A/N; I am so so so sorry that I didn't have this chapter up quickly but school has pretty much taken over my life and I've had so much coursework to do. I hope I didn't lose interest in the time that it took me to get this chapter too you.

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Chapter 4

"It's been 4 hours Cris, 4 whole hours" i was stood in the locker room trying to explain to my best friend why i was so anxious.

"Mer calm down! I don't see why you're getting yourself so worked up over this, you're the one that ended things with him, what's there to say he's not married or in a serious relationship. He's probably moved on Mer, don't get your hopes up." That is Cristina for you, she says things how they are, she's a no nonsense kind of person. I didn't need no nonsense right then I wanted him to not be married, to not be in a serious relationship, to be there for me and only me. the loud sound of a pager beeping snapped me out of my thoughts and I focused back on reality and realised it was my pager that was beeping. I scrambled through my locker to find it, as I'd thrown it in and completely forgot where it had landed. As I picked up my pager to see where I was needed I noticed Cristina watching me from behind her locker, she watched my face fall as I realised it wasn't Derek who was paging me, it was Dr. Bailey. I threw my lab coat on over my scrubs and ran to the ER to find Bailey and see what she wanted me for.

I crashed through the ER doors. Literally. I tripped on my shoe lace as I ran up to the doors and fell right through them. I fell to the floor and hit my head. I lay there for a minute and then got back up, red faced and embarrassed. I'd already turned everybody against me this morning by shouting at the chief, I didn't need this as well. I felt dizzy as I stood up and had to grab onto the wall, I walked over to where Bailey was stood. I heard muffled laughter and whispers from the nurses, I don't care what people think of me I just want to get my residency years over and done with. "You okay Grey?" Asked Bailey as I reached her. "Yeah, fine thanks" I muttered, I wasn't really I had a splitting headache from when I hit my head and the world was spinning around me but I didn't need everyone thinking I was a coward for not carrying on with my work so I lied to Bailey, not a big one, just a little white lie.

"Right as I don't condone you shouting at our chief in front of the whole hospital on your first day, no matter how bad your personal issues with the chief are, your doing the next 3 rectal exams that need doing." Bailey said as it as if it were the most normal thing in the world.

"You have got to me kidding me? I know shouting at the chief was not my best idea, but I had my reasons, personal reasons that despite what you all may think are actual reasons and warrant my screaming in the chiefs face. The sooner I get out of this place the better, none of you care about anyone but yourselves. I am Ellis Grey's daughter, I could have got in ANY surgical programme in the country, but i chose to come back here because the last time i came to this hospital everyone was lovely to talk to and actually cared about my feelings. But i was dillusional to think it would be the same as then." As i finished my speech i noticed every nurse, every doctor and every patient was watching my tirade. I decided it would be best for me to just walk out of the ER as soon as possible, but as i turned to move towards the ER doors the world started to spin and then everything went black.

"MEREDITH" I heard Cristina come crashing through the doors to trauma room 1. "What's up with her? What happened? Somebody answer me!"

I tried to open my eyes so Cristina could see I was fine but I couldn't. My eye lids were just too heavy for me to be able to open them. I tried to speak but the words wouldn't form. I had no clue what was happening to me and I started to panic. My breathing got heavier and felt myself start to hyperventilate.

"Grey, calm down you're gonna be okay. We're going to page Dr Shepherd and we're going to figure out what's wrong with you, just try and stay calm for now. Okay?" Bailey was being nice, she was trying to comfort me and it was working. I'd never been comforted in my life. My mother wasn't a touchy feely kind off person and I think I only ever hugged her once in my life never mind getting comforting words off her and Cristina just didn't hug she was supportive when I needed her but she never comforted me like Dr Bailey was comforting me.

It suddenly clicked in my head what she had said "We're going to page Dr Shepherd" She couldn't page Derek not until we'd had time to 'catch up' and sort out all of the problems from the past. I tried to tell her she couldn't page Dr Shepherd and that she needed to page someone else but I'd already heard her shouting to some nurse to page him. I decided I'd just have to relax and try not to worry, I mean worrying would only make me panic again and that wouldn't be a good idea.

"Did somebody page me?" I heard the distant but obvious voice of Derek as he ran into the ER.

