Authors Note: Okay here's another chapter. I am very nervous about this one, you'll see why. Yes it's gone to an M rating don't know if there is enough to make it an M but just to be safe I've put it M.
Disclaimer: I don't own Hannah Montana or any of the associations with the show. I own nothing in this story.
Chapter 4: My Sacrifice
After the laughter dies down, I look over to see my alarm clock stating it was 5.30pm. Suddenly feeling extremely hungry but not wanting to leave the bed I reluctantly ask "Wanna get some food?"
"Sure, my stomach is talking to me" pointing to her growling stomach
I chuckle "Truscott when doesn't your stomach talk?" to which mine growls
"When it's being interrupted by yours!" she jokes softly poking my belly
I immediately blush at the contact "S-Shut up"
"Aw don't be embarrassed by your bottomless pit making un-girly noises, your with me I couldn't care less" I sit up looking down at Lilly on the bed
"Bottomless pit! Me?! Ha! Your one to talk!" I quip back
"Hey! I eat in moderation I have self control" she boasts
"Lils don't lie it's unbecoming"
"I'm not lying"
"Are too"
"Are not"
"Right that's it" before I knew what I was doing I was straddling Lilly, Okay do something, I grab both her wrists in one hand and pin them over her head, Okay that makes things worse do something else before she freaks out, I start to tickled her sides with my free hand keeping things innocent
"Lil, don't lie to me or I won't stop!" I continue to tickle her sides, stomach and underneath her chin
"S-S-S-TOP I-T-T P-P-PLEASE!!" she manages to blurt out between fits of giggles
"Oh you want me to stop, then admit you lied to me" I hope she never admits it, as the girl squirming beneath me is creating all sorts of feelings up and down my body with her laughter, her feel on my fingers and her movements between my legs, it's too much.
"O-okay I admit it"
I stop quickly getting off her and finding the nearest pillow and throw it at her head, I knew what was coming, I turn and run downstairs towards the kitchen
"MILEY! IT'S PAYBACK TIME!" I hear as I reach the kitchen. I hear heavy footsteps coming down the stairs
"AH HA!" Lilly says reaching the bottom of the stairs and pointing at me
"Yeess, can I help you?" I ask innocently
"It's payback time Stewart" in a serious tone
"Okay, how about I make it up to you, some pizza? Hm? Yummy pizza?" I offer while rubbing my stomach for empathises on yummy, raising my eyebrows for peace.
"Don't you be nice to me when I'm mad at you, and yes on a big plate." Lilly relented
"Okay good"
I put the pizza in the oven and we wait sitting at the kitchen table talking about random things until the pizza was done.
"Okay I'm gonna give you an extra piece for not punishing me" I state putting a extra slice on Lilly's plate
Lilly leans towards me as I do this and whispers into my ear "What makes you think I'm not gonna punish you" each breath on my ear sending shivers and goose bumps all over my body, she pulls away and looks at me "Miley? You alright? I'm just kidding"
Shame "oh? I mean OH! Right very funny" I back away as quickly as I can
"Do you have any ice cream?" she asks
"Ice cream? You just got a pizza!?"
"So?" she shrugs
"Ice cream and pizza don't mix" I tell her
"I'm not gonna put ice cream on the pizza Miley" she raises a smile
"Well duh, I meant the tastes would be weird" I try to explain
"You're weird" her witty response
"No trust me on this you're the weird one of this pair"
"Oh am I now, what are you? The pretty face?" she queries
Pretty face? I try to hide my face in the freezer to cool down my red cheeks "No! Well I mean yes but no" I try joking to change the subject
"Anyway, what the ETA on that ice cream?" she asks
"Here but eat your pizza first"
We eat our pizza's while sitting at the kitchen table, once we finish Lilly reaches for the ice cream and takes a couple of scoops into her bowl then walks over to the fridge to get some strawberry dessert sauce and whipped cream, she sits down "What!" she asks
"Nothing nothing" I shake my head
"Then stop staring" she asks, was I staring? Miley concentrate!
"Sorry"
I watch her squirt the strawberry sauce all over the ice cream then creating a mountain of whipped cream on top, she looks at me "You're doing it again! Miley! Miley? Miley!"
I'm brought back to reality "What!? What?"
"What's wrong?" she asks with concern
"Nothing just thinking about whipped cream and you-your earlier comment that you take things in moderation, total lies, eh?" Idiot!
She heads towards the couch "Yeah I know but life's short you should enjoy it while you can" she sits down and notices me with my head cocked to the side smiling "What are you so happy about"
Your cute little behind I shake my head "Just glad you're here"
I sit down next to her and turn on the telly with the remote; I glance to the side briefly and then do a double take as what I saw was too much,
Lilly staring into the telly while taking her little finger dipping it in the whipped cream and then sucking it off her finger, my eyes widen and I bite my bottom lip in pure lust, she begins to turn her head and I quickly face the telly, breathing hard.
