This chapter is going to be from Anna's POV; a diary entry to fill in why all of a sudden Anna is depressed and wants to leave from living with her brother Taki...

August 28th, 2008.

I couldn't believe everything that has happened today...there are so many emotions running through my head. For starters I am the newest member of Nittle Grasper! Can you believe it? My favorite band of all time wants me to play with them! So now, I am currently living in Japan. I just got off the phone with mom; she's so thrilled for me and wants to visit me and Taki as soon as possible...

Taki...what has happened to him? I was so excited to see him. We were so close when we were kids, he was so sweet and loving...he's a stranger to me now. Diary, I write to you now in the silence of my room with the door locked, trying not to let tears drip onto the pages. Whatever has happened to Taki has turned him into a monster.

We kept in touch through email over the years after Dad and Taki left to live in Japan. About a year ago or so, he said that he was finally going to hit it big with his music career. He, and his band ASK, got a record deal through N-G, and the president himself was going to produce them. I couldn't be happier for him, but I will admit at the time I was jealous, music has always been my life. Since I was a little kid, I always wanted to play music. The day I finally got a drum set for Christmas, was probably the happiest Christmas of all.

After a while, he said that his music career didn't go as planned and left it at that. But after a few months, after getting that email from Seguchi-san, I was so excited. I couldn't wait to tell Taki. But I didn't want to tell him over the computer, I thought that this was news that should be told face to face. So I only told, well asked him, if it would be ok if I stayed with him awhile, and the reasoning was a surprise. He said of course and the next day I was heading to Japan.

I arrived in Japan rather early, where on the first day I had my first real practice with the song Sleepless Beauty. I met a really sweet guy, the guitarist of Bad Luck, Nakano Hiroshi. Hiro, he's so sweet, he offered to walk me home. I started to tell him about Taki, but once I told him who my brother was, he got very...tense and kind of uncomfortable. When I asked him why, all he said was that "it's kind of a long story" and walked away...And now I understand why Hiro had that reaction.

After Hiro dropped me off, I ran into Taki's apartment...the entire moment is still going on through my head.

I rang the doorbell; the adrenaline was just increasing every second. Taki finally answered the door with a smile, and I just went crazy. "Nii-san!" I shouted, as I tackled him, and we both fell to the floor. I guess a bit immature for me, but at the time I really didn't care. "Nii-san I missed you so much!" I crawled off of him and kicked my vans off before going into the apartment.

Taki stood up and smiled at me. "It's great to see you Anna. I finished your room." He smiled and led me a tour of the apartment. It was kind of small, but still comfortable. After the "tour" we sat in his living room, I was sitting on a loveseat across from Taki, who was sitting on his sofa. It seemed like we were talking for hours before he got drinks, just a regular diet coke. He smiled and handed me mine, and set his down on the end table next to the sofa. The Taki I had once known vanished at that very moment.

"So, how about you tell me about this big news you have?" He said it so kindly; I had no idea that he was going to react in the way he did.

I took a deep breath and smiled. "So, a few days ago, I got this email from a Seguchi-san. I didn't think too much of it, of course the first thing I think of is Nittle Grasper but decided to shrug it off. The email said that there has been a 'special interest' in me and that it was important that I should come to Japan. I would have ignored it and figured it was some scam. But the email was signed President of NG Seguchi Touhma, and had the official seal. So I come in today and go to NG...and you wouldn't believe what happened." After I said all of this, it looked like the emotion has been drained from Taki's eyes. He was frowning bitterly, but stared at me to continue. To my mistake I actually did. "Seguchi Tohma, President of NG, also one of the keyboardists in Nittle Grasper...wants me to play for them! He wants me to become a new member of Nittle Grasper!" I was expecting him to be happy. Or to say congratulations or something, but he didn't say anything. Silence lingered in the room for a few moments. Taki just stared at me. And out of nowhere, he stood up and backhanded my face. Hard.

I fell back onto the floor, too stunned to speak, but reluctantly I did anyway. "Taki..." After I said this, I knew I shouldn't have. He walked over and stood over me.

