James wasn't thinking straight. One moment he was on the floor dancing with an insanely cute guy. The next think he knew he was in the backyard. Crying. Why the holy hell am I crying. Me? The tears stained his cheeks.
"Hey Jamie. Who was that cute g- why are you crying? Whose ass am I kicking?" Carlos said as Logan came thumbing his tears away. He was like the mom of the group.
"It's Kendall. Wow my little Jamie found love" Logan said it more as a mom than a friend.
"How? I've known Kendall for what 1 day" James said
"Love at first sight still exists. It still exists. And don't give that 'I don't deserve love' bullshit. Apparently he thinks you're worth it. You are worth it" Logan said sounding way too much like my mom.
"What's happening to me mom" James said. Logan knew he was talking about him
"You've never felt love before by someone other than us and your mom. He genuinely cares about not only you but us to. That's why he's not judging us. He loves you and I see in his eyes he is trying so hard to fight it but he can't" Logan explain and Carlos just smiled at Logan seeing something he'd never seen before until now. What was it? He just couldn't put his finger on it. Logan took James in his arms for a hug. Logan then gazed up from James' shoulder and looked straight Carlos' eyes and he smiled a smile that Carlos had never seen before and he felt himself return it. Carlos cocked his head sideways.
"James you should probably go and see if Kendall is safe. Drunk driving is the number 2 cause in death of teens" He said
"What is Kendall doing to us? Logan sounds really smart, apparently I love him, and Carlos you're ready to kick someone's ass. Going all badass" James said as they walked into the house
"We'll hold the party down. You go get your man, James. Call me as soon as you can but not while you're driving" Logan said
"'Kay mom." James said fishing around for his key. He found them then got into his Audi. He pulled out of lot and went down the street trying to find Kendall's black Range Rover. He drove about half way away from the abandoned house and saw a black car parked on the side of the world. He turned his headlights on and saw Kendall leaning on his car looking at the Great Peedee River. James parked behind Kendall's car and got out.
"Hey" James said as he walked up to Kendall
"Oh no Virgin Mary or V-keeper or Madonna?" he asked really expected to be harassed and that brought back cruel memories. Kendall had sobered up pretty fast after taking off. He was trying to suppress the urge to cry but was failing miserably. James took notice to it quickly.
"Kendall, what's wrong?" James' voice thick with worry. Now he sees how Logan felt when he was crying. He didn't like it. Not one bit.
"Why do you care?" Kendall asked him finally letting the tears roll. James felt like crying. He didn't like to see Kendall hurting like this. Worst part is he didn't know what was wrong or how to stop it.
"Kendall, what's wrong" James asked sternly in a voice saying that he did care.
"J-James I-I c-cant. You wouldn't understand" Kendall sobbed desperately trying to stop the feelings that were blurring his vision along with the scalding tears. James turned to Kendall and hugged Kendall around his waist. Kendall stiffened and gave in to the embrace and wrapped his arms around James' neck. James could feel a feeling that only happens in the movie. That feeling of wanting to protect Kendall from everything that tried to hurt him. He wanted to be Kendall's Knight in shiny (A/N—Okay don't kill me but I never knew if it was Shining armor or Shiny armor. Help!) armor. He wanted to be Kendall's everything. His entire world. He had never felt this way about anyone like this.
"It's okay, Kendall. It's alright. Calm down and breathe. It's okay baby, It's alright" James said not knowing that slipped but really didn't care. As long as Kendall felt better. He continued to whisper sweet nothings in Kendall's ear. Then he kissed Kendall's hair as he felt Kendall pull away wiping his Emerald eyes.
"The reason I moved to Minnesota was because I got hazed a lot for being….. gay. It was nothing major: spilling food on me, tripping me, beating me up. Nothing I couldn't handle. At this time I was living with my aunt and my parents didn't know what was going on. But one day like 5 or 6 douche bags took it to. It was after hockey practice we were in the locker room changing to go home. I was in the shower and they cornered me and…" He began to trail off starting to cry again. James fists tightened and his jaw clenched as he knew what was about to come out of the blonde's mouth.
"They held me down and then one went in me saying 'slut, whore, dick sucking whore'. And when they were done they made me swear not to tell or they would kill me. I didn't but one of the guys who wasn't a complete neurotic gay basher called the cops. When mom and dad found out they made me move here." Kendall said as tears flooded down his face as he relived the painful memories. By this time James was silently crying. He turned to Kendall, who was about to walk ahead, and grabbed his wrist and whirled him around coming face to face with the puffy faced boy. He didn't care. He thought Kendall looked the most beautiful he had ever seen him.
"I shouldn't have told you that" Kendall said as he rushed to his car. And before James knew what was happening Kendall had sped away. It crossed his mind to follow him but he decided against it. Kendall needs some space. James thought
"At least we're not at square one. He trusted me enough to tell me that. We're going so place" James said aloud to himself.