I lay on the couch for a while before standing up to grab myself some food. I actually was pretty hungry, so instead of eating my normal cereal breakfast I baked myself some pancakes. My mom's recipe to be exactly. We used to eat them every Sunday. They were my favourite. I smiled a genuine and turned the radio on.
Just then Adele's 'someone like you' was playing.
Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best for you too.
Don't forget me, I beg, I remember you said:
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead"
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead, yeah.
I began singing along with it for the first time since my parents died.
You'd know how the time flies.
Only yesterday was the time of our lives.
We were born and raised in a summery haze.
Bound by the surprise of our glory days.
I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I hoped you'd see my face & that you'd be reminded,
That for me, it isn't over yet.
Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best for you too.
Don't forget me, I beg, I remember you said:
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead", yay.
Nothing compares, no worries or cares.
Regret's and mistakes they're memories made.
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?
Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best for you too.
Don't forget me, I beg, I remembered you said:
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead"
Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best for you too.
Don't forget me, I beg, I remembered you said:
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead"
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead, yeah.
The song ended and I felt lighter somehow. I giggled when I saw that I had burned the pancake. You always forget everything around you when you sing. I scolded myself jokingly. I threw it away and made some more that I didn't burn.
I heard a sound from outside, it was my only warning before the door was flung open and Paul strolled in. He looked around and when his eyes found mine they lit up. He walked over to me and pulled me in for a hug.
"Lills" he breathed, I just stood there open mouthed.
He has no shirt on! God does he want to kill me.
"Uhm" I mumbled awkwardly "Where have you been?"
He tensed, I sighed Well, here we go again.
"Never mind" I told him, small tears forming in my eyes.
I put the pancakes on the table, it was enough to distract him. I hadn't forgotten about the fact that he had left me to myself these weeks and him being here made my insecurities even bigger.
"Just grab some pancakes I'll be right back" I told him before walking towards my bedroom.
It just doesn't make sense, why is he here right now? I thought and quickly wiped my tears away. Maybe this is just some stupid joke... More tears found their way into my eyes.
No Alicia said he really cares, didn't she? She wouldn't lie to me I really had to stop these conversations with myself. People will think you're nuts.
I snorted at the thought and looked in the mirror My face could've been worse I thought before shrugging it off and walking back to the kitchen.
I looked wide eyes at Paul when I noticed all of the pancakes were gone.
"Did you just ate them all?" I asked perplexed "I was gone for like 5 minutes"
He cracked a smile, I caught side of this bare chest again. Oh My God, he's gourgeous. I thought Oh but I already knew that Thinking back to the day we went cliff diving together, I blushed thinking back to that day. However he definitely got more muscles than before! I concluded.
"You seeing something you like?" Paul asked sounding smug.
My cheeks flamed and I dug my head, quickly grabbing a bowl for my cereal, since Paul ate my pancakes. He just caught me checking him out. Stupid, stupid, stupid!
Paul chuckled, he grabbed me from behind and pulled me in his lap.
"I didn't mean to embarrass you Lills" he told me, humour obvious in his voice.
My cheeks were still burning with embarrassment.
"Sure" I mumbled. He laughed a full belly laugh at that, that made me smile a bit.
I peeked through my hair to see his face, he was smirking. I totally knew.
My stomach rumbled, I tried to stand up but he held me down.
"I don't want to let you go" he whined.
I rolled my eyes "Get over yourself" I told him "Big baby" I muttered quietly while walking towards the fridge.
He grabbed me again "What was that" he breathed down my neck.
I shivered "What do you mean" I said, my voice sounding hoarse from the emotions running through my body.
He turned me around and pushed my back into the fridge.
"What did you call me Lills" his breath washed over my face. Oh god this feels so good!
My thoughts were all jumbled up as currently his body was pressed up against mine.
"Lills" he crooned. Inch by inch his face slowly came closer to mine.
He leaned down keeping one arm around my waist and the other to cup my neck. Then he kissed me softly, he pulled back to look at me, his eyes questioning whether it was alright or not, I nodded not able to form a coherent sentence at the moment. He leaned down again and nibbled on my bottom lip, asking for entrance. I opened my mouth for him and he slid his tongue into my mouth effectively deepening the kiss.I moaned. I had both arms around his neck and he pressed me harder against the fridge his hands finding my thighs and pulling me closer to him. He broke the kiss and pulled back, I didn´t realize I needed the air. His eyes were pitch black and I shivered. He then pecked my lips in a affectionate but at the same time fierce manner.
Kissing Paul was amazing. I had wanted this for such a long time but never really dared too. His kiss was soft and rough at the same time, just like Paul. His breath washed over my face as I tried to catch my breath and calm my erratic heart down.
He chuckled "Your heart is going crazy right now"
I nodded unable to find my voice.
Why now? The rational part of my brain screamed at me Why now and not all those weeks before? I couldn't help but feel insecure about this.
Paul put his finger under my chin, lifting it up "You okay?"
I knew he could see the doubt in my eyes right now.
"Is this real?" I asked him, the insecurity clearly noticeable.
He smiled at me "as real as you want it to be, Lills"
"So I'm not just another girl to you?"
He gave me an weird look before he began to shake lightly "why would you think that?" I could see he was getting angry.
"Don't get mad" I begged "You and I both know how you treat girls normally, I just don't want to get hurt" I sighed when he didn't look at me "I already got hurt enough in the past" I whispered.
He walked away from me "You know nothing about anything Lilly!" he jelled.
"Then why don't you tell me" I jelled back, my anger flaring.
"Because you won't understand a flying fuck about it, the world fucking ain't that perfect as you think"
"You think I think that after my parents died? That it was easy for me? But of course, I don't know how hard the world is. Is that what you think of me? Just some stupid girl that doesn't see what's in the shadows? At least I still try to laugh and see the good in things! Really, you give me a freaking whiplash with your mood swings Paul!" I was proud that my voice had sounded angry, I actually wanted to go sit in a corner and sob. How can he think that? what he said really hurt me.
He sobered up after that a look of shame on his face.
There was an awkward silence.
"I shouldn't have said that" he said breaking it.
I didn't answer.
"You're nothing like those girls, you're real" he whispered "and you deserve so much more than me. I just keep hurting you"
I turned around and pulled him in for a hug. I winced at the pained look on his face.
"you do deserve me Paul. You're the only one I want, but I want the truth Paul. No more hiding" I told him.
He still looked a bit pained but then smirked, Well, look who's back, I thought relieved.
"You're gonna regret saying that" he said and placed a sweet peck on my lips.
"But for now" he paused and pouted "you want to come to a bonfire with me tonight?"
I smiled at his childish antics "I would love to"
Hey everyone,
I'm sorry for the late update. But I'm in my last year at school and I was finishing my exams.
I only have two left now,
Enjoy the chapter and tell me what you think!
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