"YOU LITTLE BITCH! HOW DARE YOU KEEP SOMETHING LIKE THAT FROM ME! HOW DARE YOU WORK FOR SOMEONE LIKE SEGUCHI TOUHMA?" His voice was booming, and I was trying my hardest not to cry. He grabbed my hair pulling me to stand up, and I winced in pain. "It was that asshole who ruined my career. It was him, that damn Shindou and that damned Yuki." He was speaking in a whisper now, his hand still pulling my short hair, but his face only a few inches from mine. "HE RUINED ME! HE RUINED ASK! AND NOW MY OWN SISTER HAS THE NERVE TO WORK WITH THE MAN AND COMPANY THAT TOOK MY LIFE AWAY?!" He let go of me now, only by pushing me back to the floor with a hard thud.

I had so many emotions going through me at once. I just stared back up at him. The look in his eyes, it was so frightening, they were full of nothing but anger. I tried my hardest not to cry, and miraculously I didn't. He stared back at me. I don't know how long it will take me to forget that gaze. He kneeled down in front of me, and I cringed. "I suppose you know that Shindou Shuichi then. Don't you? I bet you met him and his good for nothing band." He said in a haunting whisper. I reluctantly nodded, and my heart started pounding. "He made a fool of me. He and that damn Yuki Eiri." He took a pause then continued, "Tell me, Anna. I bet your even friends with Shindou."

I paused. I didn't know if I should answer or not. I stuttered hesitantly, looking for words. Taki frowned. "Answer me." He growled and pulled on the front of my shirt.

I paused once again, but managed to spit something out. "W-well, I-I wouldn't really say we're friends but..." Apparently this answer wasn't the one he was looking for. He pushed me into the wall, and I yelped. I fell onto the floor, and just curled myself into a ball. Now that I think back, I should have done something. At this point, I never would have thought I would ever be in this position. Let alone it coming from my own brother. He took off his belt, and started beating me.

"Taki stop!" I screamed. It was like my screams were useless. He just kept going and going. I had my face in my hands the entire time. I'm really unsure of how long he was beating me, but he eventually took a pause and I ran. I just ran into my room and locked the door.

He was knocking before, saying he was sorry. He didn't sound so remorseful, and I kept the door locked. I'm so scared right now, I'm actually afraid to sleep.

August 29th 2008

Today has been another interesting day, and so much has happened too. First, I was so tired and scared of falling asleep at my "home" that I started to fall asleep at work, which I left early for to try and spend the least amount of time here that I have too. Miharu woke me up, and we decided to go get something to eat. While we were standing at this pork bun stand, I saw someone that looked familiar to me yesterday. Eiri Yuki. I honestly think he was my neighbor in New York.

I also found out that Yuki-san is actually Shindou-san's lover. That's totally amazing for me. But what concerns me, is that Taki mentioned something about a Yuki last night. I thought about so much about the things that Taki said, and I couldn't help but wonder what Taki has done...he said that Seguchi-san, Yuki-san, and Shindou-san ruined him. And from what it seems, he has turned into a monster, so I wonder if he did something...

I worked up enough courage to ask someone about him. I recalled Hiro's face when I told him who my brother was...he seemed so shocked, and it seemed to anger him...so I decided to ask Miharu. The very mention of 'Aizawa' made her very uncomfortable. And the news I heard, I can't describe how I felt. I just wanted to cry, and to my embarrassment, I did for a bit, but forced myself to stop once I ran into Seguchi-san. My own once loving brother had Shindou-san gangbanged out of jealousy of Bad Luck...I find it so hard to believe.

Also today, to my own surprise, there was a press conference. My very first interview was a press conference. With everything that was going on, I couldn't really concentrate, so now I feel totally stupid.

It's such a shame. These people at NG, they're so nice and welcoming. I wish I could open up more to them...especially to Hiro. He seems like he generally cares about people. I hate being so shy around people...

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It was worse this time than last night. He brought a key for my lock...and told me that if I tried to keep him out again I'll really pay. I accidentally left my folder of music on the coffee table in the living room, and that set him off. He was wearing a ring... I can't help but think he wore it for the occasion. I have a large red bump from the ring near my chin...

I don't know if I can continue like this...I can only pray that Seguchi-san can find a place for me to stay. I suppose I will write more later, Hiro is calling.

Author's note:Sorry this chapter was so short. But yes, it appears that Taki has not changed a bit has he?

I also apologize for not updating for a while. School seemed to take over my life, but I plan to update on the weekends.