I turn again; she takes a big dollop of whipped cream and strawberry sauce on her index finger and licks it off with her delicate soft tongue
HOLY CRAP! Is the only thought going through my head along with Her tongue looks so soft and pink she breaks my trail of thought my waving her hand in front of my face looking into my glazed over eyes
"Miley? Come back to earth, Hello? Earth to Miley?"
"Hmmmm?" in a dreamy voice
"Do you want any of my ice cream?" bringing the bowl towards me
"No!" I said with way too much force "I mean no, I want you to have it all, I mean I need you to, I mean no thanks" Smooooooth
"Alright" she replies with a confused look she then buries her face in the bowl eating everything in sight, Good god! Stop it! Stop it Miley! Please stop licking the bowl Please Please…don't stop
I need to get out of my head I look back at the telly for like 3 seconds before looking back at Lilly who puts the bowl down and looks at me
"What?" she asks, I laugh, I take my hand and put the tip of my index finger on the tip of her nose and I wipe off a bit of whipped cream, without thinking I lick the cream off my finger
"Ewwwwwww" Lilly's face cringes
"What? Its only whipped cream"
"Not that the fact you sort of licked something off me in a way"
I shudder at the thought "Lilly don't be such a drama queen" trying to brush it off as nothing
"I'm not, anything else you would like to lick off me?" Don't tempt me
"No" with that she puts her arm around my shoulders.
"Gotcha" I freeze instantly Gotcha? Got what? She knows?
"W-what?" I manage to speak
"Well I told you, you were still gonna get punished, so I decided to mess with your head with the added bonus that I can now call you weird for licking whipped cream that had been on my nose, I'm not so weird now am I? Weirdo"
Relief is the only thing I feel "Very funny Lilly, my sides are hurting from all the laughing" She tightens her grip on my shoulders
"Unless you think you should be punished further?" oh yes, yes I do!
"No, no it was very good, totally even" she eases her grip but brings her other hand to her link in with her other hand around my shoulder and I rest my head on her shoulder. Heaven.
We stay like that for at least half a hour but it seems longer I look over to the clock, "Come on Lilly let's get changed it's almost 7.30" she releases me and we head up to my room to get our PJ's, Lilly grabs her clothes and heads to the bathroom, as soon as I hear the bedroom door shut I fall back on my bed and sigh loudly releasing some of the tension that had built up since dinner, I look around for what to wear
Shorts, no the contact would send me over the edge, bottoms definitely and a long sleeve PJ top
I change and head out, where I see the bathroom door slightly open, I close my eyes immediately but the temptation is too much and I slightly open one and see something I will never forget, one of Lilly's bare legs in all its glory for literally two seconds before its gone and the door fully shuts.
I head downstairs where I grab some popcorn and drinks and head over to the couch to wait for Lilly, a couple of moments later I hear footsteps and I look over towards the stairs and I see two bare legs coming down covered in only a light blue slightly tight shorts and her top half clothed in a light blue tank top, fair to say my mouth was open at the sight before me.
She reaches the couch and sits right next to me our legs touching, turns to me "Well? The movie?" she asks
"W-well" my voice breaks "what with today's events we didn't get time to go to the video shop remember?"
"Oh yeah! Well what do we do?"
"We can watch whatever movie is on TV?"
"Okay"
I flick on the telly and the movie Terminator is about to start Oh man it's a scary movie
"Oh I love this film" Lilly says
"Oh me too" I lie, Oh what am I thinking an unstoppable killing machine hunting down a women with only a normal human man to protect her it's too scary for me I'm gonna have loads of nightmares-
"Are you alright? You're not swared of the wig machine are wu?" Lilly asks in a baby voice
"No! I'm not just a little apprehensive" I shoot back
"Appre-what? Don't cover up with your big words, you're scared but I'll protect you"
"Really how?" I ask intrigued.
She lies down on the couch and motions me to lie next to her with me between her and the back of the couch; "I'll be Kyle Reese and you can be Sarah Connor" she says, then in a low voice "Come with me if you want to live."
I jump at the invite, she gently rolls me onto her with half of my body on half of hers, wraps her arms around me linking her hands together tightly and I rest my head on her chest and the movie begins.
5 minutes in I regret being in this position as I could inhale the scent of Lilly, I hadn't realised my hand had somehow found its way to resting on Lilly's stomach.
I was too busy listening to the breaths of Lilly to notice the film as my head was on her chest and could hear each breath she took along with the slow relaxing sound of her heart beating. I feel safe, protected and happy.
The movie gets to its scary bits, the removing of the eye Gross! Her grip tightens, she knew I was scared, I'm pulled closer and I feel as if I could sink into her body it was the perfect fit for me but was it for her?
The movie continues and so are my levels of sexual frustration and tension, each time she moves tingle's go through my body, feeling the heat radiating from her body increases my body temperature to almost sweating points and I didn't want to sweat as it would provoke Lilly to thinking something was wrong but the problem was something was right.
