Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha

Ok I forgot to say that Sesshomaru and Inuyasha humans, but they still have the silver hair and amber or gold eyes . Sesshomaru has his own company very successful and Inuyasha as you know works for him .

Chapter 4

As Sesshomaru walked out the kitchen he started to feel bad about what he had said but she needed to know . He hated how she was just walking around as if nothing ever happened . Going around smiling and happy not just on the outside but on the inside to . It really pissed him off no it wasn't her fault, but she left after her told her not to asked her not to pleaded her not to go and yet she went anyway. His mind was still at that day and it seemed that hers was passed that point of her life like she was just never wanted to think about it ever again .

Walking into his room slamming the door behind him with so much rage in his heart. HE couldn't stand to look at her anymore. Every time he looked at her, he wondered what would their child look like him or her if he was living right now. Braking down in his room tears streaming down his face as he hit the wall making holes every time he hit .

"She is pathetic …I hate her so fucking much …. Why couldn't she just listen to me for once in her life ?" Sliding down to the floor it seemed like this was a everyday thing for him he cried for their unborn child he cried because everything went to from his unborn child being the center of the earth to him being nothing . What made it so bad to him is that Kagome wouldn't even talk to him about it she just stopped trying to bring him up . The conversation was nonexistent with her . Bringing his legs to his chest and putting his head down on them . All he could do was just cry , their was nothing else he could do .

Kagome finding her self back on the couch of her therapist office she had to talk so him yes she was early but she couldn't take it she needed to talk about it .

"Mrs. Tachibana how have you been I didn't except to see you so early from your normal appointment ." Her therapist sitting across from her with a pen and paper in his hands with his legs crossed .

"Yes I know , but I just need to talk and you're the person who will listen ." Looking at kagome noticing her eyes so red .

"Have you been crying as of late ." Kagome nodding her head yes .

"Its' been a really ruff week for me it seems like all I can do is cry ." Taking a deep breath so she could calm her nerves .

"Well tell me about it I would like to hear what has been going on in your world ." grabbing a cup off his desk he took a sip then put it back down .

"Me and Sesshomaru have been talking way more then what we normally did ." kagome looked down at her hands opening and closing them as to relive them .

"Well that's good isn't it ?"

"No not even close ." Looking up at her therapist

"Why is that ?"

"We argue a lot ."

"About what ."

"Well….let me start over Inuyasha has been down here visiting ." Shifting around trying to get comfortable .

"Is he the source of the arguing ?"

"Somewhat I mean ." Deciding the best position for he was just to lay down .

"Kagome we are getting no where with this ."

"OK here I go the day Inuyasha came things just started to change its like the thing that Sesshomaru have been wanting to say has just been pouring out of him ." lifting her hand up to the ceiling as if trying to grab it .

"Yes and ."

"Remember when I said me and him have went through a lot?'' Putting her hand back down .

"Yes."

"Well my mom kicked me out the house because she did not accept me and Sesshomaru she didn't really accept me and Inuyasha being friends ,but she couldn't stop me from talking to them ."

"Really ?"

"Yes . I had gotten pregnant by Sesshomaru and that was the last straw she just came to me and said 'Get out' I could believe it but she did I really never understood why she didn't like the Tachibanas' . My dad had worked with them for years and when he died she just shut down on as all ."Rolling over to look at the back of the couch it made it easier to talk that way . "So I moved in with Sesshomaru it was bound to happen any way ,so me and him were living together my brother was not allowed to talk to me my grandfather sent me letters telling me it would pass and she would come to her senses." picking at the back of the couch pulling at the strings that were loose .

"Did she ever come to her sense ?"

"You see I'm still living with Sesshomaru ."

"I take it as a no then ."

"Right . She wants nothing to do with me at all I have tried to be the bigger person ,but every time it blows up in my face . Well me and Sesshomaru started our life planning on the baby coming so we got married it was a lot of people their ,but my mom or Souta my brother was not their I was hurt ,but I couldn't make her come."

"Mmmm."

