A/N: Thanks so much to Shandrill Wielder of Spellfire, xxmeigetsuxx, and LadyPadfoot21 for reviewing! Here's a CrowxFeatherxLeaf for you al. I was planning on doing Yellowfang next, but if anyone has requests I'll do those first. --Nichi

Crowfeather stared in dismay as the cat that he loved most in the forest faded before his eyes. Her body was still there, but her spirit was slowly moving on, being guided to StarClan by her mother. The gray tom wanted to hold on to his love so that she couldn't leave, but he knew it would do no good. He vaguely heard Squirrelpaw murmuring something but he didn't care what it was. All that mattered was that the most beautiful cat in the forest-or the mountains-was gone. Feathertail had left me.

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How did this happen? Crowfeather asked himself. How could I feel this way, so soon after Feathertail? There was never a cat like her, but Crowfeather felt Leafpool was unique as well. The way the moonlight sparkled on her light tabby coat, and how her eyes seemed to see into his heart. As he hissed into her ear to come to the island at Twilight, he breathed in her sweet scent for a heartbeat before backing away.

He hated himself.

He loved them both.

Crowfeather wondered desperately what to do. How could he stay loyal to Feathertail and be in love with Leafpool?

"Crowfeather," he whipped around to see the beautiful silver tabby she-cat.

"Feathertail," he whispered. "Is that really you?"

Her answer was padding closer to me and twining her tail with mine. "Oh, Crowfeather, how I've missed you," she purred.

"Feathertail, I'm so sorry," he hung his head. "But I love you both so much. How do I choose?"

"But you don't have to choose," Feathertail's warm breath made my whiskers twitch. "That decision was made for you when I went to join our warrior ancestors. Please, don't dwell on the past when there is so much in the present,"

"Does… does that mean it's okay to love Leafpool?" Crowfeather asked, his heart thumping.

"Dearest Crowfeather, only you can answer that question," she meowed, a trace of amusement in her voice as she backed away.

"Feathertail, wait! Don't leave me!" he begged, starting after her. But as soon as his paw touched the ground she vanished.

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If there was ever something in my life I would redo, not saving Feathertail would now have competition.

I let her go.

I didn't even try to convince Leafpool to stay with me. As we raced back to her camp as fast as our paws could carry us, I thought all was lost, and I was doomed to be without Leafpool as well. But then she stopped and called to me.

"Crowfeather, I can't do it,"

I turned around and bounded back to her. "What do you mean?"

"I must go back to my Clan, but I can't leave you," as she meowed the four words, my heart leapt. "I still want to see you."

"But how will we do that?" I asked. "Both our Clans will know, and they'll stop us."

"We'll make them believe we've given up on each other."

It was so hard for me.

We made sure that at least one cat from her Clan overheard her telling me we couldn't be together, and then at the next Gathering I acted like I hated her.

What I most regret is choosing Nightcloud as a mate. I knew she was one of the cats who had fought against Onestar, but Leafpool had had a kit, though no cat knew it. I had to do something, or else some cat would guess that Jaykit was my kin…