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Any way here's chapter 4:
While Lola was remembering her past Brax turned around to see lola tear strained face."Lola". Brax said surprised grabbing Casey attention, Casey looked round to meet Lola eyes and saw the pain of what she must have heard. Casey stood up and started to walk towards Lola while she stared him dead in the eyes with tears streaming from her eyes,Casey went hold her hand but she pulled away quickly ,"Lola I'm sor..."Casey didn't get a chance to finish as he tried to look in Lola's eyes but she was staring at the floor and cut him off. Lola shook her head "Don't Casey just don't..." Lola said sharply and ran for the door. "LOLA". Casey shouted after her,Brax pulled casey arm back to stop him going after her. " Casey I'll go..." Brax said by the time Casey could reply brax had already grabbed his shirt from the couch and made his way out the door.
Lola was sitting on the beach she was in Casey's tracksuit bottoms and a white vest top, cold and dark she was sitting thinking about everything.. All her thoughts were put on hold when Brax sat down beside her. "Lola listen.."." No Brax its fine you don't have to defend Casey we both know everything he said was right we were just kidding ourselves think we could do this..., we both know Casey made some good points about HSC, money,work...Danny...and look at my track record..." Lola started getting upset but felt brax put his arm around her made her feel safer."Lo you don't need to do this you need to talk to Casey..."Brax said calmly." No see he doesn't know,you don't understand..."Lola was starting to get frustrated."ok Lo, well talk to me make me understand..."Brax said trying to understand what lola was talking about. Lola took a deep breath, wiping the tears from her eyes. "My mum...she..." Lola got stopped by brax."Lola stop this doesn't matter right now...". Lola took a deep breath again trying to stay calm with what she was about to say."Brax... Don't you see it does matter all of this matters...all casey said ...all you said all my mum said..."Lola swallowed the lump in her throat and continued." My mum she always said i was like her...that i would turn out ...like her...threat my kids the same as her run and blame them when thing get hard...i just...i always wanted it to be different me and Cas made a promise to give our kids everything we never had...two parents who will be there for them and love them..." Lola stopped as she thought of the next thing she was gonna say that she had never told anyone before." you asked me yesterday morning if i was sleeping ok...". Lola asked and watched brax nod with a questioning look on his face."no... I'm not... its got nothing to do with the baby it just... hearing and seeing more then Casey saw, all the thing your dad put you through and used to do brought back... what my mums boyfriend was like..." Lola said with tears forming in her eyes, Brax played with the ring on his finger remembering how much he hated him."...umm... Dean...you remember him..."lola said slowly waiting for brax reaction. Brax took in a deep breath "yeah i do Lola...it late and your freezing please just come home and get some sleep we can do this lat...". brax didn't get a chance to finish Lola stepped in and said. "No..no Brax please ok just listen you need to know i don't want you to find out from Danny..." As soon as Lola said Danny Brax turned from looking at the waves to looking in Lola eyes. "Lola what are you talking about". Lola took a deep breath knowing she just have to say it straight and hope that Brax lets her tell her side of what happened." i thought it was my...fault like i deserved it after what happened to dad mum use to blame me and i use to fight with her all the time and she would just give me to you and Cheryl to look after..mum use to just go out every night some times go missing for 2 days at a time ... And then there was that one day where she brought Dean with her to come and get me and she made all these promises how things were gonna be different that she loved me and had to start doing what I was told that she didn't want to fight any more...the first few weeks it got better she calmed her drinking and gambling right down, Dean was basically living at our place... I never liked him...you never liked him ..he never liked me...I thought that thinking my mum blamed and hated me for what happened to my dad had calmed down a bit but no was I wrong"Lola took a deep breath knowing the next part she had never told anyone."Every night I would be lying in bed... Watching the clock...hoping that it wouldn't happen... But then...erm.. I would hear his foot steps come up the stairs ..I would see his shadow under my door.. And he would turn the handle slowly... I would already have tears running down my face and he hadn't even start...erm mum she would erm come up the stairs behind him an while he was getting undressed... she would stand at the door.. When he gave her a nod...she would close the door and he would start...it felt like hours I would try to scream out but he was to strong I couldn't fight him off Brax...I couldn't get him off my he was.. To heavy I tried...I tried.. I was so scared...I'm so sorry..."Lola was crying uncontrollably. Brax felt sick to think that this was going on and he didn't know..it all made sense to him now..Lola went off the rails.. And why she never talked about them.. So many things were going through Brax's head it was all coming so clear he only knew one thing to do at that moment in time was to help Lola and make her feel safe,they were family. "Brax" lola said in between her sobs. " I'm so sorry I should tried harder"Lola said with tear running down her face once again."Shhhh Lola stop none of this is your fault ok ..listen to me,you need to calm down". Brax Calmly said as he rubbed her back softly and stroked the top of her hair as felt his blood boiling at the fact that Lola was blaming could see the fear in lola she was shaking Brax took a deep breath and whispered gently in her ear "we'll be ok I promise".
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