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Chapter 4: Nothing Is Also Something
I woke up the next morning curled up against Derek's warm body. He was still fast a sleep and I closed my eyes again hoping to fall a sleep too.
Suddenly I heard a knock on the door, Derek stirred next to me. Slowly, I stepped out of bed, careful not to wake him.
I opened the door to see Izzie standing at the other side of it.
"Morning Mere" She said.
"Morning" I said with a slight smile on my face.
"I just wanted to say that George and I are heading to the hospital."
"Okay" I said frowning; I didn't quite understand why she had to wake me for that."
"She sighed. "And, uhm, Dr Bailey called" She hesitated. "She asked how you were. I told her she should call back. So she might do that this afternoon.
"Oh" I cleared my throat. "Okay" I started to close the door.
"And…"
"Oh, there's more" I muttered.
"I might, accidentally, have let something slip about Derek being here for the past couple of days and therefore not at the hospital."
"Izzie!" I hissed.
"I'm sorry, but I really do need to go to the hospital. You can punish me later"
"Oh, and I will. Don't worry, I will" I yelled after her.
"I sighed as I closed the door. I turned around and saw Derek looking at me.
"What's up?"
"Nothing, just Izzie" It was strange, actually. How we talked with each other. Like we have known each other for years.
I climbed back into bed. Snuggled against Derek and put my head on his chest.
"Derek?"
"Yes Mere"
"Don't you think this is a little weird, I mean us here… together in this… bed."
He chuckled. "It is a little weird." He looked at me. "But also really nice."
"Yes, it's just only that I've only met you properly, like… three days ago and already we are lying in this bed, together" I liked that I could be so open to him.
"Yeah, but I like it" He said smiling. "Besides it's not like something happened."
Now it was my turn to chuckle. "Yeah" I snuggled more against him and closed my eyes. "Nothing happened" I reassured myself.
"And as long as you want it, nothing will…"
We both fell a sleep again. Around noon I woke from the smell of pancakes. I walked downstairs and saw Derek cooking for me, again. But this time it were pancakes.
"You really like cooking don't you?" I said.
"No, I just like making you breakfast."
I smiled again.
"Here you go" I placed a plate with two blueberry pancakes in front of me.
"Thanks" I said attacking the food.
"So, what do you want to do today?"
"Not sure, you?"
"Whatever you want, I'm here for you" He placed one hand over mine.
A little smile crept over my face. "I think we need to do some grocery shopping, I think we are now eating everything that was left in this house."
"Sure, we can do that"
We ate the rest of our breakfast in silence. After that, Derek needed to go back to his place to get some clean clothes. I went to Izzie's room to get a spare key, in case I would be in the shower. She always kept that kind of stuff, because I would only lose it.
As I walked to her bedroom, I passed the room that used to be my daughter's. I looked at the door, to the wooden letters on the door that formed her name. After a few minutes I pushed the door open a little, looking at everything in her room. I hadn't been in there since Katie passed away and all the emotions returned. I closed the door again and leaned on it, slowly falling to the floor. I began sobbing and soon the tears started to fall.
After a few minutes I heard Derek calling my name. I heard his footsteps on the stairs and I heard him gasp as he saw me leaning against the door, drowning in my own tears.
"Meredith" He gasped.
I began to sob louder. He hurried to me, taking me in his arms and rocking me back and forward, just as George had done on the funeral.
I calmed down quickly in his arms. But then I began gasping for air.
"Slow down, slow down" he kept repeating.
I caught my breath again and lay my head on his shoulder. We stayed seated there for a while until he pulled me up to my feet. "Come, you should take a shower."
"Thanks" I said again.
"No need" He smiled.
I walked to the bathroom and Derek went to his house to grab some stuff.
I peeled my clothes off and stepped into the shower. The hot water felt soft on my body. Soon, the entire bathroom smelled like lavender…
When I came down the stairs after I changed, Derek was already standing downstairs. "I just took your key." He explained.
"Okay" I said.
"Now, let's go" He offered his hand and I took it. He squeezed it a little bit and I knew it was him saying that it would be fine.
As I walked out of the door with him, I realised it would be okay. Someday, it would…
So… An emotional chapter… But well, life is emotional. Review!