XX- Hey everybody. I would've had this chapter up sooner but I woke up in the morn and mi parents dragged me to Manhattan and I threw on all this Avenged Sevenfold stuff and went everywhere with my bro y'kno O_o. Then my ma said we were going on a ferry and I thought a ferry was a BUS. And when I saw it was a boat I freaked out cuz well… I'm afraid of the water…. The when I got home my computer became retarded!But hey, whatever, everything turned out alright. AND I DO NOT OWN DEATH NOTE even though it's an awesome anime. ANY WAYS! Here's chapter 4, enjoy :3-XX
DARKNESS IS NOTHING WITHOUT LIGHT- Chapter 4/ Forlorn
The next day, L was more quiet and motionless than usual. Even his mind was blank; he didn't know what to think of anymore. Many emotions were fluttering in the detective's chest; anger, sadness, hatred, regret. L squinted and stared at the floor. He didn't know what to do about Light. He could only hope that Light's amnesia remained longer and that his previous memories would never return. L then shook his head, how could he be so sad about something that seemed so wrong? Light was a killer, not a lover. He'd rather see people suffering than rejoicing. L sighed and thought to himself, 'Would it really be alright if Light gained his memory after all?' L bit down on his thumb as he focused but startled when Light entered the living room where L had been sitting.
"Good morning Ryuzaki," Light greeted, walking over to L and giving him a big hug.
"Morning," L simply said, then looked off into the distance without another word. Light sighed and stared into L's eyes. He knew that he was still upset about what happened the night before.
"Let it go, L," Light whined as he watched L rise from his seat.
"I can't seem to let it go," the man said, walking to the kitchen. "Would you like anything to eat, Light?"
"No," the brunette flatly said. L looked at him and said, "But you need to eat something in order to get through the day." Light simply shook his head.
"I can go days without eating, Ryuzaki. I don't feel like eating now. For some reason, my appetite is all gone." Light looked down to the side as he said this.
"Positive?" L asked making sure. Light nodded and walked up the stairs.
Matt and Mello aimlessly wandered around a deserted area as they spoke almost inaudibly to each other.
"So do you think L likes Light now?" Matt asked Mello.
"Hell I don't know. But by how he was reacting I guess he does," Mello retorted, biting into a Hershey bar.
"Hm," Matt breathed out, clicking away at a Game boy Advance.
"That game system is ancient," Mello bitterly said. "Play your DSi or PSP."
"Those systems don't have a GBA slot, and if they don't have them, then I can't be able to play Yoshi's Island." Matt blew out a puff of smoke and stepped on his cigarette after throwing it onto the floor afterwards. Mello rolled his eyes and looked to the side.
"Well if Light goes insane and Kira resurfaces, I'm not going to think twice about shooting him dead. He tried to get his dad to kill me, like What the Fuck, now my face is all scarred. He's lucky he looks all innocent 'cuz I'll even strangle him for a chocolate bar." Mello threw the empty wrapper into a trash can.
"I'm surprised you care about the environment," Matt mumbled. Mello sneered.
"I only threw it in there because I wanted to see if I'd make it in."
"Mmm," Matt halfheartedly murmured as he passed the goal. Then, he smiled and looked over at Matt. "I got 100 on this level."
"Congrats," Mello said sarcastically. "So like I was saying, I couldn't help but notice how sad L looked last night, like he was afraid of something. Maybe he's afraid of losing the good Light."
"Maybe he is," Matt said, actually turning off the Game boy and tucking it away in his jacket. Mello eyed him suspiciously.
"When was the last time you put your game away like that?" the blonde asked.
"Well, whenever I sleep, I turn it off." Matt shrugged.
"No you don't. You play until 6 in the morning, then sleep, but forget to turn off the game. So practically you have a system in your hands the entire time.
"Nah, I don't play when I shower."
"Yes you do. You sit your naked ass in the tub and play while hot water runs all over you." Mello said, then watched Matt laugh.
"I DO do that, don't I?" he chuckled. Then he swung his head, causing his red hair to fall to the side, revealing his yellow goggles. He stared at Mello with lustful eyes. "I put my game away because we're alone. We barely have time alone, Mello."
"Yes we do, at home a lot," Mello oddly said.
"Not really. And we don't even do much together, so now is the right time for us to be together." And before Mello could say anything, Matt pushed him against the brick wall. Their faces were so close that their breaths were hitting each other. Mello frowned and tried to push Matt off saying, "Since when were you the tougher one?"
"Since now, ya' dumb fuck," Matt breathed, forcefully pressing his lips to Mello's. The aggressive blonde pulled away and glared at his friend.
"I'm going to kill your game addicted ass," Mello growled.
"I'd like to see you try." Matt was provoking him. Mello took this as a challenge and kissed Matt this time, turning him over until he was the one against the wall.
