him.
I am so dazed and really confused by his gesture, but who would pass up sitting next to that? I know I wouldn't. I walk forward, making sure I don't fall along the way and sit down next to him smiling. His hand grazes the inside of my leg. I look at him and he winks back at me. Change in mood? Morning person? Schizophrenic? What is up with this sex god?
"You know Bella as much as I love hearing you talk dirty on my video camera, hey maybe I could even sell it as PG porn. Please don't do it, I mean phone sex is so lame."
I can't even believe he is bringing this up!
"Well you know, Edward, if you didn't keep your camera on, you would have never known."
Edward laughs at my remark and replies,
"But what would be the fun in that…?"
I just need to ignore him; I cannot give him what he wants. I know it's a fight of some sort. Then I hear him say,
"What are you thinking? Usually I know what people are thinking, but you, I really have no clue."
How can anyone know what anyone is thinking? Its not like he is some super human.
"Nothing, and no one can really know what someone is thinking, that's impossible."
He laughs and says,
"You know nothing."
Did he just say what I think he said? Excuse you?
"For your information Edward Cullen, I know a lot more then you do, I'm female."
Edward looks at me like I'm crazy, and Alice laughs.
"You're gender has nothing to do with how much information you can with hold in your brain. Who ever told you that probably can't hold much information themselves."
Does Edward like fighting with me?
"Do you like fighting with me or something?"
Edward laughs,
"Actually yes I do, the fighting makes you flustered and then you blush constantly and then you say things that you don't really mean just to win even though they do you no good. I find it cute when your brain and mouth are not connected."
Here comes the blushing, now I have to ask.
"So you think I'm cute?"
He laughs, how I love that laugh it makes a girl feel so warm inside. He looks at me smiling, and replies,
"I never said that."
He is so frustrating! Why do I want him so badly? Not like he is anything special. Plus I have a great boy…friend, damnit!
"Ahh! I hate you Edward Cullen! Why do you have to be so – Ahh!"
Edward looks at Alice and she shrugs her shoulders. He looks back at me and laughs,
"I'm sorry I'm so…Ahh? Can you please enlighten me and tell me what Ahh means?"
I can't do this I need to go back to my room, he can never know! I stand up and walk back to bed, I hear Alice say to Edward,
"I could tell you what Ahh means to me and its not flattering"
About ten minutes later, being in my room alone thinking of Edward and Jacob I get a knock at my door.
"Come in"
"Hey"
I really shouldn't have said that,
"What do you want Edward?"
He lifts his hands up above his amazing head of hair and says,
"I just came to talk, no fighting I swear"
I moan. "Fine, come"
He comes and sits on the end of my bed with me and lies down looking at me,
"You know Bella, since we are going to see each other a lot, you know since you do live with my sister. I am sorry I acted like a jerk; you just…surprised me, which is all. I really did not mean to, like my sister Alice said to you before; I get grumpy when I'm hungry. Forgive me?"
He wants me to forgive him after everything that he has said to me? He has to be kidding himself if he thinks that I will. I look into his eyes, oh no big mistake. I really can't help but melt when I look into those eyes…
"I guess I can forgive you." What the hell! I just said I wouldn't! Why did I say that? He smiles a wide grin at me and says,
"Good! But I must warn you, it's in your best interest if we are not friends, doesn't mean we can't be I'm just warning you in advance."
I look at him confused, what the hell is he talking about? He is so confusing sometimes!
"What?"
He touches my hair and smiles that sweet smile then says,
"Nothing, you're classes are going to start soon, I wouldn't want to be late if I were you."
I want him to touch me again, he is watching me, and he smiles. Brushes his finger to my cheek. A shock runs thought me, like electricity. His finger is so cold but I can't help but want to feel it again. I can feel that one touch makes me wetter then I already am from my dream. Edward is turning me into a hormonal thirteen-year-old girl!
"I hate not knowing what your thinking."
Hello sexy god you are interrupting my thought possess!
He notices I'm looking at him funny and he laughs and says,
"Oh the silent thing, I get it."
Edward gives me a smile and walks out my door. I look at the clock, 11:32am, and shit! I am going to be late! I hate how he is always right!