I feel ashamed, guilty and a bit of a creep for taking unquestioned pleasure from our current positions, unconsciously my index finger of the hand that was resting on her stomach had begun making circles,
"Mmh, what are you doing?" I stop remembering the stomach it belonged to
"Er, nothing, I don't know" I said not looking up at Lilly to hide my crimson red face
"No, it's alright, it just my mom does that well used to, I'm a bit too old now, it was just a bit of de javu" she explains
"Oh" is all I could add.
We went back to watching the movie, Kyle Reese is close to death and I felt hurt, why? I have no idea.
The terminator then appears in all its scary glory dragging itself to kill Sarah, "AGH!" I turn my head into Lilly's neck my nose buries into her soft touch, Lilly tightens her grip and rests the side of her chin against the top of my head whispering softly into my ear "Shh Miles I've got you"
The movie ends, "I have to use the little girls room" I quickly get up and walk very fast upstairs, getting into the bathroom and locking the door, breathing heavily I go to the sink and run the cold tap splashing the refreshing cool water onto my very hot and flustered face "aaah" are the only words to come out, I look down to see a small but visible patch on the front of my PJ bottoms
Agh! Oh god! Oh god! Oh god! What do I do? OH GOD! LILLY! Please don't have any on her! Agh!
I reach down to feel the wetness through my clothes an instant shot of pleasure shoots through me at the touch "oh god" slips through my lips.
I take my hand under the fabric, slowly massaging little circles, feeling and thinking of Lilly,
My mind wanders to the events of the day the touches of skin on skin "mmh",
My hand slowly increases in speed "mmmh" biting my bottom lip,
Lilly on top of me "l-li- mmmmh",
Me on top of Lilly tickling and hearing the sounds of cute giggling "oh god lil",
Lilly sucking her finger "OOOH!" too loud,
Lilly licking her finger with her soft, wet, delicate tongue "MMMMMH"
I bite my bottom lip to stop the screams being louder, increasing the speed, thinking of me and Lilly snuggled together with her scent filling my close proximity the feel of her breath on me…"OH GOD LILLY!" reaching my climax, I collapse in a heap on the floor, resting my back against the wall, breathing even harder.
BANG! BANG! "MILEY! ARE YOU ALRIGHT!!" Lilly pounding on the door, shouting in an extremely concerned voice,
"Mmmmh?" I reply in a dreamy far off voice "Y-yeah I'm f-fine" my voice cracking and stuttering as I try to regain my composure
"Are you sure, you screamed my name" her voice calmer from hearing mine
"Yeah I just...stubbed my toe on the cabinet" Stubbed my toe, nice one (!)
"Oh, well be more careful you big dork! I nearly fell over trying to get here"
"Oh sorry, I'll be out in minute; could you get me a drink of water? I'll meet you downstairs" I didn't really want a drink but I needed her to leave quickly
"Okay" and off she went.
I stare into the mirror "What are you doing?"
I quickly clean myself up and change into different PJ's, unfortunately I only had shorts and a tank top left.
I begin the descent downstairs not knowing how to explain the change in clothes but it didn't matter because as soon as Lilly came into view, I was a washed with a sea of guilt and shame, I felt like a stalker, a creep, a…loser.
I look over at the clock, coming up to midnight "Time for bed?" I ask
"Yeah sure, it's getting late"
We walk over to the living room with our sleeping bags lying side by side, turning the lights out, we got into our beds.
I turn my back to Lilly "Night Lils"
"Night Miles"
5 minutes later, I hear Lilly's breathing rhythm and I know she's asleep, we've had so many sleepovers I can tell by her breathing when's she's asleep also she can't last long when her head hits the pillow.
I turn to face her, lying on my side, she's facing me with her hands together likes she's praying underneath her cheek, we are sort of close but not suspiciously close, I shuffle forward a little bit she's at arm's length I could rest my palm on her cheek if I wanted and god do I want to.
Her face is at peace, breathing steady, her hair slightly covering her face, I bring my hand to her face to tuck a stray hair behind her ear so I can see her face fully, and the barest of contact sends shivers down my spine.
She stirs a bit and I retract my hand quickly, her expression changes from peaceful to a frown on her lips and eyebrows draw closer, her nose scrunches in a form of anger but her eyes are still closed, her breathing still steady.
Was it me? Does she repulse at my touch? A girl's touch? I can't do this.
I take the decision right then and there, no more, I can't do this anymore, I need to stop the Lilly feelings, I wouldn't be able to bear day to day living without her in my life she makes things so much more enjoyable and fun and I can't risk losing her as a friend if I try to do something.
So do I sacrifice my friendship with her or my happiness?
I look at her again.
Happiness it is then.
When you are with me, I'm free
I'm careless, I believe
Above all the others we'll fly
This brings tears to my eyes
My sacrifice
Authors Note: You can tell why I'm nervous now, I'd really like to know what you thought of this chapter. Anyway hope you enjoyed reading it, and don't hate me too much for the ending. The song is 'My Sacrifice' by Creed, again not mine.
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