Chapter 4: The night that could have been

Last night all seemed so unreal. Had I had a fight with Jacob, hadn't I had a fight with Jake? All I knew was that I wanted to make things better between us because I love him and I only want to be happy with him.

So I picked up the phone and dialed those same numbers I dial everyday.

"Jake, hey it's me."

"Oh hey…"

"Look I'm sorry about last night; I didn't know it would cause an argument between us."

"No you don't need to apologize, I was a stupid jealous freak and I am so sorry Bells please forgive me?"

"Of course I forgive you, let's not ever argue again, I hated it."

"Me too, I love you Bella and that will never change, why don't you come over later, I have something special planned?"

"Sounds lovely, I'll see you this evening, about sixish."

"Can't wait." His voice sounded so soft yet thrilled.

"I love you Jake."

Something special planned? I was so happy I had made up with Jake, I was going to get myself looking so nice, and he will wish we never had a fight. I was so excited about something which I had no idea about what it was.

I had bought a new dress yesterday, just because Charlie had treated me but I had no where to wear it to. Now I have a reason to. Jake is going to love it when he sees it. It is the perfect dress, it is a blue halter neck, with sequins down one side and I have a gorgeous pair of black sparkly pumps to match. I have never looked this nice before, but I want to make an effort, seeing as Jake has something special planned. Maybe he has a present for me, maybe he wants to tell me something, maybe… no that's silly, it couldn't be. I know it's a stupid thought, but maybe he wants tonight to be the night, I mean we have been together for a while now, and I know he is definitely the one for me, but… I don't know.

There I was standing on his doorstep, anxiously reaching for the doorbell and then suddenly the door swings open and I see Jake standing there.

"Bella, wow, you look wow!"

"Thanks, you don't look to bad yourself." Jake looks quite smart actually. He is wearing a lovely blue shirt with white pin stripes down it. It is tucked into some sleek black trousers and to top it off he is wearing some smart black leather shoes. I have never seen him looking so dressed up. I must say though he does look very sexy.

"Well I tried", a smirk grew upon his face. "Come in, make yourself comfortable."

"Thanks, so what's this special surprise you have planned for me then?" My heart was thumping, but I was so excited at the same time.

Jake placed himself next to me on the couch, and took both my hands and started speaking

"Look Bella, we have been together for a long time now, you know I love you so so much, and I have never felt this way about any girl before, and I think, I hope you feel the same way about me. I have never really, you know…" It seemed hard for him to get his words out. "been with a girl before, I mean I've always been waiting for the right person, and well, I think you know what I'm trying to say."

"Jake, I love you so so much, and I think I'm ready, you know I have always been waiting for the right person, and I think I have found him." Still holding hands, we both leaned in for a tender romantic kiss, and it just felt so right. I was certain he was the one.

"So we're really going to do this?"

He answered nervously, but happily "If you want to."

"I wouldn't have it any other way."

As we leaned in for another kiss, we suddenly heard a car door slam.

"Oh crap." I heard Jake mumble. "Perfect, he always ruins everything, I thought he was going to be out all night."

"Who, Billy?"

"Yeah, see he told me not to see you tonight, because I'm sort of grounded, and he told me not to see anyone for a week."

"Oh."

"Look, your going to have to get out of here, and I'll call you when the coast is clear, go out the back that way you won't be seen, then I'll give you a ring when it's safe to come back."

"Ok."

"Oh Bella, when you come back, we will have the best night of our lives."

"Can't wait."

"I love you."

"I love you too," we gave each other a kiss on the lips just before I legged it out the back door back home. When I was home I waited by the phone, waiting for it to ring.

Ring, ring, Ring ring.

"I'm on my way Jake." I quickly went out the front door, stepping careful to avoid Charlie hearing my footsteps.

"Bella." I suddenly heard a voice call and it definatly wasn't Jakes voice. I looked all around and nothing, until I suddenly saw this boy, sitting in his car, with the window down giving me the most gorgeous smile I have ever seen.

"Edward?" what is he doing here.

"Hey, I was just passing by and thought I would come and see you." He got out of his car and walked over to see me.