"Well I was about 5 months pregnant and I was so happy I could wait it was going to be a little boy I wanted to name him Neveah , heaven backwards and at first Sesshomaru said no then the name grew on him . So we did his room in Gold and white it was so pretty we worked really hard on it ." Tears now rolling down her eyes for the third time that day .

"I never knew you had a child how old is he ?" Her therapist surprised at this news he had never heard before .

"One day I went out to go shopping for Neveah Sesshomaru told me not to go that day but I really thought he could use more diapers and baby food you can never have enough of those things so I left.," ignoring the question that was asked. " I was driving listening to music tapping my thumbs on the steering wheel . I stopped at a stop sign I waited and then went and before I know it my car was hit by some dumb ass speeding ." Trying to whip her tears but they just kept coming . "Even with my seat belt on and air bags I was still hurt badly well my baby was hurt I was rushed to the hospital ,but I guess not fast enough ." Her were eyes swollen from trying to wipe the tear from her eyes .

"I'm so sorry Kagome ." Hearing the disturbing news made him feel horrible

"Its ok. When Sesshomaru finally made it their the doctors told him about how blood had flooded my uterus and my baby had died from the trauma that was caused by the accident . Still no mom by my side just Sesshomaru and Inuyasha my son would have been 2 years old now ." Taking a deep breath that was really the first time she had really even spoken about it she never told any body about that day .

"So when did Sesshomaru start changing towards you ?'

"Well after that day he babied me a lot he did every thing for me and after a while I tried to become better for him because I wouldn't talk I wouldn't move from my bed I was jut depressed but I made my self get better for Sesshomaru sake so I pushed everything behind me to make him happy I tried to talk to him about how he'd felt about what happen and the only thing he said was 'I'm fine because if Iwould have lost you I would of had nothing ' So after a while I just stopped asking ."

"So do you think he was lying about him being fine ?"

"I know now that he was lying ."

"How so ?"

"Well he told me it was all my fault that I went and did something stupid he called me pathetic and I was to blame for everything ." Kagome rolled over to look at her therapist .

"Do you think its your fault?"

"Everyday I blame myself for that day everyday I wish I could just take it back ,but I know I cant so I tire to come to terms with it ."

"So have you tried to tell him that ."

"No because I didn't want him to worry about me ." Turing her body to look back at the couch.

"And Inuyasha have you told him ?"

"Yes I have told him to see how he would react and he cried like I knew he would so I decide that if he was going to cry Sesshomaru would do the same and I couldn't have him do that I didn't want to see him hurt like that ."

"It seems to me that Inuyasha is very important in this whole thing ." Taping his pen to his chin .

"What do you mean ?" Know sitting up on the couch looking at the doctor .

"Kagome you tell Inuyasha everything don't you ?"

"Yes . What's your point ." Kagome confused at what he was saying .

"Well how would you feel if Sesshomaru was tell his friend everything and not the person that counts .."

"What do you mean ."

"Sesshomaru is the person you should have been telling things like that to not Inuyasha ,Inuyasha is not the person you married now is he ."

"So you think Sesshomaru was getting mad about me tell Inuyasha everything ?"

"Kagome Sesshomaru is your husband through thick and thin and you weren't treating him as such you were treating him hoe you should have been treating Inuyasha ." Uncrossing his legs just to cross them back .

"But he brought Inuyasha here why would he get mad at me about something he did I mean ." Kagome now confused again .

"Maybe he didn't like seeing you so sad all the time maybe he wanted to do something nice for you ."

"I don't know because we haven't just been arguing we have been fighting to ." Kagome now looking at the floor .

"Frustration that's all I can say I mean its so of much it built up in you two."

" I don't know what to do ."

"Go Home and try to talk it out with him you do still love him even though you say you don't ."

"He doesn't love me though ." Laying back down on the couch again .

"I'm pretty sure he does kagome well our time is over so I guess I will talk to you when you come back to your appointment ." Standing up to go help kagome off the couch .

"Alright see you later I guess ." Kagome grabbing her thing s and walking out the door so confused about what she should really do could she get him to actually talk to her .

Yes Nevaeh is a Girl name but I really love that name for both boy and girl