A/n this will be my third chapter that I have written today for three different stories, I'm exhausted but I really want to write another chapter for this story. Also I would like for all of you if you haven't already check out my other stories but you don't have to.

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Bella's prov:

Edward was in love with someone else and I couldn't blame him because it has been twenty two years. I'm sick of being angry all of the time because it is tiring and I think for the first time in a long time I need to get away from everything and everybody. I walked away from Edward and headed into Renesmee's room to clear my head and to help her pack some of her things.

"I haven't talked to him yet" Renesmee said as soon as I walked into her room.

"I don't care anymore" I said disappointed.

"Why not? Thanks for helping me pack" Renesmee asked.

"He is in love with someone else and I'm your mother I love to help you do anything" I said honestly. Just then the door swung open and he casually walked into her room like it was no big deal that he was here, but that is how he always was and always will be.

"Renesmee, why don't you have your father help you pack? You two have a lot to catch up on" I compromised my way out of the deal and left them alone without any options to drag me with them. I started the car and sped off back to Charlie's house. I went straight up to my old room and laid down on the bed; I stayed up and read The Choice by Nicholas Sparks. I wished my love story was like Travis and Gabby's love story, but then I realized that wouldn't have made Edward special and I couldn't say the same about him either.

"Hey Bella!!" Jacob's voice boomed from downstairs.

"What?!!" I asked annoyed after I ran downstairs.

"I thought you would like to know that Edward has put us on patrol after the fight thing and that he personally assigned me to you" Jacob said a little disappointed and I couldn't blame him.

"Thanks, but why did Edward order it? Did Alice have a vision?" I asked confused.

"I don't know and as far as I know of Alice didn't have a vision yet" Jacob answered and I wonder how much Edward still loved me or still had feelings for me.

"Well at least I have company" I said nicely.

"Bells, you need to try to happy not just for Renesmee and everyone else but for yourself too" Jake said kindly.

"I'm trying but it is so hard especially because now he is here and he is in love with someone else" I cried out which looked silly without tears.

"Bells I know that your trying and I'm sorry for him being in love with someone else" Jake said sweetly.

"I'll get over it soon..I hope" I said regretfully.

"It takes time Bella, trust me I know" Jake said looking down and I felt bad that I was the one who hurt him like that. We sat in silence for a long time and soon after that he was asleep on the couch. I went back upstairs and waited for the sun to rise and the night to be over because this day was one of the worst days of my life. I went back downstairs at seven to see if Jake was up, but he was still asleep. There was a knock on the door and I went to open trying not to wake up Jake because he would probably spaz out worrying that it was a vampire or something.

"Hey mom, is Jake here?" Renesmee asked.

"Yes, but he is sleeping so you're going to keep me company" I order and then I grabbed her hand and dragged her in the kitchen.

"How was talking to your father?" I asked curious.

"It was good; he surprised me..in a good way" she replied with a grin on her face.

"Really? Wait I'm not surprised because he does that a lot" I said back.

"He missed us like crazy" she said carefully trying not to upset me.

"Did he tell you that he is in love with someone else?" I asked harshly.

"No, he didn't because all he talked about was you and the good 'ol days" Renesmee said bitterly back throwing my diss back in my face.

"Well then I'm going to go back the house; you can wait for your future husband to wake up or else he'll think I'm dead but it seems like I'm already dead to everyone else" I said coldly before abruptly leaving the table and running out to my car and speeding of to the Cullens house because I belonged nowhere else but Charlie's old abandoned house. I walked into the house and searched for Rosalie because I need her to make her feel worse than I already do because I couldn't be a more worse person than I am now.

"Can we talk?" I asked nicely.

"Sure, I guess but I'm not going to be dissing you today" Rose told me.

"Why not?" I asked baffled by her statement.

"Because your fragile and I feel sorry for you" Rose said honestly and I wish she didn't say that.

"Never mind then" I said bitterly.

"Why do you want people to make you feel bad?" she asked.

"Because I'm a terrible person" I burst out I couldn't hold it in anymore.

"No, you're not" she argued.

"You don't know what your talking about; ever since you guys left my coven was destroying every single vampire coven out there, I didn't parent Renesmee as much as I should have, I was abused everyday, I never stood up for myself, I didn't stand up for my daughter either, and most importantly I wanted to kill every single one of you" I yelled back.

"None of that makes you evil it makes you a vampire with a soul because that is what anyone would think or do if they want through the same poistion" Rosalie argued back and I fell in her arms dry sobbing; I couldn't try to be strong anymore because I need a true friend it doesn't matter if I don't have a lover I just need someone to care for me.

"Thank you" I said after I was done.

"Anytime" Rose smiled back.

"Bella its Aden!!" Alice screamed and all the horrible memories filled my eyes as I remembered the pain I went through and the abuse.

P.S. I know that this chapter isn't the best, but I'm exhausted from writing thanks for reading it anyway.