"I'm the man in this relationship," Mello hissed, biting Matt's lower lip.
"Don't have a problem with that." Matt shrugged and closed his eyes as he felt Mello's lips close around his lower lip. The blonde sucked on the plump lip and wrapped his arms around Matt's head, preventing him from escaping his grasp. The side of Matt's lips tugged upwards, forming his mouth into a wicked smirk.
L paced the floor of his room as he thought about the past. About the times he and Light had together when they were handcuffed, when they fought, when Misa stepped into the cake *heh* and tons more. As much fun as it was to be with Light that way, he always had a hint of doubt about him. After all, Kira tried to kill him. L was harp with the Light he had. Slowly, he exited his room and walked out into the hallway. He spotted Light just down the hall, wandering around and thinking of what to do with the remainder of the day. Then he noticed L.
"Oh, hi Ryuzaki. How are you?" Light asked in an innocent voice. L smiled and shrugged.
"I'm fine, now," L tilted his head to the side. "Thank you for asking. So Light, where do you want to go today?" Light's face lit up as he smiled widely. He was so happy to hear that L wanted to go out.
"I want to go a lot of places, Ryuzaki. Can you take me to those places?" Light looked at Ryuzaki with hope in his eyes. L sighed and said, "Of course I will take you to your destinations, Light."
Light hugged L around the neck tightly and jumped up. "Thank you!" he cried.
"You're welcome," L replied, respectfully pulling Light off of him. L walked downstairs and disappeared into the kitchen. As Light speed walked to his room, he realized that L's room door was open. This made Light's eyes widen in surprise. L always closed this door… Slowly he entered the dimly lit room and scanned the area. The only time he was allowed in the room is when he slept with L at night (because of his fear of the dark). Light was cautious about everything, and there wasn't anything really in the room of Light's interest, until he laid his eyes on a black, leather covered book.
The curious male approached the book and hesitantly held his hand over it. He was afraid to touch it for some reason, but an unknown force was bringing his hand closer. His index finger touched the book. "Ah…!" Light cried, but not loud enough for L to hear. His head was wracked with pain as he held it, but his hand still continued to lower itself on the book. His middle finger touched the book, then the ring finger, then the pinky. Lastly, he put his thumb under the book and picked it up in his hand. Light's head blacked out and his knees gave way under him. Light hit the floor, and in an instant, he regained consciousness. He clutched the black book in his hand and huffed out while something began tugging at the corner of his lips. A smile. The sinister smile crept up his face as he began to tremble; he wore the same smile he had when he regained his memory in the helicopter while people were chasing Higuchi (Just as planned, remember?).
Kira searched around the room frantically for a pen and located one in an instant. He clicked it once and threw the cover of the Death Note open. He scribbled in the book wildly.
Ryuzaki
Ryuzaki
Ryuzaki
Kira growled out of anger and hatred; he knew he wouldn't be able to kill L with this substitute name, but he continued to write. He clutched the note book in his hands as if for dear life, he knew that if he were to let the book go…
"Light!" L exclaimed from the door. Kira twisted his body around and laid his savage eyes on L. His smile widened; he almost looked demonic. A deep chuckle escaped from his throat as he rose to his feet.
"Light is not here anymore," Kira softly said. He sneered as he watched L cringe. "He won't be here for a while, or at least as long as I have this note book in hand." Kira waved the black book in his hand, almost as if he was daring L to do something. The detective stared at Kira; his heart seemed to be thumping in his throat.
"Put the book down," L said.
"No," Kira bitterly shot. "If I hold this book long enough, then all my memories will be regained."
L shivered and took a step towards Kira. "Put the book down, Kira."
"You can't make me," Kira laughed. "The only chance you have of taking this out of my and is if you charge at me. Are you willing to?" Kira held out a hand and beckoned L to come in his direction. L took two steps closer, breathing in short breaths. Kira watched with a smile on his face so wide that his eyes squinted.
"Hurry up, L, if you want your precious Light back," Kira provoked. "You're little precious Light, remember? The one you hold, the one you care for, the one you LOVE." Light quietly laughed. "You aren't going to let him go, are you? Hah, I can't believe you're not even putting up a fight. Once I conceal that worthless, pathetic meat puppet you call a friend inside of me again, I'll be sure to remind him that you never really loved him… That it was all just an ACT." Light laughed maniacally at L's facial expression. He cocked his head back and laughed even louder.
L watched in shock as Kira continued to laugh; his hair bouncing to every gasp. L's heart felt as if it was being squeezed and he clenched his jaw. A cold, sharp pain suddenly shot through his chest, feeling as if a knife was plunged into him. Something inside L had snapped. He reached out and in a quick swipe; L wrapped his fingers around the note book. Kira gasped in surprise and tightened his grip on the black book; both L and Light were now fighting for it.
