A Look in the Mirror

A/N Yay, a longer one! I didn't have a snow day today :( , so it might take a little more time to update chapters. Please remember to review!!!!! Thanks to those who did! Enjoy!

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Chapter 4: Realization

I stood in front of the mirror, waiting to see something- anything other than just my plain reflection. I wondered what my "greatest desire" would be. There wasn't anything that I really wanted. I mean, I was just so happy with my life now, except for the whole Ron thing and the fact that I was always being chased by reporters and photographers, longing for an interview with "one of the golden trio!". It was quite annoying, actually. And yet, there were so many things that I wanted. I wanted to graduate Hogwarts with good grades, to get a successful job (maybe at the ministry), and to get married to my true love and to have lots and lots of kids. I wanted all of those things for my future, but what did I want the most? A few seconds had passed while I had been thinking, when suddenly the reflection started to change.

There I was again, but now I was seated in the Gryffindor common room reading a book. That was my greatest desire? I didn't think so. I knew that I liked books and all, but come on! That's not what I want the most! I was getting a little annoyed. Was the mirror broken or something? But then something happened.

I saw glimpse of someone coming into view. And then, there he was. Ronald Weasley, with his bright red hair, crooked smile, freckles and everything!

"Hermione! What are you seeing?!" someone called from behind me, but I ignored them.

Oh dear god. If this is going to be what I think it is, then...

But that thought trailed off, as I saw myself get up and walk over to Ron. My heart stopped. My breath caught in my throat.

"Hermione? Are you OK?"Ginny asked.

My lips parted but I didn't say anything. I could feel my face growing warm, out of embarrassment or shock, I didn't know. I didn't care. I could stare at all day, all night.

In about five seconds, my life had changed. I knew what I wanted most in the whole world as I saw Ron wrap his arms around me and kiss me in a gentle, tender, romantic kind of way. It was at that moment that I knew. I wanted Ron. I needed Ron. I...I......

"Hermione! Whats with you?"Harry's voice bringing me out of my reverie. I tried to speak, but I couldn't. I glanced desperately at Ginny, who, after a few seconds, nodded her head in understanding. I looked back at the mirror, not willing to take my eyes off it for more than three seconds or so. I could feel the pull of tears forming in my eyes when Ginny gently grasped my shoulder and pulled me away, trying to get me to look away from the mirror and to leave.

"Um, guys? I think we need to go now," she said her arm still wrapped around my shoulder in a comforting way. She really was the best friend you could have. Especially at a time like this.

"Why?" Ron asked her. He then turned to me, placing a hand on my shoulder."What did you see? Are you OK?"

In response to his question, I burst into tears. How could I be OK? I wanted something desperately that I knew could never come true. I had convinced myself many months ago that Ron could never like me, and that he never would. Why would he anyways? I thought to myself. I'm at all pretty, I'm bossy, I'm too smart, I'm not funny..... I couldn't get a guy like him in a million years!

Everything was a blur. I heard voices around me, my name being said repeatedly, but not towards me. They were talking about me. I could feel myself starting to move, and many hands patting my back and on my arms to guide me back to the common room. I didn't pay any of it any mind. The million depressing thoughts that were running through my head were all based on one thing. He doesn't care about me. My life is worthless.

Suddenly, the ground stopped moving beneath me, and someone said the password to the fat lady. I began to move again, only to stop after a few seconds. I was still sobbing hysterically, and was pulled into a tight hug. Harry I thought as I breathed in the familiar smell of my best friend. I wrapped my arms around him and cried even harder, burying my face in his chest. I could hear people whispering about me, wondering what was wrong, but I didn't care. I was already too upset to be embarrassed.

After about ten minutes or so, I finally started to calm down. I had stopped sobbing, and a few silent tears were slowing making there way down my face. I looked up, and realized that I had been moved to the sofa, my hands still wrapped around Harry. I slowly removed them, letting out a deep breath.

"Are you going to be OK now?"he asked. He obviously knew what was wrong. I nodded, but I could feel new tears brimming over. I wiped them away quickly. Ginny came over and gave me a hug, resting her chin on the top of my head.

"It'll be OK," she whispered, letting me go.

I stood up and yawned. I was tired, and ready to go to bed. All of that crying really took it out of me. Ginny pulled me aside to the group of seventh year girls that were waiting to hear the story.

"Are you going to tell us what happened?"Ginny whispered to me. I glanced up at Ron who looked up from his conversation with Harry. He slowly started to make his way over to the group of whispering girls.

"Upstairs," I whispered back to her. She nodded, and started to walk to the stairs that lead to the girls dormitory, but I grabbed her elbow to keep her back. I wanted her downstairs while i talked to Ron, in case anything happened and I needed to be escorted to bed.

"Hey, can we talk?" Ron said as he finally stopped in front of me.

I glanced quickly at Ginny, who nodded. "Yeah, OK,"I said, somewhat hesitantly, following him away from the crowd of people to the group of armchairs by the fire. I saw Ginny and a couple of the other girls inch a little closer to the two of us. I was glad that she was in earshot. That way, I wouldn't have to explain everything later, and she would know when to cut in if she had to.

"What happened out there?"Ron asked me. I shrugged. I didn't want to start crying again, so I was going to try to use as little words as possible.

"Hermione, what did you see that made you so upset?"

"I don't really want to talk about it."

"Why did you start crying, anyways?"

"Because," I choked out, my voice cracking. "I knew that it couldn't come true."

"Hermione, tell me what you saw," he said, placing his hand on my arm. I looked into his eyes, which were full of worry. "Maybe I could help make it happen."

"Oh, my god," I whispered, staring up at him in astonishment. It was like he knew what I had seen in the mirror. Obviously he didn't know, but still. He had just made things a lot worse.

"Oh my god!"I said a little louder, turning to face Ginny and the others. You could hear the disbelief in my voice. Ginny was shaking her head in amazement.

I could feel the wetness on my cheeks as I rushed up the stairs to the dormitory.

"What did I say?"I heard Ron ask as I reached the top of the stairs and slammed the door shut.

A/N Yay!!!!That was, like, the most important chapter!! It wasn't as long as i thought, but it's still longer. OK, the next chapter wont be as exciting, and probably not as long, just to warn you. I hope you liked it! REVIEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!