Where Pretending Has Led
Pretending has pretty much led to this point. To point where I have another woman taste on my lips. I have pretended so hard that I've found myself in a relationship that really I don't want to be in. Yes, the woman is pretty but she is no you. She even kind of sort looks like you but she has none of your mannerism.
When she scream my name its nothing like the way you do it. When we used to make love hell even when we used to fuck I could still feel the love in it. Pretending has leaded to me holding a chick at night that isn't you in the bed we used to share. Truth be told I really don't want her in it I want you and only you.
She can't do the things that you do or used to do to me. Just like Beck can't do things I do for you no matter how hard he tries. He can't love you like I love you.
Most of the time pretending has led me to believe that I'm happy sometime. That mostly during the time that I'm high and she trying to fuck me. And I let her.
This where pretending has led to me becoming something really fucking close a junkie and fucking some girl that if I wasn't high most of the time now a days probably wouldn't even like. This pretending shit isn't my strong suite. I know one thing that true in this whole mess is my feelings for you.
-Vega
Hey Peeps,
I just wanted to tell you guys I know this chapter is kind of wacky but I wrote like person high on something most likely would or I least tried to. So tell what you think once again Thank You for all the follows, favorite, and reviews.
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