Okaiii trying to update more often now anyway hope you enjoy and thanks for reviews I really appreciate them! Sorry this chap isn't very long, just wanted to get it out. I'll upload a longer one over spring break. Don't own vampire knight or Kaname and zero yada yada yada and yeah
Kaname slumped down on his bed. What the hell. This wasn't right, he was a man, zero was a man, and they were both men. Kaname didn't understand. It wasn't as if he was fond of men. And he had never really experienced love before. But why? Why now? And why, with him? Yuki would be a better fit. She was a woman and a pureblood and he could openly marry her. No one seemed to disapprove of them. Well, besides Kiryu.
Kaname couldn't count the number of nights Zero had filled his head. Sometimes he would pretend that Zero wanted Kaname to stay away from Yuki because deep down he felt something for him. But it wasn't true, he knew that. Zero hated him for everything. Being a pureblood vampire, for being with Yuki, for being "smug". Zero couldn't stand him. Kaname could understand that. And he knew Zero had never even imagined Kanames love could be directed at him.
But it was, it always had been. Kaname wasn't exactly sure when he had fallen for Zero, he just sort of noticed one day. And he had done everything within his power to keep Zero in his life, even if it meant Zero hating him and being with Yuki. Yuki…he envied her so much that using her seemed less awful. She didn't need someone to protect her, that's not why he saved Zero, that's not why he kept him around. It wasn't for Yuki, not one bit.
Kaname just sat there. Loving Zero had been his dirty little secret up until now. No one knew; no one. It had been so much easier that way. God what had he done!? He messed up everything. He had been able to stay in control when Zero bit him the first time, barley but he had, so why not now? Why now? It's not that he didn't want Zero to know, he had always wanted to tell him. But he just didn't want to hear those dreaded words "I don't like you." Even the thought was enough to cause his heart to sting. And Zero obviously didn't like him. Kaname lay on his back and stared into space. Perhaps Zero was on to something; perhaps leaving was a good idea. Perhaps not seeing Zero would make the pain go away.
Kaname thought of a quite old house at the edge of a calm little town. Behind the house was nothing but a field full of flowers. And Kaname sat in an old wooden chair on the back porch, overlooking it. And there Zero sat, on the arm of his chair. He was smiling, as if he was happy, as if he was in love. Kaname wasn't sure if he had ever seen Zero smile before, and if so, it was never for him. But there he was smiling away. He looked healthy. His lilac eyes were bright and his skin had a slight glow. His soft silver hair blew in the wind as he placed his head on Kanames shoulder.
STOP THINKING OF HIM DAMNIT! You're not doing yourself any good! Kaname scolded himself. Why was this so hard?
Kuran draped his arms over his face. It was no use, he only ever thought of Zero. His heart started to beat at even the mention of his name and his whole body got hot. God he wanted Zero bad. Not only was Zero beautiful, but his sass and bitter attitude only made Kaname want him more. And he was sexy to.
When zero had drank from him, Kaname almost raped him right then and there. And zero had been in his lap! Pressing agents his groin! It took everything he had to keep how hot he was for Zero hidden from him. But he couldn't help thinking that all he had to do was bite that thin, soft, juicy, sexy ne-No! Stop stop stop. Kanames body was clearly reacting to the thoughts of Zero moaning as his neck was penetrated and a bond was formed. But that was certainly not the only think Kuran wanted to penetrate….
The heat rushing through his body was too much to ignore. But this often happened and Kaname always had to take care of it himself. But perhaps, just perhaps he could make Zero hot for him to. He was Kaname Kuran for goodness sake! He was pretty much an irresistible sex god! All he had to do was melt Zeros cold, dark heart and show him a good time and then he would be his! Well in a perfect world.
Yes, that's right. Kaname would win zero over, rock his world and steal his heart. Then he would take Zero away with him, somewhere beautiful, where they could be alone. Yes, he would show Zero how much he loved him. How perfect they would be together and how wonderful it was to be the object of a purebloods affection.
He would make Zero love him.