"Look I wish I could talk but I really have some where I have to be."

"Boyfriend?" he spoke in the most sarcastic tone.

"Oi, nosey," and I gave him a light little punch on the arm.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, so you can't even spare me five minutes."

"Well… I wish I could, sorry."

"Oh know, don't worry about it, maybe another time", he slowly started walking off. I suppose this was his way of making me feel guilty.

"Well, I suppose five minutes couldn't hurt."

He gave me a cheeky grin as we walked into my house. It was ok as Charlie had already gone to sleep, and he was a heavy sleeper so there was know waking him, once Charlie is asleep he is asleep.

"Here have a seat, can I get you something to drink?"

"Oh know I'm ok thank you, I just wanted to chat really, get to know you better."

He was gesturing to the spare seat on the sofa next to him.

"So what do you want to talk about then?"

"Oh well, why don't you start, how's life really, what are the plans with your boyfriends tonight that I am interrupting?"

"Oh don't be silly you're not interrupting, it won't hurt if I am a little late. But basically, tonight was… wait why am I tell-" I was cut off in the middle of a sentence as I was suddenly talking into Edwards mouth as I felt his lips touch mine. I quickly backed away.

"What the hell do you think you're doing, is this why you came to see me, to seduce me?"

"No, look I'm sorry I didn't mean any harm by it, I just think you're gorgeous."

"Well… I have a boyfriend."

"Yeah, I'm sorry, God how embarrassing, maybe I should just go." He started rising off his seat but my reflex pushed him back down.

"No look you don't need to do that, I'm probably just over reacting, I'm sure you didn't mean anything by it."

"Right, sure, so I can stay?"

"Yeah, of course you can, lets just talk ok?"

"Ok."

I learnt so much about him, his family, his life, and before I knew ages had pasted, I had been talking to him for almost an hour. He was lovely and sweet.

"Wow, you have been here for almost 2 hours now, maybe you should leave, it's getting late and I'm tired."

"Yeah maybe you're right, but we should do this again it was nice, I think your really cool Bella."

"Yeah, thanks." We both walked to door together, and as I was slowly opening the door, he leaned in again, but this time I didn't back away, his lips were so soft and tender. He was the perfect guy. As we were both backing away from the kiss, I was slowly opening the door, and on the other side of that door, stood Jacob, about to ring the door bell. He looked hurt and upset.

"Bella", he said looking upset and confused,

"Jake," and I quickly pulled away. Oh crap I had totally forgotten about our plans.

"I have been waiting for you, but I see you were occupied with someone else."

"No Jake it's not what it looks like," I ran after him as he marched across the street.

"We had plans Bella, tonight was going to be the best night of our lives, and you ruined it."

"Look Jake, I'm sorry I didn't do it on purpose, it was a mistake, he came over and we just got to talking and I got distracted."

"Yeah well I can see that alright, Bella you are the one, were the one."

"No please Jake, I still am the one, I love you, please don't do this."

"Well you should have thought of that before you started kissing him." His head turned to Edward and he gave him a furious and livid look.

"Look Jake please he means nothing to me, it's you I love, not him. It was a mistake it just happened please, don't break up with me. I need you, I care about you. I love you." The suddenly I fell to my knees as I knew there was no point trying to catch up with him because I knew he would not listen.

"Bella, tell it to someone who cares."

There I was, on my knees on the road as I saw the love of my life walk away from me. What had I done? I had ruined everything. Tonight was supposed to be the night and then I just go and ruin it by kissing Edward.

I suddenly felt Edwards hand trying to help me up.

"Here Bella, let me help you."

"No, just leave me alone."

"Look, I'm sorry how things turned out with you and your boyfriend."

"Edward just go. GO!! Leave me alone. I need some time by myself. So would you just go." My heart felt like it had been cut in half. I had lost the love of my life all because of one stupid kiss. All I knew was that tonight was going to be an amazing night and I threw it all away. I just want to find a way to get Jacob back. Apologize or something. I just need him in life. Life isn't worth living with out him.

I stormed in the door to my house, ran up the stares to my room and I just lay on my bed thinking about the night that could have been and then realizing the night that was reality.