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Dear my love, haven't you wanted to be with me
And dear my love, haven't you longed to be free
I can't keep pretending that I don't even know you
And at sweet night, you are my own
Take my hand
"We just got your results back Ms. Johnson."
Angel sighed, running her hands through her hair. "And."
"Maybe you should come down to my office–."
"No just tell me." Angel spoke in the phone.
She heard the doctor sigh then began in a low voice. "You um . . . the test . . . its positive."
"Positive." Angel repeated in a whisper.
"There's treatment, we can—."
"No just um, thanks for telling me doc'. I just have to process all of this."
"Are you sure you don't want to come by my office?"
"Yeah im fine, ill be Ok." Angel said, she hung up not waiting for a reply.
She got up and put on her jacket wiping a tear from her eyes. Picking up her keys and cell phone, she headed off with destinations in mind.
Snowflakes softly landed on the surface below suddenly meeting with hard shoes. Angel walked up concrete steps and knock on the white screen door. The door open within the second round of knocks.
"Angel, What's wrong?" The red head asked seeing concern in Angel's eyes.
Angel shook her head.
"Come on." Casey said letting Angel in and shutting the door behind them.
Angel sat down while Casey entered her kitchen and poured a cup of coffee.
"What happened?" Casey asked giving Angel the coffee.
"Thanks.." Angel took a sip of the coffee provided. "I just got my results back."
"Results, from what?"
"Doctors ran some blood..."
"And."
"I have HIV." She declared.
"God no."
Angel nodded and stood up, setting the coffee mug down.
"Where are you going?"
"I have to make things right."
"Let me go with you."
Angel shook her head. "No, I need to do this myself." She said before leaving.
Olivia sat in her chair looking over the files before her. She had volunteered to work late today. She didn't want to go home and be reminded of the emptiness of her life. This was better being draped in work. It was better then being caught up in life's drama. Or so she thought...
Angel laid on her bed, tears in her eyes. She sighs picking up the phone, dialing the last number on her list.
"Hello?" Said a woman's voice.
"Gloria hey, it's–."
"Angel, so nice for you to call."
"Yeah, look I have something to tell you."
"Ok."
"Look can you, just come over ok..."
She couldn't do it. She couldn't tell her not like this. Why? It's just another one. She had went down the list one by one she had told her one night stands that they should get tested. One by one she had destroyed a young girls life...
Angel slowly open her front door meeting an anxious Gloria.
"What did you want to tell me?" She asked sitting down.
"You want something to drink?" Angel ask avoiding Gloria's question.
"What I want is an answer."
Angel hesitated. "I don't know how to say this but...Gloria maybe . . . " Angel trailed off, unable to look in Gloria's eyes.
Gloria took Angel's hand. I already know, I just want you to say it. I want you to admit it to yourself."
Angel looked up. "What?"
"Angel you could've told me over the phone heck you could've just went on with your life but you didn't, you chose to stand up and face it."
"How did–."
"I just know."
"Im sorry."
"There's know need to be, Angel because of you I can spend the rest of my life living."
"I ruin your life."
"No, you didn't, before I met you I was . . . lonely sulky and uptight and now, even with this I still can be free I can still live my life. You should too, don't let this stop you from enjoying life, you have a woman in your life that's in love with you, and I know you care about her. It's time to settle down Angel."
Angel smiled. "You should hate me."
Gloria shook her head. "Why should I hate the one person who actually gave a damn about me?" Gloria got up. "Do me a favor, don't let this one go."
Angel nodded...
Later that day Angel found herself on Megan's doorstep.
"Angel what are you doing here?" Megan asked opening the door.
"It's a free country."
"For you it is." She said, herself stepping outside.
"I need to talk to you."
"About?" Megan asked annoyed.
"I'll tell you if you let me in, its kinda cold out here."
Megan rolled her eyes before letting Angel in, they both sat down.
"What do you want?"
"I want to work things out."
"Excuse me?"
"Im serious Megan."
"Must me the tequila talking cause its no way you're saying that you want a relationship with me?"
"I do."
"Im not another one of your one night stands that's a shocker–."
"Megan look, something happened that made me see what I could loose. I don't want to loose you." Angel said in a serious tone looking dead at Megan.
"Why do I believe you?" Megan asked rhetorically.
Angel smiled slightly placing a loose strand of Megan's brown hair behind her ear. "Because I love you." She said pulling out a ring. "I love you."
"Long night?" Came a voice behind Olivia.
Olivia turns, laying eyes upon Angel.
"Angel?"
Angel walked towards Olivia, kneeling down to meet Olivia's eyes. "How are you holding up?"
"I should be asking you that."
Angel smiled. "What went wrong?"
Olivia broke eye contact. "My fault." She mumbled.
Angel gently lifted Olivia's face to meet her eyes. "It can never be you're fault Olivia."