"Finally doing something? Light laughed, pulling the book back. "Well it's already too late. In a matter of seconds, I will consume Light, and I will be able to rid the world of its sinners once again."
This time L tugged at the book and shook his head. "No!" L cried out. He used all of his strength and pulled the book harder. "Don't take him away from me! Light Yagami is my first ever friend, and if you take him from me… then he will be my last."
Kira's eyes widened in pure joy when he heard this from L. "Are you referring to suicide?" He laughed.
"Whatever it takes to be with him!" L shouted, and with one last pull he tore the Death Note away from Kira. Kira's happy expression immediately formed into a frown as he began to tremble.
"I will come back L!" Kira yelled in a sinister voice. "I will come back!" He was fighting against his knees, trying his best to remain on foot. "And remember, no matter what happens to us, I, and LIGHT, will always hate you," and with those final words, Kira's limp body fell to the floor with a thud. There was silence, and L took this opportunity to hide the book. But he paused and opened the book where Kira had been writing. He gasped. The name Ryuzaki was written more than 10 times on one page. L's heart sank as he looked down, but finally hid the book. After about 10 seconds, Light's body began to stir. He weakly placed the palms of his hands on the floor and tried to pull himself up. L quietly watched his friend struggle to get up on his feet. Light looked up at L and moaned.
"Ryuzaki…," Light said. "I have a huge headache… what happened?"
"You touched the book. Do NOT touch the book with the words Death Note on it. No matter what happens. Make sure you get that through that thick little head of yours," L said sternly. Light's face shattered in sadness when he heard the tone of L's voice. He was upset with him, but Light didn't know why.
"I- I'm sorry, Ryuzaki," Light apologized.
"You'd better be." L glared down at Light as he whimpered. Light hated it when he did something to piss L off.
"I can't remember what I did, Ryuzaki, but… like I said, I'm sorry," Light sobbed, looking down. "All I remember is touching the book… then I woke up just now with a big headache and an angry you. Whatever I did to you, I will accept my punishment without arguing." He remained silent and waited for L to hurt him, but instead he felt arms around his neck. L took Light's head in his hand and put their foreheads together. Light stood still in surprise, but then returned the hug.
"I almost lost you," L said to Light, his voice shaking.
"What?" Light asked, rubbing L's back.
"Nothing… Just promise me that you'll never touch the note book again."
"I promise, Ryuzaki. I won't be stupid again."
"You were never stupid," L soothingly said. He gave Light a peck on the lips, and Light returned the kiss, longer and more passionate. L pulled away though, not wanting to get caught up in the moment and grabbed Light by the hand. "Now let's go to the places you want to go."
Light smiled and nodded. "Okay." The two men walked to their door, put on their shoes and jackets, and exited out into the street. After walking for about 10 minutes, Light spotted Misa in the distance. His eye twitched.
"Oh God," Light gasped.
"What is the matter?" L asked, concerned.
"The old man!" Light exclaimed pointing. An old man turned to look in the direction of Light and L. L raised an eyebrow which was invisible due to the fact that his hair was covering most of his forehead.
"I don't seem to remember him, Light," L murmured, bringing a finger up to his mouth. Light shook his head.
"Not him, Ryuzaki, THAT." Light pointed in Misa's direction. L couldn't help but laugh; his index finger still in his mouth, making his lips curl.
"Misa is a female. An annoying, overactive, female. Not a 'THAT'." L explained to Light. He shrugged and tried to walk away from the girl, but she noticed them in an instant and charged towards them. Light's eyes widened and he bolted down the street.
'Damnit!' L thought. He then turned his head to glare at Misa. She slowed down and looked at L with a sad expression. She thought it was cute to make that face, but L was oblivious to it.
"Why does he run!" Misa asked, frustrated.
"That is because he is afraid," L sighed, beginning to walk in the direction of Light. Misa annoyingly followed like a cat after you give them something to eat.
"But I want to see Light! We are destined to be together. He never kisses anyone but me."
L smiled to this comment; Misa was clueless about the fact that Light and him kissed and even slept together (but without the sex). Misa rolled her eyes and looked down the street. Light was poking his head from a corridor.
"Light please stop running," L ordered.
"Not unless she leaves! Because she scares me and I really don't like old men," Light said truthfully.
"Ha ha ha," L chuckled almost emotionlessly. Misa made a face and approached Light. He took a step back.
"I am NOT an old man," Misa cried. "I am a young girl! A cute, young female!"
"Liar!" Light pointed at her again. "I can see the wrinkles…"
Misa screamed as she put her hand to her face, feeling for any wrinkles or crow's feet. L laughed a little louder this time. Light silently watched as Misa calmed herself down and breathe out.
