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Bella stood there in shock. Was this really how it was going to go down? After everything he had put her through, after everything she had put herself through. Her jaw was slightly unhinged and her hands hung loosely at her sides. Edward paced away from her and faced the wall with his hands in his hair.

"I fucking hate it when you look at me like that. Like I let you down," his hands tugging in earnest at his hair now, "I didn't fucking sign up for this. I can't be what you want me to be, Bella."

"I don't ask you for anything, Edward. Nothing." Bella exclaimed as she slid down the wall.

"You think I don't fucking know that? You don't fight me on anything. You take whatever the fuck I throw at you. God, sometimes I wish you'd just…" with a growl Edward threw his fist into the wall, cracking the plaster.

Bella flinched and squeezed her eyes shut, "if you want me to go, well then you have to tell me."

"You think I don't want to tell you to go? Every fucking time you get that look on your face I want to tell you to get the fuck out. But I fucking can't. I don't know what the hell you did to me, but you fucking own me," with that Edward pounded into the wall three more times, splattering blood droplets to the stark white paint.

Bella scrambled to her feet and stumbled to him, taking his fist in her hand, "Please Edward, just stop. I'll do whatever you want Baby, I promise, I'll change it. Just…you're hurting yourself. Just stop." Bella grasped his hand in her tiny one and tried to take the pain away through her touch. At this point there were tears falling down her face and her nose was red.

Edward looked at her with the saddest green eyes she had ever seen and then looked off to the side letting her cradle his hand, "I know you would. That's the point Bells, you just don't get it." He shook his head in resignation and pulled her into his chest with his good arm. He knew she'd never be the one to leave, and he was too selfish to be the one to walk away. They'd made this life together. Now they had to live with it.

Two weeks later found them at yet another gig, in another college dive bar. Things had been better for Edward and Bella, or so she thought. They hadn't fought once and he hadn't had any friends over since their big fight. However, it didn't escape her notice that he'd only made love to her twice, and only kissed her when she initiated it. He was working extra shifts at the tattoo parlor and she had been spending more time with Alice in an effort to escape the lonely apartment. Jasper was usually there when she went over, and she watched in envy as he catered to Alice's every whim. Bella began retreating more and more into herself as Alice watched on in concern. Bella would assure her that everything was fine, but the light in her eyes was duller by the day.

Bella and Alice were sitting at a small table with the other girlfriends while they waited for the guys to take the stage. Bella listened to the conversations around her but didn't participate too much. Suddenly she felt a hand on her shoulder and looked up into familiar chocolate eyes, "Oh my god! Jake? What are you doing here?" Bella exclaimed while jumping up from her seat, showing the first excitement she had in weeks.

Jacob enveloped her in a tight hug while laughing and lifting her off her toes, "Bells! It's so great to see you! It's been so long. You never come around anymore," at the end of the sentence he sort of frowned, and it was clear he wanted to add, 'since you left Charlie's' but didn't.

Bella shook it off and continued to beam at him, "No I know, I suck! But you're here now! Why? What brings you to the city?"

"I live here now. I graduated and I'm going to a small school here to get my mechanics license. I want to open my own shop." Bella hugged him again, so proud of him. He had always been great with cars. She could help but noticed how grown up he was now. He was easily a foot and a half taller than her, and had cut off his long locks. Bella smiled again, and then turned to the stage when she heard the band starting. Her stomach got fluttery when she saw Edward staring at her. At first she smiled at him, just happy to see him, but it quickly faded when she saw his eyes darting from her to Jake. Bella made a small shake of her head, trying to convey that he wasn't bothering her, and that Edward should just leave it alone. She saw him look away from her and focus on the crowd and she sighed a huge sigh of relief.

Bella continued to catch up with Jake, eventually exchanging numbers with the promise of getting together soon for lunch. Bella returned to the table to watch the last song with Alice. Alice sent her a huge smile, thinking how nice it was to see a bit of the old Bella. Bella just smiled back and happily swayed to the music with Alice.

After the set was over Jasper wandered over to their table and placed a kiss on the top of both Bella and Alice's heads before sitting down. Bella glanced around in confusion, "Jazz, where's Edward?"

Jasper looked at the table and then at Alice, then back at the table, "Um, I think he's backstage or something. Probably messing around with his guitar. You know how he is Bells."

Bella frowned at him before rising from the table and heading towards the back. She made her way down the hall and found the small seating area backstage for the bands. When she got there she saw Edward leaning over a leggy blond as she held a tiny spoon to his nose. Bella fought the bile that rose in her throat at the sight. Edward looked up and locked eyes on her. He didn't break his stare at all as he brought his hand to his nose and sniffed deeply. Bella didn't flinch this time. She calmly walked towards him and sat on his knee. Edward frowned slightly and then put his arm around her waist. Bella looked pointedly at the blond next to him and Edward turned towards her, forgetting the woman was even there. Edward nodded and smiled at the chick before picking Bella up and placing her in front of him. He stood up as well and grabbed her hand, walking towards the exit. Together they entered the bar and made their way to the table where Jazz and Alice were. Edward sat and pulled Bella onto his lap. Alice quickly brought them into conversation, while Jazz did his creepy stare into your soul thing with Edward. Jazz eventually shook his head and looked towards Alice and jumped back into her conversation. Edward turned his head to Bella's and stared into her eyes for a moment before fingering her nose ring. Bella knew it made him feel all caveman like he had marked her or something, so she just let him have his fun. However, she had to look away from his eyes, because his fucked up pupils were making her antsy. Edward leaned in and started trailing kisses along her neck and Bella leaned into him with a sigh. She felt his hand creeping along the inseam of her jeans and she quickly covered his hand and moved it to rest on the outside of her thigh. When she looked up, she noticed that while he was kissing her neck, his eyes were focused intently on the bar. Bella turned her head to follow his gaze and saw that he was glaring at Jake at the bar. Bella made a squeak and pulled his face from her neck and turned it to look at her.

"Baby it isn't like that. He's been my friend since I was a toddler. He's just a friend. I promise," Bella said while quietly staring into his eyes. He just nodded briskly and looked back throughout the club.

They just sat around hanging out for awhile, until the grinding of Edward's teeth started to really annoy Bella. She knew that it was a side effect of the coke, and it was driving her crazy. She was trying to not make a big deal of it, because he was right, she could've walked away if she wanted. She loved him, she couldn't pick and chose the parts to love, it was all or nothing. She was pretty positive she wouldn't be able to continue living if she had to chose the nothing.

~~Just wanted to get this scene out of my head. Let me know what you lovelies want next! Xoxo~~