A/N: Okay, the last chapter kinda sucked in my opinion, so I'll try to make it up in this chapter. And, unfortunately, Kukaku couldn't be here, thanks to GANJU! You idiot… So…I need a new co-host…I didn't think this through…Kukaku called out so suddenly…Nel, can you fill in until I can find someone?

Nel: Of course Nel can fill in! Nel would love to!

Alright, then. Would you please do the disclaimer?

Nel: Okay! The authoress owns nothing in this fanfic except for her OC and the plot. Any other OCs that come in probably belong to Demonyokokuramafan. This fic is rated T for mild coarse language and teen situations. Nel says no flames, because everyone gets enough of them from Head Captain.

AWWWW! SHE'S SO CUTE! …Oh…right. Well, thank you, Nel-chan! Let's go on to the chapter!

Masochistic- Chapter 4: Yamada Hanataro

Ame Kuchiki's POV

I opened my eyes, blinking once or twice. I gasped and sat u[, looking left and right.

I soon recognized the all-too-familiar Squad Four Barracks. I often ended up here because I'm such a klutz when I'm fighting. Again, I'm unsure how I became a Shinigami, and a Third Seat, too…

I gripped the blanket, tears rolling down my cheeks. I was so stupid! I don't deserve my rank, much less the title of Shinigami. The only thing I was good at was Kido…and getting in the way…

The door opened and my lieutenant walked in. 'L-Lieutenant Abarai." I said.

"So, you're awake." He stated.

"How did I get here, sir?" I really didn't know at all. All I remembered was losing…again…

"I was on my way to check on you like Captain Kuchiki asked me to, and I found you unconscious on the street in Karakura Town. What the hell did you get into?"

I looked down and gripped the blanket harder. "…I…fought one of the Espada, sir…"

His breathing stopped, and when it started back up, he came over and hit me in my head. "What are you, some kind of idiot? You could've been killed, considering how klutzy you are! You still have trouble with regular hollows, and you decide to go up against one of the most powerful arrancars there is! Do you realize how much danger you were in? I'm surprised you're not dead!" "Alright, Renji, that's enough!" A female voice yelled from the door. We both looked to see my best and only friends in the Soul Society - The Shiba sisters, Ruka and Riva.

Ruka looked almost exactly like Lieutenant Hinamori, save for the fact that her bun didn't have the white cover, and Ruka wore a skirt instead of the standard Shinigami pants.

Her sister was a bit different from her Shiba kin. While all the other Shibas had either black or brown hair, Riva was blonde. I respected Riva for her outfit - because she wore a captain's Haori. Captain Shiba replaced the late Squad Five Captain - Aizen Sousuke, while her sister replaced the late lieutenant of Squad Thirteen - who was also their father - Shiba Kaien. I was always careful not to mention their father around them, as I hate to see them upset.

"I'm just-"

Ruka gasped, cutting my lieutenant off. "Ame, are you crying?"

"-being ignored…" The Shiba ran past Renji and stopped as close to my hospital bed as possible.

"Ame, are you alright?"

I wiped the tears from my face and looked in the opposite direction of Ruka. "I'm fine…"

"You're lying."

"Am not."

"Come on, Ame! You never tell me anything!"

"Please, Ruka, just drop it."

"Ruka, she doesn't wanna talk about it right now. Maybe if you ask later, she'll be more willing." Riva suggested. She was wrong, but at least she was able to reel in her almost-as-stubborn-as-me sister.

"Alright…" Ruka grumbled reluctantly. "But I'll be back, Ame!" And with that, the Shibas left the room, dragging Lieutenant Abarai with them.

I looked at the clock which read 5 P.M.

It's dinnertime. Which member of Squad Four is it this time, I wonder..?

Hanataro Yamada's POV

Oh no…Room 27...I heard someone really harsh and cold is in there…

My hands shook as I picked up the food for that room. Then I felt a hand touch my shoulder and a voice laugh. "Room 27, huh? You're in trouble! Ame Kuchiki's in there!"

He walked off, and I found my entire body shaking now, sweat running down my face, and my heart pounding as I went on my way to Room 27. T-Third…Seat…Kuchiki..? I remember her well… It's hard to forget a face like hers…so beautiful, even if her eyes were always so sad.

I would never admit it because I knew Captain Kuchiki would have my head, but…I…I have a crush on Third Seat Kuchiki…

My face got warm as I looked down while I walked. I just hoped no one saw it, then everyone would know.

I arrived at the room and knocked on the door. "It's alright, come in." She said in her gentle fearful-sounding voice. I always wondered why she always felt so sad and afraid.

I walked in the room, put her dinner on her bedside table, and bowed. "Third Seat Lady Kuchiki." I stated. I straightened up, still looking down with my eyes and blushing a little.

"Seventh Seat Yamada, please don't call me Lady Kuchiki. I don't deserve it. Please just cal me Ame or Third Seat Kuchiki."

I looked up at her. "You want me to address you by your first name?"

"Yes, please. May I call you by yours?"

I nodded. "Of course. Hanataro. But I'm sure you already knew my name…"

She laughed lightly. "I did, but it's alright. You can never be too careful. I wasn't careful enough and look where I ended up. Of course, I'm an enormous klutz, and I can be such a ditz sometimes. No one seems to understand my point of view on things, and I'm a laughing stock among the Third Seats. None of them like me, especially Third Seat Madarame. And now I'm rambling…"

I shook my head and sat down in one of the chairs. "It's alright. I'm interested."

She looked at me with a shocked expression on her face. "You…are?"

"Yes, I am. Please continue, Ame."

She smiled, which told me she preferred her first name instead of titles. "Well…I usually don't get along with those of a lower rank than me, either, save for you, but somehow lieutenants seem rather fond of me. But I…" Her eyes welled up, and I went over to her, hesitating to touch her arm and finally deciding not to.

"Ame? What's wrong?" I looked down at her hands, and her nails were dug so far into her palms, her hands were bleeding. Immediately, I got to work on them, using what I had with me.

"Hanataro, don't." I was already done, but yet she still told me to stop. "Let the useless bleed. I don't deserve to be called a Shinigami…"

I stood up and looked straight at her. "You're not useless, Ame! You have great intellect and you're powerful as well! You just need to watch yourself a little better. You're a great warrior because you learn from your mistakes. You don't have to win every fight, you just have to keep trying and do your best to get even better."

She looked up at me, most likely shocked due to how much sense I was making.

"You're a good person with a good heart, and that's what makes you strong.

Ame smiled at me. "Thank you, Hanataro."

I sat down on the foot of the bed, and she continued to tell me more about herself. I learned so much more than what anyone could've told me. She was a free spirit in a cage in the Soul Society. She was miserable. But she's a sweet, beautiful girl. This day only made me love her even more.

A/N: Awwwwww! That was so cute!

Nel: Nel thinks so too!

I'm glad.

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