"Let's just go where ever you two are going," she grumbled. L made a face this time and walked to Light's side. He so didn't want Misa to tag along with them, she would ruin their already messed up day. L then thought of the only two people that could drive her away.
"Light, do you want to see Matt and Mello today?" L asked with a smirk.
"Yeah!" Light nodded. "I want to see them, they're nice." Light looked around. "But where can we find them?"
"They are usually lurking around in these corridors," L said, also looking around.
"Then let's go find them." Light began to walk down the claustrophobic passage way. L and Misa followed as Light continued to explore the brick walls.
"I can't believe we're in this nastiness," Misa said in her girly voice. "I want to find those two freaks already and… AAAIIIEEE!" Misa screamed loudly to the sight of Matt and Mello sharing a hot and heavy kiss. They were panting, and Light stared with his mouth agape.
"Hey guys!" Light exclaimed. Matt and Mello hopped up, their arms still around each other. Then they let go and looked at L, Light and… Misa?
"What is she doing here?" Mello asked wiping his lips. "She's like stalking you two or something."
"I'm just coming along," she said in an angry tone.
"Ooooo, scary," Mello growled, rolling his eyes. He diverted his attention to Light, who was shaking.
"What's up with you?" Matt asked the trembling male.
"Misa scares me," Light said. He ran behind L.
Misa looked down and sighed, she didn't know why Light was scared of her. Matt walked over to Misa and put a striped sleeved arm around her.
"Look on the bright side," Matt said. "If it makes you feel any better, Light isn't scared of you Misa, he hates you."
Misa frowned and looked at Matt with big eyes. "That didn't help at all!"
Mello burst out laughing as L chuckled to himself. Matt gave in and began laughing too, and Light only blinked.
"But it's true," Light said honestly. "What's so funny? It's true!" But the boys all continued laughing, leaving Light clueless.
Night fall came, making Matt, Mello and Misa finally leave L and Light alone. Waving good bye, Mello shouted," Don't do anything stupid!"
"Okay!" Light called. "Bye Mello!" The three vanished over the hill in a matter of seconds, and L and Light remained in a green field alone. They both lay down on their backs and watched the hundreds of thousands stars in the sky. Light seemed extremely fascinated by the twinkling lights and turned to L to ask him a question.
"What are the stars made of?" He asked L.
"Balls of fire," L answered. "Almost like the sun really, except they're not as close."
"Oh, but what happens to a star if it dies?"
L smiled and said, "They explode, resulting in a supernova."
"I want to see one."
"It's almost impossible to see one, Light. I will show you one on the internet if I find one."
Light smiled and closed his eyes. He slowly inched his hand closer to L's until their hands were touching. Feeling Light's warm flesh against his own, L grabbed his friend's hand and entwined their fingers together. Light pressed his lips together as he felt himself blush; no one was ever able to make him feel the way L did. The two men continued to look up at the stars, and L constantly pointed out constellations for Light to see. The auburn haired male smiled widely as he finally made out one of the shapes L was explaining to him.
"They're beautiful, Ryuzaki," Light said in a hushed voice.
"They are," L softly replied. He turned to his friend and caressed Light's face with his free hand. Brushing his soft cheeks, Light's face grew a bright pink color.
"Ryuzaki," Light sighed. L released Light's hand and took his face in both his hands. Despite the fact that Light shared the face of Kira, L found himself falling in love with Light. He had tried to ignore this fact over the past times, but he couldn't help it anymore.
"You don't know how important you are to me," L lamented. He closed his eyes and tried to forget the fact that his name was written in the Death Note, but instead he felt soft lips against his own. This time, L didn't attempt to struggle or fight against Light. They remained laying on the floor, L's hands still on his lover's face. Light remembered how Matt and Mello were kissing and decided to try it out with L. The cold Autumn air meant nothing to the two as L parted Light's lips with his own. Light wormed his tongue into L's open mouth, causing both to shudder. L didn't bother to fight against Light's tongue; he allowed it to explore his mouth on. Light grabbed the back of L's head and pulled him closer to his mouth. Together they continued to kiss in the night, under the stars, and all of their problems seemed to disappear, just as long as they had each other.
XX- lol that's the end of chapter 4! During this chapter I almost started to cry because I began to remember the moment when I bought Death Note vol.7 and as I read through it, I was so into it. I immediately fell in love with L and when he had the heart attack I was like uh- oh. I remember reading the words "L is dead" and I literally jumped and gasped. I couldn't believe it! All of my fave anime people always die _ well any ways, this chapter took alittle longer than usual. I hope It gave you guys more to read. Reviews are welcome and theres STILL MORE TO COME! ;D I won't leave you guys hangin' lol. XOXO, thank you all, until next time!-XX