Nov 30I wake up and realize that I'm alone . I sit up and notice I'm not naked . Then I remembered that Peeta held me as cried . It's been so long since I cried for my family- I was angry at them for leving me I wasn't angry at my dad and Prim so much because they didn't have the choice . But mom... she choose to OD, she chose to have her 9 year daughter find her seizure get on the tiled floor. When I came to live with Haymitch, I was so angry I would take it out by fighting. I was getting fights all the time . 15 was the first time got drunk, and it was also when I met Gale . He turned my life from bad to worse. I sigh- I don't want to fucking think about him.
I get off my bed and get ready for school. Washed out, torn jeans , a black tank top with light green cardigan with a scarf to cover up what Peeta did . When I'm at school I see Johanna, and we skip class and we walk to where we're always hiding, smoking at school . I am not a regular smoker like Johanna but do once in awhile. " So how did meet your new boy?" she asks after a few puffs a cigarette.
I throw my cigarette down, crushing it with my leather boot . " He moved in across the street and we got drunk then had sex. " I tell her.
" Ohh that would be a nice story to tell your kids one day! I got drunk and I fucked your daddy, and that's how we met. " she laughs.
" Jo, shut up. " I tell at her, scowling at her . After we talk, I get a text from Peeta to meet him at my locker. Once I get there, he pushes me against it and starts kiss me roughly. " I missed you all day. " he says between kisses and I whisper me too . I took his hand and led him to my uncle's car. We drive to a close by mall. As we sit down at the food court, I finally ask him what has been on my mind for the past two days ."Peeta what are we?" I ask .
"What do you want us to be ?" He asks as he looks into my eyes " I don't want be friends who just have sex . I like you . My last boyfriend broke my heart . I'm scared to start a relationship again, but with you I'm less scared." I tell him.
" I wont hurt you Katniss, I promise." he says, and I get up and move closer to him, eventually finding myself in his lap .I pull his lips to mine, and I start kissing tongues dance around even though we are in crowded area- I don't care I really like him. After we hear people yell at us we finally pull apart. We walk around for awhile . I even lead him in to a store where he picked out some sexy underwear for me . I can't wait to see what happens with us now . We are both messed up but we can help each other.
After we got home Peeta went to his house- he didn't really tell me why he did . I sit at the table and eat , I wonder when my uncle will come back . Maybe he has just left me like everyone else has . I sigh and go to my room , I lay on my bed trying to get everything out my head. When I hear a knock at my window, I smirk because I know it's Peeta , but when I see him my heart stops . He quickly climbs in I get better look at him- he's holding his arm , his right eye is swollen and purple, and his lip is bleeding .
"Peeta, what happened? " I finally ask him . He trudges over to my bed to sit down . " I guess because you told me about your past I should return the favor." he says .
I run to grab all the medical stuff I can find in my house then run back to Peeta and sit next him. He takes a deep breath then starts to talk . " Ever since I was little my mom never liked me . She wanted a daughter so when she was pregnant with me she was sure she was going have a girl... she didn't even ask the doctors because she was so sure . Then when I born she was angry she was told she couldn't get pregnant again . She threw out all the stuff she got for her daughter, and by the time I was 3 she started tell me she hated me and I ruined her dream . It made me feel awful . Then the beatings came " he says. I can't believe some one would do that to their own child . " It started when I was 4...I was playing out side then I just ran inside . I hade mud on my shoes . She hit me because she told me to never run in the house with mud on my shoes then she made me clean it up with a toothbrush . Then it was because I dropped my milk or food every little thing . Then it got worse as I got older- my dad knew but he didn't want to get involved . By the time I was in middle school I learned to stay away from home, and then by the time I was 15 I met a group of kids that weren't the best . I was getting in trouble more and more . My mom just called me a mess up...my dad tries to stop me but I didn't care . I felt better when I was drunk or high, and I hated my home life . Before I moved here, like I told you, I beat up a kid at school, got expelled and restraining ordered that why I moved . My mom was angry and has been since we moved then I tried to stay away from there earlier when I went home cause I thought she was gone but she wasn't . She started to yell at me I just ignored her then she hit me with a bat once she stopped that, she kicked me out and she told told me not come back." He finished in shock.
" Peeta, I'm so sorry. " I say As hug him but pull way right a way because I can tell he's in pain . " It's okay " he says I put a bandage around his arm " It's not broken, that's good, it just is swollen and bruised, but can you move it?" I ask him and he does. " You just need rest it. You can put ice on your eye and it will go down in a few days. But the busies will be here for week or so . " I tell him.
" How do you all this stuff? " he asks me as he lays down on my bed . " My mom was a nurse, plus me and my sister played nurses all the time when we were little and our mom helped us a lot . I guess it's kind of useful. " I say and lay next him . He puts his good arm around me, not sexually, just comfort-it's just the two of us, and I feel safe with him . " Peeta. I really like you." I tell him.
"I really like you too." he says and gives me small kiss on the lips, and when he pulls away, the whisper of all that is good in the world breezes through the wind.