The impossible isn't impossible, your existence is proof of that.
Well, really I speak Spanish but I'm learning English, and to practice it, I write my fics in this language. If I make any spelling or grammar error (I'm not perfect), please advise, so I correct it. n..n
rewriting chapters...
Chapter 3:
"Welcome to the world? I want to kill The World!
"It's a girl!" Isha said shocked. "b-but.. How? How could you know that the child would be a girl?"
"You'll never have faith in me, right?" Elimu whispered so that only he could hear it.
"It's because you do things that you shouldn't!" The healer exclaimed. "Like give to The FireLady her daughter without bathing her!" Then he stretched forth his hand to point to Azula.
She was redder than a tomato, wrapped in a blanket in her mother's arms. Mai kept her against her chest while Zuko embraced them.
"If I didn't, is because she was just born and needs contact with her parents." Elimu replied. Isha was going to complain but she added. "Moreover, the water isn't hot, I can't give her a bath so. She may get sick."
Elimu picked up the container to Isha could inspect it. He checked the temperature of the water, and reluctantly he had to agree.
"ok, you are right…" Elimu then smiled and turned to Zuko.
"My lord , Could you heat the water please?" She said as Isha turned pale and felt fear, Azulon and Ozai would have sent her, or him, to decapitate by this.
"Girl! That's a lack of respect!"
"I'm not disrespectful! I'm being practical. The princess needs attention immediately, and the Firelord can heat the water with only moving his hand."
Zuko watched as they were arguing, He liked Elimu's attitude, Isha was very traditional. He looked his daughter, she was eating and Mai didn't seem so tired as when She gave birth to Kian. Turned his look to Elimu, who was waiting him to heat the water with the disapproving glare of Isha. With a moving of his hand, he did it. Elimu hurried to check that the water's temperature couldn't burn the princess, and approached to Mai.
"My lady, please let me take your daughter to give her a bath." Mai nodded and allowed her to take Azula. She slowly was recovering her consciousness that was lost in her childbirth.
"hey! I was eating very comfortable! Give me back to my..." Azula thought when something in her mind made 'click' and... "In what the hell I'm thinking?"
She tried to kick Elimu away with her, but she just laughed.
"don't worry little princess, you'll come back with your mommy soon." Elimu smiled, Azula wanted bend a lightning with her as the target. And Isha wanted to strangle her by what she said, or rather, the words that she said.
She placed Azula in the water.
"Your hands are cold but at least the water is hot." Elimu began scrubbing her skin to clear the blood that was covering her body, her hands were gentle with her without hurting her." this is very relaxing, It feels different of that time..."
"You have a healthy baby girl, my lady" The midwife said to Ursa. She was very tired by the effort.
Azula was feeling unprotected and vulnerable...but nobody embraced her to comfort her. The healer took her and placed her in the container with water, which was cold, very cold.
"Warm water is very hard work, right?" thought sarcastically.
He had forgotten the gentleness in his home, the healer washed Azula hurriedly and wrapped her with a blanket.
Ursa took her in her arms, she just was holding up her daughter against her chest. Azula saw as Ursa was smiling her. The door was opened and Ozai came into the room. He looked Ursa and after a the bundle in her arms, Azula.
He took the baby out of her mother's arms inspecting her. When he finished doing it he frowned, how he always does with Zuko.
"Any problem?" His wife asked looking him, but he didn't respond, he was looking at Azula, inspecting her while Ursa began worrying. He had a strange expression in his face, and then she knew what he was thinking.
"You will not do that test her, Right?"
"Why not?" An old tradition says that the newborn that is exposed to the fire and tries to touch it, will be a great bender.
"She was just born!" Ursa said scared. "You could hurt her!"
"and?" Ursa's eyes were opened horrified.
"Tell me what child haven't fear to the fire, If he feels will he going to burn?" *
Ozai made a small flame in his hand, neither too close nor too far away on her. She was cold because the healer washed her with cold water. And when she felt the heat of the fire, tried approaching her hand in the fire, but Ozai turned it off. He was smiling her, but her mother didn't. When Ozai gave to Ursa his daughter, Azula could see a sad look in her face.
"I finished" Elimu said, at the time she gave to Azula a big smile. "How you feel little princess?"
"uncomfortable, I hope not to see you again…" Then Isha approached to the princess and examined her, while Elimu was giving Mai the post-partum care.
"She is very healthy." Isha said when finished his inspection. Zuko took her in his arms, he was smiling.
"you seem like a big idiot… but… Why? Why you smile? Why are you happy?"
