It was silent for a few minutes. I couldn't bare the silence. What was he thinking? I couldn't look at his face because if it read what I thought it would read then I couldn't handle it. I have been with him as a friend for two months and we developed a good friendship, in my opinion. I then heard footsteps come towards me and felt that Ellis sat next to me on the bed. I knew he was trying to find the nicest words to turn me down. This isn't the first time it has happened. When I was a junior in high school I liked someone and showered them with stories and when I told them it was me they told me that they didn't like me that way and I wasn't their type but they would go for my ex-best friend Heather. I always feared rejection after that. "Lu…" He said. "Ellis if you don't like me like that then it's fine. I'll just asked to switch rooms so I can room with Louis." I told him as I got up. He grabbed my hand I looked at him. He looked up and I looked into his blue eyes trying to read what he was thinking."Lu I-I-I don't know-" He said before I cut him off. "Look it's fine Ellis I understand." I told him after I left. I went downstairs and went up to Louis."Hey I want to room with you is that fine?" I asked him. He pulled me away from the others."What happened?" He asked me. "I blurted out that I liked him. Then he was speechless. I left knowing that he would turn me down." I told him. "Are you sure?" He asked me. "Well I-I'm not entirely sure." I told him. "Luna why didn't you stay?" He asked me. "I'm afraid of rejection that's why. It has happened before and I don't want it to happen again." I told him. "Look Luna you ran away from Ellis even if he did like you. You have to talk to him. The longer you wait the more awkward it will get. Go talk to him." Louis told me. "I can't." I told him. "Luna you have to." Louis told me. He then looked passed me. I turned around to see Ellis in the doorway. "Come on Luna here is your chance." He whispered to me as he pushed me his way.
Ellis took my hand and we went back to our shared room to talk in private. I returned to my spot on the bed. He sat beside me and didn't let go of my hand."You wrote the poem for me?" He asked. "Yes I did." I told him. "I liked it." He told me. "Thanks." I told him. "And that picture of us that fell out of your drawing book is nice too." He told me. "You saw that?" I asked him. "Yeah your really good at drawing Lu." He told me. "Thanks Ellis." I told him. There was a moment of awkward silence before us and I laid down on the bed. I knew what was coming. A tear rolled down my face. I took a deep breath and waited for the words of heartbreak. "When you said that you liked me Lu. I was kind of shocked at first because I thought you didn't because you acted so friendly around me. I never thought you would like me." He took a breath. Where was he going with this? Is he trying to let me down easy? If he was it wasn't going to make it easier for me. "I liked Zoey because she was so pretty and good with handling a gun but when I met you. You were different from her and I admired that about you. I put my feelings aside from you and tried to get Zoey because I never thought that you would like me." He explained. I looked at him totally shocked. So he did like me back? Or was this the part where he broke my heart."Lu I like you too. I don't want to be without you. When I'm around you my heart races and I can't take my eyes off of you because you are so beautiful." He told me. Now how could he hide all of this? How could he? Or did I miss his hints and signs of liking me? I looked at him and smiled. I sat up and looked at him. I hugged him and he hugged me back. "Please don't switch rooms Lu. I like being around you." He told me. "I won't I promise." I told him. As we pulled away from the hug he cupped his hand in my face. He inched his face closer to mine until his soft lips were touching mine. I snaked my arms around his neck and pulled closer to him. My heart was racing and his touch was intoxicating. I never thought I would have my first kiss with a guy who made me feel this way. Yeah that is right I've never had my first kiss, well until now. When we parted I smiled at him. I grabbed my sketch book and my pencils and got up. "Shall we proceed downstairs?" I asked him. "Whatever you want to do Lu." He told me. "Then we shall go!" I dramatically said as I pointed out the door. He chuckled and I smiled at him. "Will I ever get to see your drawings?" He asked me."When I feel comfortable with you seeing them yes I will. That is a definite promise." I told him. We always had this thing where we always promised each other something. It was our little thing and no one else did it so we did as an inside friendship thing. He nodded understanding of my personal went downstairs and I saw Louis waiting at the bottom of the stairs. "Did you here anything?" I asked him. "No…" He trailed off. I gave him an untrusting look. "Louis." I said. He winked at me and I nodded. Well one person knows.
We sat down at the loveseat and I started drawing a picture of Ellis and I asleep. I drew more pictures of Ellis than I did of anyone else. He didn't mind if I drew him. He told me one day when I was drawing. He was so sweet. I started humming a random song. He wrapped his arm around me and pulled me closer to him. I let him watch me draw us. I didn't really mind him watching me draw since he probably knew it was of the two of us. It took me a while to finish but I did and I looked at him. "What do you think?" I asked him. "I love it." He told me. I closed the book and leaned against him. I closed my eyes and curled up in his arms. I felt comfortable in his arms. I then thought of the song 'These arms of mine' from Dirty Dancing. It is such a good song.. He kissed my forehead and I just fell asleep in his arms. I was awoken by some small shakes."Lu wake up it is time for dinner." Ellis told me. I woke up in our room. He must of carried me to our room. I smiled at him and gave him a small peck on the lips and it felt like little shocks of electricity was being sent up my body. I got up and went downstairs with Ellis. When I reached the bottom of the steps Lizzi pummeled me. "I'MSOHAPPYFORYOU!" She said so fast I really didn't understand her. "Thanks Liz now can you let me go?" I asked her. She did and smiled at me.
She went in the kitchen as Ellis and I followed. Steve smiled at me and I smiled back. I never really talked to Steve. We really never interacted since we were polar opposites.I sat down next to Ellis and held his hand under the table as we were being served dinner. When Zoey got to me she dropped my plate in front of me. I questioned it but maybe she just dropped it because she lost her grip. Once we finished Ellis and I went to go sit on the couch with everyone else except Zoey and Francis. I snuggled up against him and tuned in and out of the conversations going around me. I listened to Ellis's heartbeat. It was beating so fast that I couldn't help but smile to myself. It had finally happened. What I had been wishing for all those months. I could feel myself slowly falling asleep in his arms.