Olivia looked in Angel's eyes, searching for an answer.
"I wrote you every day for a year."
Olivia smiled. "I thought you stopped after they moved you over west."
Angel shook her head, "I never stopped, just like I never stopped loving you."
"And I never stop loving you."
"This is just so hard, Megan needs–."
"Forget about her, forget about this, it's just us, right here right now. Forget about this life Angel."
"You're asking me to–."
"Im begging you to let me protect you for once." Olivia said taking Angel's hand. "Let me have you."
"Liv', I don't want to hurt–."
"Do you trust me?" Olivia asked looking deeply in Angel's eyes.
Angel smiles, "Yes." She whispers, kissing Olivia passionately.
With the love that was build up for so long between them screaming to come out. Pleading to one another to get close. They needed to feel each other, to be as close as they could.
Olivia kissed Angel unbuttoning her jeans in the process. She slid the off of Angel hips.
"Liv'" Angel hesitated.
Olivia looked in Angels eyes. "Just let me have you." Olivia whispered. She kissed Angel soft lips, while taking off Angels shirt and bra.
Angel smiled pulling Olivia up and sitting her on the nearby desk. She quickly undressed Olivia, passion building up. Olivia looked behind her, throwing the scattered papers aside.
"What was that about?" Angel asked grinning.
"I always wanted to do that." Olivia smiled.
Angel shook her head, fully taking off her jeans and kissing Olivia.
"I waited for this for so long." Olivia said.
"You don't have to wait any longer." Angel said before running her hands down Olivia soft body. She cupped Olivia's breast and gently ran her thumb across Olivia's nipple. She kissed her soft lips while rolling Olivia's nipples between her fingers. Resulting in her lovers moans.
Angel soft kisses trailed down to Olivia 's breast taking it in causing Olivia to dig her nails down Angels bare back.
"Angel." Olivia Gasp.
Angel repeated her actions only this time capturing Olivia 's lips. Olivia broke contact and gently hoisted Angel up on the desk.
"I told you to let me have you." Olivia smiled seductively. She firmly presses her leg on Angel's core.
Angel made a sudden move, trying to wrap her arms around Olivia, but was instantly stopped by Olivia's strong arms. Olivia pinned Angel down, angel struggled but was no match for the woman.
"Sucks for you that im a cop." Olivia whispered. She kissed Angel passionately. Every inch of Angel's body touched.
"Liv'..."
"Yes?" Olivia said smirking.
"I..." Angel was lost, unable to put a single sentence together.
"You what." Olivia asked in between massaging Angels breast and kissing her neck.
Angel gripped Olivia's brown hair.
Olivia continued her assault on Angel, intensifying her touches and kisses.
"Liv, I want..." Angel gasp.
Olivia trailed her hands down to Angels center, gently teasing Angel.
Angel mumbled words incoherent to the average human.
Olivia smirked. "What was that Angel."
Angel whimpered.
"Is there something you want." Olivia teased, trailing her hands back up.
"I...want..." Angel forced herself to look in Olivia 's eyes.
Olivia smirked.
"Bitch." Angel somehow regained her composure forcefully grabbing Olivia and pushing her down on the desk, Angel got on top of her staring in her eyes. "I want you!"
Olivia tried to get up but Angel forcefully pinned down Olivia, gripping her wrist.
Olivia smiled. "You got me."
I have dreamt of a place for you and I
No one knows who we are there
All I want is to give my life only to you
I've dreamt so long I cannot dream anymore
Let's run away, I'll take you there
We're leaving here tonight
There's no need to tell anyone
They'd only hold us down
So by the mornings light
We'll be half way to anywhere
Where no one needs a reason
The next day...
Olivia and Angel found there selves engulfed in each other. Loving the time shared. Silence over cam them that is until Olivia spoke.
"This your day Angel, anything you need Im yours."
Angel kissed her gently. "Lets get away from this, just me and you."
Olivia propped her head up. "Are you serious."
"Do you trust me."
Olivia laughed, "Yes." Olivia kissed Angel, gently pinning her down on the bed provided. Angel pulled away.
"Liv', you might just kill me."
Olivia laughed. "Dying from pleasure?"
"Hell yes."
"I love you Angel." Olivia said kissing her gently.
Angel got up. "Come on, im fixing you breakfast.
Olivia rolled her eyes, as Angel 'dragged' Olivia to the kitchen.
"I don't want breakfast I want you."
"Your unbelievable." Angel said laughing.
Once in the kitchen she got out a pan and looked in the fridge. "We need eggs."
"Uh no we don't, there in there."
"Has sex fried your brain, I checked liv."
"Fine whatever, we don't even need it." Olivia wined.
"Im making your favorite."
Olivia smiled. "What's the occasion?"
"Reunion of lost loves."
"Fair enough." She said going in her bedroom.