"I did Dr Shepherd, we need you in here. One of our interns collapsed and she's not opening her eyes or responding in any way apart from a minor panic attack she had 5 minutes ago." I heard Bailey telling him as they both entered the trauma room I was in. I heard Derek gasp as he realised I was the intern that had collapsed.

"R..right okay. Erm...do we know what happened right before she collapsed? Anything that could tell us why she's not responding?" Derek asked.

"Erm yeah actually, she fell before as she ran into the ER, she must have tripped over something and she smacked her face on the floor. She didn't get up straight away but lay there for only about 30 seconds. When she stood up I think she went dizzy because she had to grab onto the wall. I asked her if she was okay and she said she was fine but she seemed a little dazed when she was talking to me. But then again she was angry so I wasn't sure whether it was just anger in her eyes." Bailey sounded worried as she recounted what happened only a few minutes before. She was right about one thing, I was angry, I was angry at the world, angry at the chief, hell I was even angry at my mother for simply being who she was.

"Oh right okay." Derek sighed and strolled slowly over to the gurney I was lying on.

"Meredith, Meredith, Meredith can you hear me? Squeeze my hand if you can." Derek was telling me to show him I was okay and I really really wanted to but I just couldn't squeeze his hand in mine. I didn't know why and I really wanted to but it just wasn't happening.

"How do you know her name? Nobody told you what her name was. Did they?" I heard one of the nurses questioning Derek. Oh shit I thought I don't need everybody knowing about my past relationships as well now.

"I saw it on her chart as I walked past. What's the big deal anyway? am I not allowed to know an interns name?" I heard Derek question, clearly slightly annoyed by all the fuss of him knowing my name. I was glad he never told them how he really knew my name though and that seemed to be enough motivation in itself for me too muster all the strength I had to open my eyes.

I looked around and saw several nurses and doctors all doing different things in the room. I finally found the one face I was looking for. Cristina's face. I needed to somehow reassure her I wasn't dead or dying for that matter.

"Cristina? Cris can you hear me? I'm fine okay, don't panic!" I saw my best friend look up as she heard her name and then watched her eyes light up as she realised it was me who'd said her name. Every pair of eye's in that trauma room turned to look at me. Clearly shocked I had managed open my eyes let alone speak, as I had been unresponsive less than a minute ago. All I could think about was whether Cristina was okay and I got my answer to that question pretty quickly as she ran around the gurney so she could hold my hand.

"Meredith hi. Welcome back to the world of consciousness you gave us quite a fright there." I heard Derek say in the most professional tone he could manage. "I head you had quite a nasty fall. Do you remember that? Can you tell me how you felt after you fell? Where you dizzy, hallucinating, anything along those lines just let me know."

"I remember it all. I remember running from the locker room to the ER, I remember tripping over my shoelace as I ran through the ER doors, I remember smacking my face on the floor as I fell. I remember lying there for a minute and then when I got up the world started to spin. I had to grab onto the wall so I could steady myself. I remember just being able to make out the outline of Dr Bailey and walking over towards her. I remember the poorly hidden giggles and whispers of all the nurses around me when I walked past them. I remember Dr Bailey ordering me to do the next 3 rectal exams that needed doing as some sort of punishment for me shouting at the chief this morning. I remember getting angry about that, saying some hurtful things and then I remember turning to run away and the world suddenly going black. I could hear everybody's conversations, everyone that was asking me to acknowledge them in some way. I heard it all I just couldn't do anything." I poured out everything I could remember of what had just happened. I saw nurses blush as I mentioned the fact that I heard their giggles and whispers and I saw Bailey's shock at the fact I had remembered all of that.

"Well at least w can rule out any memory loss. But we're going to send you for a CT just to be sure there's no bleed or anything else wrong with your brain. I'll have a nurse prep you for CT and we'll look at the, as soon as possible." Derek said smiling sweetly at me.

"Thank you Dr Shepherd." I acknowledged him with a light nod of the head and then I closed my eyes to try and stop the world from spinning.

A/N; I know it's short but I've already made you guys wait long enough for this chapter so I decided to finish it short and deliver it to you quicker. I generally don't know where i'm going with this story so it's getting kinda hard for me to write each chapter but hopefully you liked it fingers crossed you did anyway. As always please review this chapter and let me know what you think:* It's greatly appreciated.