"Zuko" Mai called him weakly, she was tired. "Let me see her."
He sat next to Mai depositing Azula in her arms. She held her daughter against her chest as she leaned over Zuko's chest. Mai placed a gentle kiss on her forehead and gave a sweet smile.
"We need to call the doctor! Or I'm hallucinating or you are sick! When you began to smile so?" Azula was surprised and puzzled. "What happened with The Mai without feelings or emotions?" Azula looked at Mai like someone who sees a stranger.
"What happen honey?" She asked her daughter.
"okay... It's official, I can't recognize you. Who are you and What you did with Mai?"
Mai still looking at her, Azula's eyes were set on her. It was the first time that Azula saw Mai with loose hair and disheveled clothes, She could see the skin of her chest, over her breasts, and when her own stomach began asking for food. Mai realized in where her daughter's eyes were fixed.
"Are you hungry?" She slipped the cloth which covered her chest, to let Azula could see completely her breast.
"If you think that I going to put this in my mouth, you are very mistaken." She approached her nipple to Azula's mouth, but her mouth wouldn't open. Mai's smile disappeared and was replaced by a worried face, and then turned to Zuko.
"Is something wrong?" he asked.
"She doesn't eat..."
"maybe, isn't hungry, she ate before that Elimu bathed her." Zuko said but she wasn't convinced, He sigh and turned to Elimu, who was talking with Toph about Wan Shi Tong and the desert. "Elimu"
"Yes, my lord? " she responded.
"She doesn't eat." Mai said before he could ask.
"don't worry my lady, try again later, is possible that she is satisfied or she has air in her stomach" Mai opened her mount to ask but the girl replied. " To get the air out of her stomach, placed her on your chest, and give her some soft pats on her back."
Mai did it, but nothing. "She isn't hungry, her stomach is small, my lady, is normal." She turned to Zuko and said. "My lord, your wife and daughter need rest."
"I'm not sleepy." Azula tried to protest moving her arms while screaming, but it seems like that she was agreeing with Elimu. She and Toph left the room. Azula asked herself in which moment Isha was gone.
Mai accommodated her daughter in her arms, while Zuko put an arm on her shoulders and the other around his daughter. Azula heard as Mai began to hum a song for her. Her eyelids began falling. She relaxed a few second, but when opened her eyes, saw a white room without walls but with an only door, and the world sitting in front of it.
"Hello little princess" He said smiling at her.
"Everybody smile today? Is the International day of the smile?" Azula asked angrily rolling her eyes.
"What is wrong with you? You should be happy!"
"Why? Why I should be happy?" Her voice had a hint of sourness.
"Is your birth!"
"That's not good! I'm my brother's daughter!" His look told her he didn't understand her problem. " If Ozai was a very bad father, Zuko will be worse!" she explained. "I don't want to be the daughter of those two traitors. I know that Mai will hate me and Zuzu will betray me! They always hate me, and..."
"Why she is singing for you If she hates you?" He asked interrupting her.
"What?" Azula looked him bewildered, when all was in silence, she could hear a song...
"Sleep, sleep and dream to have, one life without the temptation of delusions of gold and power, of judge even if reason exist."
"That's Mai's voice, your mother now…" The World said. "If she hates you... Why is singing for you?"
"What the hell is this lyric?" Azula asked ignoring his question.
"The gold, the power or the fame meant nothing for your new parent. These three things meant everything for you, and this led you to the madness."
"that's ridiculous! I didn't want gold, and..."
"The gold symbolizes greed, your ambition of dominating the four nations, to be the best of the bests. You had fame by to be The Firelord's daughter… and power... you could control everything, people, armies, your friends and the fire, but not the failure… Your father never taught you how face it."
"The avarice is the slavery of the soul and the liberty."
""that's because the failures are errors, and these show the incompetence of the person.
"You still are the slave of Ozai's ambition. You repeat what he taught you. Never love, always hates."
"the love is useless, a lie to children..."
"If it's a lie, then is non-existent, then no one loves you, it's so in your opinion..." Azula didn't understand where he was going with that. "then tell me, If Ty Lee didn't love you, Why she didn't kill you in the Boiling Rock? If Mai didn't love you, Why she and Zuko tried to integrate you in their family? And If Zuko didn't love you? Why he didn't send you to the prison? Why he sent you to the mental sanatorium? Why tried to help you? Why give you the best medical care of all Fire nation?"
"Repentance, guilty conscience, something about that crap." she responded as if it were obvious.
"That the envy never kiss you, that the hatred and evil never hug you…That the hatred and evil never hug you…" Mai continued singing.