Soon after she emerged fully clothed. "So eggs that is?"
"And anything else you might think of."
"Alright ill be back." She said walking to the door.
"Ok, love you."
Olivia loked at Angel and smiled. "Love you too." She then left.
Forget this life
Come with me
Don't look back you're safe now
Unlock your heart
Drop your guard
No one's left to stop you
Not wanting to waste time Olivia took the elevator down, little did she know Casey was taking the stairs up to Olivia's apartment.
Casey rushed up the last few steps and knocked hard on Olivia 's door.
Angel was looking through the cabinets when she heard a few strong knocks at the door. She smiled, picking up Olivia's abandoned keys on the counter top.
"I knew you would come back.." She said while opening the door, her smile faded as she saw the visitor.
"What the hell are you doing here?" Casey asked.
"What's wrong."Seeing the concern in Casey's eyes.
Casey hesitated. "Its Megan."
Forget this life
Come with me
Don't look back you're safe now
Unlock your heart
Drop your guard
No one's left to stop you now
The hospital . . .
"God Angel, I can't believe you." Casey exclaimed as they waited for the doctors return.
"Don't start with me Casey." Angel replied.
"What about everything you said, morals, self respect, gods what about Megan she needs you." Casey shook her head in disbelief.
"Don't you think I know that."
"Well obviously you don't, while you was with your 'sweetheart' Megan called your cell more then seven times."
Angel ran her hands through her hair.
"She was raped again and nearly beaten to death, if Elliot and fin hadn't..." She trailed off
Both of their attention focused on the doctor coming toward her.
"How is she?" Angel asked in a low voice.
"Its serious, but we have her stabilize."
"Can I see her?"
The doctor hesitated then nodded. "Quickly."
Angel glanced at Casey then followed the doctor to Megan room.
Meanwhile...
Olivia stands in the mini refrigerator aisle, deciding which item to buy.
'I knew I should of went to an actual super market' She thought.
She sighs then picked up the item on the far left, she walks towards the counter and stands behind a young lady.
'Gosh lady, it's a mini market what are you trying to do buy the whole store.' Olivia thought giving attention to the ladies groceries.
Olivia placed her hands in her pocket. 'Great I forgot my keys, I wonder if—
Her thoughts were broken by a crash near by. She looked up and focused on two men with guns.
'Who the hell would rob a mini mart'
She heard one guy shout another crash then her world went black...
Angel takes Megan's scarred hand.
"Im so sorry, how could I let this happen..." Angel trailed off feeling tears coming down.
Angel closed her eyes.
"I love you."
At that moment the monitors went on alert. High pitched sounds burning in her ears.
Doctors quickly rushed in.
"What's happening?!"
"Get her out of here!" The doctor shouted.
"Something is up." Casey said noticing doctors rushing toward Megan's room.
Elliot and Casey saw Angel walked towards them.
"What happened?" Elliot asked, glaring at Angel.
"I don't know, her heart just stopped."
Elliot rubbed his eyes and was about to continue when he heard fins voice.
"Elliot its Liv'."
"What?!" Angel and Elliot said in unison.
"She's been shot."
Elliot looked at Angel furiously.
She had seen Olivia hooked up to the same machines as Megan. Olivia was unconscious just like Megan. The doctors told her that she would need emergency surgery and so did Megan...
She couldn't believe that this was happening again. Both woman she ever loved was clinging to life. And it was all her fault...
"Angel Johnson?"
Angel looked up.
Every one was fully alert.
The doctors and an intern was standing nearby.
"Yes?"
The doctor looked at the intern who hesitated. "Well...I uh..."
"What, tell me!" Angel said taking a step forward.
The intern looked away unable to continue. The doctor looked around at the sadden faces.
"She's gone."
Tears instantly raged down Angels eyes.
"No, that's...No." She repeated.
"Im sorry."
"How?"
"Surgery..."
"This was...she only...here." The intern shuttered. It was hard on him, having been fresh he had seen his first death.
Angel received the ring the intern had given her. She gripped the edges carefully reading the inscription. 'My gaurdian Angel'
"I want to see her."
The doctor nodded. "Ok."
The three walked in the small room. Angel slowly walked up to the body.
"Can you take this out." Angel asked referring to the tube that was still attached.
The doctor hesitated. "Certainly."
The intern slowly guided the instrument from the body placing it aside.
"Can you...Can I..."
"Of course." The intern said.
"Take as much time as you need."
The two left.
Angel pulled up a chair and set beside her lover slowly running her hands across her cold face.
"I love you so much." She whispered, kissing her lovers brown hair. "I love you."
Tears where not enough it seemed as she cried in her lovers lifeless arms...
We're leaving here tonight
There's no need to tell anyone
They'd only hold us down
So by the morning light
We'll be half way to anywhere
Where love is more than just your name...
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The End...or is it
-Alexx