"Why you thought Ozai loved you?"
"I was a child and I believed in his lie." The World was going to talk but Azula did it before him. " The World was going to talk but Azula did it before him. " I know what you are going to say."
And imitating his tone of voice said. "If Ozai loved you, Why he scared you too? If he loved you, He would have to give you love even if you were weak. He put in your way the hatred as your best friend, he hated his brother and wanted you hate your own brother too, He had envied everything what Iroh had, and never saw all he lost…"
"Did you envy your brother just because your father told you to do it?" Azula began remembering moments of her life, her mother always had kisses and hugs for Zuko and scoldings and sermons for her.
"Sleep, sleep and dream to be…From your biggest treasure the guardian, the love that I have capsize in you, from that you have a lot to give"
"Men love women who are like their mothers." She thought. "If Mai is like Ursa, this won't to end good."
"Why you say it?" Azula just shook her head, she wasn't going to reply that. "then..." he meditated a few seconds. "Tell me another thing, a simple question... Why they smiled having you in their arms?"
"How I could know it? Ask them…"
"I know which would be their respond... They love you by the simple reason that you are you, part of their family, their daughter..."
"The love, if it exists, is for the weak!" Azula said angrily.
"No, the love is to the strong because they haven't fear to feel pain or be betrayed by anyone, people who can overcome anything, any obstacle… moreover, if the love is for the weak, How you was defeated? Zuko and Katara believe in the love, friendship and peace, that make them weak..."
"They were two and I was one... " She said defensively.
" You, Mai and Ty lee were three and Ba Sing Se million people and... Who won?"
"That's different... they were simple persons, easily manipulable..."
"let me change the question... when you were hunting Zuko, you needed an elite team, right? you couldn't do alone, and you chose Mai and Ty lee. Why them?"
"Because they had skills that were useful to me."
"And also because you believe in 'unity is strength' and 'divide and conquer'."
"You couldn't do it alone, you couldn't capture the Kyoshi warriors without help, or capture the avatar and conquer Ba Sing Se, as you couldn't capture your uncle and brother. Your fall began when Mai saved Zuko, and Ty lee chose Mai over you, and Why do you think they didn't choose you?"
"Because they are both fools! but..." Azula continued talking before he could talk. " You are going to tell me that isn't true and repeat me what Mai say in the Boiling Rock 'She loves Zuko more than She fears me'." she said this with a hint of anger in her voice. " And Ty Lee, well...hmm... I don't know what happened with her..." She said carelessly.
"I'm going to try explaining you this... hmm... You needed that Ozai showed you that he loves you, but when he didn't make this, you fell in the madness. right?
Azula gave him a ' I don't understand how we were talking About Ty Lee, and now you are talking about my father' glare.
The key is the display of affection, want to see the other person happy. Zuko was worrying about Mai's happiness and she didn't betray him. She never hurt Ty lee by it she chose save her. If you could forgive at yourself, and accept this opportunity, You would be happy... look at Mai, she forgave Zuko and now she is the Firelady." Azula glared at him.
"ok ok, I think you should go now." Azula began feeling her body heavy and tired, She couldn't remain standing for more time...
"For what is the door? if I leave here when I'm fainting."
"It's only for alchemists… oh , before I forget it, you should be more careful, almost you die again..." he sighed and continued talking. "Elimu will stay there for you, She must force you keep alive by any method..."
Azula already couldn't hear him, she was asleep , sleep without dreams and woke up hours later.
"I don't think at any time I would want have children." Azula heard as a woman's voice said.
She tried to searched the voice's origin, but she couldn't move, she couldn't move her head or any part of her body. Looked around her and saw that she was in a cradle with emblems of four nations over her.
"This is some that nobody would hope to see... the princess of the Fire Nation with the emblems of Water Tribes, Earth Kingdom and Air Nomads... In what the hell Mai and Zuzu are thinking?"
"Isn't so bad." Mai's voice said. "Already have two and love them, maybe is hard bring children to the world but worth the effort."
"What is her name?" Toph asked.
"Azula"
"What?" Toph cried while she fell off the chair" Why your daughter has the name of Sparky's crazy sister?"
"Zuko had a feeling guilty of her death." Mai sighed and added with a soft voice. "And the people need removing some old customs and traditions as the tradition of "never give to your child the name of damn person."
"Do you believe that your daughter has a damn name?"
"Not, but I think that the people will put the burden of her aunt on her shoulders, As if she was her replacing..."
The room was kept in silence until Toph broke it up.
"How did Azula die?"
"Accidentally, Kian was learning to walk and tried to go to Azula. She was quiet, and at other times never tried to hurt or kill Kian where she was close to him. We didn't think that she was to try to kill him when he embraced her legs. Azula stabbed him with an iron, thanks to Agni the iron bar didn't perforate any vital organ or Kian would be dead." Azula heard as her voice was trembling. "We attack her, but we just wanted took her away of Kian, but my knives immobilized her against the wall and the fire of Zuko..." She shuddered. "Azula couldn't move… the despair and the fear forced us to attack her at the same time, we didn't think..."Mai just could say that by their guilt, she was dead. "Zuko's fire was multi color as the dragons's, burned her quickly... one lung and half of her heart…"
Toph and Mai were remained in silence some moments.
"Your daughter is awake." Toph Said.
"Can you bring her to me please?"
Without responding, Azula saw as one head with blind eyes and black hair passed over her. She extended her arms and took her with care and carry her to Mai, who waited her with her arms opened, sat on the bed. As soon as she was in her arms, Mai placed a gentle kiss on her forehead.
"If I could move my arm, would clean my forehead…" Mai slipped the cloth which covered her breast for feeding Azula. "If you think that I go to suck this, you are insane!" Mai sighed.
"What is wrong, Azula?"
"I am sure that Zuzu's mouth was here." Mai caressed the bottom lip of Azula with her nipple and unfortunately for Azula, her stomach growled by the hungry. "I don't go to suck this even if I die of hunger!"
Mai began to worried, She didn't understand that she was doing bad. Mai followed tried to feed her, but Azula, contrary to her stomach's wishes, refused to feed her.
"Calm Sunshine, If you get nervous, she won't want to eat." Toph said.
"And If she doesn't eat, she could die o maybe mean that she is sick…" her tone sounded distressed.
"Did you try squeezing it? Maybe if she smells the milk, she would want eating. Maybe she doesn't know how eat…" Mai tried this, but Azula continued refusing to eat, just the smell of milk sent a pulsed of pain to her stomach, Azula now fighting with the hungry and the pain of her stomach and the temptation of eating.
"I don't like the women! Why her breast looks very tempting?" Azula couldn't apart her eyes to Mai's breast. "Crap! Something to happen!"
At this moment, Elimu entered in the room…
"Good day my ladies! How is the princess?"
"She doesn't want to eat…" Toph said.
Elimu looked at Mai and then at the princess.
"You are stressed my lady, maybe your breasts are hard and the little princess can't suck, or she doesn't know your smell... maybe if you take a bath your body relax and she can eat."
"What if that doesn't work?" Mai asked.
"I will put her a catheter, It's going to force her to feed." Mai gave her a 'What is that?' look. "I go to find one." Elimu said leaving the room.
"I will take a bath in which she returns. Can you take care of her?"
"sure" Toph said and took Azula out of Mai's arms. She got up out the bed, and walked to the bathroom and Azula turned her eyes to Toph. "Little Azula, If I were you, I would eat, I heard as Elimu said Sparky that If you don't eat, she will put in your nose a plastic tube until your stomach and the milk passes inside."
"of course... Now tell me a story that really scared." Azula thought sarcastically, but when the Ty lee's blond clone entered in the room with a plastic tube in her hand, she began worrying.
"Well, this enter by the nose and reaches the stomach…" said smiling.
"She can't put THAT in my nose!" She walked to her. "You don't think make it right?" She was approaching to her. "Mai... When you are going to exit the bathroom?" Elimu was standing in front of her. "Maybe, This isn't so bad..." And she measured the distance between her mouth and her stomach with the plastic tube.
"Where is the milk?" Toph Asked.
"This sucks it out of the breast of her mother."
"means that by hook or by crook I will drink Mai's milk." Azula thought seeing the catheter and turning at the bathroom's door, again at the catheter and again at the bathroom's door… Elimu took the catheter and approached it to her nose. "I will not cry, I will not cry, I will not cry…"
When Elimu would go to place the catheter into the Azula's nose...
"Sunshine, your daughter wants to eat!" Toph cried while Elimu was covering her ears and Azula… crying so loudly.
*(usually, the newborns mobility is reduced, then the only thing that they try touching is their mother.)
The song that Mai is singing is 'Duerme' of Mago de Oz, is in Spanish but I don't find one lyric like this in English.
Second, the catheter isn't plastic. I don't know with what is made, and third, I'm still in Villa María, my aunt decided to we can remain here for a week more... (this town is more boring than looking the wall)
I don't know WHEN I'll really come back to my home.
Thanks for reading n_n